December 7th... What Now?

Hello, dear Visitor.  So you've come to see what things are like now?  In the aftermath?  I am doing much better.  I have been suffering a great deal of guilt, however.  In the wake of the plea/sentencing, I had found myself completely incapable of going anywhere near Healing Spirits.  Not even to leave a quick note for you.  I needed a break.  After so much of my life being about this, it was over.  Try as I might to come back here to tell you even that much, I just couldn't face this site again.  Not at the time.  I had tried to update after the plea, to let you know the outcome, at least, but Geocities wasn't letting anybody in at the time.  I did, however, let my membership know, through the newsletter.  After this, I could not come back.  I am back now, and have copy/pasted my entry for the 11th of October, and wrote my entry for November 7th, as it would have been written.  I can only hope that you can forgive me for not doing this sooner.  I will not be necessarily updating my story on a monthly basis anymore, but rather when the mood suits.  I am free to live a normal, somewhat healthy life now.  But things do come up, and will probably do so for the rest of my life, and I will let you know when they do.  In the meantime, this will free up my time for other areas of my site.  I would very much like to develop the Spirit section more, and I have a million ideas as to what to do with some of the more informative sections of the site.  I am still taking some more time off of updating my site, however, because I have just moved, and am literally buried under boxes.  I am also getting some new services set up for my step-daughter, who has been undergoing extensive testing, as well as surgery.  (tonsils)  She still has more surgery to go, (root canals, as well as something to do with her jaw?)  and I imagine this will take up another good portion of my time.  Also, my husband was attacked last month?  month before?  (I don't remember anymore, I'm too tired) and now that we are moved, we can concentrate on bringing his attackers to justice.  *sigh*  Seems like we live in the court system.  :0(  When we do catch this guy, I'm going to be pushing for attempted murder charges, for reasons that I really do not feel like explaining at the moment.  I just want you to know that I haven't abandoned you.  I have merely been slowed down, somewhat.  I am not even certain that I will get any Christmas pages done.  After the extensive pages devoted to Halloween, I can't help but feel like this is sacrilege, but I will certainly make up for it next year, as I will have much more time to devote to them.  I have also been going to Poetry Sweatshops.  This is where we are expected to write timed pieces, using the constraints assigned to us.  It has been doing me wonders.  I get to be creative, and smart, educational, for a few hours a week.  Time just for me.  It renews my spirit, and I often come home hyper, pleased with my night's work.  I usually share my new poems with as many people as possible.  A place to be me.  Well, I got up from bed, to write my entry, and now I must return, because I have been exhausted lately.  Soon, I will have caught up on my sleep, and will be better able to do all the things I need to do in a day.  Thanks for listening, and thanks for caring.  

Much love,

Denise

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