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Personal Bytes
2004 ... 2003 ... 2002 ... 2001
2000 ... 1999 ... 1998 ... 1997
1996 ... 1995 ... 1994 ... 1993
1992 ... Mount Indefatigable


Political Bytes
Political Compass
1996-2003






Journal Extractions: Personal

The following are random bits and bytes taken from my journals on a
variety of topics to further define my thoughts, lifestyle & worldview.

As an Apr27-02 entry reads, "It is not the day to day volatility or
indecision of these journals I choose to reveal, but the ideas, plans,
emotions and experiences that have predominantly played in the
development of my character over time."


2004


The cost of a 214 day trip through Mexico and Central America: $8524.36 / 214 = $39.83 CAD per day. (Aug25,04)
By comparison, the first trip I ever did, from London to Hong Kong over 652 days, cost me an approximate $15000 / 652 = $23 CAD.
The second trip, through China and SE Asia over 600 days, cost me an estimated $25000 / 600 = $41.67 CAD a day.


Where is the adventure? What is so original in seeking a profession? a career? Pumped full of sunshine and smile -- for a cubicle existence? Upgraded to your own (office) room? A job to pay the mortgage, groceries, and other misc bills? To take 2-3 week vacations in the Caribbean every other year? I don't get it. Why profession at all? Why highlight, or emphasize, the profession? Why not emphasize what the profession can allow you to do? But therein is the contradiction. A profession is largely binding. It is momentum driven. The freedom you imagine the profession will bring is undermined by (a) the binding agreement of the profession, the pursuit of the profession itself, and (b) the rut of possessions -- house, car, etc, -- that so many automatically accept as the given, the way to happiness.
The 7 month tour of Mexico and Central America really opened up my eyes to the potential of more travel. I think staying in China for so long actually bored me of travelling, as in 'it is all the same from here on in.' Now I look to South America, with its 13 large sized countries, and wonder what kind of geographies, landscapes and creatures exist there.
By pursuing a profession, a specialization, will I be diluting what I seek through travel, to explore and observe geological and biological diversity? To see newness, uniqueness (in terms of my experience) and inspiration? Do I exist to specialize in financial transactions, telephone troubleshooting, or peddle cable tv packages? or do I exist to pursue my dreams? to pursue exploration and investigation on a worldwide scale? to experience a cross-section of all life on earth?
To give up travel for a cubicle seems outrageous. Yet I feel this 'social current' tugging on me to do so. A mainstream value here is what one does as a profession; it is a source of pride, of accomplishment. I agree, I think it is. But then so many individuals never plug that success into actualizing their dreams. They rot. Profession or specialization undermines one's liberty to travel; it smacks of self-denial and a lack of freedom. Corporate-altruism. (May19,04)
Why not celebrate life-diversity to its fullest, ... cut a path of individualism, a path that all dream of, minimizing the corporate cubicle, corporate grindage, emphasizing maximum freedom, exploration, adventure. (Jun9,04)
To specialize not in a profession, but to specialize in freedom. (Jun18,04)
The fault of many who criticize capitalism see it as a corporate philosophy, purely economic. I see capitalism not as the corporation but of individual freedom. While I am in awe of the corporation's ability to generate creativity, it is a world that is not my first choice. To stand on the peak of a live volcano in the wide open air is far more preferable than a cubicle. And an office, no matter what your corporate rank, is just that, a glorified cubicle. (Jun27,04)


Of love. Love is born from a mutual acknowledgement and respect of fundamental values. It is not mystical in origin, but practical, subject to and determined by reason, the most fundamental of all values. A romantic relationship is an investment. An investment in which two individuals expect reward in its cultivation. An investment of money, yes, but more importantly, of time (money being a representative of time). (Jun6,04)


Love is not the answer to everything. Reason is. What is love except a response to values? Without values, love is not possible. Don't talk to me of love, peace and harmony without values, reason and philosophy. If you disagree, try loving someone who hates what you value most. (Nov1,04)


Never borrow from friends. "If something happens and I can't pay the money back, I'd rather owe strangers. I couldn't bear the thought that my idiocies meant any of my friends were out of purse." (P237, quote from Caesar, by Colleen McCullough) ... Of Stoicism, "Love. Temper it with detatchment and never let it rule you. Nothing which debases the mind must rule, and emotions debase the mind." (P249) ... At heart all Romans are businessmen. War is a temporary condition ... what conquests win, commerce keeps. You win empires for a businessman to preserve and Romanize." (P704) ... spending time with lessers may appear stimulating, but it is actually deflating, installing a false impression about one's ability to lead men (P167, The First Man of Rome) ... It takes many years and many heartaches to understand the miracle of life. (P127, The October Horse)


Nephesh is truth. Commit to material existence and material existence will reward. For material existence is an existence of law, of body, of mind, of rationality, of reason. The material world is capable of being understood, provided one takes the time to sincerely study it. ... Nephesh is the foundation: man is an organic mortal soul. Thus mind is organic, thought is organic, reason is organic, existence is organic. The greatest spirituality is to think. A denial of religion's immortal soul and other worlds. (May26,04)


A relationship with a female. Romantic relationships are momentum driven too. The farther the momentum extends, the more binding it becomes. Either one bails or they bind. So the idea of entering a relationship with the knowledge of a departure for South America for 1-2 years conflicts. From the beginning there is a conflict of interest. I will never give all I have to the relationship. To pursue a romantic relationship, but not sincerely -- why bother? (May19,04)


To date I have accumulated 49 months of backpacking. 49 months is 196 weeks. At the rate of a 3 week vacation per year, I have 65.33 years of vacations under my belt already. (May19,04)


Strength Deployment Inventory results.
I am largely an Analytic-Autonomizing" character, which sums up as a motivational value system of "concern for assurance that things have been properly thought out; concern for meaningful order being established and maintained; individualism, self-reliance and self-dependence. Being objective; being right; being principled; being in control of one's emotions; being practical; being cautious and thorough; being fair; being resolute; being serious; being their own 'judge and jury'; being their 'own person'; thinking things through before acting."
You feel best about what you are doing when you are ... able to pursue your own interests in a self-reliant way without having to take direction or help from those around you.
You feel most rewarded by others when they treat you as a ... clear, logical and analytic person who is deserving of respect for dealing with others fairly and for being a person of principle.
You identify with and feel most at ease with people who ... clearly respect the integrity of others and the rights of others to determine their own courses of action.
You are attracted to and intrigued by others who are ... open and explicit about what they want and how they feel, without imposing their wants or feelings on you.
Ideally, you would like to be ... more trusting of others and more open to them; less reserved about asserting your rights and wishes.
You feel distant from and somewhat contemptuous of people who ... never seem to take anything seriously, try to push their help on you or try to push you to do things their way.
You feel acute discomfort from people who ... accuse you of being opportunistic and unprincipled; push their help on you when you don't want it. (May5,04)


As soon as men have denied God - the old conception of the universe will fall of itself ... and what's more the old morality, and everything will begin anew. Men will unite to take from life all it can give, but only for joy and happiness in the present world. Man will be lifted up with a spirit of Titanic pride and the man-god will appear. From hour to hour extending his conquest of nature infinitely by his will and his science, man will feel such lofty joy from hour to hour in doing it that it will make up for all his old dreams of the joys of heaven. Everyone will know that he is mortal and will accept death proudly and serenely like a god. His pride will teach him that it's useless for him to repine at life's being a moment ... the very consciousness of life's momentariness will intensify love's fire, which is now dissipated in dreams of eternal love beyond the grave. (p688, The Brothers Karamazov, Fyodor Dostoyevsky)


Relationships. Idea being material energy, building into each other is a physical actuality. Pain upon separation, withdrawal. Heightened with romantic attachment. Caution is advised; casual romantic relationships wear one's energy levels, tearing-shredding, healing time. (Feb23,04)


A wife and child are a form of self-expression. I do not yet have an overwhelming desire for this because I have tapped other avenues of self-expression. Through my travels, my exploration, I feel I am part of something greater than myself, therefore finding self-fulfillment via non-traditional means. (Feb15,04)


"John Galt, hero of Ayn Rand's Atlas Shrugged, preparing to come down from the mountains and save the disintegrating world, has more than a little in common with Nietzsche's Zarathustra, the prophet descending from on high to redeem the ignorant, helpless masses." (Dec31,03) "To read Nietzsche, particularly in his later works like the Antichrist, is to read Ayn Rand with the gloves off, and the furious torrent of hatred and disdain that cascades out of him. To say there is no trace of him in Rand is to read her work with blinders on."


2003


Morality. Code of ethics. Principles. To live by. To flourish. These morals, rules, do not loosely resemble chemicals. I say they are exactly like chemicals, to which some chemicals should not be mixed. As a chemist must take time and study to learn what chemicals can and cannot be mixed, so too must the thinker. Some mixtures bond extremely well; others from the beginning are highly volatile, capable of explosion. Thoughts are chemicals, active ingredients of an organic existence, capable of beautifying life -- or annihilating it. (Dec13,03)


Spirituality: to be in harmony with nature, without contradiction. To feel like an integrated piece of the universe, in knowledge and action, ideal and practical. To feel part of a larger whole, at peace with one's self. (Nov17,03)


You can't follow a future your past won't lead you to.


For a couple of years after I declared atheism in September 1997, I was somewhat angry over having 'wasted' so much of my time/life on a God and religion in general. Since then, having distanced myself and restructured the foundations of my worldview, knowing with certainty the increasing impotence of relgion due to the inevitable increase of world trade (ideas-tool-services to empower individuals), my anger has slowly subsided. With the dominant force of the world on my side -- i.e., reason -- I can demote religion to the fluff it is, viewing churches as representation of a bygone age and the tombs of yet another retired god. (Oct13,03)


Just as the exhaustion of early-mid 1998 was a direct result of the militant ambition with which I approached 95-96-97, so too was this exhaustion reflected in mid 2003 as a result of 2000-01-02. Both times resulted in a collapse of activity, agitation and restlessness, along with a fitful slow recovery. The bounty secured from these periods of intense productivity more than outweigh the scars and blemishes earned with it. The latter, in the grand scheme and development of my life remain minor incidents in light of the major achievements, knowledge, efficiency and strategic allies gained as a whole. (Sep22,03)


Vacation. It means not feeling obligated to meet others. Down time. By myself I can start the internal dialogue again, re-align my energies. I need new ideas. I need to read. Minimize contact with others, maximize time with one's self. It's time to pick up the pieces so I can go higher. (Sep19,03)


In retrospect, I have not been as efficient as I could have been. But on the whole, I have come out ahead. Not only monetarily, but greater versed, experienced and convinced in my philosophy and lifestyle of choice, capitalism. As it is with our civilization, it is an experience I expect only to become more efficient with time's passing. (Sep14,03)


Fragments of a letter:
From all my explorations into philosophy and novels, the way I see myself and others remains the same as it did in 1994. In a nutshell: man is a thinking animal, his biological distinction is a rational faculty, his body is an organic mortal soul, and the earth is his heaven. That, in essence, is what I finalized during my first overseas trip in 1994-95. The second trip, 1999 & 2000, I took this vision of man onto a global stage and worked out my politics.
With a philosophy of life -- a set of values and rules -- to aid me in practical living, I thought it was time to shift my focus. Saying goodbye to my twenties, my thirties are a transition phase for me, putting the philosophy to use and creating the initial building blocks of my future.
... To date, when it comes to romantic love, I have chosen the road less travelled. I have deliberately kept my experiences with women to a minimum. ... This approach is advantageous as I can focus exclusively on cultivating myself, giving all my focus and energy to whatever it is I am devoted to at the moment. I find that by simplifying, not juggling too many things at once, by not spreading myself too thin, I can progressively plan and plot my life, and be fairly successful at it.
As I set up the building blocks of my future, as crazy as it may sound, for the next ten years or so I will most likely to opt to maintain a status quo when it comes to romance. As much as a piece of me desires the company of a lady, there are other avenues I choose to pursue first. Later, having pursued and fulfilled other desires, I will be able to give to my lady of choice all the energy and passion I have, without reservation.
To give voice to those who disbelieve or question (and there have been many), can I really live my life so well planned? I admit, there have been many speedbumps along the way: I have never been perfect in execution, I have been grossly inefficient at times (and lazy), my moods have been volatile during long months when everything seemed like it was going to break into a million pieces. But even after such speedbumps and temporary self-doubt, I think I have a good track record in getting to where I want to go. So yes, I do think I can pursue my plans successfully. And should I die tomorrow, well, on the whole I can't complain. It's been one hell of an adventure thus far. I have lived a life that many people only choose to dream about.
So to answer: what am I searching for? Am I still searching for the Truth? Yes, I am. Previously I sought to identify the fundamental ideas of my existence; now I focus more on the execution and fulfillment of those ideas. That is: according to my values, to live the most rational, productive and happy life I can possibly live. (Jun1,03)


Fragments of a letter:
From your online journal, it appears you strive for an understanding you have not yet found, but greatly desire. I call it a "rage to order." Though we all have our unique, fragmented pasts to piece together, it was not until the age of 20 that I reached breakpoint, becoming desperate enough to act, to take the risks to get me where I am today. By age 20 my family and friends have pumped me so full of contradiction I could barely tell up from down, how to move hand or foot. From a miserable failure in University, over time the idea came to me establish my own values and life through personal experience and self-education. No one else was going to guide me through my maze of self-ignorance and world misunderstanding, so I declared what I call a "totalitarian state." I sealed all my borders -- that is, slowly shut off and cut away all family members and friends. Isolating these individuals from me over time, I eventually found more time and energy for myself.
There is a quote I remember from my early 20s: "He who does not know himself, all he tells others is lies." In short, as you mentioned in your email, so many people do not know themselves, do not take the time to know themselves, so how can they give truthful and sound advice to another? In my mind, they can't. At best, their advice is a crapshoot. (Jun16,03)


A civilization of messiahs, spiritualizing the secular and secularizing the spiritual, weaving a disciplined and mastered energy, body as my soul, ecstasy as flesh, creating liberty in everything I touch. Intro/extro balanced, achieving harmony, strength, mutual advantage (men / nature / natural environment), biotechnology -- an intricate weave, ideas, history. Genesis revisited, evolution, cross-pollination, concept plays, worldwide free flow of ideas. Individuals enlightened. Existence pierced and mastered by the human mind. Infinity is within limits. (May,03)


I see the universe as an ocean of consciousness. ... there are a few who strive, who attempt to comprehend consciousness, to structure it. For these ones the metaphysical strain is great: it is hundreds of thousands of years compressed into a handful of years. It is evolution intensified. That is what rationality is: it is one's reason, under great force and pressure, reaching twenty billion years into the past to understand the present. ... We who are born on the morning of human consciousness. Our gift is being able to see the beginning. ... to impregnate existence with the sincerity and sophistication of one's soul, to give birth to an even higher level of consciousness ... A civilization of messiahs. Genesis revisited, indefinitely. (Mar29,02)


I wonder what it would be like not to keep journals anymore. No pens. No paper. That'd be weird. I wouldn't have a history anymore. I would be absorbed by time. (May26,03)


