The mission of Christ is to comfort the Father. How is this done? Jesus said that to do the will of God is to love one another. He gives a parable of the one lost sheep and how the shepherd leaves the other 99 to find it. So the work of Christ is the work of reconciliation. Reconciliation of God and humankind, of husband and wife, of parents and children, and of siblings.

There exists Four Great Realms of Heart within a family. These consist of parental love, children’s love, conjugal love, and sibling love. Our hearts are created to experience each of these loves in a harmonious family. However, the Fall brought about the division of these loves. It’s as if a nuclear bomb exploded within the heart of the family of God destroying the relationships of God, Adam, Eve, Abel and Cain.

The pattern of these broken relationships are within each of our hearts. This is the original blueprint of hearts that we inherited from our first ancestors. Since then other blueprints of heart relationships have been created which we also have inherited from our ancestors and collectively from whatever racial or national group we come from. On top of this, the heart patterns we have developed from our experience within our own childhood family exist within our hearts.

How is the restoration of heart accomplished? Jesus speaks of loving one’s enemy. Why does he emphasize this? Is it just to pay indemnity, to keep the peace, to show we are more religious than the other person? There exists a universal principle behind these words. What is this principle? In order for restoration to occur, enemies must unite in true love. The course of restoration is not just external to ourselves, but it starts within our own hearts. Jesus speaks of the Kingdom of Heaven being within. The Kingdom of Hell exists within us, also. The division of these Four Great Realms of Heart creates this Hell. The restoration of these four realms, resulting in their unity, creates heaven within.

How is this heaven within practically created? Doesn’t it seem that the universe constantly puts you in difficult relationships? Why? For reconciliation. However, many times we achieve reconciliation only after an arduous path of fighting our inability to love this other person. Usually, we unconsciously overcome whatever it is that bothers us about them, or we simply leave the relationship. However, this is not so easy if the person is our spouse or our child.

There exists within our heart pattern of relationships the image that resembles in some way the very person we are having difficulty loving unconditionally. How is this? In our childhood family, we received not only pure love, but also impure love. We stored the memory of this love and our reaction to it in a part of our hearts. Whenever we receive impure love from someone important to us, we can react in one of two ways. One is out of our true nature and the other is out of our fallen, evil nature. If reconciliation is made soon after the original hurtful experience with the one who harmed us and we forgive them, then our hearts remain whole, and we can move forward in the growth of our hearts in that area of love.

However, if we decide not to forgive, or are unable to make inner reconciliation with what occurred, we push the part of our heart storing the image of our resentment and pain away from our pure innermost part of our hearts. After time, it goes underground into our unconscious minds. If it was a traumatic experience, we may break it off and throw it into the outermost area of our being, totally inaccessible to our conscious minds. Do you remember the scene in the first "Star Wars" movie? Luke Skywalker discovers the holographic image of Princess Leah in the computer. The parts of our hearts that we disown are stored in our inner universe in a similar way.

The reality of this is that we can never be whole in our heart until we retrieve these pieces, purify and integrate them back into our hearts;- How isihis done? As I said earlier, it is through loving our enemies. The victim part of our hearts seeks reconciliation with the ~abusern part. How is this possible for a "victim" to do after being hurt so deeply? The reality of who we are is that we were created as sons and daughters of God. We were created to only express beauty, goodness and truth. God’s character. Whenever we express hatred, lies and selfishness we violate the very essence of our being. It is this violation that creates the deep feelings of guilt and shame within. To restore our character to reflect God’s, we need to confess, repent and seek forgiveness from our enemies for choosing to be bitter, resentful and, at times, to seek revenge.

Even God experiences strong emotions when He is hurt. However, He always comes to the point of reconciliation within, finally serving those who have hated Him. This is why Jesus counseled his followers to take the log out of their own eyes before judging another’s sins. The irony of this advise is that once the log is removed from our eyes, the vengeful desire to judge others is lost. We realize that it was the logs in our own eyes that were polluting our hearts and not what the abuser originally did to us.

Again, if we were unable to achieve reconciliation with who and what occurred soon after the original incident, and then reacting out of our fallen nature, we come to take on a part of the evil that was given to us, creating the victim-abuser relationship within our hearts. This is the root cause of the conflicting voices on the tapes we play over and over again in our minds whenever we become triggered by someone or some situation that reminds us of the initial abuse. As adults, in our dreams or in real life, what we are running from when we meet people we fear is not them, but our hatred or resentment of them. Again, we violated our conscience.

