I want to dedicate this page to my mom and moms all over the world who've been special to their kids like mine!
All our lives we meet people who are special and a blessing to us and we fail to tell them how we feel. It seems some of the nicest things said about people are said when they can't even be in our presence to know how we truly felt.....
She was my very first, best friend. Whether we always agreed or not didn't matter because my respect for her never faded. When I was little the house was always spotless. I think the phrase "you could eat off the floor" came from someone who knew her. To this day, the smell of pledge brings back memories of our big house.
I knew when I hurt, she hurt with me. I remember many times she cried with my pain. Mostly it was when she couldn't instantly fix something for me and make everything all better.
My favorite game......."I see something..." also known as "I spy something" We played most in the kitchen as she cooked and did the dishes.
I'm sure she felt she fell short of the perfect role model many times but to me she always shined far above others. My friends came to her when they needed a mother to listen and they couldn't find the understanding in their own.
Always full of doubts but always doing the best she could. I used to get embarassed at the clothes she wore, wondering why she never picked out nice things at the store and instead chose to wear hand-me-downs and other tired clothes. I didn't understand then that all that mattered to her was that my brother, sister and I were clothed.
Prayer every night without fail.....Now I lay me down to sleep, pray the Lord my soul to keep, if I should die before I wake, pray the Lord my soul to take.....Angel of God, my guardian dear, for whom God's love commits me here. Ever this night be at my side to light to guard to rule to guide Amen....these stay with me like a tattoo stamped upon my heart.
I know we can't truly understand the infinite wisdom and love the woman who raises and cares for us has inside her. But stepping into those shoes somehow can make me feel like a child again. Can I ever live up to the example that's been put before me? One thing's for sure, if she questioned herself the same way in the past, I can tell her to rest assured.....she did!