From July 2002 to June 2003 I worked two jobs. For the months of Sep-Oct-Nov-Dec of 2002 and Jan-Feb of 2003, I worked 300 hours each month. A journal comment at the middle of this time reads: Fuck am I tired. ... This is a kind of tired I have not felt for a long time, since 1997-98, with Cable tv's adventures -- 12-plus hours a day, 7 days a week, for a year. ... I am on an efficiency high but my legs are beginning to wobble. I began feeling this way at the end of October, after back to back 30-plus hour weekends. This last weekend I could barely manage 12 hours & 10 hours (without almost losing it). ... I am running on fumes. My sleeps are a bar-room brawl every night. I toss restlessly. My jaws hurt when I wake up. My dreams are chaotic and wild, filled with tension. Even though I sleep I wake up feeling as wired as when I went to bed. It's like going to sleep but not deriving any benefit. (Dec4,02) ... In addition to a minimum of 12 hours per day Monday to Friday, examples of my weekend hours from this time are: worked 17.25 hours on Saturday, 16.5 hours on Sunday (Sep29,02) ... Worked 18.25 hours on Saturday, 14.25 hours on Sunday (Nov3,02) ... Worked 16 hours on Saturday, 14.5 hours on Sunday (Feb2,03)


2002


I once read of a character who did not attend a friend's funeral. When asked why, he replied "Because I paid my respect to him when he was alive." Applied to family, whatever potential this family member gives birth to through me I honor by the pursuit of rationality. I honor them best not by the cliché of a church presence but by being true to myself, to reality, to nature, by living my life to the best of my ability. Thus, the principles of their existence, their influence upon me -- however large or small it may be -- continues to live in me and through me. This is the greatest personal tribute, the greatest personal thank you, I can conceive. Far from being a one time event, this tribute lasts the duration of my lifetime. ... Here and now I set the precedent for future action. (Nov26,02)


Raphael's School of Athens painting, of Aristotle and Plato. Aristotle's hand motion summarizes his philosophy, that the meaning of man is to be found on the earth. He motions toward the ground. From the ideas he wrote, he can be seen as the father of Western Civilization. ... Plato's hand points up to the sky, summarizing his philosophy, that the meaning of man is to be found in the heavens. From the ideas he wrote, he can be seen as the father of world religion, espeically Christianity and Islam. ... This painting by Renaissance artist Raphael summarizes all of mankind's history. Far from being inconsequential to everyday existence, these basic ideas underlie all of present day humanity as well. ... The men who designed and constructed the World Trade Centers in New York, their philosophy is that of Aristotle's. The men who brought down the World Trade Centers in New York, their philosophy is that of Plato's. (Oct2,02)


I am doing things in reverse. You know how people work and work with the eventual dream of retiring, traveling, being free? Well, I did that first. You know how family life, how many are sunk and invested into a wife / husband / child at the forefront of their years? I leave it to the second half of my life. (Jul17,02)


The human animal. This is a recurring theme of thought. There is so much foundation-less stylizing, coating, masking, hiding what we are. An air of swirling attitudes, colors, glamour, noise, inebriation, all to accent the idea, to present the picture we think others want/need to see: we are more than what we are. ... The things I consider to be of paramount importance today, at age 32, will they be trivial to me at age 64? In reflection, will I laugh at myself? or cry? Cry that I lost so much precious time, spent so much time, chasing my tail around and around in circles. Chasing so many meaningless values. ... I am in a funk. Like my return to Canada in 95, I did not forsee many events in 96-98. There were many moments after the summer of 1996 that I thought my bright-shining years were already behind me. That I was already washed up, from prophet of God to has-been in three years. Yet I came back stronger, more focused, sharper, by year 2000. ... Now in 2002, once again, I sit staring blankly at ceiling and walls. The energy, incentive, to move evades me. I don't read. I start a project, then it sits in front of me for a year. It is easy to drink, but I am usually offended as to where drinking takes me upon sobriety. ... Seize the day, he says, yet my spirit limps. I have to see these days through. ... Every period of growth is followed by a period of consolidation. This consolidation will always be boring and mundane in comparision to a period of spectacular growth and integration. This is the nature of evolution. Rest then. Rest, observe, write. For in your infinite boredom at present the seeds of a new growth are being planted. (Jun21,02)
A fundamental wrong with human beings: they do not want to recognize their animal status. Are all societies geared to this? Even a capitalist one? Do yourself up with so much gloss, so much status, that the animal is forgotten. Embarrassment consists in being revealed as an animal. Only our faces are shown. Whereas other animals have the advantage of reading body posture -- even that is a shadow in the human animal with its surface coverings and glitter. No wonder we don't understand one another, having deceptively covered over everything we are. (Nov13,99)


The dominant imperative of all relationships: selective disclosure. (Jun,02)


Of my travels, what factor had the most influence on me in terms of cultural admiration? The chance to observe the practical achievements of each culture. (Jun6,02)


The macro picture is to rationalize and define, explore and adventure. The micro picture: understanding -- it is hard to come by. Bridge the gap. Bridge the chasm that evolution has created. External masters, internal retards. ... Altered states -- it keeps one on the edge, thinking, it shakes up order, the established, the valued. Short term destruction for long term advantage. Progress, progress, we must progress. Humanity mantra. Break it all down and reintegrate what works. ... Is there no insight through the Satanic? I think there is. A great deal. The courage to challenge and question one's values, to interrogate one's self, to destroy one's good, to question the valuable. There must be altered states to step out of one's shoes / environment. It's hard to be objective when everything stays the same. ... What is noble? Noble -- in who's eyes? Who is to tell me what is noble? ... Evil. I have purposefully pursued evil much of my adult life. I am an apostate in many circles, an individual who has spit in the face of God. Always their God, never my God. ... Knowledge, a paved highway? Or a scraggly pathway? ... Experiment with evil. Pursue evil. Never pursue it mindlessly, observe all things. It doesn't matter if it temporarily undercuts your life. Learn from it. You may find more good in evil than you realize today. ... That which makes others afraid, that is what I want to know. That which is morally questionable, that is what I will pursue. It is not evil that I dislike, it is ignorance. (May30,02)


I went totalitarian (in character) during my early 20s because it is very effective when external influences are unconstructive. Military rule and emergency law bring new rules, rules whereby one can sweep aside petty social mannerisms and politeness. One of the best statements ever said about me to my face, "He doesn't play by our rules." I am not done with this type of military efficiency yet. (May2,02)


I consider myself to be a peculiar mix of good and evil. Over many years, I have constructed an external character very disciplined, quiet, yet progressive. Yet I would never have been able to achieve such progress if it were not for my 'evil,' to question my values, to deliberately put my self at risk in some cases, to go against my own understanding of good. And nobody ever gets to see that side, they just get to see the progressive results: an intellectual growth through experience. (Apr4,02)


Experimentation. It gives me licence to try/do anything. And if it fucks up / blows up in your face, it was an experiment. ... Being conscious of experimentation keeps me 'on the edge', experience wise, thought wise. I allow myself to pursue things under this banner, even when a conflict arises in me. ... I strongly believe I come out ahead pursuing actions and thoughts under the theme of experimentation, than if I listened and obeyed my conscience. By going against myself I have grown myself. ... It is the apostate I wrote about in 1993: to see through the eyes of the heathen and the apostate, and through this I reach greater heights of understanding. ... That has probably been my greatest edge to date: to not give into the fear of the untried and the unknown. To question what I currently hold as the right and the true and the just. ... I can't live without my 'evil', my intensity, without some degree of chaos. (Apr4,02)


As soon as I mailed off the January 1998 letter declaring my atheism, I felt empty inside, drifting. While logically the Jan 98 letter was sound, the personal shift was not as smooth. On a personal level it took time for me to 'catch up' with the ideas of the Jan 98 letter. ... The April 98 crash was a result of feeling directionless, without a rudder all of a sudden. For seven years I had pursued the idea of a God as saviour of his creation, and in six to eight weeks I had swept that all away (Aug15-Sep25,97). I was faced with the impending task of rebuilding my entire thought structure, cleansing it. Whereas I had 'the answers' before, suddenly 'the floor' is no floor at all, and more questions loomed on the horizon, more isolation. It would take me another two and a half years to rebuild a new philosophy superstructure. (May19,02)


Through globalization humanity is to do battle with itself, eradicating the inefficient though education / trade, and if necessary -- war. I say bring it on. (May18,02)


The higher culture, capitalism, absorbing the best minds wherever they may be found on earth. The culture of rationality. (May16,02)


I am the destroyer of old values, the creator of new values. I am the apostate against today's "good." I question the good, pick it apart, disseminate, disintegrate. I take the partials of good that remain in construction of a new formula, discarding the old, worn, tired, inefficient, lazy. ... I use evil in a way that is constructive. I use evil to further the good. And this is my vampirical chameleon reborn. He gives birth to the new, the future. (May10,02)


1990, the Summer of Awakening. 1991-94, Christian & Apostate. 1995, Deist; the road to secularization. 1996-97, A political understanding develops; atheism. 1998-2000, Politics & worldview defined. (May4,02)


On North American Indians: I have no "Native" leanings whatsoever. Not one inch. Anything found in "Native" idea or philosophy I can find in the organic naturalism of a rational Confucianism. My take on the Indians and Inuit? They are descendants of the Orientals. (Apr27,02)


Many minority traditional cultures will die in the sense they will no longer be 'living' cultures, they will become 'tourism' cultures. That is, at best, how I see many minority cultures surviving, like the North American Indians. (Feb2,02)


The future of North American Indian cultures: tourism and arts cultures, much like the current minorities in East Asia. Art, textiles, dance, music, architecture, etc. (May20,02)


North American Indians think the 1.5 billion "white-men" of European descent have put pressure on their culture? Then watch what happens when another 1.5 billion "yellow-men" of Oriental descent step up to the plate in the 21st century. (Apr14,02)


The Department of Indian and Northern Affairs Canada (DIAND) should be dismantled. The Indian Act, First Nations treaties, should be scrapped. The term "Indian" should not be recognized in a political environment. "Indian" should be rolled up into "individual", and the rights of all individuals are the same -- no matter what cultural background, skin color, gender, sexual preference, etc. The war of culture is to be fought in the marketplace, not in politics. (Apr14,02)


I'm not into racial. I'm into rational. (Apr14,02)


I would rather have freedom over fame. (Apr27,02)


Sharing dilutes the intensity I like to live, to feel. I like being focused. I like keeping to myself. I need that intensity. I feed off it. If I give too much of myself away to others, if I do too much sharing, then I miss being by myself. I miss the intensity of the solitaire. ... There is a connection I have with reality, it is one on one, face to face, and I like being here, with no one between me and reality. No mediator. No guide. No cushion. ... Much of the chatter that goes on around me, it is all right, I can take it, enjoy it even, in small doses. ... I say this as a general rule. There are exceptions. There are some people who I think an ongoing contact will persevere over time. The more thoughtful. ... pre-packaged lives, pre-determined values, that's not for me. I need a little more excitement than that. I need to tailor my life to suit my more individualized nature. (Mar9,02)


Is intellectual development a part of biological evolution? I think so. In my system of thought, the human body is an organic mortal soul. The mind, one characteristic of the human body, is therefore a physical attribute. Thoughts are physical processes. Generated by a physical system, thoughts are manifestations of an organically arranged energy. ... Genetic tape recorders, building each individual's life experiences, decisions, thoughts, conflicts -- all organically coded, included in each unique individual. And this genetic information passes on to offspring. ... The intellect is currently the newest attribute of man on a biological-evolved level, currently it is the least understood. Those who choose to deny or sideline or devalue the intellect (for faith-emotion) will find themselves at an evolutionary disadvantage going forward, both in survival action and future biological advantages passed onto their offspring. (Feb1,02)


An ongoing evolutionary process. Intellectual evolution = physical evolution. By thinking I am re-writing myself on a genetic level. (Jan29,02)


2001


(Letter to Rene Bonnett, November 2001)
On the social front, I don't have much to report. I let my purse strings loose for two months in June-July, then decided I was getting ahead of myself. So I shut everything down and sealed my purse.
Why? *sticking raven feather of sagaciousness in my hair* If one does not disturb the waters with splashing and commotion, then the waters remain calm and clear, allowing one to see with greater vision and insight into the depths that be.
*removing raven feather of sagaciousness* Translated this means: during a time of transition and self-transformation, most of which no one sees at this point, I need to be focused so that I may correctly plan and lay down the foundations for my "second decade of thought and action", my thirties.
This, to me, is currently more important than a night on the town, a warm drunk, a one week stand, a daytime social meet, etc. Whether one agrees or not, being social generally requires capital expenditure ... and that cash is something I choose to focus elsewhere. To be brief, in the present day there are much greater opportunities to be grasped. In doing so, I demand all the capital, energy and attentiveness I can give myself.
Do I think or feel I'm missing out on anything by minimizing social contact? No. Put into context, after having seen so many people (of the world), I understand I am living a life that 70-75 % of present-day humanity can only dream about, with another 10-15 % too hesitant or afraid to take the risks to do what they dream. When it comes to my financial pursuits, I am having the adventure of a lifetime -- and I know it.
The social contacts and emotional touches I desire will evolve over time. Once these social relationships come about, due to the patient, methodical and comprehensive thought I have given to things in my life, I anticipate such relationships to be all the more rewarding and long-lasting.
Most of my free time I spend plugged into my computer and the Internet. It's by far the best value for my money. I can work on my website and chart my life, trade and bank online, read financial news, browse stock boards, chat with peeps via mIRC and ICQ, and/or whimsically search and browse the net to pursue whatever should be my fancy and interest. More than enough to keep me busy, informed and entertained.
"Intelligent and low-maintenance" -- two traits recently used to describe me. I have to say I like these defining qualities.


The difficulty of secularizing Islam is that it is a political-religious philosophy. To compare: the Christ of Christianity never fought to defend himself, he strictly advised to keep separate from 'the world'. He died for his belief in non-violence. To secularize Christian populations, even with Christ's example, was still a long and hard and bloody fight. Islam may be even more bloody. True, the precedent has already been set in the West, so it could cut the duration of Islam's transformation substantially. My point: to secularize Islam will be difficult because it is scripturally unsound. The Qur'an does not approve. (Oct7,01)


If I have too many possessions I do not feel fluid / flexible anymore. As possessions reflect values, and my value system is constantly being upgraded and refined, I do not want representations of old values locking me in, binding me, always looking to the past, suffocating the growth and development of new values. I prefer a minimalist approach. As a result, my history is largely in the abstract -- in my head. (Oct6,01)


Ideal: I want all my assets liquid. No hard assets. Total freedom. (Jul27,01) ... I like the freedom of having few assets. (Jan4,01)


The religious radicals of Islam are right to target American & Britain as their greatest enemies. It is true in every way. Every great principle that The United States of America stands for has its antithesis in Islam. (Sep18,01)


Idealism is good, but don't confuse yourself with the ideal(ism). It has taken me a while to make this distinction. (Jun17,01) ... I write much better than I exist; don't be intimidated. (Jun17,01)


Art: do not tell me about what is. I see enough of what is. Tell me about what should be: the ideal. That's what I want to see from art. (Apr4,01)


My webpage: a symbolic gesture of opening up to the world after a long period of solitaire. (Apr,01)


Nephesh = the human body is an organic mortal soul: the radical implications of this one idea should not be underestimated. It turns 95% of the world's philosophies upside-down; the incompatibility is so extreme it literally tears them apart. (May14,01)


One of my favorite quotes: "You want to be making moves on the street, have no attachments, allow nothing to be in your life that you cannot walk out on in thirty seconds flat if you spot the heat around the corner." Robert DeNiro, Heat.


