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Fri. Aug. 24 01
Okay so now this will be an insane ranting by yours truly... I'M WARNING YOU IN ADVANCE.
I've been very very overly creative as of lately. I've been writing my video game storyline script up which is a great and fantastic idea it has lotsa of sex and mean people and more sex and death and a penis that somebody bites off and spits on the ground. And no it's not called Jerry Springer OKAY!?!
I've also been working on my card game it has no name yet but basically it revolves around stuff I totally enjoy. I've also been thinking of writing a book of short stories that really have nothing in common other then I wrote them. And THEN I'm writing a comic and my friends are drawing it and hey if I get it scanned i'll make that a cute little page idea for everyone to look at MMMMKAY?
So then every 3 or 4 fucking days Hotmail puts something in my e-mail that says my account is too large. THEN CLEAN IT OUT FOR ME! It takes me 5 minutes to do that and I could either be chatting, talking, working, fucking, masterbating, or other needlessness that doesn't need to be said I DID TELL EVERYONE THIS IS AN 18 and up site right? Well whatever. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE FOR I AM XENA WARRIOR PRINCESS AND I'M PRETTIER THEN ANY OF YOU!!
"Is the Moral of the story 'Freaks should date other Freakth?" -Josie and the Pussycats!
Wednesday May 30th 2001...
Okay been over a month huh? Don't you just love me, not like anyone reads this anyways... and if you do VOTE ON COMIC SURVIVOR! I need votes like there's not tomorrow!!
Anyways just wanted to let you all know that me and Keith are on 3 months and I'm totally in love with him oh boy oh boy! and I uh umm... got a job in a mall so I'm even more happy.
Maybe I should psychotically rant... but instead I'll leave you with two poems written by yours truly... here's 1!! and here's 2!! (1's a lot more goofy then two is... beware!)
4=2=2001
Okay so I know I haven't updated in about 2 months... YIKES!! I'm sorry, I'll try to keep more up to date on this.
Okay so this is all the bad stuff in my life. The guy I was so happy about who laid me, wound up being a royal prick and dumping me the same night that my rocky horror was taken away from me. *sob*. Then I quit my job and all this stuff and still haven't gotten a job.
But hey I have a new boyfriend named Keith who really rocks my world, but sometimes I wonder if we rushed it... hmmm I'm not exactly sure. Then umm I got called up by a few places for interviews and hopefully I'll have a job, if not I am so gonna cry.
I'm sorry this isn't that long I'm just kinda half here right now. So for anybody who actually does read this... sorry I haven't updated for a coupla months.PEACE!
@/!/)! (2/1/01)
EEKK!! I'm soooo happy, okay here's the buzz on Josh's life. I'm moving out of the house in a coupla months, I'm getting a newer car, I got a cute boyfriend and I GOT LAID!
YES THAT'S RIGHT Everyones favorite queer got fucked, by who you might ask, why my boyfriend, the sexiest funniest and most charming man I know. I love him I really do and I don't care. I know I'm prolly setting myself up for a big drop because he's so beautiful he'll find somebody better then me, but screw it. I'm happy right now so I'll milk it for all it's worth.
Oh and I cleaned the site up (FUCK FUCK FUCK) because those stupid shit heads at the SITE FIGHTS said I couldn't be a part of their CRAPPY web-page because I cussed a little to much. SO GO TO THEIR WEB PAGE AND HACK THEM, HACK THEM TO HELL!!
Anyways Sex was actually a great experience, I mean at the moment after I said "Wow that's it" and it kinda sounded mean to the whole beauty of sex, but now that I look at it I see that I just had a beautiful experience, and I'm very happy that I was able to share that with a guy I'm so in love with. SO BABE THIS IS TOO YOU!
01/11/01 (nice date huh?)
Okay so this week has SUCKED ROYALLY!!...
First, I have a cold. I got this cold from standing around in the cold a little too long. MY throat hurts, and I'm sneezing and dripping everywhere. (wanna make out now?)
Secondly, this guy I really like hasn't called me.... First time he got my number he lost it, so we both traded the next time and his number was on my hand, I washed my hand. NO NUMBER!! Hopefully I'll see him again. I really like him he's beautiful.
Thirdly, I am also head over heels for another guy. But he doesn't wanna be serious.
Finally, I WRECKED MY CAR! Well I didn't I just kinda hit a snow bank, then I got out and looked around when suddenly a big truck hit my car.... It's gone.
Anyways I'm updating the page and making it look better! I'm gonna put a couple more pages up. Just tired....-jr-
December 24th 2000 December 24th 2000
Dec. 10 2000
Anyways this month has brought alot of good and bad.
FIRST THE GOOD!
I got myself a nice guy! He's really sweet and nice. I had my 18th WOOHOO I'M LEGAL! I bought me porno and cigarettes and lotto and other needless accessories that will make me happy. I had a kick butt bday party and I'm just more happy all around then sad or mad. And I LEFT SCHOOL WOOHOO!!
NOW FOR THE BAD
THe guy I spoke of in the good broke up with me a week later, but we're stil friends so I guess that's good. I'm having problems getting a new job and I'm really extra worried about going to college and how much stress that is gonna cause on me. But anyways I getta go CHRISTMAS shopping in two weeks so I'll have fun and be happy.
