I take a step closer to the ledge
Thinking of my selfworthlessness
I am going to jump over the edge
And give other people happiness
I am just in the way of peoples lives
I am too worthless to be someones wife
Standing on the edge I leave my note
I maiedl the letters to my friends
And with a last painful moment
I mailed the letter to my ex who I love
Explaining how much life hurts
And how painful it is to feel
I walk up to the last point of the edge
Standing now on the peak of the ledge
I look around to the blackened sky
I wish silently that I could fly
I say a last farewell to the world
And I jump off into the darkness
I feel the sky rushing across me
I thought I was going to die
Then the impossible happens
The wind is so very strong
That I am barely falling
The worst that can happen
If I land at this speed
Would be maybe a broken bone
I won't die from this jump
But I wanted to die so very much
I land after almost two hours in the sky
I land softly without any pain
On a ground kissed by rain
I know now I wasn't suppose ot die
And that there is a reason for my life
I start to study feverently
I push to become the best I can
I fight to find the truth about me
I feel the pain in me
I wonder why It is me
That lived but I work
I change my life for the better
I help those I know better theirs
I stand tall and alone
My ex is gone from me
But now I have a better purpose
Since I stepped out onto that ledge
And plumetted over the edge
Tearis 9-23-03