2000


(Written in Hong Kong:) Five years ago I was here. And I said to myself that I would not rest, would not stop until I returned to continue building my philosophy. Well, here I sit, now 30.5 years old, and the broad outline of that philosophy has been built. The Mission has been successful. Here I am again, looking at exactly the same skyline as I did when 25.5 years old ... It is nice to close out my second 99-00 tour in Hong Kong, where I closed out the first tour of 94-95. It is nice to compare then, 1995, to now, 2000. To reflect on the evolution that has been my self. The last ten years are so logical in progression it astounds me. I love to think about it, see it. I love that I am the sum of the last ten years. I love that I have identified the principles that mankind will build on and with, forever. (Nov23,2000)


Always do what you wish you could.


Of the July 2000 letter: I just realized something. This project is huge. It ranks up there with the Jan98 letter, Purity, Precedents and Salis. Wow. I am in the midst of one of those 'epochal' moments in my life. This project ties in ideas going back to the beginning. Looking at the so few journal pages I have with me, this whole letter is just pouring out of my head, through my fingers, onto a screen and onto paper. It's incredible. The Dec 94 to Mar 95 integration was revolutionary, but this one is just as vast in scale and importance. What happened in early 1995 isolated concepts which have slowly been fusing over the years. This letter is the grand-daddy of them all. What a way to celebrate my 30th birthday! (Jun18,00) ... my god, this is nuts, I'm on the verge of quacking up, this is so unbelievable. I haven't felt like this since 94-95. I'm extremely hyper. I can barely contain myself. It's happening again, and it all makes so much sense. The greatest philosophical integration of my 30 years of existence, right here, right now. (Jun19,00) ... I can use this letter as a platform for the rest of my life. I am glad to finally be leaving the shadow of the Jan98 letter, as I do not want to be defined as just that: an atheist. And Purity, while choice, is brief. (Jun22,00) ... With the release of this letter, reason becomes my God, and the WTO gives me the world force I needed to see governments pushed back, and individuality rise. (Jul14,00) ...


Every action is an investment in yourself. (Feb17,00)


1999


religion is the language of those who are broken (Nov10,99) ... a world full of grave-peddlers


An entry I penned in a journal in Lesha's Restaurant, town of Lamusi, Sichuan province, China:
I understand what the calling of a rugged wilderness is to so many individuals; it is simplicity, purity -- a tangible natural beauty which their animal soul longs for, but finds little in the tangled and twisted and gnarled constitutions of 'civilized' men. Men who, in the multitudes of their own self-deceits, would rather stand on their heads than admit (if they but could) the many connections of lies they have founded their lives upon. I understand individuals who -- sick of "state," "society" and "God" -- divorce themselves from the mess of "public property," and seek to reclaim peace of mind in the frank honesty of nature and its manifestations -- the wind, sunshine, mountain, sky, water, earth, plant and fellow animal. I understand the temptation to walk the borderline between wilderness and civilization, thinking that the first is sane, but the second is barely that, and by only a thread; taking from the second the concrete products and luxuries which tame the first and make it agreeable. I understand the desire to be free; foremost free from the schemes and relations of men who, lost in the perpetual 'euphoria' and noise of self-ignorance and contradiction, desire an honest man's stamp of acknowledgment and approval for support. I understand the individual who seeks to extricate their-self from the seemingly unintelligible madness and mixture of misunderstanding that thousands of years of human action has produced and continues to churn out. I understand the urge to damn one's species, and to pursue a solitaire's path, perhaps even with an individualized, inexpressible mysticism representing truth, in answer to the inept and idiot philosophies of esteemed and so-called 'wise men,' who have less common sense than that of a two year old child, ... or a dog. I understand the temptation to withdraw one's energies and intelligence from the inner circles of men; but when necessity dictates, deal with the latter in a reserved, cautious, perhaps even hidden scornful manner; to not want to share -- or perhaps bleed and contaminate -- that which is sought, cherished, worshipped -- the right to one's self, the incontestable right to one's individual sovereignty, undivided in mind, unpolluted by irrationalities, firm and purposeful in action. I can understand why individuals should choose to break from other men, for whatever number of reason, but that is not my path or destiny. I am bridge-builder, a rationality pioneer, a child of the European Enlightenment, convinced of the power of eduction. And my goal, as Ego incarnate, is to establish a Civilization of Messiahs. ... Be it pursued in the Canadian tundra, the Australian outback, Russian Siberia, the multinational Himalayas, the jungles of central Africa and South America, and in the sometimes thick overgrowth and wild air of many a civilization's heart -- the city, my travel as an investigation of existence, and a cross-sectioning and integration of life -- continues. (Sep17,99)


Through free trade comes exposure to the creature products and values of the West; the product carries the inseparable message of the philosophy that created it. (Oct5,99)


There has been many a time I have had to transgress "morality" to discover morality. (Sep17,99)


It's not going to be Jesus Christ and his christian yoke that are going to unite the world, it is going to be free trade. (Sep6,99)


If you had never seen the face of Western Civilization before and now, for the first time in your life, you set out to gain a cross-section of all humanity and its cultures -- you would be amazed by its design, stunned by its incredible complexity, and overwhelmed by its artistic diversity. From its life-saving (i.e., time-saving) technologies, to the comforts designed to accomodate the earthly bodies (i.e., souls) of men, women and children, to the sky-scraping temples worshipping the greatness and potential of man -- all of this would awe you in contemplation. And perhaps, if you like to seek the roots of things, you would embark on a study to trace the path of the most spectacular and dynamic civilization ever to grace the surface of the planet. ... But because you were born in such a civilization, because you associate the pain and turmoil of your personal life to such a civilization, because the contradictions of this civilization you canot make sense of, because you are tired of the superficial values of this civilization (without having studied why these values were created and continue to exist), because you have seen the constant creation and innovation which this civilization has produced, you don't look upon the West as a society of Gods, but as a society of jokers. Worse yet, as incompetents. You are not even willing to acknowledge them as extroverted masters, for the introverted ignorance is all you see in the common man, and it blinds you to any virtue that is present. The West, you say, is morally incompetent but physically superior. And you accept this dividing line: that the West can comfort your body, but it lacks the wisdom to quiet your mind or soul. ... What must be done is to show to the common man and woman of the West that capitalism is morally -- i.e., spiritually -- superior to all other cultures and civilizations. The links must be made, the principles revealed, and their impact and significance in living a life on earth; also, demystifying the false gods of humanity, the ones of the "other world." To spiritualize the secular. Western man, in your greatness you have lost your way. You are part of a Civilization of Messiahs. (Sep12,99)


There is a certain value transformation going on here. I don't think I have quite grasped what exactly is going on yet (in me); I'm struggling to pin it exactly, but failing thus far. There's a certain level of frustration here, indecision ... like, I'm trying to shift gears but can't make the transition because I can't find the next high gear. So I'm cursing and swearing, bashing the gear shift around in frustration. ... The more I can tie together, the clearer the understanding, the sharper the long-range vision, the higher the philosophy and its actualization. There will be a day when all this thought comes together, I know there will be that day. ... The declaration of atheism, I think I glorified it too highly; it being only one aspect of the whole. There is more to be done. And while that Jan98 letter will always be a highlight in my annals, in the future that letter is going to be integrated into a much larger whole. A more defined and expanded philosophy. ... The grand synthesis will come. So long as I breathe, think and write it will come. (Sep2,99)


The 'war' is being won by means of 'economic force,' i.e., idea-force, i.e., free markets and free minds, i.e., laissez-faire capitalism, i.e., reason. ... I am coming to understand the incredible transforming power of the idea in terms of re-baptizing people back unto the earth; tearing them out of their self-imposed irrationalities, 'heavens' and unrealities. Pounded by constant creation and innovation designed to enhance human life, they will come to understand, come to change their focus. (Sep2,99)


The creation and birth of a baby: "This life form not only reflects the process of birth, but also is a small-scale re-enactment of human evolution." (Beijing Museum note, Aug8,99) ... Also, "Man has the physical structure which animals in general share. He also has the basic physiological functions common to all animals. Obviously, man is an animal."


The world loves extro-spection, but hates intro-spection. Why? Because the latter has to be done alone. (Jul11,99)


Sheer input for the sake on input. There doensn't have to be an immediate accompanying thought; just straight input. And when your head is filled up, stomp it all down and try to fit in some more. More and more imagery, more and more concrete variety, widen the abstractions, create new abstractions, search for universality, integrate old and new. Indentify and integrate and manifest the ideal. The more I integrate, the more holistic and just the idea can be. The thought, the processing, comes later, after massive input. The sorting out, identification, integration. For the time being, sheer input. (May18,99)


I notice as of late I am consciously looking at things just to expose my mind to their presence; filling myself with images. The more I input, the more flexible my output becomes ... (Apr19,99)


Of a Buddhist monk -- he shaves his head to mark his self-abnegation. I grow my hair to show my ego-orientation, celebration of fleshly life. (Apr28,99)


Creators work intuitively, allowing their subconscious to integrate evidence that not even their conscious minds grasp immediately. (taken from The Russian Radical by Chris Matthew Sciabarra, P194)


Ayn Rand would have agreed ... that 'most people are lazy abstractors, simply and uncritically accepting the mental units with which they think as part of their cultural inheritance.' Rand implored us to stop thinking in a preconceived square, to name our primaries, to identify our starting points, to recognize the hierarchical structure of our arguments and knowledge. For Rand, this necessity to check our premises is the hallmark not only of a fully human epistemology but of radical thinking as well. Radicals go to the root; they refuse to be locked into the idealogical boundaries set by others. Indeed, they question their own assumptions and strive to articulate their basis in reality as well.... Every issue, thought, desire, and action must be understood through a process of articulation. (taken from The Russian Radical by Chris Matthew Sciabarra, P171-72)


Rand wished to secularize the spiritual, and spiritualize the material. ... The material is only the expression of the spiritual; that it can neither be created nor used without the spiritual (thought); that it has no meaning without the spiritual; that it is only the means to a spiritual end -- and therefore, any new achievement in the realm of material production is an act of high spirituality, a great triumph and expression of man's spirit. And that those who despise "the material" are those who despise man and whose basic premises are aimed at man's destruction. ... Reason, as "the highest kind of spiritual activity," was required "to conquer, control and create in the material realm." (taken from The Russian Radical by Chris Matthew Sciabarra, P115-16)


1998


( Taken from an old webpage of mine titled "Prometheus Unchained" )
Prometheus was the wisest of the (Greek) Titans; the son of Iapetus. By some textual accounts he and his brother Epimetheus were delegated by Zeus to create man. In all accounts, Prometheus is known as the friend, protector, and benefactor of man, thus a heroic symbol of he who brings culture and civilization.
Given the task of creating humans and animals and providing them with the endowments they would need to survive, Epimetheus gave the various animals gifts of courage, strength, swiftness, and feathers, fur, and other protective coverings. When it came time to create a being superior to all other creatures, Epimetheus had nothing left to bestow.
Prometheus then fashioned humans in a nobler form ; he gave mankind a number of gifts including fire. He also tricked Zeus into allowing man to keep the best part of the animals sacrificed to the gods and to give the gods the worst parts. The infuriated Zeus reserved a special punishment for Prometheus. As he was chained to a rock, Zeus would daily send an eagle to tear out his liver. Prometheus' liver would grow back every night, only to be pecked out again the following day. He was to be left there for all eternity; so the process was repeated until Hercules came to rescue Prometheus by killing the bird and freeing him.
My Prometheus page is dedicated to the heroic men and women of the ages; to those -- past, present, & future -- who possess the courage to think, to those who have defied the Gods that men have created and spoken proudly:
"I live in my own light, I drink back into myself the flames that break from me ..."
God be damned. It is I who am master here.


A second Genesis. A bio-industrial world, genetic commerce. 20th century: physics and chemistry. 21st century: biological sciences. After thousands of years of fusing, melting, soldering, and forging inert material, we are now splicing, recombining, inserting, and stitching living material. (May26,98)


The tumultuous twenties. I think that sums up my 1990s decade. Violent upheavals. Great depressions. Beautiful truths. Recklessness. Passionate. Thoughtfulness. Inquisitive. An abundance of energy. Listlessness. Anger. Frustration. Euphoria. Adventure. It's all in there. I expect my consistency to improve. Rationality has come to the forefront, especially in recent months -- as my learning adventure continues. My 30s will be finalizing that consistency. My 40s are when things will really begin to happen for me. (Aug30,98)


You know what I want? I want to wake up every morning for the rest of my life like I did in 1996. As soon as that alarm clock rings I aggressively jump out of bed, walk into a stone cold shower and attack the day. I did that today. And it felt great. I didn't succumb to weariness. I didn't fold. I didn't sigh. If I got hit or winded, I kept going. That's me. That's who I love. I kept the bitching to a minimum and kept on going. (Mar31,98)


Live consciously. Try to be as rational as you can. Don't make allegations you can't support. Be on the lookout for contradictions and work to resolve them. Do your best to face the things that need to be faced. When you act, make every effort to know what you are doing and what the consequences are likely to be. Live responsibly. Accept that sometimes you will fail: don't collapse into guilt, because that serves no useful purpose; pick yourself up, acknowledge your error, and try to do better in the future. (Nathaniel Branden)


"Can you prove you exist?" he would ask, and I would respond, "Shall I send you my answer from nonexistence?" (Nathaniel Branden)


The two fundamental philosophies of the last 2500 years: Platonism-Irrationalism-Collectivism and Aristotelianism-Rationalism-Individualism. (Nathaniel Branden)


With my declaration of atheism in the January 1998 letter, I have not just said that the existence of God is improbable but that the belief is immoral. (Jan15,98)


Ayn Rand had talked about reason, and why reason versus mysticism, man's mind versus faith, was the most fundamental of all philosophical issues, of which capitalism versus collectivism was merely a derivative. (Nathaniel Branden)


I have never known anyone who is consistently rational 24 hours a day. The goal is to keep raising our average. (Nathaniel Branden)