Identifying the different voices within can be tricky. What appears to be the voice of the inner victim may actually be the voice of the inner abuser. This may be the reason why it is hard to transform the negative energy locked in this relationship. Having a sincere willingness to know the exact nature of this inner dynamic will bring the light needed to reveal what it is. Many times it is the voice of the wounded child who was the victim in his childhood family, but then took on the voice of his abuser to protect himself. Consciously recognizing this hidden voice of the wounded child, encouraging it with a compassionate heart to humble himself to God and His Word, then asking it to repent for this evil attitude to the one he is directing his rage at will break this negative energy cycle within the individual. Once this is done, healing can come to the wounded inner child who was holding onto his sinful attitude as protection.

Also, the heart of the filial child may have misinterpreted the attitudes or actions of his parents and created an image of this misinterpreted attitude in the parent part of his Heart Prism. For instance, a child who was given away at birth by his mother may say to himself, "My mom is telling me that I am totally worthless such that she is taking everything I love (being the mother) away. So to honor my mother and do to myself as she is doing to me, I will take everything away from me that I love." The individual creates this mother image held in the mother part of his Heart Prism that then directs this "death wish" in the individual’s relationships. At this point

in the individual’s growth of heart, he or she has to decide consciously to let go of all heart attachments to the false father and mother through repentance for holding onto them. A conscious choice has to be made to bond totally in filial heart to the true parents, absolutely and unconditionally.

This is why it is important for us to confess and repent for these evil feelings we have towards others. Unless we do, we will always be running from these images within and people without, never able to find inner or outer peace. However, they are only reminding us of the inner dynamic of hatred between the two conflicting parts stemming from our childhood, ancestry or history. Something I discovered very paradoxical about hatred. In actuality, we inwardly choose to hate someone not because we really want to get away from them, but rather because we couldn’t be in a loving relationship with them. So any relationship is better than feeling totally alone and destitute in the world, especially as a child.

So whenever we experience an unloving attitude towards someone, by searching within, we can come to identify the two voices of the conflicting parties. By bringing them to our inner altar and having each confess and repent for their evil feelings, reconciliation of our inner heart relationships can occur. This in turn will begin to be reflected in our outer relationships. We will begin to have feelings of compassion towards those we once held distaste for. The more we consciously work on this process, the more we come to create the heart of Christ within. We are in the process of creating a home within our hearts where God can reside. This process of inner reconciliation brings the Four Great Realms of Heart within our hearts together once more, enabling the individual to experience these loves freely.

Say an original wounding by a parent occurred in the early life of a child which is now affecting the husband-wife relationship. The individual comes to realize that her husband’s habits remind her of something her father use to do. This present relationship is being overshadowed by the past. The relationship between her realm of father’s love and realm of child’s love is one of conflict. The individual then has her child aspect repent to her father aspect of heart for holding onto this sinful heart attitude. The father aspect repents to the child aspect of heart for whatever it was that initiated this response in his child. The opening of this inner relationship between parent and child will bring compassion into the outer conjugal relationship, resulting in a more harmonious one.

The reconciliation of an individual’s heart becomes magnified when the division involves ancestral, national or historical sins. But the process is the same. Again, both sides of these wars exist within an individual. The historical people created a negative energy base through their unresolved confrontation which is now being expressed through the structure of the fallen nature of their descendants. The individual brings these two conflicting parts of her heart together before the altar of God, has them confess and repent of these sinful attitudes towards each other, and asks for forgiveness and forgives the other.

This spirit of reconciliation allows the parts of our hearts which inherited our ancestors sinful attitudes to come forward more and more to be purified. Inner peace is achieved as the historical negative energy bases are dissolved in this way. This is the reason intercessory prayer for ancestral sins works. By creating unity through the process of reconciliation within our own hearts and bringing this heart to our outer relationships, we liberate history as we confess and repent for these historical heart patterns.

In addition to using our outer relationships to discover the parts of ourselves we have disowned, we can also use our dreams. Many times these images holding our sinful heart attitudes appear in our dreams. The more we become willing to see these distasteful parts of our hearts, the more they will come forward into our conscious minds through our dreams.

