Greetings and Halo,
My name is Dawn, but you may call me Masochistica or Angel.
I always find this to be the worst part...describing myself. But I shall try my utmost best.
I was born on Sept. 4, 1979. A lot of people seem to think I am a bit younger. I've been told many times that it's impossible for me to be a day over 16...LMAO. Although, one time I was told that when you look at my eyes you can tell how old I am. *shrug* Old soul or old eyes? (In twenty years, age better not surpass me. But knowing my luck, I'll be 40 and look 60.) Depending on what you want to know, physically you can see me on my pics page. However, in case you are too lazy or something, I am 5 foot 2 with dark brown hair, some unusual color in my bangs, such as the current burgandy-pinkish color, and deep dark brown eyes. I have little patience, am short tempered, and very opinionated. I also have a tendency to giggle a lot. I can get mad easily, but I normally hold it in until it gets on my last nerve, which is when I blow. I often find myself in heated "debates" with people because our opinions clash (and of course mine is always right *devilish grin*). I am much more of a logistic person, rather than artistic. In the summer, when I am not in class, I tend to stay up very late and sleep in, but lately, work has kept me from doing so.
I'm a student at Michigan State University where I am working on my master's in Clinical Social Work. I recieved my bachelor's in Clinical Psychology with a minor in Sociology. After I am done at MSU, I am planning on going on to earn my Ph.D. in psychology. I still don't know what area I want to go into but I am currently considering research/grant writing, inpatient, and testing.
The best person in my life is my divinely wonderful fiance, Matthew. He's the absolute best thing in my life and I don't know what I would do without him; although a good guess would be that I would be on my way to an unhappy marriage, plagued by everyday fighting and yelling (so thank God I found Matt and left that relationship.) Matt is my best friend, my fantasy come true, my entire universe. In late November of 2000, my life once again had meaning, other than going to college to support myself. Every tear that I shed is caught by his loving shoulder, every sigh comforted by his warm hugs. Without my Matthew, I feel incomplete.
My biggest obsession would have to be candles. I can't remember exactly what sparked my interest, but for my senior pictures I went out and bought over $200 worth of candles and candle holders. I have a dresser full, some scattered in empty spots within my room, and quite a few more within my closet and throughout the house.
I also love roses, alive or dried, velvet, and the colors black, burgundy, and dark purple. Almost anything I find in these colors is bound to be bought, providing it is something I like. I'm also obsessed with piercings. I had my eyebrow done back in '98, which migrated (meaning it fell out,) had it done again, and had the same occurence. I had my tongue pierced on Nov. 28, 2000 and have been contemplating getting my labret done, and a tattoo of angel wings on my back.
Now for the naughty likes....I have a fetish for gothic men, but in a more general sense, guys with straight black hair, preferably shoulder length or longer. To be honest, it's what first caught my attention with Matt. He was wearing all black, along with a black trenchcoat, and at the time, he had black hair. My heart instantly fell and I knew I had to one day have one. Little did I know that two and a half years later, it would really happen. =) Anyhow, as Matt recently learned, I am also into S&M. I would definitely have to say though that I am more of the masochistic type. Although I don't like to be totally dominated 100% of the time, I am more of the submissive type.
Anything challenging (like doing webpages) keeps me entertained. Reading is a big part of my life. I've always read before I go to sleep for as long as I can remember. Anne Rice's books, non-fictional books about Multiple Personality Disorder, abuse victims, self-mutilation, etc. compose most of my collection. Horror movies are another favorite, but I have yet to find one that scares me.
Driving down the road with the radio blaring and fireflies flickering by is an absolute beautiful sight that gives me a release from realtiy, as well as spinning in the pitch black night watching the stars above all twirl. Meteor showers captivate me, as well as the simple things in life, such as lying in the grass gazing up at the clouds, making silly pictures with the forms.
I absolutely have no tolerance for Insane Clown Posse...I hate even having their name on my page, or anything trendy. Anti-goths are another big high blood pressure area. Or just people in general that claim goths are killers, satanists, etc. I don't consider myself to be any of those things, and I hate that people are that ignorant. Why it is that I can be called a satan worshipper only on the grounds that I wear all black and I have colored hair, I will never understand. I am sure the satanists love that though. It's because of people like that that I have become a misanthropist. But don't misunderstand that. I can be a very amiable person and get along with just about anyone. I have a tendency to be able to tell if I am going to get along with someonewhen I meet them in person, and being as we are on here, your chances are pretty high.
I find it funny for some reason when people that have e-mail addresses that are basically just their name...it cracks me up when they have just have their last name and first initial or their name and some numbers, like they can't be creative enough to make up something. LMAO.
I absolutely hate things like: toast crumbs in the butter dish, jelly in the peanut butter jar, and crumbs all over the counter. And it never fails that when I wash my hands, I find the crumbs. Getting my hands dirty drives me insane. The worst thing in the world though is the noise my alarm clock makes. It makes me cringe every time I hear it. Bad drivers...ugh! Such as the teenagers that drive with the seat all the way reclined and are leaning into the middle. I was driving down the road and passed a guy driving like that and I could barely see his eyes peeking through the hole between the top of the steering wheel and the dash, and it crossed my mind, "Can he even see where the hell he is going??" Obvious grammar and spelling errors, and a ton of other things can also be added to this list, but I'd rather move on.
Being buried alive is my worst fear in this world. I don't know how it ever came about, but that is the one thing that I could almost consider a phobia, but not quite. Waking up one day to discover I am the only one left on the planet is another biggie. For some reason, I had this fear when I was younger and was afraid to go to sleep. Now it's the thought that when I die I'll still be able to think and comprehend...I'd hate to lie there for all eternity thinking and screaming but no one can hear me.
Musical interest can be as specific as: Garbage; Stabbing Westward; The Cure; Nosferatu; Nine Inch Nails; Switchblade Symphony; Rammstein; Crossbreed; VAST; Delerium; VNV Nation; and Faith and the Muse...I can't think of any more at the moment. Basically anything gothic, trance, jungle, ambient, electronic, techno, industrial, and some alternative.
Movies that I can watch over and over again without getting bored include The Craft, (which was a bad representation, but was still an excellent movie,) Night Of The Living Dead, (which scared me once when I was a teenager,) My Best Friend's Wedding (which reminds me of what will probably happen to me with Aaron,) Gas Food Lodging, Austin Powers 1-3, American Beauty, Mansfield Park, Notting Hill, Exorcist, Tommy Boy, Hackers, Dangerous Beauty, Bram Stoker's Dracula, Dark Prince, and, although not a movie, the Powerpuff Girls!! I love the PpG. LOL.
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