Muffin late spring 97- september 14 97
Clumbsy paws batting at hay jumping, swiping hideing away a little
kitten or black, orange and white
emerges out into clear sight I want to cuddle her pick her up call her
mine and give her hugs she runs
from me because she can't see but when I catch her I'm rewarded by a
quiet purr I know you still
live on your love will never end goodbye for now dear Muffin I know
we'll meet again
I will miss you Muffin, from the day I first saw you at only four days
old and saw your tiny tortishell
body, till the day of your tragic death at only 3 months. I remember
holding you in my arms, how
you'd squirm at first, when you were old enough to. How you hid in the
hay once bopping other
kittens before you became a scardy cat. I think it was all the chasing
by small children. You were
partially blind from a very bad eye infection, probally due to a little
kid "Helping you open your
eyes" You were a neat colored cat. A black spot between the chest and
tummy, white paws and
mostly tortishell. You had beautiful aqua eyes. One thing that you had
that I bet no other cat had
was seven toes and 8 claws! Sounds impossible. But you had two claws on
one toe, giving it the
look of lobster pinchers. You could, however see well enough to chase a
string but you were much
slower than the other kittens, your big clumbsy paws cautiously batting
at the string. You play with
the strings on God's harp now little girl. I remember sneaking wet
catfood down to you as a treat
and how you purred. I remember playing with you seperately than the other
kittens so you'd get a
chance to play without being pushed away. I wanted so bad to take you
home but it wouldn't be fair
to my ageing grandma who already had to put up with 4 animals! I'm not
going to describe your
death much because I don't want to remember it. You were poisoned by
oil. I spent almost half an
hour trying to get you to breath again. You probally spilled it on
yourself, by mistake, not seeing it,
being partially blind and all that. When I was holding your lifeless
body a song came on the radio.
"A whole new world." My thoughts drifted beyond your dead shell and to
your soul happily playing
in a whole new world, happier than you ever were. No blindness, no pain.
I know you have a home
with my great grandmother, Nanny Osborn . I never knew Nanny Osborn but
I know she dearly
missed Buttens her cat she left behind on earth. You looked like her cat
too. I wanted Muffin to
have a real home. When I was outside, just a few nights ago I felt a purr
for just one second and
suddenly pictured you I knew you were in heaven and sitting on a cloud,
your HUGE paws slightly
overlapping looking down at me and watching over me now, just as I
protected you on earth.
This is what Muffin was probably saying.
You've taken care of me you've loved me
You've done all you can
Now it's
my turn to watch over
you
Now it's my turn
To make sure you're not sad
Now it's my turn
To know
you're safe.
You
protected me well
Now it's my turn to
Protect you.