Rather than experiencing shame when we see our inner evil, it should be a time of rejoicing. The ability to see our evil means that we have begun to create within our hearts the Christ consciousness. The more we build the Christ consciousness within, the more the evil parts of our hearts will feel safe to show themselves to us. Congratulations. When we are unable to face our own evil, it means we have to work on developing the Christ consciousness first, which is the willingness to take responsibility for the process of reconciliation through loving the unlovable.

Have you ever wondered what it would be like to meet God face-to-face, or heart-to-heart? I have. Until recently, I felt I had. Then just last month, I had the honor of coming to that initial meeting place. After many years of working on restoring my own heart, I finally reached a place where I could just be in heart. It was July 23rd. I was home sick with an intestinal flu. I have never enjoyed being sick in bed as sitting or lying in one place was always uncomfortable for me. So here I lay. This time I felt my heart wanted to rest. And rest it did. It rested in the heart of God. Bringing my awareness upward, I felt the presence of Heavenly Father. His consciousness was there with me, waiting for me to recognize Him. As my consciousness was finally there, I did. I spoke to Him in heart and mind and He spoke back. As this was our first face-to-face meeting, I was shy. I felt on one hand like it was a father meeting his daughter, but on the other, I felt like a bride meeting her bridegroom for the first time.

As I allowed myself to become familiar with His vibration of heart, I began to realize that I have contacted this heart vibration before in my everyday life. It was then that I realized that God is ever present. His presence is felt in the void between all other consciousnesses in the universe. This is why in Eastern thought and discipline, one comes to experience God in the void, as through meditation. This is the purpose behind the Zen paradoxes like "What is the sound of one hand clapping?" It is to create a void in our busy mind (physical mind) where we can then meet God. (I actually answered this question to my satisfaction, "It is the sound of the tears of the hand yearning for the other one.") Heart is in that space. It is here where we meet the heart of God. It is here where we create a place where we can receive His heart, His presence. The quieting of the physical mind, the mind of survival, the mind of self-purpose.

I caught sight of this place of peace back in 1985. I remember so clearly observing my black cat, Abigail, one sunny spring day sitting in the meadow behind my house. There she sat with her nose raised upward blissfully sniffing the air. I caught her peacefulness and absolute harmony with the world around her. I saw her in her God "catness". I remember catching the vibration of this space or void she was in outside of her usual daily routine of hunting, eating, sleeping, playing. My heart yearned for that peacefulness and oneness with the world around me.

That morning in bed, I reflected back to catching this consciousness when looking into the eyes of a cow or deer. While staring into a cow’s eye, sensing it’s consciousness or being, I would all of a sudden sense this incredible vulnerability, purity, openness of consciousness in the eyes. Then the "cowness" would come back again. Back and forth in waves of consciousness, I would experience being with the animal and then with this other awareness.

Thinking that it must have something to do with only animals that were passive, non-hunters, I didn’t make much of the experience. However, after this experience in my room, I realized that this God consciousness was also in my cat’s eyes, and not just gentle, plant-eating animals. Between the cat’s aggressive, survival consciousness lay this receptive, gentle gaze coming back to me, opening to me, trusting me. I realize that this is why people like to look into the eyes of newborn babies. It is here that we can experience this gaze of God so clearly and for a long period of time.

This place is where I met God that first day. I realize that I can go to this place anytime I want. That He is there waiting for me. What pulls me away from Him is the realization that this tenderness, this vulnerability is what was hurt at the time of the Fall, and continues to be hurt. This pain is what pulls me away. I have not reach the point in my own heart development to be able to remain with Him in the fullness of His pain. It is my pain, too. And I have not learned how to be with my pain, and so find I am unable to be with God in His. This fear of being in my pain keeps me in the fight and flight survival mode of my physical mind. But now that I realize what I am striving for in my relationship with Him, I am more focused on accomplishing this. I want to be there for Him in His pain. I only pray that I can become strong enough soon.

May 14, 1998

I read a passage by Rev. Moon in the book, The Way of the True Child. earlier this week. ("What is God’s motivation for creating the whole creation?... He is the King of all being. Yet He lack one thing. He has it but He cannot use it. ...It is love. Love is in His mind but has not been able to be expressed... .God feels bored. Think about God. For many billions of years, He has been alone.. ..There is nothing more pitiful than to be alone.") I kept asking myself, "How do I help God not be alone?" I would think about Him as often as I remember. I would talk to him during the day. But still it didn’t seem enough to satisfy His deep longing to be a part of my life. I sat at the kitchen table two nights ago with a friend. I shared these thoughts/feelings with her, again questioning how. In the conversation, I realized that it was through our sharing of heart centered on love that God was able to be present.