That's all I can think of, hopefully I'll update RIGHT WHEN something happens -jr-
November 8th 20000000000
On a different yet drastically similiar topic
I NEED A BOYFRIEND!!
well not really, I just want someone who is neat and wants to hold me and at least make me feel I'm very attractive and actually worth somebody's time. Enough on this I'm getting teary eyed.Okay, so Saturday I got beat up doing our Wraslin' Show and then on the drive home my tire popped!! I was stranded for like a half hour, but I called my friend up and he came toget me even though it was really early in the morning, or late at night. Anyways this is me saying Thank you to my friend.. THANKS! -jr-
October 25 2000
Ok so today I have some news, but it's kinda iffy on if it's good or bad. So I e-mailed the guy I like. I mean I just know that I think he is pretty cute, but he sent me weird e-mails back that sorta lead in three different directions all at once. It was just kinda odd.... Anyways. I'm still not sure if he's gay or not, but I can't get the nerve up to ask him. I'm sooo happy he's not going to read this page. I mean if I thought he was gonna read this I wouldn't put anything up here. I'm actually pretty worried that he doesn't like me... I'd like it if he liked me, but I do understand that we have to go at a slower pace...... Anyways I guess I'll close for now! -jr-
OCTOBER! 22ND! 2000!
Oct. 17th '00
On a totally unrelated topic I'm in class and "The Sound of Music" is playing and the song "You are 16 going on 17" is playing. I love this song, hated the movie, but loved the song.
Okay Okay okay.... The reason why I'm super happy is that I'm getting a GED and graduating early. I am not gonna miss this school one bit, but I will miss a few of my friends, at least I know exactly what I want. I'm going to have some fun new experiences and finally, NO IMMATURE IDIOTIC PEOPLE, or at least not a lot of them. Anyways I hope you guys have as nice of a day as I am. TTFN! -jr-
10/10/00
Even though I know it is so soon after my breakup I'm realizing that I will survive. I am already willing to date people and go out and have fun, I just needed a few days of "#$)*&#^" but now I'm fine. I'm just saying that now I think I'm ready to take on alot and I've finally hit a point of calm. -jr-
October 9th 2000
Oh now I'm really really really pissed.... I'm hurt in at least 3 ways. Emotionally, Mentally, and Physically. I had a weekend of thoughts but I figured this was the best topic to talk about. Emotionally I'm hurt because of all of the above, plus I feel like most of my friends just put up with me for other reasons and once I break a boundary of our friendship, BWAM, no more friendship and there's no if and or buts about it. There's a lot more in depth I can go on this part, but I really don't want to. Mentally I'm hurt because I'm thinking about it all way too much and I feel a little "off" right now. I'm thinking about stuff that I'd never even consider in a "normal" state of mind, and I'm a happy person, so I'm unsure about all of this. I'm hurt Physically in two ways, the stress is hurting my stomach, I can't cry because the tears won't pour out, and I want to puke and hit a wall both at the same time (neither of which happens). The stress is also making me lose weight way too fast, I lost 5 pounds in less then a week and I've lost another two in the course of a day, I'm not saying I've not been eating, I have my regular amount and everything, but since I'm stressing it's digesting it alot faster. But let's talk about some happy things.
Well there's not much happy right now, I'm trying to be happy I am, I am showing my smile and walking around like nothings happening, I talk to my friends and they all tell me that they will "get me some booty" so I can calm down. I'm going to put this link up on the Rocky site, not so that I can make anyone feel guilty or anything, but just so that they can read my journal and understand the stress I've been under. I will probably up date this every so often..... I hope no one hates me, and I also hope no one takes this for granted and figures it's a cry for help, which it's not, it's just an expression and if you really don't want to read it, I suggest you leave. I'm not made to impress other people. -jr-
10-6-00
Seriously, I've thought about doing an "Online journal" due to a few of my friends having it on theirs, I know my opinion is not important and no one really cares, but hey SCREW YOU PEOPLE! Anyways, this is for me and not you and I'm pretty so it's all okay.I'm sitting at school being bored.... nothing much is happening, I'm just being bored.. hella bored.... mind numbingly bored... did I mention I'm bored?... Anyways my social life blows, I have no friends who actually like me, I find out that every single one of my so called "friends" knew that I was going to have my heart broken and decided not to tell me. This makes me feel two inches tall.... it's like, for a whole week the whole world was laughing at me, and I was the only fool there was. Even though none of them know that I found out, or at least as far as I know they don't, but they don't understand why I'm angry. And I know that afterwords when I mention it to them, they'll smile their naive idiotic smiles and say "Well not my fault" or something along the lines. This hurts, hurts bad. I mean I can live without friends, but I've had enough people only be my half friend and whenever something good comes along, BWAHM! They aren't my friend anymore. I don't know if any of them will read this, or if any of them will care, but how dare they make me feel like I'm not worth their time. I feel ultimately betrayed and I'm not even pissed about what happened, it is the fact that EVERYONE KNEW! AND NO ONE TOLD ME! Why you might ask? I've asked myself this also, but the only conclusion I can come up with is simply: "No One Likes You Josh" which makes me feel great. If anyone I knew was going to get hurt I'd tell them. Anyways i better go this Paragraph is really long. Phew I feel better! -Jr-