Feelings
It is so important to think and feel. It shows
that your mind and heart are real. Foolish at times, to
others I may seem, but my feelings are real and a part of
me.
The following poems were written by me and came
straight from the heart!
The following poems are copywrited and any further use of
them are forbidden without my permission.
Eileen Breedlove
Our Father
I woke from a dream as tears fell softly
from my eyes.
Our flag was flying high, full of peace
and pride.
Brother loved brother in a way that they
should.
Country helped country in a way they never
would.
Our Father looked peacefully over His
earth.
I'm sure He felt a strong sence of worth.
To
see all mankind finally coming together,
I'm sure He had
waited what seemed like forever.
Never again would a
child be hungry
someone always shared.
No man again
would be desperately lonely,
Everyone showed they
cared.
Suicide, murder, abuse and war were all
just
things of the past.
We always put others first
and never
noticed if we were last.
Our Father looked peacefully
over
His earth.
I'm sure He felt a strong sence of
worth.
To see all mankind finally coming together
I'm
sure He had waited what seemed like forever.
Eileen Breedlove
(C) courage to take control of my life
from this moment
on
(O) overcoming what seems, at
the
time, to have no answers
(U) understanding not, but
accepting and moving on
(R) realizing my self-worth, if
only in the eyes of myself and God.
(A) always finding
positive when negative is all around me.
(G) God says
"Just Ask" so I will ask and except his helping
hand.
(E) either path I choose to take is better than no
path at
all.
(T) to look at everything in a more
positive way.
(O) options I will find, become greater
every day.
(L) love myself as God does, for who we
know I am
(I) interpeace will fix it all and soon I will
stand tall.
(V) victory over defeat will be my
attitude,
(E) ending my life will never be an option for
me again.
Eileen Breedlove
I wrote this poem for my Grandmother
shortly before she
passed away.
She never saw it.
Our World War
Generation
Lord send a special Angel to our World
War generation.
Deserving of so much more than today's
situations.
The pressure of a light bill or maybe just a
phone.
Possibly a mortgage on the place that they call
home.
Watching their friends slowly fading away,
knowing their life will end any day.
To lose a daughter
or a son.
Families divided, not standing as
one.
United we stand, divided we fall.
Some have
nothing and some have it all.
So many things that seem
unfair.
Not enough people to show they care.
Take the
worry of survival from there tired minds.
Make their
golden years a special time.
Lord send a special Angel
to our World War generation.
Deserving of so much more
than todays situations.
Eileen Breedlove
All The Way
Guide me, dear Lord, in the way that I must go.
What you expect from me, make clear so I will know.
I must feel in my heart that we are on the same track.
If I try to go it alone, I'll only fall further back.
At times, in my direction I feel weak and somewhat
lost.
Alone, my sight is unclear and my mind feels so tossed.
Help me to feel your spirit stronger every day.
Please strengthen my faith, dear Lord, for together we'll
go all the way.
Eileen Breedlove
Faith, Hope and Charity
If I could be what I want to be
there's three simple things that others would see.
I know it is simple, they say it is so.
To hold tight to God and never let go.
The faith to believe things out of my sight.
To not feel defeated when my eyes close at night.
The hope in my soul that others will see.
I'm the best I can be. I'm only me.
The charity in my heart to always care.
When someone's in need, let me be there.
Just think of the feelings we'de all have to give
If by faith, hope and charity we all did live!
Eileen Breedlove
Walk Me Through
I saw you Lord the other day.
You were sitting on your
throne.
I called out for you to take my hand.
You said it wasn't
time to come home.
You have a purpose for me in this life.
What that is, I do
not
know.
There's a restless, uneasy feeling
down deep inside my
soul.
I've tried to plan my life,
not realizing it's all up to
you.
Help me Lord to hand it all over
and let you walk me
through.
Eileen Breedlove
The Devil
The devil is here and there will be a fight.
He will hide in the day and prowel through the night.
Knowing weak spots he'll hit, and then he'll slide
in.
Filling your life with destruction and sin.
He'll bury himself deep within your heart.
