C o n f i n e s v8 | E t e r n a l

An identity of a person is usually described by the people they are with, what they do, or even where they are from. I believe in individuality, and that who you are as a person shouldn't be described as "i'm so-and-so's cousin" or "i'm so-so-and-so, from this-place" or even, "i'm so-and-so, i work as a this-this-and-that". When i asked the question "who are you?", the intention of the person who asks is to identify you, that is, find out your identity. Finding out their relation or connection to you through people you might both commonly know is simply an added bonus.
I strongly think that peole should describe who they are by not just stating their name, but more importantly stating what their personality is like, either generally or specifically, giving the whole long-story of who you are. I believe in describing yourself down to your very soul, what you believe in and how you view the world. I'd pour out my soul to almost anyone, even if it makes me vulnerable to judgement, just so that the person will know exactly who and what i am. Let there be no false assumptions or conclusions about me, let people know as many facts about me. Mind you, i won't simply reveal myelf to just any sales-girl or pizza guy, just to the people i feel the need to.

This is why i think that my identity is can not be fitted into a simple sentence that you can just spit out to a friend while having a drink at your usual Coffee Bean or Starbucks; but it is a story of who i am, was, and what i might possibly become.

Azreen is my real name, not just my screen name. Yes, i am proud of it - given to me as a result of my mother's alleged misspelling of another name. In case you haven't noticed, i really am human, and i really do live on the planet Earth.
Physically, i am a tanned, dark haired, and thin perosn in moderate height.

Being the second born and the closest to my mother, i tend to be very dependent and often come off as needy. I often experience difficulties in taking sole responsibility as well as individual choices and decisions. I always look to others for help in doing almost everything and anything, since i have always been used to looking to my older sister and mother for guidance, or rather, an easy way out of things.
Furthermore, I am a very team-player-person, since i have always been a follower of my older sister and mother, being used to taking orders without having to come up with ideas or make tough decisions. I consider myself to be extremely easy to boss around. This is why i think leading is one of my weak points. Walking alone is also another definite dislike.
I am, and more often than not, come off as a weird person, nerdy, geeky, and sometimes obssessive. I am very dramatic (hence my e-mail), possibly because of my being a tv junkie. I am gullable, sometimes naive, misleading at times, as well as almost constantly in the dark about the many facts of the world. Being a person of very little brain is mainly what brought about my dream of gaining wisdom, in order to fulfill my requirement to know more about this world that i fear so much, although i sometimes have no desire to.
I am very physically and emotionally weak, with no talent for anything. I can often get very emotional although i try not to show too much emotion. I definitely have a knack for wasting time and i cannot manage the time i have wisely.
I am not a sports fan, i'm not sure why, i guess this is another thing that makes me wierd.
I consider myself to be very open-minded and willing to accept other people's point-of-view, as well as their beliefs and values. I constantly try not to be self-centred and annoying, since i would hate people to call me that. I believe even a person who really is annoying shouldn't be called that. People really should use the word 'disturbing' instead, since 'annoying' is so insulting and hurtful. This is why I try hard not to critisize others so much, since i have so many more flaws and imperfections.
I can, and will willingly tolerate people who are thought to be a constant disturbance; but i will not tolerate a person who is self-centred. I dislike being taken-advantage-of by manipulative people who find it so easy to use and manipulate me. I often don't realize i'm being used until it's too late.
I'm also a strong believer in promises, as I think they should not be made unless they can be kept unbroken. I try very hard to be a person of my word as I would very much be dissapointed and hurt by a person who would go back on their on word, especially when it involves betraying others.
This is what brings me to hate people who betray others. Thankfully, I've never been betrayed yet.

I am very clumsy, klutzy, timid, dumb, sometimes curious, and also appear confused often. I am and always try to be very honest, even with people i don't know at all. Although i like to go over people's heads, i do have a respect for authority - the same people i sometimes avoid.

Especially right now, i hate people who lie about themselves, and make people think differently of them by making themselves appear to be a different kind of person than they really are. Many people probably think they can pull it off, but sometimes you can see it so clearly and obviously. It's sad really. I believe that people really should not compromise on their true selves, since the relationship you have with your self is the most meaningful of all, and you should be comfortable being who you are, since that is the happiest you can be.
I hate seeing people try to act 'cool' [whatever that means] because it implies that it is a requierement for everyone to be supposedly 'superior' to nerds like me. I find it very insulting that these people try so hard to show that they are different than nerds like me. Its also hurtful that being a nerd is percieved as something bad by many people.