mystory

My experience of online love and an LDR....

I met him by accident online at MTV.com in May, 2000, and we embarked upon a long distance relationship that spanned 4000miles and 15months. It is hard to describe how it all happened, it was sudden, and out of the blue, but it felt right, and we decided to give it a try, we felt we had so much to work with and a lot of friendship and love, so although we were both initially dubious of whether it would all work out, we decided what the hell :) life is too short to be too scared to try! Neither of us were looking to meet someone, but thats just how life creeps up on you :)!

Those who haven't experienced an online relationship may not understand how they can happen, or question whether they are "true", all i can say is that it does happen, and its becoming increasingly more common. It just taskes a lot more effort, and time to develop etc.
We tried to make the most of what we had and i feel it makes you appreciate everything even more! You just have to take each day at a time!

This year we were fortunate enough to be able to visit each other; he visited me in February, and then i stayed with him for 5 weeks through June and July. Both trips were amazing and unforgettable, i had never even been to the States before!
Life is never easy when you have to be apart from someone you love, but I tried very hard, letters, parcels, cards, many ways of trying to keeps things new and sweet.

Unfortunatly, things got very difficult, it was so hard to say goodbye at the airport for a second time, and as life changes around you, you miss being able to be together with that person. The distance eventually became too hard to battle with any longer, and once the ball of depression and being distant starts rolling, it can be very difficult to keep pulling yourself back. He found it especially hard, and the worse he felt, the worse i felt... he decided he couldnt take it anymore, and we broke up. This was very difficult for me to accept, and you go through many many mixed emotions and feelings.... but i try to think positively, you can't predict the future, whatever will be will be, you just have to survive and stay strong, it can be hard very hard, but you owe it to yourself.
I believe if it IS true love, then it will work out and will last. Unfortunatly, we just werent compatible totally for one another, things seemed to split fast and at the end of the day it was more the people involved more than the distance that meant things didnt work out.

But to those who ask me now, do i have any regrets, if I could go back would i not bother? I say, i have no regrets, i had a wonderful relationship for a time, and i know i tried my best, and had a great time, made truly good friends, and learned and experienced so much.... i would go back and do it all again. Yes, the pain is hard, the memories can burn sometimes, but i just have to think positively, and remember the good times, because they will help me, and forget the bad times, because they are over and in the past.

I still believe that ldr's and online love really can work out, and that although it depends on the circumstances, the people, destiny etc, that those who are in these relationships do have hope and a chance of it lasting forever, and i say, dont give up, fight until the end, because even if it sadly doesnt work out, knwoing you tried your best and gave it your all, really is a comfort.

Thankyou to all my friends, especially those at lovingyou.com, and Jennie and Ben :), and Rose for the kind words and thoughts, you've really helped me. And good luck to you all!