| Who Do You Love? Chapter 5 |
| Howie now found himself stripped down to his boxers and laying in a hotel bed watching an old rerun of "Family Ties" on Nick at Nite. He was tempted to join Nick in the shower, but knew from his mood that he really wanted to be alone as soon as they reached the hotel. Howie had never seen Nick so upset. He couldn’t even stand to be in the same room with Brian. Howie just wished there could be away to take Nick away from the pain of the wedding and the hurt of the man that he had lost. Howie honestly didn’t know how Nick was going to stand witness at the ceremony the next day. It seemed to Howie that Nick had finally faced the fact that Brian was definitely going to marry Leighanne, that there was no turning back. One sign was how long Nick’s shower was taking, he had been in there for awhile, Howie guessing that he was thinking more than cleaning himself. Fifteen more minutes passed and Nick emerged from the bathroom wearing only a towel around his waist. His hair was damp and fell across his forehead in separated locks. There were still beads of water trickling down his tanned skin from the steam that had filled the bathroom after his long shower. Nick stopped at looked at Howie who had fallen asleep on the bed. He paused to watch the friend that helped him get through the past few weeks. He loved Howie as a wonderful, caring, and trusting friend. Nick wondered why he hadn’t let Howie completely into his heart. He knew the answer to that: Brian. Yet, he knew that if he gave Howie the chance, Howie would love only him. He knew Howie wanted him, and Nick thought that maybe that was the answer, to give Howie a chance to heal his heart. Nick was hurting so badly at the realization that Brian was definitely leaving him that he wanted anything to take the pain away. Nick moved his way closer to Howie, gently climbing onto the bed, hovering over Howie’s smaller body. Without waking him up, he slid Howie’s boxers slightly down to reveal his beautiful cock. Nick admired how hot Howie was, especially as he slept peacefully. Nick began to slide his hand up and down Howie’s shaft, stimulating him as he continued to sleep. Howie smiled as if he was having an incredible dream. As Howie became harder, Nick placed his cock on the tip of his tongue, licking the very edge of Howie’s shaft. At the feeling of Nick’s talented tongue on the head of his now exposed cock, Howie awakened slowly from the brief sleep that he had. Nick took his time; slowly fondling Howie’s balls with his hand as his tongue licked Howie’s now erect cock, letting his hot tongue slide gently over the sensitive skin before finally swallowing him down his throat. Howie’s eyes flung open and he looked down the bed to see Nick’s blue eyes blazing with lust and desire. He sucked on Howie’s cock as if it was addicted to it, letting it gently slide out of his mouth, and then sucking it further back down his throat. Howie raised himself up on his elbows as he watched Nick engulf him. Nick kept complete eye contact with Howie as he saw the nearing orgasm build within him. Howie began moaning, breathing roughly and placed his one hand on his nipple, sliding his palm over the sensitive area before rubbing it roughly between his fingers. Howie licked his lips, wanting to taste Nick, to hold him. All thoughts of what had been going on in either of their minds escaped as Howie climaxed, gripping onto the sheets beneath him tightly as he screamed Nick’s name. His head fell back onto the pillows as Nick climbed up on top of Howie, releasing the towel from around his waist. Howie didn’t even notice that Nick was completely naked as he stared up at him, admiring how beautiful he looked. His hair matted to his forehead, small beads of sweat running down his face and neck. Who do you love? / I got a feeling you're the boy for me /I bet your love can set me free/ I feel a love thing coming on/ It started weak then got oh so strong/ Strong enough to rock the world/ Straight up I want to be your man /So I keep praying to the stars above /That it's me who you're gonna love |
| Howie placed his hand behind Nick’s neck and brought him closer for a deep, passionate kiss. Howie captured Nick’s sensuous lips in his mouth, sucking on them feverishly as Nick slid his tongue into Howie’s mouth, their tongues massaging the other. Nick moaned into the kiss as he lowered his hips to meet Howie’s, their erections making contact. Howie bit down on Nick’s lip as his hips rose from the bed to meet Nick’s grinding. Both of them moved their hands down to hold their cocks together as they continued to kiss. Nick was painfully hard, yet the thoughts of his true love leaving him still tugged at his heart and weighed heavily on his mind. Nick moved his kisses to Howie’s neck, sucking hard at the skin as his hips quickened their pace, grinding feverishly against Howie. Howie’s other hand gripped onto Nick’s ass, squeezing it as he pulled him closer for each thrust. Nick slid his tongue up to Howie’s ear, sucking on his earlobe before breathlessly