A Review of April 1998
Were the scars of April 1998 caused by my decision to consume alcohol? Technically, yes; but ultimately, no. For the vote in favor of alcohol itself -- and the recklessness with which it was pursued -- was merely a symptom and consequence of a larger and longer chain of events.
Along with my return to Canada in late 1995 came a hyper-abundance of energy and confidence as a result of the two objective truths I had recognized earlier: what I called "a crisis in ethics" and "a humanity without foundation," which an argument for God and armageddon was the resolution. By late 1997 this resolution had been smashed to pieces, leaving me with a massive gap in my philosophy. Psychologically translated, though this demolition paved the way for a greater rise in the long-term, for the immediate moment it deflated and bruised self-confidence.
Add to this the seven months I worked for PWGSC (Public Works and Government Services Canada), a job I resigned from in disgust due to its overwhelming socialist contradictions (Aug96-Feb97). Then working for Cable tv a minimum of twelve hours a day, seven days a week, for twelve months straight (Mar97-Mar98).
The January 1998 declaration of atheism was a final fierce explosion of energy. Once the letter was mailed on January 12 I remember feeling an immediate sense of emptiness. From a vicious and perpetual conflict of values on multiple fronts -- personally, professionally, politically -- I was exhausted, running on the momentum and fumes of an earlier optimism that had run its course. This internal state of mind finally manifest into being -- externally, for everyone to see -- on April 4, 1998.
Thus, on a deeper level, I do not look at the scars on my face as a result of alcohol. Rather, they are symbolic of a critical turning point in my life; for from the wreckage of the old philosophy came the revived strength and rebuilt confidence of the new; as reflected in the opening lines of the March 1999 poem Purity :
"In the solitaire wanderings of a midnight wild, Riddles tangled and gnarled have been structured and self-styled. Explorer, adventurer, rationality pioneer; Deconstructed carnage morality, Ego is now the master here. Cauterized and scarred, no longer am I a crime; Ecstasy is flesh, body as my soul, material existence sublime."
Purity being the forerunner to a more accomplished work: the secularized worldview of the July 2000 Evolution letter.
The following extractions are from journals of the late 1997 & early 1998 time period:
The logical teminus of all my thought points the way to a total refutation in the belief and argument for an existence of God. I see it. I see it as bright as day. (Aug4,97) ... God: am I running to the poison as the cure? There is a growing desire in me to say: YES. (Sep20,97) ... Now that I have cut away the only reason I had for believing in a God, I feel isolated ... Nietzsche's Madman comes to mind. I can see him smashing the lantern on the pavement, crying out, people stunned. The earth is unchained from its foundations, falling upward, downward, all directions. I feel un-hinged, drifting, unsure as to how to find my feet again after this evolutionary jump in idea. It is like my whole life is unset all of a sudden. Gone is the savage confidence and momentum of my North American return. I remember the energy I had upon my return! For the first time in my life I had my feet on 'solid ground' -- a philosophical recipe for practical action. ... all swept aside. ... Yes, I have to restructure my entire foundation again, it's bound to take the winds from my sails for awhile. But this is a good thing. I know it is. I'll come back from this stronger than ever. (Sep25,97) ... In a way, I can still barely believe I'm doing away with my God argument. At first I want to say "this has all happened so incredibly quick," but on second thought -- has it? Has this not been coming for the last seven years? Is this not the logical terminus of THOUGHT? More and more, in response to this latter question, I have to say yes. In other words, this has been a long time coming. Nonetheless, it is still -- unsettling. (Oct22,97) ... Intellectually, atheism is established. Habitually, the war is still being waged. (Nov16,97) ... Now that I have finished the Jan98 letter, it's like the anticlimax has set in. ... a feeling of drift, isolation, purposelessness. (Jan14,98) ... God and Armageddon: the two holiest concepts of my life -- almost overnight -- become the most obscene, degrading, immoral concepts of my life. (Feb2,98)


Picture: a man stands before a full length mirror. In that mirror is his reflection, bowing before him. Self-worship.


1997


Islam's Role In My Development
Written 1994-97, Compiled December 1997

Section I: Introduction

"Our Wills Are Ours To Make Them Thine"

The Holy Qur'an: first investigated June 10, 1992; first purchased November 26, 1993, Edmonton, Canada (left in Canada). Second copy purchased March 18, 1994, Istanbul, Turkey. Studied from March 27, 1994 to June 14, 1995, through the countries of Turkey, Syria, Jordan, Egypt, Iran, Pakistan, India, and Nepal.

Translation and commentary by A. Yusuf Ali. Copyright 1983, Amana Corporation, 1,862 pages (114 Suras, 6310 notes, 14 appendices).

My analysis and summary of the Qur'an is divided into eleven sections. Topic & Date Final Drafts Written:

The Qur'an as God's Word -- 6.0 pages, April 20, 1995
The Beginning: Man's Creation and Fall -- 5.0 pages
Body and Soul -- 1.5 pages, April 23, 1995
The Islamic Jihad -- 6.0 pages, April 20-23, 1995
Judgment Day -- 6.5 pages, April 23, 1995
A New Creation -- 5.5 pages, April 23-24, 1995
Companions of the Right and Left Hand -- 16.5 pages, April 24-June 3, 1995
Hell -- 6.0 pages, June 3-4, 1995
Heaven -- 14.5 pages, June 4, 1995
God's Goodness -- 5.5 pages, June 5, 1995
God's Power -- 4.5 pages, June 5, 1995


Section II: The Wager
Written Dec94-Jan95

I will begin this wager by saying, without hesitancy or doubt, that Islam is indeed the perfection of World Religion. It is the 'logical terminus' of the fundamental ideas contained in the world's largest and most popular faiths. I feel very confident in stating my opinion that in its many centuries of existence Islam, as a world power, has not even yet begun to flex its muscle and show its true potential. But finally, in the age of great technologies, Islam will flower into its own and the men and women of Islam will show the world just what it means to be a Muslim.

The Prophet of Islam, Muhammad, deserves a lot of the credit for having formulated such a 'masterpiece'; but, of course, in the end, it is to Allah which all credit must be directed to. Credit for composing and imparting such a monumental 'treasure' and 'divine work' of 'poetry' and 'truth' to humanity, you ask? No, this isn't what I had in mind really.

I give Islam credit for being the leader, among its more 'passive' brother and sister world faiths, to the long sought after religious end, the holy dream of all cherished and beloved Hindu, Christian, and Islamic theologians and saints; that is, of humanity's degradation -- and ultimate extermination.

Before I begin this critique, I want to make a clarification. I am not a Hindu. I am not a Buddhist. I am not a Hebrew. I am not a Sikh. I am not a Christian. I am not a member of any religious order or organization. I am not attacking Islam from a religious viewpoint. I am attacking it from the viewpoint of a human being. A man. A creature of this earth.

The arguments to follow, therefore, are not part of some divine revelation. I am not approaching the issue of Islam's validity with another holy book in my hand as authority as the Christian or Hindu would do in the attempt to 'objectively' prove the trueness of their own faith over and above another different faith.

With that said, let's cut to the reality and essentials of the Islamic world view which determine the Muslim's actions as a human being. (The Wagers Section of Paper II Terminated September 21, 1997)


Section III: Islam's Role in my Development
Written December 1997

Islam came to be the second world religion that I would study, after an examination of Christianity for a few years (1990-1993). Curious as to why everyone was not a Christian when so many Christians were convinced that their religion -- worse yet, their sect of Christianity -- was 'The Truth' and an objective fact of reality, to which 'the unbelievers' were disgracefully blind to, I set out in the fall of 1993 to investigate other faiths and to answer an elusive, yet nagging suspicion.

The year 1994 was largely spent both in contemplation and awe of the Islamic environment, such an environment being so new and stimulating to my senses. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced before, and this undoubtedly led to the enthusiasm I pursued the Qur'an with.

Eventually, in the second half of 1994, after much thought, I came to give the Qur'an an equal status to that of the Hebrew and Greek Scriptures of Christianity, simply because I was such a stern believer (at the time) in the Jewish monotheistic conception of God (non-Trinity), to which Islam's conception and insistence on the oneness of God was so wonderfully similar. On top of this similarity in God-concepts, I realized I could not prove Jesus Christ as God's chosen prophet over and above Muhammad; I saw all too plainly that neither one could be legitimately, honestly, and objectively credited for being "God's true messenger."

As a result of my being intellectually unable to refute one in favor of the other, my then-developed sense of reason dictated to me that I had to accept and embrace both prophets, despite finding so many Islamic ideas still repugnant to my conditioned Christianized thinking. Also, my mind took firm hold of Islam's repeated emphasis on 'personal responsibility' and 'self-discipline'; though it was no secret then, as it is today, that I never agreed with Islam as to what standards of conduct I was to be responsible and disciplined according to.

The following excerpts are some examples of my thinking during this period, taken from Journals 43, 44 and 45 (latter quotes from 1996-97 journals) at which time I had already checked myself into a Hindu ashram and begun studying a third world religion, Hinduism.

(Quotes)

Islam, for me, was a development in the sense that it made me see, without a doubt, the shortcomings of the so-called 'objective and intellectually clean' Christian argument. The Christian, the Muslim, the Hindu -- all were playing the same dumb, circular game of "reasoning what cannot be reasoned"; that is, 'reasoning' the unreasonable. Once my inquiry into Hinduism had come of age, I was far from embracing Islam or Hinduism as my new choice of religion.

However, it took me another two years for the whole structure of Christian conditioning to be cleansed from my system; that is, for the more subtle and hidden remnants to be purged from my Paper and philosophy. Ultimately, after a seven year inquiry into religion, after the early initial refutation of the body-soul dichotomy and later altruism, the concept of God itself came to be denied on September 21, 1997 (see my January 12, 1998 Declaration of Atheism Letter) -- and Paper Three was born.

Paper Two was started on November 23, 1994, and from its conception till its dying day, there was written into it a section called "The Wagers". Influenced by Blaise Pascal's A Wager on the Existence of God, I set up a series of Wagers, one against each religion, comparing and contrasting each of them to my (then) formulated conception of religious truth.

Hinduism was the easiest to undermine -- and along with it, the other religions and philosophies based on the idea of reincarnation. The argument against Islam was to require more time to compose -- that is, of course, until I ceased to believe in a God altogether. Needless to say the whole idea of a Wagers section for my Paper died immediately thereafter. Hence the brevity of this "Outline and Critique" on Islam today.

The following then, is but the briefest critique of Islam -- a sort of testimony to my intellectual development over the years. After an extensive and rigorous refutation of God, the body-soul dichotomy and altruism -- three ideas which fundamentally embrace all religions and cleanly sidestep their ridiculous petty differences -- I certainly no longer think I am required to conduct individual Wagers against world religions to be convinced of my new 'God' and 'religion' -- that of Man and Man-worship.

However, to those who are still struggling and gasping to find some clean air to breathe in the midst of the seemingly endless muck of religion, or to those who simply find the idea of the Wagers interesting, here is a taste of what might have been, but -- for me -- is no longer necessary.

With this collection of notes and scriptures from the Qur'an, my sole purpose is to illuminate the devaluation of human life that not only permeates Islamic theology, but each and every sect and religion which subscribes to the body-soul dichotomy.

Once the reader observes that religion's concept of 'perfection' is anything but mind and man (as example, what is 'Heaven' but simply that which is non-mind and non-man?), it is difficult to deny the kind of war -- the grinding irrationality and devaluation of human existence -- that the advocates of religion are waging against mankind; and thus, the kind of war that a human being must acknowledge and wage in retaliation.

With faith and force as the destroyers of the modern world, only an individual's exercise in reason is the constructive alternative, and cure, to the poison that is Islam … that is Christianity … that is Hinduism … that is …

In sum -- Islam is nothing but the conception of a power-mad God amidst a collection of Hellfire poetry arranged and unleashed against an illiterate population of camel-herders by an imbecile and lunatic turned prophet -- the pursuit of a mindless, ignorant, idiotic slave-society.

If man is to live, then Zoroastrianism … Christianity … the Baha'i Faith … Buddhism … Hinduism … Sikhism … Jainism … and Islam … must die.


Section IV: Closing Note

As all that I have written on the subjects of Islam and religion to date is no doubt just a frivolous attempt at truth in the eyes of the Muslim, the only fragment of rationality to probably be accepted by both parties is an idea contained in a small Sura found in the closing pages of the Qur'an. As my finishing note, it reads …

Sura 109
Verses 1-6

Say: O ye
That reject Faith!
I worship not that
Which ye worship,
Nor will ye worship
That which I worship.
And I will not worship
That which ye have been
Wont to worship,
Nor will ye worship
That which I worship.
To you be your Way,
And to me mine.

(End of Sections I-II-III-IV of letter Islam's Role in my Development )



Man and animal can live together in harmony, with man as self-cultivator, earth gardener, and creator. The trick is this: the study of energy. From its most basic constituents, to its structures, to its most complex forms of life. Master the energy and you master existence. (Nov12,97)


You ask me what I do: travel, and how can I save a nice chunk of cash? I'll tell you how. You take everything, every possible kind of expense, and cut it. Cut it till it can't be cut anymore. You take your income and you invest it. Finally, you make a deal with the Self. ... And say you'll always be true to the preservation of this Self. To hell with family, to hell with friends, to hell with God. The Self always comes first. ... But, of course, not many can do this. (Jun4,97)


With my most recent discussions, I understand more clearly how anti-life ideas remain and indeed flourish (such as the Old Religion). The intimate associations which gel people together -- it overrides the actual meaning of the idea, so that the idea is not seen for what it is. The idea, instead, is known to them for its associations. The idea is no longer an idea to them, but a collection of personal memories and social interactions. So when the idea is attacked, it is not the idea that comes under attck for them, but the intimate memories and associations surrounding that idea, their lives, their loves. No wonder the true significance of ideas can be overlooked. Ideas are not seen at face value, the idea itself -- in a logical context -- is never paid attention to. (May18,97 ... ideas & associations, "peace" and "love" and "happiness" coming to be attached on to the most insane ideas which are anti to the realization of peace, love and happiness. And why do these ideas come to mean peace-love-happiness? Memories. Memories that were probably, for the most part, good, kind, loving, attentive, self-supporting. (May19,97)


Family. Who do I consider family? Ideas, not blood. (May22,97)


As for the extinction of animal and plant species, well, mother nature wasn't so friendly when she killed off the dinosaurs now, was she? (Apr24,97)


Have no friends not equal to yourself. And when you have faults, do not fear to abandon them. (Confucius)


Interview with UMA Engineering. He asked me how I felt about environmental issues. My reply (in sum), "industry / the economy must continue to progress -- this is important. Man's environment is also important. But my support inevitably leans toward industry. Why? Man's environment does not grant him what is necessary for survival. Man must work for his survival; and this means he must alter his environment to survive. I think a fault in many people's vision lies in the fact that they do not make a distiction between changing / altering the environment and polluting / destroying it. Because I do make this distiction, I am pro-industry." (Mar5,97)


A rational man sees his interests in terms of a lifetime and selects his goals accordingly. ... he allows no conflicts or contradictions between his short-range and long-range interests. He does not become his own destroyer by pursuing a desire today which wipes out all his values tomorrow. (Ayn Rand)


Laws have proceeded, in almost every state, from the interest of the legislator, from the urgency of the moment, from ignorance, and from superstition, and have accordingly been made at random, and irregularly, just as cities have been built ... it was only after London had been reduced to ashes that it became fit to live in. The streets, after that catastrophe, were widened and straightened. If you are desirous of having good laws, burn those which you have at present, and make fresh ones. (Voltaire)


Who is most influencial: When a human being resists his whole age and stops it at the gate to demand an accounting, this must have influence. Whether that is what he desires is immaterial; that he can do it is what matters. (Nietzsche, 1882)


If an individual holds mixed premises, his vices undercut, hamper, defeat, and ultimately destroy his virtues. (Rand, Capitalism: The Unknown Ideal, P147)


The signs of the 'last days' in Matthew, Mark, Luke, John. More earthquakes? No, just better records, more people alive - thus more people being killed. Disasters -- famines, floods, etc. -- more of them? No, just more people being killed because of a greater population and better communication in the world once a disaster has happened. More wars? Greater Wars? How can these be explained? More people. ... The only thing that has changed in the last two thousand years which accounts for the fulfillment of all Christ's 'predictions' of the so-called 'last days': an increase in population.


