Sacrifices

By Melpomene

 

Ninth Chapter

Confidante

IN DOWNTOWN TOKYO, a ramen shop was bustling with activity as the busiest hour of the evening came. Inside, the owner's wife directed the workers as they struggled to satisfy everyone in the chaos. The manger-in-training was herself tangled in the melee and Keiko, her employer, is trying to sort out the madness.

"Hey, there!" greeted Keiko. "A table for four? There near the counter, please. A table for three, there in the corner. All done? Angel, I'm leaving you in charge for a while."

"Yes, ma'am," replied the harried girl.

Keiko dodged the various people rushing about and managed to escape to the outside via the backdoor.

"Whew!" she sighed. "Sundays are so busy. And where on earth is that Yusuke?""

She stood still for a while, observing the park overlooked by their shop. It is their shop, the product of sweat, tears, blood and hard labor. That's so nice to hear.

"Hmmm…" Keiko murmured, hugging herself as a strong breeze blew at her. "Chilly."

She put on the cardigan she was carrying and was about to walk away for her customary walk en route home. Before she could move a few paces, however, she caught something from the corner of her eye.

Keiko frowned. "It couldn't be her," she muttered. "She said she's too busy for a visit just yesterday."

         

BOTAN SWERVED HARD, ignoring the indignant squawking of the migratory birds as she zoomed past them, missing the feathered creatures by mere millimeters. Then, she gave her oar a viscous jerk, sending her plummeting, nose first, to the ground below in a near ninety degrees angle and the same warp speed. Had you been quick enough to see her, you would have seen her clutching tightly onto the piece of wood.   But it wasn't for dear life she hung on, as one might expect. It was for support. Emotional support that is.

Of course, she wasn't aware of the speed of her descent. Perhaps, she wasn't even navigating at all. Her limbs did everything automatically, leading her through the route soaked with familiarity. If only she could remember where it was bound to go! Now, all she can think of was herself, her crimes and the fact that she may bring trouble to the Yoshio clan and the whole of Reikai, and of course… Koenma.

She reached the earth safely. She rolled off her oar, falling in front of Keiko. The latter immediately had her arms around Botan.

"Botan?" she asked urgently. "What's wrong? Tell me!"

Botan just stared into space, face expressionless.

"What is it, darling?" Keiko rubbed Botan's back, her voice rising in concern. "Did somebody hurt you? Did Koenma scold you or something?"

Upon hearing the name, Botan snapped. She totally lost control over her emotions. Her whole body shuddering, the tears spouted from her eyes and words rushed from her mouth incoherently.

"K-k-k-Keiko…" she stammered. "Koenma-sama… Mistress Masago… downfall of Reikai…"

Keiko gathered Botan in an embrace and gave her a squeeze.

"I'm sorry, girl," she said soothingly. "I can't make out anything. Why don't we go to the house and we'll talk, ok? I have some of those Swiss hot chocolate you're so addicted to. We can have it with marshmallows and roasted nuts. What do you say?"

SOMETIME LATER, THE two girls sat in the Urameshi kitchen. Botan had a steaming half-filled mug of hot chocolate in front of her. Keiko sat beside her, cracking nuts and popping them in her mouth.

Keiko took a sip from her mug as Botan summed up her story. She told her best friend everything.  No, not everything. Botan mentioned nothing of the freak accident.

For a while, Keiko just looked at her in silence. Botan squirmed uncomfortably under her scrutiny. "Keiko, I-" she said.

"Ah, sorry," said Keiko. She cleared her throat a few times. "You know if I was Yusuke, I'd say you're overreacting-" Botan opened her mouth to protest, feeling a little betrayed. "-But I'm not." Botan closed her mouth. "Anyway, so what your saying is, you're in love with him and he's in love with you, which is why Masago doesn't want to marry him?"

Botan shook her head desperately. "I'm not sure about his feelings," she said. "And mine's none to clear either."

"I think I'm a little confused."

