| Sunday, July 28, 2002 Hey! It's been a REALLY long time since I've written! First off, I would like to thank the people who have visited my site and signed the guest book... it really makes me feel like what I'm doing is getting somewhere. (even though most of the signatures are from my close friends. Haha.) Anyways, I don't really remember where I left off and I'm too lazy to check so I'll just start from the beginning of the summer. We never got the 504 plan in place so, like I think I've already said, they just dropped my grades for that last term when I wasn't there. But now that this year I'm a freshman in high school I'm not exactly sure what I'm going to do. Let me tall ya, I've had plenty of late-night anxiety attacks from worrying about that. But I can do it. :) *Courage.* I went to the last day of school for yearbook signing and stuff and I talked to some of my teachers, most of which said "sleep and get better for next year!" ~HeLlO~ it doesn't just go away in one summer, hence the word "chronic" in Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. *Sheesh.* I've had a pretty fun and restfull summer, as far as that goes. I went to Lagoon (a local amusement park) at the beginning of the summer with a bunch of my friends. That was pretty fun. I went to Roughout Camp (church girl's camp) and had a great time there. We went up to Bear Lake, if anyone knows where that is. We also got a new cat. Her name is Boo and she is about 12-13 weeks old. Then we went to San Francisco... WHAT A BLAST! I could write 5 pages on all that we did there and what fun it was but I'll just say... go there and experience it for yourself! It is such a cool place to visit! I personally wouldn't want to live there for more than a year or two. But holy smokes, what fun. Then I went to our stake Youth Conference (another church overnight activity, but this time with guys and girls). It was a lot of fun. We went to Utah State University in Logan and stayed in the dorms. We had a Mexican Buffet and a dance and water games all all sorts of stuff like that. It was just a one-nighter, but it was still a blast. For the past few days we have been cleaning our house like crazy because a lady from the state is coming to do a home study on our house so that we can renew our foster family lisence. It's taken me like 3 days to clean my room. Haha. I'm pretty slobby when it comes to my room. We are going to camp out for a family reunion type thing up at Jackson Lake this week for 3 nights. I haven't been there since I was about 9 or 10 so I'm pretty excited to go back. It's really pretty there. All summer starting since the beginning of July of been doing an equestrian class up at the National Abilities Center in Park City. It's been really nice to be back around horses and riding them and stuff. It's also bringing back some of the leg muscles I lost when I quit dance in the fall of 2000. In case I haven't already said, I was a major dancer. I had been dancing since I was 3 and had to quit when I was almost 13. I had been on pointe shoes for about 3 or 4 years and it was a big part of my life, but when the Fibro and CFS kicked in it just became too much. I'd love to find someone that would work with me on my own level so I could go back to it. As far as FMS/CFS goes... I've actually been doing pretty well lately. I'm really getting on top of my depression and anxiety, for the most part. I'm on 40mg of Celexa and 5mg of Buspar. Like I said, they do a lot for the depression and anxiety, but not much for the fatigue. But I guess you just have to work on one thing at a time to be effective. This entry was really long... I guess it's punishment for not writing for so long! G2G! L8rz! ~Katie~ |
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| Monday, September 9, 2002 Hey! Holy cow, another long interval between entries. Well, summer ended as summer does. Going back to school is always a nightmare for me. But people were glad to see me back. At least they appeared to be. I am quite on top of my depression and I am beginning to be able to be myself again without, as my friend and I call it, my "shield" or my superior acting performances. I am beginning once again to enjoy things that I was not able to enjoy. I am going a full schedule once again and trying DESPERATLEY to keep up. I like all my teachers and am enjoying my classes this year, which is a major plus because last year I REALLY struggled with enjoying some of my classes. As for medication, I'm still on the same things except I took a medecine called Ambien that is supposed to regulate your sleep pattern, therefore improving your quality of sleep and it has helped me a lot. I have actually been able to go to sleep at a reasonalbe time and stay asleep until it's time to wake up in the morning, with no "hangover" effect. My doctor wants me to start on this other medecine that he hopes will help the fatigue. Apparently, I'm his test patient. But, hey, it's all good. I guess not many extremely important events have taken place... um, let's see... oh we moved my little brother from one residential place to another that's a little further away because we did not feel he was getting the help that we needs anymore where he was. He seems to be doing a lot better. Life has been pretty stressful lately, obvoiusly, with school starting and everything else that seems to pile up all at once. With the 1 year anniversary of 9/11 coming up and the 1 year anniversary of a boy's death that went to my school, it's all been pretty rough. I am still doing the riding lessons and it really helps. It gives me something to look forward to so I can make it through my week. I've found that it helps to have something to think "Okay, just a few more days and I can go horseback riding. I can make it. I can do it." Once again, I would really like to thank everybody that has put messages on the message board and in the guestbook and everything. This website has ended up being very theraputic for me! :) Well, I've got to go... Love ya, ~Katie~ |
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