Of the body-soul dichotomy:… the body is a prison-house; human life? -- a crime.


Leave it to the (East) Indian for having conceived of 'zero', the concept of nothing. It's his ultimate holy; all that he strives for. (Jan30,97)


The survival of the fittest should not be interpreted in terms of strength; rather, in terms of smarts. (Jan1,97)


1996


(Fragments of a letter to Gary Yoshida, Nov 1996)
"Those imposing artists who let a harmony sound forth from every conflict are those who bestow upon things their own power and self-redemption: they express their innermost experience in the symbolism of every work of art they produce -- their creativity is gratitude for their existence." (quote by Friedrich Nietzsche)
... Many times I wondered if I was going to be able to find anything concrete in my study and be able to bring myself out of solitaire. At times I still think about this. I have a handful of years left before I can truly spread my wings and attempt flight; that is, wholeheartedly communicate with people and build beyond myself. A recurring entry in my journal is: "How far can one ride desire unfulfilled before it breaks the spirit ?"
Already, in my twenty-sixth year, I feel like Nietzsche in his thirty-eighth when he wrote to a lady friend: "I don't want to be lonely anymore; I want to learn to be human again. Alas, in this field I have almost everything still to learn!"
... I have to write this Paper, I have to explain the full implications of my ideas if I am to build beyond myself in later years. I have to lay the proper foundation -- a solid foundation -- in my head, on paper, for others to see. If I don't, I'm never going to be able to communicate; I'll be 'locked in' a crushing mosh-pit of ideas and contradictions, never to smoothen out the wrinkles and refine my character. Simply stated: I'll be trapped in my own head; a real mess.
Believe me, I would really like to be able to snuggle up to some bundle of joy right now, but without an objectively written constitution of my values, I know such a pursuit would be futile. Without a completely thought out, integrated view of existence any external building I might attempt would collapse in on itself (or, better put, I would collapse in on myself). It is like I must put all relationships aside, on hold, until I think I have enough on paper to begin building with. At times, it is very frustrating to be this way. When I see couples together, enjoying one another's presence, all I can do is grit my teeth and push on. But to say this route of mine does not have its immediate rewards would be an outright lie. I love building this intellectual skyscraper, this tribute to Self; and I expect that anything I may be lacking now, or wishing I had now, will be attained in the years to come -- in much greater proportion. And this expectation, along with the delight of thinking, is what keeps me moving from "the man in the chair" to "the man that's in my dream."
The problems many people come to develop as they age I think share a common thread: they haven't reached the 'logical terminus' of their thoughts and ideas; therefore, people's lives collapse after years of building, whether it be a relationship, a job, a family, etc. (or all of the above). A man, in my eyes, if he is to be consistently successful in his entire life must weed out all contradictions from his thought. If he does not, sooner or later this internal friction and lack of harmony will express itself externally, despite how badly he may want to deny and bury those contradictions in the attempt to validate his ideas of existence and truth.
... I remember you asking me the last time I was in Vancouver to suggest the names of a couple books and authors which I take to be of value. Sorry to take so long in answering. By far the most influential works / authors in my life are (in no particular order):
1. Friedrich Nietzsche
2. Ayn Rand
3. The Hebrew Scriptures
4. Confucianism
5. Voltaire
I first found Nietzsche in July of 1990, at the very beginning of it all; and it was by means of stories on Jim Morrison I first came to hear of him. Truly, this man, Nietzsche, set the pace for me in the years to follow. And even though I did not understand a lot of what he wrote for some five years, he has had a significant impact on my whole way of thinking. In fact, it is next to impossible to escape his name when it comes to nineteenth and twentieth century philosophy. Rand mentions him several times in her works, including once in a Preface to The Fountainhead. It reads:
Perhaps the best way to communicate The Fountainhead's sense of life is by means of the quotation which had stood at the head of my manuscript, but which I removed from the final, published book. With this opportunity to explain it, I am glad to bring it back.
I removed it, because of my profound disagreement with the philosophy of its author, Friedrich Nietzsche. Philosophically, Nietzsche is a mystic and an irrationalist. His metaphysics consists of a somewhat "Byronic" and mystically "malevolent" universe (The "Byronic" view of existence: its essence is the belief that man must lead a heroic life and fight for his values even though he is doomed to defeat by a malevolent fate over which he has no control); his epistemology subordinates reason to "will," or feeling or instinct or blood or innate virtues of character. But, as a poet, he projects at times (not consistently) a magnificent feeling for man's greatness, expressed in emotional, not intellectual, terms.
This is especially true of the quotation I had chosen. I could not endorse its literal meaning: it proclaims an indefensible tenet -- psychological determinism. But if one takes it as a poetic projection of an emotional experience (and if, intellectually, one substitutes the concept of an acquired "basic premise" for the concept of an innate "fundamental certainty"), then that quotation communicates the inner state of an exalted self-esteem -- and sums up the emotional consequences for which The Fountainhead provides the rational, philosophical base:
"It is not the works, but the belief which is here decisive and determines the order of rank -- to employ once more an old religious formula with a new and deeper meaning, -- it is some fundamental certainty which a noble soul has about itself, something which is not to be sought, is not to be found, and perhaps, also, is not to be lost. -- The noble soul has reverence for itself. --" (Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil.)
This view of man has rarely been expressed in human history. Today, it is virtually non-existent. Yet this is the view with which -- in various degrees of longing, wistfulness, passion and agonized confusion -- the best of mankind's youth start out in life. It is not even a view, for most of them, but a foggy, groping, undefined sense made of raw pain and incommunicable happiness. It is a sense of enormous expectation, the sense that one's life is important, that great achievements are within one's capacity, and that great things lie ahead.
Next: Voltaire. I came into knowledge of Voltaire through one of Nietzsche's works. The last sentence in Nietzsche's autobiography (the first of his books I was to pick up -- Ecce Homo -- "How one becomes what one is") is this: "Ecrasez l'infame! ", or "Crush the infamous thing !" (in reference to Christianity). The name, Voltaire, was mysterious, as well as this quote, as so, in the early months of 1993, I sought out this gent's works and was promptly introduced to Europe's Enlightenment period. Here is a summary of Voltaire and what he represented (this excerpt taken from the Penguin Books compilation: The Portable Voltaire -- a compilation of his more popular works):
"… Voltaire's greatness consists in his having been so vigorously, so comprehensively, and so successfully the representative of his age -- the age of enlightenment -- in which man, carrying the promises of the humanist Renaissance towards their logical conclusions, stood forth upon this earth in confidence and pride, reliant only on his own reason … The rational man who is content to be nothing more than rational, who can perceive no need of being anything more, who finds reason equal to human problems, who looks forward to the continuing triumphs of reason over nature -- this is the type of the eighteenth century enlightenment; this is the type of which Voltaire is the supreme example." (43-44)
Beautiful!
Next: Confucianism. A lot of fragments from tens of individuals spanning over two millenniums; it would be difficult for me to summarize the subtle Chinese intellect! Mind you, as with Nietzsche, I do not accept it in totality; but with its emphasis on man, its core doctrines of self-cultivation, the 'rectification of names,' its organic world view, its arguments against the body-soul dichotomy -- as a few examples -- it is brilliant. Try A Source Book in Chinese Philosophy - translated and compiled by Wing Tsit Chan, C.1963.
Next: The Hebrew Scriptures; the "Old Testament". Most of its original meaning is lost in the translation of languages -- from ancient Hebrew to modern English. So, to discover the Hebrew world view one must investigate the meaning of the words used by the ancient Hebrews. For instance, the early Hebrews never entertained the idea of a body and soul duality, but saw man as a living soul (that is, in essence, body = soul). Hebrew thought only came to include the body and soul formula when they came into contact with the Persians and the Greeks, some time after Nebuchadnezzar, King of Babylon, sent the Jews into exile circa 600 BC. When one plugs their original view of man back into the "Old Testament" it becomes a very different collection of scriptures and a very unique religion: it becomes wholly earth-based. Genesis, Job, Ecclesiastes, Proverbs …; and there are tons of materials in any large library, books written by Jewish people, Christians, etc., which discuss early Hebrew concepts.
Next: Ayn Rand. The first record I have opening one of her books is September 10, 1992 (and, much to my surprise, I also discovered I wrote you a letter that very same day quoting from Capitalism: The Unknown Ideal -- what a peculiar coincidence …). But it wouldn't be until May 11, 1995, almost two and a half years later, that I would begin reading her works in chronological order. By June 7 I had read her three novels: We The Living, The Fountainhead, and Atlas Shrugged. Then, once returning to Canada, I took to her philosophy books: For the New Intellectual (1961), The Virtue of Selfishness (1964), Capitalism: The Unknown Ideal (1967), and The New Left: The Anti-Industrial Revolution (1971). All I can say, quoting a June 1995 letter, is: "This woman has stolen my mind, and gentlemen, that's the best foreplay a man could ever ask for."
Actual Recommendations: (1) Nietzsche's Thus Spoke Zarathustra, his most popular work, dated 1883-1885, translated by R.J. Hollingdale or Walter Kaufmann. (2) Voltaire is hilarious as well as a provocative thinker. Pick up Candide (his most popular piece) or some compilation.


Conflict: the external savior. Back on June 22 I wrote "There is no external savior!" -- thus placing the fate of man's life squarely on his own shoulders, he being his own savior, his own God, his own center of holiness and worship. And yet my Paper is an arguement for the existence of God based on necessity -- i.e., the necessity of an external savior ... this conflict has been slushing around in my head for months now ... (Oct19,96)


For the first time in my life I am on the Internet ... (Oct9,96)


(Of Hinduism & Buddhism) A maze of contradictions. It uses everything that a man is to destroy his self. By using a man's abilities, it gets man to deny all that he is. It uses his abilities to castrate his abilities, and it will stop at no lengths to achieve this: this is virtue. Use the mind to realize that truth is non-mind; use the life to realize that truth is non-life; use the ego to destroy the ego; use the body to destroy the body; use the intellect to undermine the intellect; use the senses to deny, not to acknowledge; the purpose of the intellect is to understand the severe limitations of the intellect. Man is blind because he has eyes; man is deaf because he has ears; man is insensitive because he can feel; man is dumb because he has a mind; because man is man, no truth is possible to him. Crush the "I", the self, the ego, to know truth. Holiness is non-self, non-mind, non-man. Man is not important, his life is not important. What is important is non-man. Strive as hard as you can to be non-man, without outright suicide (as that would be violence). Hinduism, at its very core, is about the destruction of the individual, and of humanity. Hinduism, at its very core, is about suffering. (Oct5,96 & Jan23,97)


If you are ignorant of the 'system' then automatically the 'system' is working harder to keep things in line, to keep things clear, defined, ordered. Ignorance is a transfer of power from the internal to the external. Knowledge, wisdom, is the process set in reverse; taking pressure of the 'system' and incorporating order and understanding internally, taking away from the necessity of order to be externally enforced. (Sept29,96)


Ideas reign supreme. Ideas are life. The only difference between a man's life and a man's death, between living and dying, is an idea. (Sept21,96)


America, not Iran, has the perfect infrastructure I seek in build in myself; discipline not by force, but by understanding. (July27,94 & Oct4,96)


college: for the purpose of acquiring theoretical knowledge to guide you in practical action (Rand)


Rand did not come to a blind man; she came into the hands of a man who was looking for the words and ideas she wrote and expressed. (Aug27,96) Rand has contributed to my philosophy, not given it to me. (Sep3,96)


Reconciliation of opposites; result -- fully integrated person (Jung)


If you think of Revolution, dream of Revolution, sleep with Revolution for thirty years, you are bound to achieve a Revolution one day. (Lenin)


At times I find myself almost suffocating from my seriousness. I too desire to be light in topic and at ease with others, but as of the present I have yet to find another who is serious enough to laugh and be joyful without having to spit on one's own face! (Letter, dated Aug10,96)


What I am concentrating on now is withdrawing all potentially useful ideas from my journals, typing them, printing them, ... to have all my resources in one book, one binder, to fit in the palm of my hand, accessible to me at all times, with me at all times ... This way I am able to fuse, weld, break down, and digest ideas quicker ... (Aug6,96)


History is the search for: what and why is man? This is how I see 3500 years of thought. Every action is the attempt to self-actualize. (Aug3,96)


For years it has been coming, and now, when I stand with the knife over my head, ready to kill God, ... I can't. One argument still remains. Who will help me overcome this? Can it be overcome? (July18,96)


You must make your own meaning! And how do you do that? -- through systematic experimentation. (July15,96)


To be a creator of new values, I must destroy old values. To not destroy out of ignorance and a lack of knowledge, but to destroy the old valuations through an abundance of knowledge. A new synthesis. To be a creator I must also be a destroyer. (July 14,96)


There is no external savior! (Jun22,96)


So here I am, driving the rat maze of my head, back and forth, back and forth. Out on the highway, heading for Edmonton. I am still trapped between God's damned chains and the cybernetic byte. For months I have been squashed in my little environment, perplexed over my frustration, I feel like I am shrinking, things constricting -- before the explosion to an even greater height? The spring doth coil? But how? How? How do I express myself?
Yes, yes ... is this what I am craving? To grow? Does this little brean sprout want to plant itself at last? Is it ready to extend beyond itself?
To grow, yes, I believe I want to plant seeds. To 'spread seed' -- and I believe that might every well explain my strong sexual desires lately. I mistook the desire to extend beyond myself for the desire of a partner, a woman.
I must grow or risk suffocation. Change my soil, find a bigger pot to stretch my roots. I must transplant myself if I am to achieve my goals. (June19,96)
Not to have sex with a woman, but to impregnate the world! (July13,96) ... Sex is but a subordinate clause to what a human being's real drive is ... and that is to create beyond one's self, to build a reflection of one's self in the external world, to make or create the world in one's own image. ... To search for the ultimate YES to one's existence -- the desire to create beyond one's self -- is often mistaken as the desire for sex, for a partner.


I sit day after day, picture the road that leads out of here (Northwest Territories). I did not complete my Mission on the road last time (Dec93-Oct95), bugs still distort and infect my system. But I will be clean when I stop on North American soil after my next trip overseas. ... Ruthless. Disciplined. I will be immovable. You doubt? You shouldn't. I have done my best; I will do better. I found no living man to teach me; therefore, I will teach myself ... I will complete the Revolution. (June12,96)


World Vision sponsorship terminated. "I no longer agree with Christian values." That which you teach the children is a major cause of their poverty. (May27,96)


Intelligence is the ability to use past experience to solve new problems. (May19,96)


(struggling with political terminology and definitions, I write): All I can say right now, this is what I understand. Capitalism allows me to work for myself. I work, I keep the wages I work for. Socialism I work for everybody else's benefit, and that provides little encouragement to work at all. (May12,96)


Ninety percent of the people I have been introduced to here, upon hearing my planned October 7, 1998 departure date, disbelieve me and laugh, "That is what I said when I first came here!" Yeah, well fuck you. (Apr28,96)


There is infinite energy out there. There can never be an energy shortage. It is what we use for energy to fuel our building that must be looked at. New methods of tapping that infinity. (Mar27,96) ... Energy crisis: the only crisis is one of perception, as existence itself is an ocean of energy.