"Everybody said so!"

"Everybody?"

"Well, Miss Masago and Sir Ieyasu did. I didn't want to believe it but…"

"And they're blaming you for the failed match?"
"No. Come to think of it, not really." Botan paused.

"And?" Keiko continued cracking nuts, waiting patiently for her friend to finish.

"Sir Ieyasu only said I should distance myself from Koenma-sama because our friendship might interfere with his relationship with Miss Masago."

"What about Masago?"

"Well, she told me that Koenma-sama is in love with someone else and that she didn't want to compete with that."

Understanding slowly filtered into Keiko's brain. "I see. So you just assumed she's referring to you."

Botan reddened, eyes panic-stricken. "B-b-but…"

"I understand. You've been under much influence of Ieyasu's words so you panicked."

Botan felt foolish. "I…"

"I know what your problem is. It's guilt. You know Koenma's and Masago's rebellion will cause trouble. You're blaming yourself for putting those thoughts into their heads."

"But it's true!"

Keiko pouted chidingly. "You really are foolish, Botan." Then in a much gentler tone, she started admonishing the spirit guide-turned-lady-in-waiting.

"Listen," she stated. "You know Koenma much better than I do. Will you describe him for me?"

A lone tear slipped down Botan's nose.

"Ok," she said, sniffling. "To most people, he's clumsy, awkward, childish. But that's not all he is. Everybody thinks he cowers before his father, but he doesn't always. He follows orders as respect for authority but not when he believes his father is in the wrong. How could he handle all his work? How could he manage to run Reikai? How could he protect Ningenkai if he really is that weak?

"No. Koenma-sama has a mean streak, too." A trace of a smile appeared on Botan's face. "He probably inherited it from Enma-sama. He can be cunning like his father and almost always as gruff and as touchy. He's stubborn, righteous and-"

"And he doesn't let other people curb his way of thinking," finished Keiko. "So you see, Botan, you couldn't have made him think differently even if you wanted to. Anyway, what about your mistress? She never loved Koenma from the beginning, right?"

Botan shook her head. "Miss Masago has no romantic feelings towards Koenma-sama. Still, she was open to the idea of her betrothal to him. She only changed when I came. See? If it was only Koenma-sama who refused, everyone would attribute it to his rebellious nature. Since Miss Masago is resisting, too, people would blame her. I would be the cause of the Yoshio clan's downfall from power!"

"But she's right, Botan. It is her life. They have no right to control her, to live her life for her. You helped her fix things with Koenma. Because of that, she was able to assess the situation and was able to decide for herself. You didn't fill her up with lies or even radical ideas. You just let her be. It's her own decision."

Botan had her head down; her fingers still clasping the warm mug and letting its heat comfort her. She realized that she already knew everything Keiko had told her only that she needed someone else to tell it to her. However, she's still a bit confused.

"You know there's something good your confusion has brought you," remarked Keiko, breaking the silence.

"What?" asked Botan doubtfully.

Keiko grimaced, seemingly in distaste. "Do I have to tell you everything?"

Botan sighed. "Just tell me."

"Do you love him or not?"

"What?!" Botan was incredulous.

"It's a simple question. I'm sure even you can answer that. Do you love him or not?"
"That's prepos- You understand."

"I want to hear it from you. I'm not perfect, Botan. I want to make sure my inference is correct."

Botan shut her eyes for a while, pondering. Do I love him, she asked herself. All those times I got mad seeing him overworked, all those times I got ecstatic whenever he allows himself little rest, was it love? All those times she saw him everywhere and was reminded of him by everything, was it yearning? And that quirk in her heart when he first announced his betrothal, and that wistfulness she felt whenever Miss Masago goes out with him or even mentions his name, was it jealousy?

I don't know, I don't know! screamed her inner voice.

"Idiot," admonished Keiko suddenly, cutting through her reverie. "Don't think about it, you simpleton. If I had used my brain then I wouldn't have married that Yusuke. Use this." The brunette pounded her chest with force and conviction, her brown eyes flashing meaningfully.

