Jimrock may 2003
I'll be Loving who all my life? Don;t ask yourself if I'll always be there, because forever is how long I care...... I really Think there will never be a girl who will love me. Even my mom doesn'y love me. Nobody likes me. Everyone hates me. I mean Your friends told me that I was LUcky to have a girl like you. Because All the girls I have ever had their love was never true. I will never ever let you go. "your my dream girl........"
All the girls Who were waiting for me for years to grow up or realize that They were for me could not wait any longer. All married with kids now. I see them and they say , " Jim, I waited years for you to come back but I had to move on with my life" From Jojo to monica to jenny to gionna. To tanya to katie to tina to christie. From debbie to mary to helen to yoshi. To kianna to keo to lia to lealani. I mean Even Guys I knew from back in the day have offered me their sisters or cousins. And that offering would of been an unselfish act because they knew my happyness would mean soo much to the city of san diego and the south bay as a whole. The pain inside me travels through soo many people. Look how the scene is dead. That is because I am dead inside.
. damm I mean. I never wanted to become anything in life. But This stigma or this fate keeps chasing me
. No matter what I do I succeed. I hate it. Even when I throw away a few .com's and go back to a small geocities web site or try to do something small
guess what? I get 50 thousand or 100 thousand hits within the first 6 months.
No matter what I do I am stuck for becomeing a pillar of the community.
Everywhere I go people look up to me. Everyone has a different way of showing it but
It's like they took a class on bbh and jimrock and Now that I have arrived it's test time.
Even People not from the southbay recognize game. But Is this what I wanted? fame and fourtune?
No. I hate money like you would not beleive. I guess my barter system ways are obsolete but I know people
who still thrive on the barter system, But Me loving someone. mann how hard is it for me to meet someone. not very hard.
Everyone adores me. I meam who wouldn;t I already realized the key to life many years ago. But I was punished for finding it out as such a young age.
Everyone reaches some form of enlightenment but I reached a higher plane of thinking, In that
Everything made sence. Everything was clear, why bums were bums, why people steal why cops are cops.
I know everything now. But I can;t tell anyone. See everyones meaning of life is unique.
in 2003 Jimrock Still Hurts Inside
..............Still Hurting inside Things are hard for me . Everyday I dwell and try to forget the past. I mean time heals all wounds right.
And It is getting better. I can travel through most of chula vista and not have any relapse problems or any flashbacks. It is really hard when I meet a fan.
Usually they are soo happy to see me, but sometimes they are dissapointed to see who I am. I'm just a normal person, Like everyone else.
Just because I took over the game doesn't mean I am any different than you or me.
Alot of people say even today I have fallen off, but little do they know I still control many factors in many industries. With my minon's working
Under my orders I still traffic thousands of megs of data to all parts of the globe. Our weight distribution centers work around the clock giving you what you need.,
I still call shots when it comes to events or any social gathering. It might not be me on the flyer or in the headlines but I always have my say.
I also still contrinute to the drug trade between US and Mexico, Offering my Non Partial Ideas about distribution,transportation, and purification.
Most of my recipies for shabu have revolutionized the cooking process worldwide. And my breakthrough in organic chemistry has produced a better plant,
But those revalations are mearly hobby and trend setting ideas that establish me as the superpower that I am.
.............These Days Our generation is The main Shot callers In the game. I don;t care what anyone says. The person who calls shots is the one who makes money.
The guy who makes money does and says what he wants to. since I make the most money I do and say what i want and Nobody can tell me otherwise untill they
earn the funds I produce. I have to say money is endless and I produce endless amounts of it. Boosting the economy is easy for me because I am in the Entertainment Industry.
Also the Hospitality Industry. I make peoples lives better. I give people what they want. Peace of mind, distraction,laugh,or pleasure.. it does not matter. Anything to pass the time is good with me.
but with soo much love I give people what has this world given back to me, nothing I have ever wanted. maybe a taste that keeps me alive.
How JimRock feels In 2003
.........I feel horrible. I mean I cannot breath most of the day. I am soo sick inside. My head always hurts all the time. I have a cat that always sneeks in my room and pisses on my bed. so I have no bedsheets and no blankets but some small blankie.
Its cold at night and I am always freezing. I can;t find my stevie b cd and The Girl I want to bone lives in temecula. But I have never been more alone than I have these last few months.
See alot of people wait all their childhood life to be independant, but I don't. I wish I had a mom and dad. I wish I had some sort of parents to call or live with. I wish I knew who were my cousins or uncles. maybe I could have someone to relate with.
Unfortunately I am the only person left in my gene pool. That is why finding a girl is soo important to me. I need to reproduce before my family line is extinct.