I have designed my room for one task only: to think, to write. No TV. No stereo. No posters or pictures. Just miles of desk top space for my research materials, journals, and computer/keyboard/printer. In the last months of overseas traveling, I began planning extensively on how I was going to return to North America and make my environment work for me, instead of me reacting to my environment, dominated and unhappy. Thanks to the accomplishments of two years of traveling, I have found the strength at last to be my own master. Though, I must admit, I still have much to learn about patience. (Letter, Feb26,96)


Break the comfort zone. (Jan23,96)


How do I overcome my difficulties? Work.
How do I stop thinking of temptation? Work.
Drill the pity out from me. Crush it with work. (Jan21,96)


Defining symbols with symbols, a dictionary. Language. concepts. Smaller concepts used to build larger ones. For the larger concepts to be correctly understood by all, the smaller ones (words) must be accurately, objectively defined. What I am doing then is not studying philosophy, but the evolution of concepts and ideas. (Jan1,96)


1995


The years from about fifteen to twenty-five are the crucial formative years of a man's life. This is the time when he confirms his impressions of the world, of other men, of the society in which he is to live, when he acquires conscious convictions, defines his moral values, chooses his goals, and plans his future, developing or renouncing ambition. These are the years that mark him for life. (Ayn Rand)


What you think you become. (Nov19,95)


Thinking is overcoming. (Nov9,95)


Seeking more than the university textbook, I took to the streets of the world for a more captivating, hands-on learning program. (Dec5,95)


Thinking is your addiction now, your drug, your ticket to life. ... What you think, what you write, you will become. Get rid of those externals that override thinking. ... Create your own environment, a place to think, to retreat, to join silence, to be in solitude, to write, to listen. Alter and bend reality to your will. (Oct25,95)


In Islam you are not asked to think, you are commanded to obey. Oh yes, you are allowed to think all right, but only within the limited framework of the Qur'an; and therefore, such thinking is not thinking at all. (Oct12,95)


Three years from today or $100,000 -- whichever comes first. This is the maximum limit I will stay in Canada: October 7, 1998. (Oct7,95)


Lawyers without any definite moral code are assassins for hire. (Oct7,95)


"You will have a hard time when you go back," he says to me.
"Perhaps," I reply.
"I did. I went home three months ago, stayed for a month, then left. The changes were too great in me for them to understand," he adds.
"Well, that might be true, but I pretty well left all the social acquaintances behind five years ago, living a transient life. So I really have nothing -- no specific social environment -- to go back to." (Oct7,95 Hong Kong, the day I returned to Canada after 22 months of travel)


To think. This is how I selectively applaud the creator and overcome the destroyer. ... Learn to think, and keep thinking. It is the only way to freedom. (Oct5,95)


To think. And to keep on thinking in spite of the seemingly endless restrictions put before you, the obstacles which seek to thwart you. ... Reality is law. If you listen to law, then reality will respond. It will thrust you up to ever greater heights of achievement. If you ignore law, then reality will crush you. The choice is yours. (Oct5,95)


Paul Stanley: "If you want to be successful, get rid of your women." A woman can, and should, apply this too, just as a man should. At least for a set time to establish a strong foundation for building external to one's self.


The Buddhist and Hindu: "You are here, now, possibly because you denied your real existence last life too." My reply: if this is the case, then I'm going to be beating my … head against the wall next life as well … (Apr28,95)


Even in the face of "lucky" discovery "chance favors only the prepared mind" as pointed out by Louis Pasteur. ... information does not exist without a mind that is seeking or ready to process that information. ... "accidental" events become "discoveries" when they are observed or thought about by someone with enough prior knowledge to appreciate their significance. (Pages 45,132, Psychology & Life)


The act of discovery has a disruptive and a constructive aspect. It must disrupt rigid patterns of mental organization to achieve a new synthesis. (Arthur Koestler, The Act of Creation, P104) ... The great mastery and ease we gain in the exercise of a skill, the more automated it will tend to become, because the code of rules which controls it now operates below the threshold of awareness; ... enabling one to turn to more challenging tasks (P155).


Sex, like hunger and thirst, is a biological drive. But unlike hunger and thirst, it is a drive that need not be satisfied. It is not a critical necessity for the survival of the individual, only for the survival of the species. (P680, Psychology & Life)


For months and months all I've thought on is Jesus, Jehovah, Muhammad, Self and Revolution. (Feb18,95)


All the energy I come to selectively consume, I re-direct. I decide how to send it out packaged to other particles. Consuming creator, amplifier, sculptor; translating existence into my image ... (Jan19,95)


Spirituality --- what is it? To me it is logic and law ... (Jan12,95)


Everything has to do with limits, order, logic, steps ... (Dec21,94)


Discipline is skill in actions (2:50, Bhagavad-Gita) (Dec5,94)


My life is the pursuing of truth. I can't just shove it aside! To some I am obsessed. A fanatic. I'm not fun because I think about reality. I'm a depressant. I can't lighten up -- this is my life! To put this aside for even one second, I cease to be. (June24,94)


There has got to be a Truth which explains our existence ... but fuck man, it's so confusing. (Mar11,94)


No matter where I go, there is always me. (Mar26,94)


1994


(To Study All Holy Texts) -- How do I justify coming to a Hindu ashram, listening to mantras and oms, imitating cobras, butterflies, and fish? I'll tell you how. I'll tell you why every pig of a Muslim, every ass of a Christian should come here too, 'strong' or 'weak' in their religion, opposed to idolatry and spiritualism. This is how: we talk continuously of other people's sins, of other people's disgustingness, are horrified at their barbaric and uncultured practices – how clean are we? Cleaner than the om chant? Are we disciplined? Are we are own master? Do we control our senses? Are we purer than the disciplined man who bows down to a cobra when we are only sincere to God immediately before and during a formal prayer?
Sharpen your sword of reason. Finely smoothen your vocabulary for description. Are you better than something without even seeing that something? Are you disgusted by the name of an unbeliever's religion? You have judged a millennia old religion by its book cover? Why does your 'enemy' bow to a snake? If your 'enemy' lives disciplined and you do not, of what significance is your faith? What is produced by your faith? Of what benefit is your faith? ... study, identify and analyze the fundamental truths contained in all Holy Books … (Dec8,94)


The problem with a Christian, a Muslim, or a Hindu looking at other religious faiths is that they use their own scriptures as authority in determining what is and what is not 'Truth'. (Dec16,94)


… I can't talk to the everyday average Joe about how I think the philosophical recipe for practical living should be constructed/mixed because in rejecting the ideas of one faith I'm merely replacing it with another …
Am I looking at/participating in Hinduism objectively? I can't be. … Look at me. My mind is already made up. Before I've even gathered the first facts of a religion, I'm digging for its faults. And, of course, finding them because it differs from the truth I'm conditioned with. I'm delighted in finding a fault, frustrated when the weak point in the chain isn't obvious.
… what a mess this is. Hinduism, Islam -- the ideas, the rituals, the superstitions -- all of these things I find unreasonable are "matters of faith," so how can I expect to prove them wrong? They are to be 'beyond' human reason …
And so we get nowhere proving things to others … or even to ourselves, for we play the same game as them. In constructing my philosophical recipe for practical living my faith comes before reason, so this is why things that I accept appear so reasonable to me, and foreign ideas so repulsive. (Dec10,94)


Christianity, Hinduism, Islam tell you "the truth," but ultimately, to know the full story you have to "believe." And so you're run off the end of the cliff and you take your chances … (Dec20,94)


(Of Hinduism & its 'truths') The carrot in front of the horse comes to mind here. But the carrot does not fully exist. The horse thinks it does. The whole philosophy of this religion tricks you into believing that somewhere in it there is a tangible explanation, and so you keep trying to understand it. After eighty years you may think you have something more, but really, you don't. The riddle was only partially tangible to begin with. It's just a vicious riddle which teases with partial substance. But a person doesn't believe this because millions before him have praised the riddle, served the riddle, died for the riddle. He has been convinced by others that in this riddle there is full substance, total meaning, that the carrot is really there, and so he bows before it. All his life he has seen his father, mother, peers, his teachers, tell him the wonder of the riddle. Philosopher after philosopher delight in the riddle, adore the riddle. If one is so pre-conditioned to accept the riddle, then the riddle will be his view of reality (that doesn't mean to say that this particular view of reality is right though).
To understand the riddle, one has to have enlightenment, or Moksha. So this man will spend all his life running after the riddle. Without Moksha one may think he understands the riddle, but this cannot be so, for he is still tainted with the illusion of ego, and thus can understand it only in part. The part that he sees is somewhat tangible, it may have some partial truth, and this is what keeps him going to try and solve the riddle. The horse keeps running for the carrot. The partial truth inspires him to accept the entire riddled philosophy as truth, to believe that the carrot fully exists, if he's just willing to chase it throughout a few hundred reincarnations. (Dec10,94)


Islam is a free, open and willing-to-discuss possibilities religion. It just won't allow you to debate the validity of its fundamentals, that's all. (Dec12,94)


On Islam: To wait until I am dead to learn about "the Plan" sounds like trickery to me … (May 24,94)


Rationality

( From Journal 43, Sunday, December 18, 1994 8:42PM. The Yoga Niketan Ashram, Rishikesh, India )
I went down to the chai shop (tea house) ready to reveal my theory to someone.
I am getting very angry at being shut down as an idiot child. The conversation I thought was going to happen didn't start. It was more of a social meeting to say goodbye to a few of the guys. I listened to everyone talk on about how great it was to be here, instead of drinking beer and smoking joints with the boys back home, actually doing something which had some meaning, some depth to it -- discussing truth, learning about meditation …
"Stop thinking."
"No."
"You have to let everything go. The writing. The trying. I'm much older than you, I know these things …"
"No. The truth can be reasoned."
I understand now. Even if I prove to the sharpest possible reason the truth I think I have, the best written (arguments) to thwart ... religion, the most objective stance possible, there will always be a fault. Why? Because for all their talk, all their time spent thinking on the issue, if truth hit them in the face they would not come to believe it. They think that truth is so elusive that the chance of meeting someone who knows it is zilch. Nada. Zero. Nothing.
What man is saying to me tonight is this (in contradiction): "I will look for it all my life. I will devote all my years to trying to find it. But I will never find it. Because no one else has. Because no one else can prove it to me that he has. And this is the truth."
I will prove all of you wrong by reason, or die trying.
I am going to show you the true power of the mind and the frailty of the fist.The mind has created all of this (mess) and the fist can do nothing to change it. I will tell you the truth, but will you listen to me?

( November 2001: providing context for the above journal entry )
In December of 1994, after a few years of contemplation and in the tradition of the Enlightenment thinker Voltaire, I stood resolute that truth is possible to man. So long as man applies and exercises his mind, no secret or mystery -- no matter how large or enduring -- can stand in his way indefinitely. For when it comes to identifying truth, the wily deceptions of "faith" (firm belief in something for which there is no proof) and "emotion" (feeling the truth in one's "heart") -- advocated by the religious and anti-intellectual -- are palty substitutes for logic (the skill of non-contradictory identification).
In the early years of my development (92-93-94), I learned to distrust people who talked to me of "faith" and/or "emotions" as their primary guide(s) to identifying truth. According to the degree and pervasiveness of their "faith" and/or "feeling", I increasingly saw such people as whimsical, unfounded and ultimately dangerous. As no one could provide me with satisfactory answers to my questions and inquiries (i.e., a well-thought and rational explanation of life and truth), it was partly due to this early mistrust of misguided people that I chose to go my own way and use my own mind.
While my worldview has been significantly restructured -- i.e., evolved -- since writing the above journal entry, there is one thing that has remained fundamentally unchanged through it all, like a golden thread: my conviction of the validity and power of reason. In fact, due to the intellectual and practical successes achieved since 1994, my conviction of reason as the primary means to identifying truth has been intensified a hundredfold.
From child to teen to young man, though temporarily fragmented and fractured in spirit, I was never so afflicted that I permanently revolted against my self, the earth and reason. In 1990 I had a "Summer of Awakening", where I first experienced an air of intellectual and individual freedom. During my year long flirt with an earth-based (altruistic) sect of Christianity, where my intellectual growth was stifled by doctrines of selflessness, it was this sect's emphasis on the Hebrew concept of Nephesh that largely delighted my understanding and imagination (an idea that still captivates me today). Come the fall of 1991, pushing away from religion's influence, I began to aggressively assert my self again, expanding the scope of my understanding and the depth of my experience through experimentation and observation.
Contrary to what many religions and cultures advocate, life does not have to be a labyrinth of endless mystic riddles -- contradictory, mindless, meaningless, and vicious. Faith and emotion are not the means to establish human understanding, peace and prosperity. It is only through reason that rationality brings men, women and children together in understanding and peace to create a rational world of rational values ... and a life worth living.


1993

Freedom Through Discipline:
A Man Is Born In Chains, But He Can Become Free


( written Jan-99, edited Jan-02 )
Freedom Through Discipline. First mentioned in my journals June 14, 1993, this approach to liberty remains a cornerstone of my philosophy today. Preparing for my first overseas venture, in concurrence with a rising financial success, it was largely due to the spectacular results of a physical training in mid-1993 that made me consciously aware of it. Through an intense organic interplay, the more I trained my body the higher my thoughts soared, which had me striving to articulate the elation I felt physically.
My May-June-July 1993 journal entries, for the most part, vividly show a radically altered state of mind to me today (in contrast to pre-May93): self-assertive, confident, bold, adventurous -- a new power grasped, with the burning desire to master it. Tasting self-achievement and self-liberation beyond that of mere subsistence (as what was experienced in Vancouver 1991) -- that of flourishing and growth -- was something I had not felt in years (since childhood?), if ever. For the first time in my life, I had consciously willed this -- my success -- into existence.
Such an experience, altering and lessening the degree of a fractured internal state, reveals itself (journals and letters) in the way I attempted to break out of the religious/self-less 'moral code' accepted by me during this time. I can picture myself curled up, squished, in a transparent closed box barely big enough to fit me -- angrily frustrated -- battering the sides of it in an attempt to escape its confines. With as much space as there was, and as much momentum as the muscles of my body could generate -- throwing myself against its walls to break free.
At this time (1993), the 'walls' of that box -- the superstructure of an altruistic religious philosophy I had earlier embraced to stabilize myself and to grasp the world with -- were too strong, too firmly entrenched in my mind for me to break free. While I would momentarily weary of this struggle to shatter these mental chains, the precedent had already been set. In the months to follow, with strength renewed, I would rise again to constructively and rationally smash my way out of a 'self-imposed', suffocating universe … again and again stretching the dimensions of that box. And the more I stretched it, the more room I had to mount an even fiercer attack the next time around.
The ideal for which I fought? To solve the contradictions and riddles which plagued me, to fuse my mind and body into one harmonious state of existence. A natural harmony for a thinker and creator who as of yet in 1999 is still unaware of his full potential and abilities. Who sees himself as part of an ongoing intellectual (and therefore biological) evolutionary process: a piece of the universe attempting to understand itself.
Thus, in both the personal and the generic sense -- microscopically and macroscopically -- I think the man that is today is but a pale shadow in light of what he is to become tomorrow.


POEM: INFIDELITY
Written January 1993

There were a few moments
where contentment lounged
in my seventy years of haste …
I was charmed by the soft caresses and sweet materials my fingers did taste,
the exotic fragrances and flirtatious perfumes consumed,
during the yawning sighs of my newborn flower's stretch and bloom.