saying, "Fuck me Howie…please…take the pain away." The words registered in Howie’s mind like an alarm. Did Nick really mean it? He questioned Nick’s motives but his mind was clouded with the immense pleasure that was building within him once again. "Nick…" Howie moaned. He meant it as a protest, but it sounded more like a plea. Nick assaulted his mouth once again, kissing his lips roughly before sliding his tongue into Howie’s mouth. Howie rolled Nick onto his back and left his mouth to lick a trail down his tanned, luscious body. Nick ran his hand through Howie’s hair, guiding him further down his body. Howie reached his destination and took no time in consuming the large, aching cock before him. Nick moaned loudly as Howie’s tongue slid up and down his shaft, making him harder and harder. The pleasure surging through his body should have been enough to keep Nick’s mind from wandering back to the pain that his heart still felt, but it was not. He screamed inside for it to go away, for the love to simply fade away and let him live his life without missing his angel. He needed something powerful and overwhelming to take the hurt away. "Howie…please…more" he begged, gasping for air as Howie was sucking at him furiously. Howie slid a few fingers up and down Nick’s dripping shaft before surprisingly sliding them into Nick’s unprepared hole. Nick grunted loudly at the intrusion, having only experienced anything like that once. He had never completely given himself to anyone, finding it hard to let go of himself and his heart to anyone but Brian. Howie paused his fingers for a moment but continued licking and sucking on Nick’s thick cock, helping to ease the pain. Soon Nick began to shift his body, ready to take more. Howie moved his fingers around, stretching Nick’s insides and found Nick’s prostate as he heard him scream and tug on Howie’s hair. He entered one more finger, driving them in and out of Nick’s ass, loosening the tight hole. Nick’s moans grew louder and soon Howie had to hold down Nick’s hips from writhing all over the bed from pleasure. Howie loved the way Nick was reacting to this, not thinking of what Nick was trying to escape until he heard Nick say forcefully, " Now Howie! Please!! I need it to go away!" |
| Howie looked up and saw small tears running down Nick’s cheeks. At first his clouded mind thought they were tears of passion from the pleasure Nick was receiving until the last words rang through Howie’s mind. ‘He needs to get away from the pain…in his heart.’ Howie thought. "Please…Howie…I’m ready…" Nick said, gasping for air from the pleasure building within him. Howie slowly slid his fingers out from within Nick and let his cock slide completely down his throat. He hummed slowly, knowing that Nick would cum right away. He did, exploding into Howie’s mouth, Howie continuing to suck as Nick’s juices slid down his throat. Nick screamed loudly, a mix of pleasure and extreme anger, not receiving what he really wanted. After riding out his orgasm and releasing all of himself, Nick sat up, his hand wiping away the tears that had fallen. "What the fuck Howie? I thought…I thought you wanted me…" Howie could see that he had upset Nick. His face was not only flushed from his orgasm but also from the extreme anger he was feeling. Howie moved up the bed and rested his hand on Nick’s before having it slapped away. "Nicky, please listen to me…Look at me…" Howie begged. Nick raised his burning blue eyes to meet Howie’s. He remained still, holding in both his anger and the pain that still haunted him. "Nick, I want you more than anything. You mean so much to me and that is exactly why I can’t do this to you…" Howie said, trying to hold back the tears that were now forming in his own eyes. "You love Brian, Nick, not me and you made a promise to yourself and your heart that you wanted to commit to someone completely before sharing this with them. I understand you can’t commit yourself to me right now; you shouldn’t have to after everything you’ve been through. I love you Nick, and that is the exact reason why I can’t hurt you like that." Tears were now falling down Howie’s cheeks, his emotions running over. He did love Nick. At first he had thought it was just an infatuation, but he had grown to truly care for him. It broke his heart that he couldn’t have him, but it was something that he wasn’t going to lose his relationship over. If all he could have with Nick was an eternal friendship, he could handle that. Yet, he could never handle seeing him hurt again. Nick looked back down at the ruffled sheets beneath him. Even though he knew Howie was trying to protect him, he wanted nothing more than just to get away from Brian’s love. It was hovering over his every thought, his every action and all he wanted was to escape. Nick heard Howie softly sobbing and placed his arms around his friend, holding his naked body close to his own. Nick had no idea how deep Howie’s feelings were for him. As Nick held Howie in his arms, neither saying a word as they held each other tight, he realized what he needed to do. |