Follow the heart… thought Botan. She closed her eyes again, this time relaxing in the darkness, letting whatever it is inside her to emerge.

First, she saw an infant, or toddler rather, yelling at her, ordering her around. He was wearing his usual garbs, the oversized hat, pacifier and all. There's the ever-conspicuous Jr on his forehead.

The usually crinkled eyes opened and he was no longer a babe but a young man standing before her, his brown hair flying freely with the wind. His long mysterious golden brown eyes probed her pink ones deeply, seemingly seeing right into the bareness of her soul.

Then it was no longer just seeing him but also feeling him, smelling him, and hearing him, all of her senses alive and active.

She can hear him clearly. Now she heard the angry bawling of a kid. The next moment, it was engulfed by the clear authoritive voice of one who has just stepped out of adolescence, now in scolding, now in laughter, then in sadness.

His familiar smell overpowered her. First, the mild fragrance of the baby powder wafted. Next, it was defeated by the striking scent of his eau de toilette enveloping her with a sudden wave of desires.

Finally, she felt him. The soft caress of his breath tickling her ear, the reluctant awkward but gentle way he touches her and the simple gesture of friendliness as he pulled her ponytail gleefully. She felt his aura surround her. The familiarity comforted her, warmed her, and made her be herself to the fullest.

Botan smiled. Now she knows. And knowing gave her a liberated feeling. She felt suddenly free and a tranquil serenity settled with in her.

She slowly opened her eyes. Then, in a barely audible voice, she answered, "Yes."

Keiko smiled. "So now what are you going to do?"

Botan blinked. "I wait for Yusuke to ask permission to stay here in the meantime."

Keiko felt as if a whale just levitated out of the sea and fell down on her.

"Here we go again," she moaned. "Botan, Botan, the next step is to profess to him that you return his feelings."

"But I'm not sure about his feelings."

"That's why you find out if your feelings are mutual."

"But…" Botan smiled to herself. "I don't care if it is or not. All I want is for him to be happy, safe, successful and for everything to be fine."

Keiko groaned again. "I don't believe this," she muttered. "Silly! If you just leave them with out telling them why, they'll never understand. They'd probably both cause a clamor in the kingdom anyway. Besides, he'll probably get depressed and be sad all his life."

"That's true…" said Botan reluctantly. "But what if you're wrong?"
"Then, my friend, you can go back to your original plan."

"Ok, then. I daresay it's time for Miss Masago's bath anyway. All the same, save the spare room for me, ok?"

"I don't think that'll be necessary." Keiko beamed at her encouragingly.

"See you then."

"Bye."

"And Keiko?"

"What?"

"Thanks."

"Anytime. I have lots of hot chocolate here for you. Both for your stomach and your heart."

JUST AS KEIKO finished washing the dishes, an urgent knocking was heard on the door. She wiped her hand and rushed to it.

"Coming," she said loudly.

She opened the door after peeping to see who it was. In barge Yusuke, followed by Kurama, who greeted her absentmindedly, and Hiei, who merely nodded in acknowledgement.

"Where's Botan?" asked her husband. "Angel said she was with you a while ago."

"Oh, you just missed her," said Keiko. "She already left."          

"Darn it!" exclaimed Yusuke in frustration.

Hiei's ever present scowl deepened and Kurama shook his head as if to say "no good".

"Is there something wrong?" Keiko felt her skin prickle.

"Should we tell her?" checked Yusuke.

Hiei only grunted in reply.

"Well," said Kurama. "She does have a right to know."

"Ok," sighed Yusuke. "Makai had been experiencing problems and they had asked for my help."

"Just now?" Keiko asked almost worriedly.

"Actually, since last month…"

Keiko was about to open her mouth.

"You can scold me later." Yusuke cut her off. "Right now, listen. A small-scale rebellion has been terrorizing Makai. They're not that formidable compared to the main bulk of the Makai army and defense sector but they have ample information to disable the government.