She skittered and danced with a six-sensed role in my mind's game,
masquerading immortalities, molding and breaking my circles of shame.
She gathered intangible desire, stamped and spat on my will,
yet her love's petals came back to me again promising warmth still.

She whetted my deepest secrets with sultry kisses, exalted me like a king,
stalked mysteries with a mystic flair and spiced my veins with a-jing.
When I proposed to her beauty she became like the wind's short, gasping breaths …
such is the restless passion
I have found
for seventy years
of life's little deaths.


The Vampirical Chameleon



1992

POEM: LADY KATALIN
Written January 1992


The darkness recedes, a tempest passes by,
Lucidity returns, see through my eyes.
Rhapsodize and ramble in depths of a sage,
Peer into the bewilderment and solace of my cage.

Striving for the answers I have not found,
Vexed, this madness has me burdened and bound.
Tormented and strained, at ease rarely seen,
Everlasting, O Katalin, we should have been.

Do you remember the time, the way it should be?
Or has time led us astray, pictures faded in anxiety?
I have explored the air but found a quarrel of no length,
Naught endures except you who issues my strength.

Hold to the memory, and I ask little more,
The promise I gave to the woman I adore.
I spoke, my beloved, so long as I stand
I would fight for our marriage, the approval of your hand.

No more hesitation, your smile sparkles the cure,
Lips quivering with an innocence -- a power -- so pure.
A face soft as an angel's heart, kindness every second,
Your beauty enslaves me, I would do as you beckon.

Ambling city nights, they whisper our names,
They know us, by nature, our minds are the same.
Tell me to stay, tell me not to let go,
My request, twilight words, to let you know …

I love you Katalin, lady of tender peace,
Say you want me, need me, pardon me with a release.
Do not trample my courage, to heavy the lines of my face,
Give me back my dignity, my soul ignites at your grace.

Unparalleled you are, princess of foreign blue,
Strip away my defenses, take me into you.
I long for your cheek, your hands, your hair,
Without your kiss I walk alone, silence as my heir.


The Vampirical Chameleon


Lady Katalin is a poem about estrangement, remembrance and fore-shadowing. Written in January of 1992, revised in 2001, it is penned in a poetic idealism to portray the reasonings and emotions of a youth toward his love -- she being his only and temporary solace from an otherwise relentless bewilderment.



Journal Extractions: Political

Am I hardcore politics, 24/7? No. The aim of my politics is to establish principles so that I am able to guide my actions amidst so many value conflicts and contradictions. In person, I rarely speak of politics. If it were possible, I would prefer never to speak of the subject at all, just go my own way to do my own thing, to live my life in peace. (Nov16,03)


Listened to a conversation of two friends in a pub. They both agreed, as it was the basic agreement of the whole discussion, that both environmentalists and industrialists distort facts. That some unknown-as-of-yet text between left and right would have to be penned between government and industry to sustain the economy. I only piped in once, "Ontario," to dispel that Alberta is the most polluting province of Canada. What I did not say, and what struck me so forcefully, during this conversation, is the distortion of the market voting process via the subsidization of industry. End the ballot box stuffing -- subsidies -- and watch the two coalesce. End the subsidies and watch a worldwide marketplace vote honestly -- that is, watch price tied to reality. So long as the vote is distorted, that is, prices are distorted through subsidization, then reality is detached from the marketplace.
The greatest gift to humanity is via the WTO's mandate of progressively adopted free trade. No industry, to environmentalist, no goverment is capable of achieving the absolute honesty of a unsubsidized -- i.e., free -- marketplace. It is a vote achieved through $$$ and it cuts through all unrealistic ideals, all pie-in-the-sky bullshit rhetoric. It is reality, here and now, measurable, with a constant ear to the future in terms of research and development (venture capital). (Dec23/04)


socialism: offers dependency in place of independence (P625, Margaret Thatcher, The Downing Street Years) ... the unspoken objective of socialism: to increase dependency. Poverty was not just the breeding ground of socialism, it was the deliberately engineered effect of it. (P646) ... Fredrich Hayek's idea of competing currencies, in which the market rather than governments would provide the momentum for monetary union (716) ...


The revolutionary idea that defines the boundary between modern times and the past is the mastery of risk: the notion that the future is more than the whims of the gods and that men and women are not passive before nature. Until human beings discovered a way across that boundary, the future was a mirror of the past or the murky domain of oracles and soothsayers who held a monopoly over knowledge of anticipated events.
This book tells the story of a group of thinkers whose remarkable vision revealed how to put the future at the service of the present. By showing the world how to understand risk, measure it, and weigh its consequences, they converted risk-taking into one of the prime catalysts that drives modern Western Society. ... Like Prometheus they defied the gods and probed the darkness in search of the light that converted the future from an enemy into an opportunity. The transformation in attitudes toward risk management unleashed by their achievements has channelled the human passion for games and wagering into economic growth, improved quality of life, and technological progress. (Peter L. Berstein, Against the Gods: The Remarkable Story of Risk) (Dec8,04)


Lord Palmerston's dictum: Britain has no eternal friends or enemies but only eternal interests. (Dec8,04)


More on the stereotypes of capitalism. Yes, it sickens me to near death sometimes to have to abide by the falseness of being nice to everyone. Syrupy, bullshit two-faced engagements of smiles, acting like one cared, when you would really like to tell someone to shut the fuck up, smarten up and/or get a fucking life. However, the alternative to the necessity of being nice under the competitive pressures of capitalism is much worse. I have seen and experienced many examples of it in socialist, communist and totalitarian countries. When competition is absent, and the stagnation of government interference prevails, it is called apathy. And it wholeheartedly sucks. Trying to get something done in a country where individualism is squashed at every turn with a ton of red tape is a real pain in the ass. But, of course, you'll never know any different until you get your whining rump off your streetcorner and into other cultures and countries. If you do know through experience what I mean, you will understand that grinning and bearing the sometimes phony and two-faced bullshit of capitalism is still a hell of a lot better than the apathy of socialism. (Oct19,04)


I am a capitalist. I own no house, drive no car. I have no television, no stereo, no microwave, no computer, no boat, no quad, no fifth wheel. I do not require ample amounts of electicity, nor gas, oil, water, trees, and/or chemicals. The so-called consumer-society which is despised by so many, then bought by those same many, which you may think you belong, I do not. As a North American, I do not specialize in eating junk food. As an individual, I ask for no government aid, no welfare handouts, no tax-eating subsidies, no illegal favors. My life is streamlined, practical, cash-flow positive. I desire liberty, mobility, simplicity, thoughtfulness, rationality. I tell you this, why? Because against all your pre-conceived notions, I am a capitalist. (Oct5,04)


Agression with hostility, ego without vanity, superiority without snobbery, he advances by simply not noticing obstructions. (P413, Dutch: A Memoir of Ronald Reagan, by Edmund Morris) ... his Daliesque ability to bend reality to his purposes (P414) ... he professed confidence that the free market would supply whatever corrective forces were necessary if the welfare state began to dismantle itself (P422) ... "The Middle East is a complicated place -- well, not really a place, it's more a state of mind. A disordered mind." (P505) ... "freedom and incentives unleash the drive and entrepreneurial genius that are at the core of human progress" (P511) ... Soviet Communism: a doctrine perfected by a cynical minority to enslave -- i.e., enforce labor from, and deny self-determination to -- a terrorized majority. (P435) ... Reagan saw that Communism's struggle against Capitalism would be resolved by market, not military, forces. (P461) ... Since 1800 the US had not witnessed such an electoral-vote landslide as in 1984. Reagan had swept every state. He'd kept, or fought to keep, all his campaign promises: he had cut taxes, harnessed government, revived the economy, freed the entrepreneur, and cursed the ungodly. The national economy was not just expanding, it was exploding. (P506,512)


It is the non-objective means to every socialist end that undermines the socialist vision. (Jun16,04) ... Socialism: it is ablest at tax collection, for it can be done efficiently. But when it comes to dispensing that money for social programs, who decides who gets what? it becomes a tangled mess of lobbying, deceit, doubletalk, winking, corruption -- at the expense of common sense, law, morale, objectivity. (Jun17,04)


Evil: International Monetary Fund (IMF), WB (World Bank), UN (United Nations).
Good: World Trade Organization (WTO)


For a long while now I have heard "capitalism lacks spirituality." Capitalism, for me, is a lot more human-orientated than any religion I know. It is also more thoughtful than any religion I know. These two defining characteristics combined -- a thoughtful human philosophy -- I can't imagine a more sincere spirituality. What more is there than thoughtfulness? Is not thoughtfulness the quintessential trait of love? of benevolence? of peace and goodwill? Is thoughtfulness not the backbone of productive work, trade and justice? There is nothing more spiritual than thoughtfulness. Yet I am constantly hearing "capitalism lacks spirituality." Where does the fault lie? Not with capitalism, but with the individual who criticizes. Capitalism does not bestow spirituality on somebody. There is no God who chooses his flock. There is no king to knight and nobilize. But capitalism does give one the choice to pursue spirituality, in whatever manner one may wish, providing one does it with their own resources. Unlike other philosophies in the world, this one is for the self-chosen. Through thoughtfulness do all things become possible for the self. Live your own life according to your own values and choices. Give yourself your own meaning, because you are free to do so. (Jan25,04)


Democrats: Santa Claus heavy. Republicans: Santa Claus lite. The latter will also expand government, but at a slower rate. (Jan6,04)


Of the world's largest 100 economies, 51 are not countries but corporations. While the 200 largest corporations employ less than 3/4 of 1% of the world's work force, they account for 28% of world economic activity. The largest 500 corporations account for 70% of world trade. (Feb8,04)


"Subsidiary farming is the single most environmentally destructive process in the world. Hungry people pose the largest threat to the environment. Without the technological advances spread by globalization, an additional 1.5 billion acres of land around the world will be damaged by primitive farming methods."


Capitalism is the only philosophy in the world founded on individual rights; the rest are altruistic, which undermine such rights. The evils ascribed to capitalism are the fault of government stepping beyond its limits, interfering with individual liberties.
Capitalism is the only philosophy in the world, once properly defined, that the ideal is found to be the practical. Far too long has religion (and its secularized cousin, socialism) condemned man to suffering by portraying the ideal as impractical, what is practical a sin.
Capitalism is a philosophy for man as an organic, mortal soul -- for life on earth. Within a capitalist society, if a man wants to personally undercut this vision by embracing an altruistic religion, that is his own choice, not to be forced upon others via a political party or law. (Nov17,03) ... with the sole exception of capitalism, the grain of all other philosophies run one way -- altruism. The sheer historical momentum of altruism, accepted by people and cultures for millennia as ideal. It is no surprise to me that the battle for capitalism -- i.e., individual rights -- and all that entails (including free trade), is bound to be marked by misunderstanding, as well as scathing and violent opposition. (Nov20,03)


"If one man makes money, he must be taking it away from someone else" -- this idea causes a great deal of misunderstanding. In the economic system prior to capitalism, mercantilism, men saw a limited amount of wealth on earth that they had to compete for. The birth of capitalism swept away this conception, for wealth is created by thinking and bringing into existence ideas-tools-services that did not exist before. Thus, under capitalism, wealth creation is infinite. The more thoughtful individuals are, the more wealth that is capable of being created. (Nov17,03)


Picture, if you can, a man who has never seen the achievements of Western civilization before. A man who has lived his life in a primitive, altruistic society, where the tribe is emphasized over individuality. Upon introduction to a city of the West he would fall to his knees, awed by the power of this people's God. For the dazzling, seemingly miraculous technologies and skyscraping temples before him would relfect this God's power and insight. This man would be shocked to his core to find out this God's name: the individual. (Nov14,03)


Individual empowerment, give the power back to individuals. It is obscene to suggest that government monitor every single transaction between all individuals of a society -- because this is what socialist programs attempt to do. The cost and beaurocracy is enormous. However, let millions of buyers find their own millions of sellers and the majority of these transactions would be processed smoothly. Those transactions where buyer or seller find fault or shortcoming, then they turn to the courts -- the proper realm of government -- to settle their dispute. ... Socialization is the monitoring of buyers and sellers. The government as middleman presumes in its all-mighty knowing that it can better match buyers and sellers than the latter can match themselves. Instead of individuals being able to personally tailor the transaction according to their own unique selves, the government hands out a stifling one-solution for all transaction at the subsidized cost of a fraction of the free-market price. But oh! Don't look behind you, for the government takes the rest of the money out of your back pocket via involuntary taxation. Thus, you get shitty service that does not satisfy, and because a government middleman is involved, the cost of the transaction is actually more than you could have paid for it directly in a free marketplace. ... There is your so-called beautiful socialism, immoral and inefficient from every angle. (Nov14,03)


Socialism is immoral: Property rights are an extension of individual rights. A socialist government separates property from individuals through taxation under threat of force. With the liberty of an individual already diluted, further wrong must be thrown upon him/her to buy into the blatantly inefficient services monitored and encouraged by government subsidization. Not only does the individal have his/her property forcefully taken, but he/she gets doubly shafted by the lame subsidized services the goverment looks upon as ideal. (Nov14,03)


As painful as a capitalist environment may be sometimes, it is still by far the most responsive and compassionate to human needs, for it is a philosophy founded on the individual's right to life, liberty, property, and the pursuit of happiness. Remember the alternatives: altruistic slavery via religion or a variant of a centrally planned, secularized philosophy. Judging by the incredible suffering and blood spilled by altruism's so-called 'good works,' I choose liberty. ... Criticize if you will, fear the 'dogma' of capitalist belief if you want to, but that very notion is a contradiction. For capitalism is about individual liberty. In other words, I desire neither to rule or be ruled, but to enjoy what little time on earth I have, to explore, to adventure, to marvel, to create. The only 'dogma' of capitalism, if you can possibly call it that, is: be free, be happy. Live for yourself. Live to the fullest extent possible. Seize the day. Plan for tomorrow. In other words, do whatever you want. Just earn it with your own two hands, your own intelligence, your own resources. Stop advocating the slavery of some for the benefit of others. (Nov11,03)


There is another inequality in the marketplace that needs to be adjusted: the priviledges enjoyed by religion. Constitutionally, all mention of a God should be removed. From a secularized base, until government is properly restrained, religion should be made to pay taxes like all other individuals and businesses. Religion is a parasite that feeds on the abundance created by individualism, and it uses its gained resources to then openly attack and condemn the virtues of the very lifeblood it feeds upon. If placed on a level playing field, without priviledge, it would be kicked down a few notches of prestige. It would be forced to begin liquidating its vast properties in order to support its overbloated, dinosaur existence. The business of selling God would have to compete like any other, its success according to its degree of rationality and/or the creativity of its marketing department. Whatever the outcome, religion would be forced to evolve and compete for market share like all other businesses and cultures in the world. (Nov9,03)


Thomas Jefferson, notes: Peace is our passion. ... That government is best which governs least. ... The opinions of men are not the object of civil government, nor under its jurisdiction. ... Commerce with all nations, alliance with none. ... Jefferson was for government simple and frugal, he would have no standing army in time of peace, and only such naval forces as were essential to protect coasts and harbours. ... a wise and frugal government, which shall restrain men from injuring one another, which shall leave them otherwise free to regulate their own pursuits of industry and improvement, and shall not take form the mouth of labor the bread it has earned. ... Commerce is the great engine by which we are to coerce them, and not war. ... the power of the economic weapon, especially for a nation which neither possessed nor needed significant military power. (Sep,03)


The problem with socialism: one man's rights are another man's jail sentence. (Dec9,02)


How capitalism will save life on earth: demand and supply. As a natural resource become scarce, its price will rise, which will cause capital to be shifted toward an alternative(s), research and development, innovation, substitution. The scarce resource will be priced so high that it would be preposterously inefficient to continue using it; a substitute is developed and introduced. The use of that natural resource is phased out altogether. Reason prevails. (Oct27,02)


What a socialist government does best: taxation. This is what it specializes in so it can do everything else poorly. (Sep20,02)


The socialist law I seek to undo: for every action there is an equal and opposite government program.