He will tarry and pull until your life falls apart.
Not knowing what hit, you won't understand why.
He's not brave enough to look you in the eye.
But listen very closely to what I have to say.
The Lord has offered us a much better way.
Peace and understanding comes from above.
Everlasting life is the gift of His love!
Eileen Breedlove
Constant Reminder
I ask myself why do I doubt
His presence everyday.
He's all around me, no matter what,
in His own special way.
He painted me a picture
as I stared across the horizon.
The most beautiful thing I've ever seen,
The sun was slowly rising.
I watched the clouds
as they slowy moved in.
They were dark and strong,
reminding me of sin.
All of a sudden they opened up
and it began to rain.
I wondered if the heavens were crying
tears of anguish and pain.
Sounds of thunder were all I could hear
with lighting fiercely striking.
I felt, at that moment, the heavens
must be in constant fighting.
Was it a powerful cry
sent from God above?
Was He seeking my attention
for my faith and my love?
How God must feel
I thought right then.
To not be acknowledged
by His finest creation.
A peaceful warmth took over me,
deep inside my soul.
For across the heavens came a promise,
He painted me a rainbow.
I was walking along the beach.
A sanddollar laid in the
sand.
I picked it up,
to check it out,
and placed it in my hand.
I looked at it in awesome wonder.
How caring our Lord must be.
To give me a constant reminder
He's always there with me.
Eileen Breedlove
His Painting
There's going to be a medior shower.
It will be in the sky tonight.
I've never even seen one,
but I think it will be a sight.
I think it will look like a sparkler,
so bright on the fourth of July.
The only big difference there will be,
it's God's painting for you and I.
People study and work so hard.
They think it's all figured out.
When it comes right down to the bottom line,
God knows what it's all about.
I always like to stand and look
far up into the sky.
It always gives me that special feeling
I'm looking God in the eye.
Eileen Breedlove
A Place
There's a place deep down inside of me.
No man on earth can touch you see.
It is protected by the Heavens above.
It's God's place of healing, hope and love.
My heart will heal with time you see.
My body is simply the outside of me.
You will answer to God for what you have done.
He handles all things with us, one on one.
As for myself, I choose to stand tall.
I'm thankful for my life, bad things and all.
It has made me who I am today.
Some things no man can take away.
There's a place deep down inside of me.
No man on earth could ever see.
Sticks and stones my bones could break.
My soul is God's for no man to take.
Eileen Breedlove
There's a Candle
In the darkness there's candle
that's sometimes hard to see.
When life was more than I could handle
God showed that light to me.
I was drawn to the flickering flame
to see why He took me there.
I saw a place, in my name,
and knew one day I'd be there.
A peaceful place, no tears or pain.
Sunshine glowed on everyone's face.
No more feelings of suffering or shame.
Everyone there had saving grace.
Only one sign of sorrow
could be seen anywhere around.
The angels were checking off names on the list
and some could not be found.
Eileen Breedlove
The next few poems were written during a very hard time in
my life. I have always been a Christian, but there have
been times I slid so far back that I did not acknowledge
the presence of God in my life. I am thankful He always
gives me a wake up call and never gives up on me. God's
not through with me yet and I am thankful!
I Need Time
On occasion I feel it's time to go.
Restless it seems is my heart and soul.
Many things go through my mind.
Have I been all I could in my life and time?
Have I done what I should for the Lord to see?
Is there a place in Heaven waiting for me?
It appears many things are unfinished yet.
I need time to say that I've done my best.
I'll except what I can't change and change what I can.
I'll need you Lord to hold my hand.
I am a sinner, so weak can't you see.
For awhile, you will have to carry me.
There's is no pain in change, only accepting it.
Most things in my world will no longer fit.
Help me to be strong as I struggle along.
With you by my side how could I go wrong....
Eileen Breedlove
My Soul
A lot is on my mind I dont know how to say.
I knew the Lord once and let him slip away.
He held me up and kept me strong.
Then I blamed Him when things went wrong.
A foolish human being I have been.
I haven't felt right since, I can't remember when.
I am a fool it's plain to see.
