Journal-July 2002

2002-07-07; How to prepare roasted trannyboy.....

Take one trannyboy, lightly oil and set in sun for 30 minutes. Turn unexposed side to sun for an additional 30 minutes. The trannyboy will not be golden brown, but rather a nice pinky salmon color. Remove peeling skin as needed.

Well, I exposed parts of me to the sun that has not seen that sort of light for 30 years. It was nice to lay out in the sun with my chest puffed out proudly. The last time I did such a thing, I was about five years old. I’m too bashful to run around too much shirtless, but find being nearly nude on my balcony great fun.

2002-07-13; Putting the cart before the horse.....

I’ve just returned from an apartment scouting trip from the new city I’ll be moving to. I think I’m all set for my move at the end of this month. I’ll know for sure on Monday.

What bothers me is that the property manager of the apartment complex I’m planning to move to is doing a criminal background check on me. I don’t have a criminal record, however, I fear that somehow my past name will show up during their search. It’s not a realistic fear, but a fear nonetheless. Something similar happened to me when I moved to my present apartment last November. I called to have electrical service started. When I gave them my social security numbered, they told me that they had that number listed in past name. I had changed my name with social security over a year prior to that, but part of the system they use to check backgrounds with must not be updated frequently. I simply told the woman at the electric company that I was a transsexual and that I had recently changed my name. I made her very uncomfortable and she accepted my explanation without argument. I found the whole thing funny. However, finding housing is a little different. I’ll know Monday.

I also spent some time today doing a long-term budget. I have big plans in the next few years, and now that I have a “real job” , I can finally start doing some of the things I’ve always wanted to do.

First off, I intend to finish paying for top surgery. I will also likely have a revision done as soon as I get settled and have a few days to devote to healing.

Second, I need to get a new car. The one I’m presently driving is 12 years old and isn‘t going to hold up much longer. I hope to get something cheap, shiny and reliable in April of next year.

Following that, I want to have my hysterectomy done in the summer of 2003. I’m not sure what the going rate is for such a procedure (I think I saw that Meltzer charges around $7000), but I might be able to swing it by the end of the summer if I am conservative with my money. Because of my work schedule, it is imperative that I have the procedure done during the summer, so I could always charge the balance to a credit card if I haven‘t saved enough by then.  There is always so hope that insurance will cover it as well, though that is a very dim hope.

After my hysterectomy, I think I’ll take a break from surgery for a while. Not that I don’t want balls and my dick freed up, but I really really want to save for a down payment on a house. I’ve already started to look at real estate in that area, and I can’t wait to have a home of my own (although I lived in a 1973 trailer that I owned outright for six years as a grad student, but that doesn’t really count).

With surgeries and a new car, I think it will take me three years to have enough to put on a home. However,  as soon as I do buy a home, I want to start saving for lower surgery. Menard or Brassard are my top choices, and the rate for their metiodioplasty with a urinary hook up currently runs around $15,000. I figure when it is all said and done my surgeries will cost a total of $30,000. I really don’t think that is too bad seeing that a pickup truck cost about the same these days. It is a lot however, when you consider all the other normal expenses a person has in their day to day life. So maybe in as little as four years I’ll have finished it all up. I won’t yet be 40, and I will probably still only look 20.

Looks like I have it all planned out, and I haven’t even started my new job. It’s good to have goals - I just hope these are realistic ones.

2002-07-28; Breathe deeply to pucker areolas… .

I had a dream last night that if I concentrated really hard and relaxed, I could make my areolas shrink to the size of dimes. I guess the imperfections in my chest bothers me more than I realize.

I’m really not the kind of guy that will go out in public without a shirt on, so it really shouldn’t be a big deal, but I think I’ll have them fixed soon.

Money won’t be as big of a problem once I start my new job, and pay off my move. However, time is a problem. I’m not exactly sure when I could take time off to do it. If I go back to Montreal, I’ll need a few days, though I don’t think the convalescence is quite as long for a revision. I still don’t think I’m welcome home for Christmas, so perhaps if they do surgeries around that time, I might go for that (though that seems doubtful). I might have to wait for Spring. Until then, I’ll concentrate really hard and try to relax a little. 

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