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THIS PAGE IS ABOUT ME AND MY SEARCH FOR THE TRUTH, IF THAT TERM CAN BE USED. AT THIS POINT IN MY LIFE I CLAIM NO ESTABLISHED RELIGION AS MINE, SINCE I HAVE NOT COME TO THE END OF MY JOURNEY, AND PROBABLY WONT IN THIS LIFE TIME. I WAS RAISED IN THE CATHOLIC FAITH AND WHEN MY TEENAGE YEARS ARRIVED, I WAS SORELY DISAPPOINTED BY THE DOCTRINE THEREOF. BUT I WAS NOT YET READY TO BREAK OUT AND BE FREE OF THE CONVENTIONAL RULES. LATER ON I TRIED THE JEHOVA WITNESSES, AND AGAIN AFTER ABOUT 8 YEARS OR SO, I WAS DISAPPOINTED AGAIN. PLEASE, DON'T MISUNDERSTAND ME, I CAN AND WILL NOT BAD MOUTH EITHER, BUT FOR ME, THEY WERE NOT WHAT I WAS SEARCHING FOR IN REGARDS TO SPIRITUAL SATISFACTION. BEING A ATHEIST WAS NOT AN OPTION EITHER, REGARDLESS OF THE BAD THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPEND TO ME IN THE COURSE OF MY LIFE, I DID FEEL THE POWER OF CREATION WHEN EVER I WAS OUT ABOUT IN NATURE. I HAVE ALWAYS FELT THAT POWER, FROM EARLY CHILDHOOD ON, BUT SADLY IT WAS NOT SOMETHING THAT COULD BE SHARED OPENLY. ALL MY LIFE, I HAVE BELIEVED IN MAGICK, FAIRIES, DRAGONS AND SUCH THINGS, BUT AS I GREW UP, THESE THINGS TOOK A BACKSEAT TO REALITY. THE BIGGEST CHANGE, SPIRITUALLY, CAME FOR ME IN 1997, WHEN WITH THE HELP OF TWO DEAR LADIES IN MY LIFE, I FINALLY OPENED MYSELF TO LEARNING MORE AND TO MAKING A COMMITMENT TO TRAVEL THE PATH TO ENLIGHTENMENT. IT IS NOT EASY AND I DON'T THINK THAT IT EVER WILL BE, BUT SINCE THEN I HAVE FELT FREER THAN EVER BEFORE IN MY LIFE. I HAVE READ MANY BOOKS AND LISTEN TO MANY TAPES ON THE SUBJECT OF TRUE SPIRITUALLITY, RANGING FROM CHRISTIANITY TO WITCHCRAFT, SHAMANISM, HINDU, MUSLIM, JEWISH, PAGAN BELIEFS AND MUCH MORE. THE STAGE THAT I AM AT IS THAT I AM A SPIRITUAL BEING, THAT THE POWER IS WITHIN ME AND THAT I HAVE THE POWER TO MAKE THE CHANGES THAT I DESIRE IN MY LIFE. THIS POWER IS ALL ABOUT BEING POSITIVE IN THOUGHT AND DEED. AS IT IS, THIS WORLD AND THE SURROUNDING UNIVERSE ARE OUT OF BALANCE AND IT IS UP TO US TO MAKE IT RIGHT. I USE ALL KINDS OF TOOLS, IF YOU WILL, TO HELP ME CONTINUE MY LEARNING. TAROT, DRUID TEACHINGS, RUNES, CRYSTALS, DREAMS, MEDITATION ARE ALL USED IN THE PRACTISE OF MY BELIEFS. I RELY ON ANGELS AND SPIRIT GUIDES TO TEACH AND GUIDE ME ALONG THE WAY OF THIS DISCOVERY. WHAT I HAVE FOUND SO FAR IS THAT WE ALL HAVE THE POWER TO CREATE MIRACLES AND TO DO MAGICK AS LONG AS WE RESPECT THE UNIVERSAL LAW OF FREE WILL TO ALL AND HARM TO NONE. I HONESTLY BELIEVE THAT TRAVELLING THIS