ThERE really is nothing much in life I am waiting for. next month I'm going to buy a big screen for my room. Wow. bug deal hu. No big deal to me. I'M going to buy a boat after that.
I want a boat just to hang out inside of it. I hate the water, makes me sick. yha flower said " when I come down to san diego we will meet up" and yesterday she was in mission beach and couldn;t even hollar.
She looks good no doubt about that but she is kind of demanding. I have to talk to her when she wants and it doesn;t matter if I'm doing the dishes out in the street or making cash on the grind. her way right away.
I think we are both leo's. I haven;t been to the mall in 4 days. maybe that is why I don;t feel soo good. I better go tommorow and go buy something.
I guess without tina or without me promoting life goes on. And life will always go on i guess. but I don;t like it. This is not the life I wanted and This is not the life I like living. and That is why I do not want to live anymore. and that is why I will not be living for very much longer.
I guess the reason why I like freestyle music soo much is because it is pimp shyt. I have never found a dance music that was cool except for maybe rump shaker or that two live crew shit.
and yess freestyle music is pure. I mean Rap is cool but that gangsta stuff Is played out. maybe I have seen the bad side of " the ghetto" so it isn't appealing to me.
I like ghetto-ness but Only when it is appropriate. Like I have been waiting to hit the streets shooting for along time. but There has not been a viable reason such as revelnge or lustfullness lately.
Freestyle Music like timmt-t , stevie-b, lil suzy,tka, is the bomb. You can dance to it and the girls jock. Especially the fine pacific islander girls in ph. They Jock those songs.
and It's wholesum, something for the whole family. No bad words and all they talk about is love. what is worse than that???? maybe country .
........Yha I want a girlfriend. I have been wanting a girlfriend for along time now.
I don't know whats wrong with me. I have been getting more and more depressed lately. but the scary part is I have been getting more angry. This is not a trait i usually show. I usually like to bottle up my anger untill it controls me in a sycopath rage.
I love it when my anger Drives me to plot and plan your ultamite demize. And this month has not been an uneventfull one with 2 assasination attempts on me and tippy locote. Alot of ego tripping out there. Phone bangers are now making house calls with gats trying to blast someone,
trying to make a name for themselves. I sometimes think of these people and All I can think is " how Lame are these people ". They are just haters. And I am a hater no doubt. But It's different when I hate, I'm sneeky and I slither. These haters bust pancho's, hollywood styles. trying to get as many people
involved as they can, not knowing the juice card can be played on their ass. No matter how big someone thinks they are, there is always a bigger fish. The question I hear everyday Is "where the hoes at". I don;t talk to hoes so I would not know, and The only girls i know just want to talk to me.
that is one of the main reasons why fools hate me. because of these girls. Either it is their girl or their date or some girl they like , It's always something. Or the fact that I am supposevly hiding girls and when they don;t kick it I call up all these girls and it;s on.
Girls are always envolved. One thing I hate lately is this gang scene or dope game scene with all these "so called taxers" trying to call shots. First of all these peoples minds are about evolved as an ape with a 5th grade education. Small minded people who could not grasp any sort of edieals or loyalty or trust in the world so they
follow a puppet masters flawed rules. So all these shot callers are guys we know this. But all these guys are either dead or in Jail. There is a short supply of men Who do big things In San Diego who Isn;t locked up or dead. So Who carries on the orders? The Girlfriend or wife. Thats all we need.
Women doing things. Women have always been ruling the world but low pro, but unfortunately the mexican race has not produced an evolved mind inside the body of a woman. The mexican brain is primative but socially advanced. As with anyone everyone has their excell points.
I'm going to call shots in Chula Vista and I do not care what anyone says. The City is mine and nobody can take that away from me.
See one of the great things about me Is I do not hold any value in the police or Us Lwas. I also do not hold any value in any gangs or criminal groups. I operate under my own guidelines and rules that I set myself and that can be changed at any time.
I do practice freedom of speech and That is one thing I love about the U.S.A.
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may June 2003 In San Diego. The Streets are still dead in Diego. The South bay is Just a skeleton of what it once was. The Police are happy because there are no parties and the streets are quiet. or so they think. huge smoker parties are going on in every house and apartment in the south bay. Smoking bomb isn;t easy but everyone is doing it. It isn;t that the party scene died or everyone left it. The scene is actually bigger than it ever was, It is just separated itself into smaller circles. If All these circles of friends and people got together. damm that would be a huge party. As Far as life. well life sucks still. I cruise around southwestern college almost everyday at dusk. That is fun. I like to p[lay gangster rap tp teach those wanna be mexicans a lesson.
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