Sitting in the lotus position on my living room floor this morning, focusing on the red and white symbol of the Heart of God, singing a word over and over again, I came to realize that the heart of the song that I was singing is the same song God has been singing since the creation of the universe. It is the song of the lover for His beloved and the beloved for Her lover. God has been alone all of this time waiting for us, His beloveds, to perfect our hearts so that He can dwell within. How long and lonely this path has been for Him.

I began to ponder more on this and realized that God is like our Grandparent, not able to participate in the relationships with His children and grandchildren. He waits outside of our hearts and the hearts of our families, tribes, nations and the world, looking in, watching the intellectual/emotional exchanges taking place. When will we grow our hearts to enable Him to come into the warmth of the kitchen? I thought of my relationship to my grandmother. I cried. I desperately wanted to allow my Heavenly Grandmother to come into my heart and feel at home there. The only way She could was by my giving up my bitterness, hatreds and resentments I held in my heart towards my physical grandmother. I did. Again, it was in the relationship of the sharing of hearts centered on love that God can abide within this relationship.

Sun Myung Moon, The Way of the True Child, Family Federation for World Peace and Unification, Canada, 1998, p. 125.

Emotions well up deep within my heart as I recall my childhood. I scream inside. I scream to the theologians who say that some of us are saved and some are born damned. I scream to the reincarnationists who say that we did it to ourselves in some long ago forgotten time. I scream to those who believe we are just like the animals and that it is the survival of the fittest.

Why am I screaming? Why do I grieve? Do you really want to know or is your life too busy to pause and experience the depth of my pain?

I scream as the innocent child part of my heart, my magical child, realizes that the pain she experienced in her young years was a result of someone else’s evil, not because of any evil she did. This child within screams to the world that the vision of beauty and goodness she has held deep within, the promise of a magical world of love, was not a fantasy, but was meant to be a reality, her reality. This magical child screams and then grieves over her realization that all of these dreams were meant to be. She was born a princess of love and joy into a kingdom of hell. Does anyone listen to her cries? And then she grieves. And grieves. Alone with her pain, past the terror of facing the fact that "what if it was really true." Past this into the reality of "yes, it was true."

Wait. She senses something or someone’s presence. Who’s there?

It can’t be. Oh, no. More pain floods her being. Oh, no. Please don’t let it be true. But it is true. You, God, you have been with me this whole time watching over me, your princess of love and joy born into this kingdom of evil. You grieve along with me over this loss of the ideal for it is yours, too.

Oh, my God, my Heavenly Father. This pain is even worse. You, God. You, you don’t deserve this treatment. I have sinned. My family and nation have sinned. But You haven’t. Oh, my loving God. How can you bear this pain of loss?

Our pain blends. Our grief meets. I found you, my loving Father, at Gogotha. You have been carrying my cross all of this time with me. I feel foolish, but I didn’t know. Now I do. My Father. You even whisper to me that you are sorry that this happened to me. My heart grieves even more to feel that you grieve even for this. Don’t worry about me, my Father. I will be OK. It was OK that it happened to me for I understand that I was chosen to pay the price for the sins of my ancestors when I was a child. I understand and am actually grateful now to have helped you in this way. I love you, my Father, and thank-you.

Scene One: In the restroom of my place of work, in the stall. I begin to touch into my feelings of bitterness, hatred and resentment towards a friend of mine whom I felt betrayed me. After several months, I have still been unable to "let this go". Ironically, the night before I had prayed for God’s help to let these feelings go and release me from the hold this person has on me. I prayed a prayer of repentance for my deep feelings of hatred, bitterness and resentment. So here I am again wrapped in my dark feelings towards him the next day. I begin to speak to my friend’s bratty inner child and how he doesn’t want to love his mother. On and on I go in my lecturing tirade.

