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Bulimia is.... Hell. Pure, living hell. I'm not saying it is worse than anorexia, because it isn't necessarily. It's different for everyone. But Bulimia is... bulimia is gross. It is ew. It is very ew. Lots of people shove toothbrush handles down their throat, I've heard stories of people swallowing their toothbrush in the gasping part of the heaving; and having to be rushed to ER. Other people shove their fingers down their throat. I do the latter, so I can give more information on how that feels. You gag, your stomach lurches, your eyes water, you get congested from the pressure, you heave once, twice, thrice... however long it takes until you get food up. It's never quick. twenty to forty five minutes to purge. You gag, you cry, you can't breathe, because your nose is congested, you can't breathe through your mouth, your fingers are there, and when your throat constricts to inhale, your fingers get caught, and you choke; but you don't stop to breathe because if you stop your stomach may settle and you have to restart. I've passed out on the bathroom floor from this before. If you don't move your hand fast enough, guess what? You get a handful of regurgitated whatever. Eloquent, huh? You have to have a sort of intuition about when to move though, because sometimes the upheavals won't bring up anything, and you have to keep at it to get the food up. However, even if you DO get your hand out of the way, then your vomit splashes a mixture of food and water back into your face. Some bulimics take laxatives and duirects. I've never done this. I've heard it causes extreme cramps; I'd imagine it would. If you EVER get blood up; stop. STOPSTOPSTOP. It could only be a cut in your throat, if it's deep, dark red, about the consistancy of used coffee grounds, and metallicy-tasting, then you need to call 911 RIGHT THEN. I don't give a damn if your sister is giving birth, you need to get help. That's internal bleeding, it can cause death. So unless you want to be underground, call; and if you DO want to be underground, go here- it's not proffessional help, but that page is good. you can try emailing JO@Samaritans.org - that's an anonymous suicidal email line thing, it takes a dayish time or so, but they do respond. Anyhow, back to Bulimia... If you purge too often you can lose your gag reflex. Purging won't work, you may just gag, you may get an upheaval, but nothing will come up. You have to cool it a couple days and wait for it to come back. That also means that whatever you ate during that binge, is staying right where it is. Lots of bulimics rip deeper into their throat when this happens; the scar they develope on their knuckles from their teeth rubbing against their hand gets worse because it's violent then, you get serious cuts from your teeth. Some Bulimics resort to Ipecac. this is BAD. Ipecac can result in death, damnit! It has medicinal values, but it is only used when the threat of death via the poison is higher than the threat of death from the ipecac. Ipecac fucks with your heart, it can make you go into cardiac arrest. Your heartbeat can become irregular from Bulimia... so can your breathing. Your breathing can also start to get less and less involuntary. I've been shaken awake by friends, saying that I was blue and not breathing. You can also lose menstruel. You can lose menstruel in Anorexia too, however. It's still kind of shocking. Your teeth can also be rotted by bulimia. This is partially counterable, but it is still not good. I think that's about it for now. |