Is it to late for Him to spend time with me?
I feel when I pray, He doesn't hear.
The devil I know is very near.
Can't get out, in a trap I am caught.
My soul is a mess, worse than I thought.
Help me Lord out of this hole.
Take over my soul and make me whole.
For what I've done, I'm ashamed can't you see.
Like I did you Lord, don't turn your back on me.
Just pick me up, out of this fight.
Help me to see your guiding light.
Just hold me close and never let go.
I'm afraid for the destiny of my soul.
Eileen Breedlove
Help Me
Lord help me to live as I know I should.
Let me be all that you know I could.
Change my life to be more than I am.
Make sure I can feel the touch of your hand.
Show me the direction you want me to go.
Please make it clear so that I will know.
Eileen Breedlove
Forgive Me
Father forgive me for what I've done.
My soul is weak, no longer can I run.
I need your love deep in my heart.
To many years we've been apart.
The devil is here and I'm to tired to fight.
Please pick me up and hold me tight.
Strength I need, to fight all things wrong.
Subjecting myself for far to long.
Forgive my sins of yesterday.
Protect my rebirth everyday.
I'm a sinner, weak, Lord cant you see?
For awhile you'll have to carry me.
Eileen Breedlove
Really There
Years gone by, I let Him go.
Now my heart needs Him so.
I cry for help but will He hear?
I'm sorry I didnt keep him near.
Will He forgive me for what I've done?
No one can help, but only one.
As a river runs my soul bleeds.
Nothing on earth can fill my needs.
Can't go on, I'm tired and weak.
Can't get out, I'm in to deep.
Take your arms and hold me tight.
Against the devil, help me fight.
For life no longer do I care.
Show me Lord, you're really there.
Eileen Breedlove
My Captain
Like a ship that's lost,
Far out at sea.
No direction do I find,
No hope do I see.
My destiny is uncertain,
My faith is low.
This storm that I face,
is out of control.
Waves crashing high,
The wind is against me.
I'm to weak to fight
this fierce agony.
I can't face what lies ahead,
for another day.
No sign of a lighthouse
to guide my way.
To face this without you
my options are few.
Be the captain of my ship.
Lord, I submit to you.
Eileen Breedlove
Family Bible
I have a family Bible,
just as beautiful as it can be.
It even has a leather cover
and means the world to me.
It has the giant letters.
It's so easy to read.
I sent it to my Grandma
because she could hardly see.
Places are marked all through it
she wanted me to read.
It brought her years of pleasure
then she sent it back to me.
I placed it carefully on a shelf.
My Bible is in a safe place.
I dusted it off just today
and had to hide my face.
The last time I picked it up,
I really cannot recall.
I haven't even read about
How Jesus saved us all.
Eileen Breedlove
Desperately Searching
There's things I've done in my lifetime,
I wish that I could change.
I'm weighted down with burdens,
And dragging heavy chains.
To find some peace within my soul,
is something I cannot see.
Forgiving myself is the hardest part,
About just being me.
My mind feels like a twister,
It keeps going around and round.
It makes me feel like giving up,
I cannot slow it down.
It's hard to carry this life I bear.
I need to know that you are there.
Break these chains that bond my heart.
Lord set me free, for a brand new start.
Eileen Breedlove
Last Breath
Hiding in my room
not making a sound.
If I stay real still
I might not be found.
In this clauset dark
I'm facing all my fears.
The only warmth I can feel
is the stream of my tears.
He just got home
and he's mad again.
Nothing will stop him.
He'll fight to the end.
My heart is beating
at a rapid pace.
I pick up a pillow
to hide my face.
Footsteps I hear
coming down the hall.
He's constantly pounding
and beating the wall.
Trembeling with fear
my body is shaking.
Trying to be still
no chance am I taking.
The death of silence
is all I can hear.
Everything got quiet
He must know I'm here.
Suddenly he's smoothering me
and wont let me go.
As I took my last breath
the Lord took my soul.
The pillow I chose
to hide my face.
Was the answer to my prayer.
I'm in a new place.
Eileen Breedlove
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