Scene two: I step out of the stall and face myself in the mirror on the wall over the sinks. A thought comes into my consciousness, "Why don’t you see if there is this "bratty" child within you who does not want to take care of your husband because she is living is the past relationship with her father?" I then began to sense this upresence~~ I could tell that it was not the spirit of a deceased person. Concentrating more, I realized that it was the holographic essence of my inner child of 38 years ago fully intact and stuck in time. After going through the few seconds of overcoming my shock at what I was experiencing, I proceeded to give the same lecture to this child and saw so clearly that she indeed had the same feelings and viewpoint as my friend’s inner child.

Scene Three: The voice came to me again, this time speaking directly to my lost three year old. "Your father is dead. He died," the voice says softly and gently. My adult mind thought. "Yes, he did. I was 19 when he died." The voice spoke again to this three year old. ‘Your father died," again in this soft motherly voice. This time the message reached this holographic essence of my three year old. She started to cry and grieve for the first time in her, my life. Past and present merged into one. The reality of the result from my sexual abuse from my father penetrated my consciousness. The reality was that he died as my father that day 38 years ago. I lost my daddy and she finally allowed this truth to penetrate her barriers of denial. All of her ranting and ravings of bitterness and hatred were just the walls she created to prevent her from experience the painful reality of this truth. She did not want to face the fact that what she grieved most from the sexual abuse was not the loss of herself, but the loss of her dad. She lost the most precious relationship to her, the father-daughter relationship. She desperately tried to keep her dad "tied" to her through maintaining this relationship of hatred. When she was finally able to release this hatred, the painful realization of the death of her dad was able to come to her consciousness.

Ever since the magic eye pictures came out, I have been very fascinated and challenged by them. I obtained one and taped it on my desk so that every once in a while I could practice seeing the hidden picture. I got to the point where I could go in and out of it at ease and at will. I would even look away once my eyes were seeing the hidden picture and then come back to the picture to see if I was still in that state. It was possible. I then began to wonder if this phenomena had similarities with the ability to see spirit world.

I realized that in order for me to see the hidden picture, I had to get into a relaxed, meditative state. I would inhale deeply while beginning to let go of this present surroundings and find myself going through this invisible tunnel. Once through the tunnel, my vision would begin to clear and expand. Then I would begin to be able to focus on the hidden picture. I hypothesized that in order to see it you had to go from left brain, analytical, thinking, into right brain, creative, thinking. It was a dynamic of moving across mentally, not moving up. I did meditation consistently for a year which trained my mind to be able to move into that quite state while awake.

Then one day while walking on a wooden path in a park with my children, I looked deep into the woods, past the first line of trees. The view was darker behind this row of trees which gave the impression of depth. I was in a very calm and daydreaming mood. My heavier emotions were in check and I felt more heartfelt yearning going on inside. I then began to see, sense another reality to the woods. I saw the spirit world copy of the trees. It was an exact replica of what I saw in the physical world except there was a vibrancy, an aliveness, a consciousness that was felt even in the trees, ground, bushes. Everything was aware and alive. I realized then that the phenomena of seeing a hidden picture in a magic eye photo was very similar to this experience I was having with the woods. I wanted to see if I could go in and out of the two worlds and found I was able to maintain the awareness of the two woods, similar to my experience with the magic eye photo.

People train their consciousness to be sensitive to spirit world by surrendering to that peaceful, quietness within their inner universe through meditation. This creates the foundation for being able to sense this peaceful state in our outer universe.

Within an individual’s Heart Prism, the first dual essentiality of internal character/external form (mind/body) is seen in the primary pair of hemispheres: parent/child. The Upper parental hemisphere is in the position of the mind and the Lower children’s hemisphere is in the position of the body. The heart of filial piety is essential in order to accomplish the unity of these two hemispheres of mind and body centered upon God, the Parent. This is where the vertical relationships of love are held. These loves flow through this first pair of hemispheres.

An individual begins to create a rebellious heart early on when he senses that his parents are loving him conditionally. It is immaterial at this point to prove that they were or were not loving him conditionally, the point is that he made the judgment and then the decision to separate a part of his heart from them out of resentment. Rather than processing that realization, experiencing the pain and forgiving his parents, the individual becomes demanding of them. "You must love me this way." He begins to expect to be given to. This is different than the filial heart that knows it will be given to. The former doubts the love of the parents.

A separation, a distrust, has begun to enter into the relationship. Again, this may be the reality. Our parents most likely did not love us unconditionally. The point here is that we are held responsible for the decision to choose to hold resentment and bitterness towards our parents irrespective of this fact. You can have a filial heart and still be hurting inside. It is what we do with this pain that decides the difference. This determines which fork in the road our hearts will go. The fork of forgiveness and love or the fork of bitterness and hatred. The first fork reestablishes unity with the parent and the other creates disunity.