"Now, the real problem is that if the militant groups manages to take over Makai, anarchy and chaos will once again reign there. Security will once again disappear between the three worlds and powerful beings will once again be freed to cause trouble here in Ningenkai.

"Besides," Yusuke paused, looking somber, his voice becoming softer. "I helped create order in that place, my ancestors' home. I can't just watch and let it fall to pieces."

"Was it the ruler of Makai who asked for your help?" asked Keiko.

"Yeah," answered Kurama. "But Koenma asked for our assistance, too."

"What does he have to do with this?"

"Remember, Keiko. It's Reikai's job to ensure peace between the worlds. Also, they're involved in this even more deeply.

"It seems the information the rebels have came from Reikai. They're suspecting an inside job. Reikai forces are trying to find out the truth and trace the real traitor.

"Hiei, who also works for the Makai information agency, is also in this case, trying to clear the name of his sect. They've found a new lead."

"So you wish for Botan to relay this information to Koenma? But she no longer works for him."

"Even so, everything revolves around her," spoke up the ever-grim Hiei.

"Yes," said Yusuke. "Which is why we must call her back."

"But why?" asked Keiko in disbelief, still confused. "You don't mean to say…"

"She may be in grave danger."

 

Masago studied the assortment of knobs on the bathroom wall. After a long time of mussing with the controls of the water temperature, she has finally attained the desired heat. Now, she is faced by the dilemma of how to stop the water from draining away in the bathtub.

"I'll try this one," she said, reaching out from her position at the side of the bathtub. Instead of clogging the drainage however, the switch shifted the water flow from the faucet into the shower, thus bestowing a premature wetting on the confused girl.

"Sheesh!" After fumbling with a few more knobs, she finally succeeded in plugging the tub's drainage. "I really should watch them do this next time."

She peeled off her wet clothes and slipped into a bathrobe. Next, she puzzled over the mass of liquid soaps, oils and perfumes in the tub side. Which of them should she use? Shrugging coolly, she dumped them all unceremoniously into the churning water. Satisfied, she entered the water.

"Now what?" she murmured. Realizing she had forgotten about her sponge, she attempted to rise. However, the stuff she mixed into her bath was excessively much, causing the bubbles to rise and overflow all over the place. Groping in panic as she disappeared behind the mass of bubbles, she managed to rise and step out of the tub. Clutching her bathrobe to her dripping body, she started walking to the luffa hanging behind the bathroom door. Or at least tried…

"Whoa! Easy- Yikes! Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!"

THUD.

The scream was heard all through out the mansion. Practically everyone, ladies-in-waiting, maids, - and of course, guards-, rushed to where the mistress of the house resided and forced the door open.

"Masago-sama!" they yelled in unison. "Are you alright?"

Masago screamed again, hastily donning the robe she was holding, despite the fact she was sprawled on the soap covered floor. Fortunately, the blanket of bubbles hid her naked body from view.

"I'm fine," she choked out. "Just please get OUT!"

After the red-faced crowd hastened out of her apartment, Masago shakily stood from the tiled floor.

"Owww…" she moaned, her hands rubbing her hips. "I didn't think it would be this hard."

Indeed, for an average person, it isn't half as hard as all that. Poor girl! After decades of being waited on hand and foot, it's not surprising she's fumbling around. She has tried to do other things by herself but taking a luxurious bath she's accustomed to sure wasn't one of them.

She gave up and instead went out to her bedroom. She sat down on her bed glumly.

"I wish Botan was here," she said.

"Your wish is my command."

Notes:

Wah! I blew it! Botan's realization of her feeling for Koenma was dumb. Wah!!! I read lots of books and stories covering a wide variety of topics but not too much of romance. I guess it shows, huh?

Alright, whatever it is you hate about it tell me. I won't get mad or anything. I'm begging!

T_T  What can I do to improve this thing?

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