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| Please allow me to introduce myself |
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| Though I may not be a woman of wealth or of great taste, I certainly do have many other interesting attributes, attractions, and pastimes. About me Currently, I am one of the lucky members of the Quarter Century Club. This, of course, means that I am older than 25 years - although sometimes my body may feel much older, while my heart feels the opposite. Then again, there are other times when the reverse is possible... Especially when encountering some of life's harder experiences. I am also one of the few in life who have found their soul mate. You may ask, "How are you certain you've found the one?" Simple. My heart feels no need to look further. There's no attraction for anyone else, nor any interest in building a relationship other than the one I am currently nurturing with my present beloved. He and I had a rocky beginning, way back in secondary school, but after we realized what the Fates had in store for us, we finally gave in and let nature take its course. Are we ever happy that we did too, 'cause I don't think life would be worth living had we stayed apart. We compliment each other well enough, though sometimes, our similarities may cause some head butting. But, how boring would it be if all we did was agree?! Yes, not only do I believe in Fate, but I also believe in Faith. Not the tangible kind either. No religion or man-made belief has assuaged my need to believe in something, which is why my personal Faith is one that's difficult to describe... I just know that there's something out there, watching over us and hearing our prayers, and knowledge of that is enough for me. And though the arguments pointing against such a possibility are staggering, I still hold tight to my convictions. I suppose I'm a poor student of philosophy, because of that fact,, however, my beliefs and ideas about everything else are continuously changing; morphing to encompass the theories of others, while maintaining the basics of my own personal creed. No real philosopher would ever admit to knowing everything, though I will admit to having come further than some others. Thankfully, that's what comes from a good education; though it can also be gained through hard bought experience. Hopefully, one day I'll possess the two of those factors, making me a much wiser woman than I am now. I also believe myself to be the creative sort, though I'm more of a jack of all trades and a master of none. Musical and artistic talent I do possess, but nothing that would ever win me any big awards. (Little ones, perhaps, but... I digress) :) About the site I decided on the Petit Prince theme in order to show you my more impish side. Though I try hard to look and act professional a lot of the time, those who really know me know that it's just a mask I tend to wear when trying to be serious, or when I'm at work. I really am a big kid at heart. Or at least, I try to be - I've had my share of experiences that have toughened me up some. Still, I may not be as naive as I used to be, but I continue to hold on to some of my childlike innocence, no matter what I'm faced with. Like it says on my index page - All grown-ups were children first. (But few remember it). It's a tough struggle sometimes, trying to remember, but I intend to do my best... About the masks I wear I wear that mask during the week because I take my work seriously. To me, it's more than just 'a job' - it's a step up on the ladder of life. A way for me to continue to learn about the kind of woman I want to be. Sure, I'd like to be successful - who wouldn't - but I also won't sacrifice my family or my health to reach any unattainable goals. I just want to have enough money to live comfortably, enough intelligence to command respect and enough accomplished to know that I did something significant with my life. And you shouldn't have to climb too far up any ladder to attain those simple objectives. The weekends are mine to relax and let go; to let down my hair (had I still my long locks) and bum around in jeans and sweats; to act however I wish and forget about the responsibilities that await me come Monday morning. Or, to just cuddle up with either cat or husband (whoever's handy at the time) and feel secure in the knowledge that I deserved that moment of rest. This explains the difference between my online pages. Since I only update it once in a while, my personal website therefore portrays my weekend self. It tells and shows of my most precious and happiest moments. Hopefully, if it's done its job well, then you'll leave here feeling as though you've shared in a bit of that happiness. My journal, on the other hand, is updated nearly everyday, so it's a bit more professional in appearance. There, I talk alot about work or everyday problems; getting stuff off of my chest by writing it down so that it won't come to plague me with negative feelings later on. Funny though, that my professional side tends to gather more difficulties than my childlike one... One would think that maturity would bring wisdom and the answers to all of life's questions. However, I'm starting to realize that being innocent of such matters in the first place can often be more rewarding. Either way - in every life there must exist a balance. I just happen to present mine in a really odd manner. No, I do not have split personalities - I'm just two different faces of the same coin. I hope that you can enjoy them both. |
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