Sexual Abuse

A Violation Of Humanity

Everytime I read or hear something on sexual abuse feelings pass through my heart like a sharp edge knife. There are many forms of sexual abuse. Sexual abuse to a child, spouse, siblings and elderly people. There is date rape along with many others. It takes place among strangers, acquaintences, friends and family. It happens in homes, schools and within churches. Places of employment, night clubs and in the streets. This crime has no bearing on age, race, religion, social status or upbringing. It is a violation of humanity in every aspect. Sexual abuse is an act no human being has the right to do to another. It is unexcuseable and in no form acceptable. It is physical and mental rape. I believe in my heart anyone guilty of such an act towards another persons body and soul will pay dearly the day they must face our Lord for judgemet. I cannot help but wonder if a person guilty of doing such a thing ever looks back and feels ashamed of what they did. Do they think about it thirty years down the road? I wonder if their conscience ever gets the best of them. Do they ever wish they could say they are sorry? When they close their eyes to go to sleep at night do they have flashbacks or nightmares? I wonder if they can still see the face of their victim. Faces of fear, tears, anxiety, horror, disgust or innocence. I truely wonder about that. On the flip side of the coin, I do not have to wonder. I know first hand what it feels like to be raped. You feel shameful, dirty, confused, afraid, worthless, violated and stupid. You feel raped. Victims still think about it thirty years down the road. It never leaves them. I have often wanted to look into the eyes of a sexual abuser and ask them why. Did either one of the two men that abused me happen to notice my big blue eyes or the tears streaming down my face? Because of a car accident, I had only been out of a wheelchair a few months before the two of them raped me. Can they still hear my cries from the pain I felt throughout my entire body? In the still of the night when all is quiet, do they hear a young and frightened voice pleading and begging for them to stop? There are a lot of things that I wonder and it has been twenty-eight years. By now, the two of them are very old men. Possible they have already met their maker. I sincerey hope they found our Lord and asked forgiveness for their sins. If not, they are in serious trouble. I do not have to worry about asking them any questions because if they haven't already answered to God for their actions, that day will come. If you have ever abused someone or at this time are a sexual abuser it is my suggestion that you go to the Lord in prayer before it is to late. If you are a victum of sexual abuse believe that God will take your feelings of worthlessness and shame away if you ask. He will wash you clean again. I believe that God handles all situations among people. He takes care of everyone and everything in his own way and in his own time. Seek and ask for help handling your emotions. There are people that care. You are special in God's eyes.

Eileen



"We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face...We must do that which we think we cannot."
Eleanor Roosevelt



The following was written by a 15 year old girl and I want to share it with you. Is there something going on in your childs life you know nothing about to cause their tears?


Lying here
On this filthy chair,
Crying here
Want someone to care.
Raw rubbed eyes
No broken vein,
My tearless cries
For dark red rain.
Lost in my mind
I got away
So sly and unkind
He didn't pay.
Wrap me in love
So my thoughts can run free
Then open your eyes
It happened. To me.

I could never show to my parents but its what i really wanted then. i wanted them to understand how much the memories a helpless child with a naked stranger abusing her could hurt.



WHAT KIND OF PERSON WOULD DO THIS TO A CHILD?



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