The next step away from a heart of filial piety is we begin to become resentful and embittered towards our parents because they are not giving us the love that we now feel we deserve and demand of them. This leads to the heart attitude of "Heck with you, since you won’t give me what I want I’ll get it myself." We begin to go horizontally to fulfill our love needs. We then begin to perceive the world as ours for the taking. We objectify everything which we "need". In this way, we can take without feeling guilty. We eat food without the honoring of it. We take sex without loving the one we are sharing the experience with. We take all material goods without respecting and loving them. All of the dysfunctional behaviors play out here. We set ourselves first before the world. We have usurped the position of God. We are God. This is the solidification of our false self, our false ego. We then feel we have the right to take whatever we want, and to destroy whatever or whomever we want. This is the beginning point of all wars: the war between our mind and body, between our brothers and sisters, between our races, and nations.

As an individual begins to work on cleansing and integrating his dual essentialities of internal character/external form (mind/body), he places his focus on the parent/child relationships held within his Heart Prism. The individual begins to identify, cleanse and integrate the images he holds in his Heart Prism of the figures and the relationships between each of the figures: father, mother, son or daughter, father-son, father-daughter, mother-son, and mother-daughter. The individual searches for the evil attitudes he has in the children’s hemisphere of his Heart Prism that is holding onto his evil attitudes towards his inner parents. All this hatred creates over time a wedge of hatred that begins to separate the individual’s mind and body, blocking communication between these two pairs of hemispheres of the Heart Prism. Mind/body unity cannot be achieved until this wedge of hatred is removed through deep repentance.

Much of the work involves focusing on the evil heart attitudes of the inner child. These attitudes can be seen existing in the inner relationships. For example, our evil nature may have created a parental scapegoat within our Heart Prism so that it can hide from our conscious minds by shifting the focus off of its own evil attitudes onto these self-created images of its inner parents. But as long as this inner evil dynamic exists, the wedge will remain between the mind and the body. So rather than focusing on the evil observed within the inner parents, the individual focuses on the attitudes of his inner child and repents for these. Under the heart of the resentful child is the heart of the confused filial child. This true heart will begin to come forth during the cleansing process of repentance. Communication between the parents’ and children’s hemispheres will begin to take place on a more honest and deeper level.

So when an intense evil attitude emerges, rather than hiding from the presence of God, the individual brings this evil before the altar in repentance, and learns to be there with God. Daily repenting over a set period of time will allow three things to take place: all of the hidden feelings of bitterness, resentment and hatred can come forward; it is an offering to God to restore His trust in us; it trains our heart to go to God whenever we begin to feel the separation occurring again. In other words, it retrains our child heart to go to the parents to get its vertical love needs met.

Driving to work today with my husband and youngest son, we observed a driver of another car swerve into our lane at highway speeds. My husband commented on how different it would be if people would drive courteously by thinking of the other drivers on the road. He was amazed at how selfish the behaviors of some can be. I thought about the point he just made and then reflected on how I drive and why. I told him that for some people the world is a big competition. The goal is to win over everyone, to beat them, to get ahead of the rest.

I then realized that the goal for me is to create harmony. I desire to create patterns that bring about unity and harmony. A peacemaker. I thought about how this goal even influences the way I drive. How I receive joy through being a part of the whole flow of traffic, feeling the energy between the other cars and I, creating a higher order of harmony. How others drive in a state of separateness from the rest of the drivers. I thought about these two different perspectives: how they influence all of our actions, and how the fruit of one is peace and the other is conflict....

To Eric and our children, my school of love, "I love you, and without your support all of these years, I wouldn’t have been able to accomplish this work." To Genie, my dear friend and sister who has supported me throughout my course of healing, I say, "You have my eternal love and gratitude." To Lou and Melinda, ‘Thank you for believing in me and being there so unconditionally for me during this crucial part of my journey." To my editors and graphic designers, Susan, Burton, Henry and Jamie, "Thank you for your unconditional support and gift of time." To Richard, Russell and Peter, "I will always be grateful to you for helping me learn to trust again." "Thank you, Wolf, for being there during this critical time in my healing."