ROAD HAS HELPED ME TO UNDERSTAND MYSELF BETTER AND TO MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON. I HAVE BEEN ABLE TO LET GO OF A LOT OF ANGER AND PAIN AS WELL AS NEGATIVE THOUGHT PATTERNS THAT WERE HOLDING ME BACK FROM EXPERIENCING TRUE INNER HAPPINESS. AS TO GIVING MY BELIEFS A NAME, I REALLY CANNOT, FOR THEY ARE UNIQUELY MINE, SO I CALL MYSELF A ECLECTIC WITCH, SINCE MY BELIEFS ENCOMPASS MANY ASPECTS OF MANY BELIEFS. I GUESS YOU CAN CALL IT A "HEINZ 57" RELIGION - A LITTLE BIT OF THIS AND SOME OF THAT, BUT ALL OF IT GOOD AND WITH HARM TO NONE. SOME OF THE AUTHORS THAT HAVE HELPED ME ALONG THIS WAY ARE - AND THEY HAVE MY RESPECT AND GRATITUDE FOR THIS -: SILVER RAVEN WOLF,SCOTT CUNNINGHAM, TED ANDREWS, WAYNE DYER, MARIANNE WILLIAMSON, MELODY BEATTY, DEEPAK CHOPRA, LINDA GOODMAN, PARAMAHANSA YOGANANDA, D. J. CONWAY, JOAN WESTER ANDERSON AND MANY OTHERS THAT I CANNOT LIST HERE DUE TO LIMITED SPACE. AS FOR MEDITATION, I HAVE FOUND THAT NATIVE RHYTHEMS ARE JUST WONDERFUL IN GETTING THE BRAIN INTO THE MOOD. GOOD ONES ARE NATIVE AMERICAN SOUNDS LIKE "WINDWALKER" BY ELAN MICHAELS AND CELTIC SONGS. THAT KIND OF MUSIC IS VERY SOOTHING AND ALSO AT THE SAME TIME STIMULATING, HELPING YOU LET YOUR MIND GO FREE. I CAN UNDERSTAND HOW PEOPLE MIGHT THINK THAT I AM WEIRD OR FUNNY, BUT THAT DOESN'T CONCERN ME ANY MORE, FOR I HAVE FOUND THE PEACE THAT I WAS ALWAYS LOOKING FOR - INNER PEACE -. REGARDLESS OF THE CIRCUMSTANCES THAT AT ANY TIME SURROUND MY LIFE, I AM AT PEACE WITH MYSELF. I HAVE STOPPED OBSESSING ABOUT THINGS, DRIVING MYSELF TO THE POINT OF ILLNESS BECAUSE OF WORRIES AND LETTING THE REALITY OF LIFE SCARE ME. I HAVE STOPPED BEING AFRAID OF DEATH AND THE EVER PREVELANT BELIEFS OF HELL - THAT USED TO SCARE ME SO BAD IT ALMOST MADE ME SICK. I HAVE LEARNED TO TRULY FORGIVE OTHERS AND MOST IMPORTANT TO FORGIVE MYSELF. I AM NOW MORE IN TUNE WITH MYSELF AND THE WORLD THAT I STAND ON AS WELL AS THE UNIVERSE AROUND ME. I AM HAPPY AND FULFILLED BY MY ONGOING JOURNEY OF SPIRITUAL EXPLORATION. I GIVE MY THANKS AND GRATITUDE TO ALL THOSE THAT HAVE HELPED ME ALONG THE WAY AND CONTINUE TO DO SO AND FOR THE GOOD THINGS IN MY LIFE - THE BLESSINGS - AS WELL AS THE BAD THINGS - THE LESSONS - FOR THEY HELPED TO MAKE ME THE PERSON THAT I AM.I HAVE A EMAIL GROUP OPEN THAT IS FOR ALL TO POST ON AND WE WOULD LOVE TO HAVE YOU JOIN US IN OUR SHARING AND LEARNING: RISING FAWN'S KAFFEEKLATSCH: Post message: Subscribe: List owner: URL to this page: |
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