It is said capitalism destroys, exploits. I say capitalism maximizes the earth's resources, and scarcity motivates change / innovation / creation. (Apr14,02)


2001 Questions & Answers


What is the main theme of the July 2000 Letter?

The letter focuses on human cultural evolution and identifies the root of this change: reason and rationality. After a decade of thought and observation, the letter is an outline of my worldview and philosophy -- answering outstanding questions from my past and extrapolating ideas into the future. It is a roadmap of where I have been and where I want to go.

As my choice of political philosophy, I view laissez-faire capitalism as an extension of reason and rationality, not some political theory void of man and his nature. In this light, I view capitalism as the best system of government designed to accomodate human peace and prosperity.

I did have to cap the letter at a certain length so -- while concentrating specifically on building a macro-world picture -- I only briefly mentioned some of the underlying human-orientated principles of a capitalist philosophy (see Individualism paragraph of the July 2000 Letter V2.0).


From the 19th to 20th century why didn't government stay out of business?

"Largely as a result of the 'emergency measures' the governments of free nations took to 'right' the wrongs of previous market interference (The New Deal/The Great Depression), to fight the aggressors of two World Wars and then under the 'immanent threat' of a prolonged Cold War ..."

In addition, Nathaniel Branden provides some valuable insight --

"Ironically, it was the very success of the American system that made this development possible. As our society became wealthier, it began to be argued that people were "entitled" to all sorts of things that would have been unthinkable earlier. Eighty years ago, few would have suggested that everyone had a "right" to "adequate housing" or "the best available health care." It was understood that housing and health care were economic goods and, like all economic goods, had to be produced by someone. They were not free gifts of nature and did not exist in unlimited supply.

Now, however, at the sight of our growing prosperity, intellectuals and politicians credited not freedom but the government with the new wealth. And they began to declare that government could do more than merely guarantee the protection of rights and establish a more or less level playing field, which was the original American idea but which now seemed too modest a goal. Government could become an agency for achieving any social goal thought to be desirable. In the growing enthusiasm for government regulation, planning, and expanded "services," especially since the nineteen-thirties, it was not a long step from "it would be desirable" to "people are entitled." Desires thus became rights." (A Culture of Accountability, C.1996).


Effective Law Enforcement

Government's energies are largely being tied up in what I consider to be non-essential services. By doing more than it should in society, it is improperly managing its resources and workforce. If we can streamline the government, a more effective and efficient law-making and law-enforcement will result. If one is concerned about industry waste and pollution, for example, all the more reason to rally for a laissez-faire (limited) government and get it back to doing what it should: protecting individual rights -- and as one aspect of this, protecting the environment individuals live in.

Downsizing the government also will also decrease crime. With two million Americans in prison, I'd say many branches of the current government system and particular laws are in business to create criminals, not protect individuals. With a tangled legal system contributing to injustice, frustrations rise, corrupt law fuels greater angst and alienation, greater and more violent crimes. By cleaning up an over-inflated government, I think the many symptoms of such faulty vision and practice will ease as well.


Capital Punishment

The proper role of a government is to protect people, not execute them. That is, in principle and practice a government is to defend individuals from acts of force and fraud, not initiate acts of force against them. Therefore, I disagree with capital punishment. The best deterrent for reducing violent crime, I think, is to have a limited, focused and disciplined government.


Overpopulation

As weird as it may sound to some, I don't think the earth is overpopulated. Russia, about 11% of earth's total land surface, is for the most part empty. As is Canada and Australia, two other huge land masses (plus Greenland & Antarctica).

In places that have a lot of people, like India-Pakistan, the extreme effects of their population are largely a result of using an ancient philosophy -- they utilize resources inefficiently, they direct their energies unwisely, harming themselves and their environment (which again harms themselves). By contrast, with the freedom to exercise their minds (and rational foundation) the Chinese have proven intelligently able to feed and take care of themselves -- and will only get more efficient as time goes on. India, like other cultures, will have to embrace a huge conceptual revolution before such poverty is undone and the environmental effects of their population are brought under control.


My Thoughts On Environment & Natural Resources

As my introduction and guiding ideal, to quote the European scientist and thinker Francis Bacon: "Nature, to be commanded, must be obeyed."

I once had an interview with an engineering firm that asked me for my views on the environment. I replied by saying that people have to learn to distinguish between what changes the environment and what destroys the environment. I am okay with the former, but against the latter. For many people, however, change means destruction. That is, they are anti-change. And I disagree with this view.

I see myself as an animal of this earth. I understand that the health of this earth's biosphere is inextricably related to, and the foundation of, my own health. To leave the land 'as is' indefinitely is the equivalent of wanting to throw all of humanity back to a subsistence culture, living day by day, hand to mouth existence. This is not an option. I have more respect for mankind and our potential than that. On the flip side of this same coin, to strip the land, water and sky of all its life forms and life potential -- leaving nothing but ashes, corpses and poison gas in its place -- is also not an option.

Here I am going to stop. For I don't have the specific answers to each and every environmental issue. This is much too large a topic to cover in one email (or one lifetime). But from these basic principles one can extrapolate how I want to proceed in my life in future years. I do think there is a feasible way to sustain an advanced civilization and, at the same time, sustain the health of the earth. The individuals to successfully find such high ground will be those that choose to think.

Part of the beauty about globalization is that idea-product-service creation and innovation are going to speed up. As an increased number of individuals from around the world come into the individualist-capitalist fold, increased competition is going to be the equivalent of switching from a horse and buggy to a jet engine, to take our thoughts 'to where no man has gone before'. Including, but not limited to, energy substitutes and ecological repair.

To provide an example of the way I see an accelerated creation and innovation in the future, in the past I have little hesitated to express my admiration of the Orientals. As some 90% of their numbers are still in catch-up mode, building the infrastructure and environment necessary to accommodate and cultivate individuality, I think the impact of the Orientals as a whole has not even begun to be felt upon the world. When it comes to 1.3 billion (largely atheistic and earth-focused) Chinese, what aptly sums up my sentiment, in the context of an intellectual and cultural force in/on humanity, is: " You ain't seen nothing yet ! "

In many regards, including when it comes to countering the ideas and influence of Islamic-Christian-Indian religion, I view the Chinese as indispensable allies to a much improved, more beautiful and natural humanity.


The Extinction of Animal Life

For the most part, I don't see good things ahead for the other (non-human) animals of the earth, at least in the near term. In more or less point form, the essence of my vision is --

To build a picture of life on earth and its extinction, since the beginning of the Cambrian period 600 million years ago there is a paleontology (fossil) record of five great extinctions (and other smaller ones). In the late Ordovician period, about 438 million years ago, some 61% of the genera disappeared and 85% of species. In the late Devonian, 367 million years ago, 55% of genera and 82% of species died out. In the Permian-Triassic, 245 million years ago, 84% of genera and 96% (yes, ninety-six!) of species went extinct. In the Triassic-Jurassic period, 208 million years ago, 47% of genera and 76% of species died. And the most famous of the extinctions, the Cretaceous-Tertiary, some 65 million years ago, sent 47% of genera and 76% of earth's species into extinction, among them the dinosaurs.

Though a proper context is difficult to ascertain, statistics and predictions abound saying we are currently in a sixth period of great extinction of life on earth. The difference between the present day situation and that of previous extinctions is this one is said to be caused solely by the human animal.

My shift away from God and creationism, towards atheism and evolution, has been to question prevailing ideas and beliefs.

Now don't get me wrong here. I am not advocating the extinction of animals, but I do think an extinction of animal life will continue to happen as humanity consolidates for much of the 21st century.

I also have to honestly admit I am not running out and directly endorsing animal survival. I choose to endorse "reason" instead, which I view as the fundamental issue and -- through its absence and inconsistent application -- problem for all life forms on earth. To save any creature(s) on this earth, humanity has to be fixed first. Otherwise I'll end up spending my energies on a symptom of the real problem, accomplish little, and perhaps end up viewing the extinction of my own species (as well as the animals I tried to save).

The core of my argument looks like this: reason endorsed today will take time to be learned, the extinction of animals will continue. In the future, mankind consolidated (at a higher level than today), reason applied, we can rebuild.

In the meantime, to challenge creationism and the notion that all life on earth is of "God's Divine purpose", human beings can continue to exist without many of the earth's animals. (I am not saying this would be desirable, but I do think it true.) It is when the various forms of vegetation, plants and trees come to be threatened on a wide scale that we, as an animal species ourselves, start to get into trouble.

This is why I say at the end of Part I of the July 2000 letter:

"Forward Thoughts on Evolution -- In 1994, while in Istanbul, I remember an American youth saying, "Evolution is finished, at least from a biological point of view." In the year 2000 I reply, "Quite the opposite, evolution on this earth has not slowed down or stopped, but sped up a million fold on all fronts -- especially cultural and biological (genetically manipulated plants and animals) evolution -- with biology posing to surpass physics as the spectacular science of the 21st century."

"[End of Part I. Continuing with the idea of evolution, I view it as imperative that reason-individualism-capitalism is accepted by humanity worldwide -- and the sooner the better. In the future I am going to venture into the consequences of (1) a delayed cultural consolidation of mankind, and (2) a consolidated mankind -- exploring what each means for other life forms on earth and the earth itself as a biosphere. Within the framework of the latter, a consolidated mankind, I will extend my vision of man (a creator) and humanity (a civilization of messiahs) into my concept of a naturalistic universe.]"

To delay a cultural consolidation of mankind means to delay the advance of reason, which means ancient perspectives and practices will continue to be used that are no longer good to use on a mass scale. Perhaps when the human species consisted of a 1+ million people worldwide -- sure. But not with 6+ billion people and growing.

With increased population old philosophies no longer work, the formula-dynamics of existence-survival and the conditions for prosperity have changed dramatically. If we delay any longer, or hold a "status quo" and drift sideways, then I think we will become extinct ourselves. But if we push ahead under the umbrella of a reason-based individualist-capitalist system, pressuring other human cultures to contribute and adapt -- in effect, altering the philosophical foundation and outlook of humanity as a whole -- what we use as natural resources today may not be used at all in the future. We'll use water and helium (as two possible examples). And I will forecast, perhaps in a 'dreamy air' to some, that many of the animals we lose today will be "invented" or "re-invented" in the future.

(I notice the idea of collecting DNA samples from endangered animals is gaining in popularity -- and controversy -- these days, so humanity has them in storage should the knowledge and technology come about for us to successfully "re-create" them in the future. Sort of like organizing and building a modern day 'Noah's Ark,' helping humanity and the animal kingdom weather a protracted tempest.)

In short, I can't say exactly how humanity is going to tackle the problems we now face and will face in the near future. But I do understand how we can best solve those problems -- through reason. And individualism-capitalism are the ethical and political extensions of reason.


Further Comments on Multiculturalism & the July 2000 Letter

Other cultures existing are fine by me. To each their ability. Continuing --

"For it is my conviction that in the presence of reason, capitalist culture (i.e., freedom) and globalization the days of people getting by with practices and perspectives that are hundreds, perhaps thousands, of years old -- at the expense of reason and rationality -- are numbered."

This sentence contains two swords. First, under the influence -- and pressure -- of thinkers around the globe, a continuous stream of new ideas and new valuation systems are going to reason with and try to convince people to change their ways for the better, leaving behind inefficient practices and fragmented perspectives.

For those cultures that are anti-reason and anti-human at core, incapable of being reasoned with and knowing only violence as a course of action, I expect the dominant-rational-humanistic cultures to defend themselves and wage war in return, in the name of reason and the cause of freedom.

Second, I think it is wrong to use force on one individual-business/industry-culture to support another. With socialism, under threat of physical coercion, I am forced to hand over my property to the government. For example, if I publicly declare I oppose certain government programs and in protest I don't pay my taxes the authorities come to forcefully arrest and imprison me.

My point: to hold a gun to a man's head and demand his property-wages, the rewards of his own effort, to help someone else is not moral no matter what the "good cause" proclaimed at the end of it. Voluntary contributions are fine, even honorable, to whoever or whatever I may want to donate to -- but forced contributions are immoral.

If certain cultures in Canada and the United States are to survive I think they should do so on their own effort, in a free society. In a free-rational society good elements will remain and the oppressive and bad elements will disappear.

To sum up this section, I think it is in everyone's best interests -- all life forms on earth -- to motivate people to think. To do this, we have to put a stop to allowing certain individuals, businesses and cultures to charge the expenses of their lifestyle, inefficiency, ignorance, and/or laziness to the accounts of the more thoughtful and productive. For not only does it encourage unproductive behavior from those receiving a subsidy of some kind, but -- through seemingly endless taxation and siphoning of resources -- it limits-strangles the flexibility-creativity of the thoughtful and productive.

For these reasons -- and for the future of man and life on earth -- I think an individual, a business-industry, a culture, should not have the right to live at the expense of another. It is in this context I applaud the global rise of reason, individual freedom and laissez-faire capitalism.


The Nature of Labor & Trade Between The West And China

In the drive to be more efficient and more profitable, companies search for the least expensive means to deliver their product(s). Part of this, as the world opens up to freer international trade, has to do with reducing labor costs. The mathematical side of the equation is simple: why pay someone in Canada a wage of $20 an hour to insert four screws in the back of an alarm clock when you can pay someone in another country to do it for a couple of dollars (or less). It's practical and common sense -- companies profit, shareholders {who are individuals & families} enjoy a higher return on their investment, clients and customers save.

The commonly perceived notion with companies moving their factories to countries where cheaper labor exists is that Canadians lose jobs. At first glance, when the pink slips are handed out, this may appear true. But I think the big picture reveals something different. By reducing labor costs companies utilize their monetary resources more efficiently. Which, in turn, means companies have more money to research and develop other profitable ideas, services and products. Which, in turn, creates more industry, more jobs. Wealth creates more wealth.

By moving older and established forms of industry to places of reduced labor cost, I think what really causes many Canadians to groan and bellyache is the 'task' of upgrading and learning new skills in an ever-changing marketplace and society. Such folks would rather not have to think and act beyond the comfortable safety and 'status quo' they are familiar with (note the "anti-change" bias again).

[Side note: another variation of the 'anti-change' bias is the idea that new machines and technologies put people out of work, a perception that has been strongly voiced since the beginning of the Industrial Revolution. If such a notion were really true, then some 130-150 years after the Industrial Revolution, upon widespread usage and adaptation of computer technology and the Internet, developed countries should probably be experiencing some 95% unemployment by now.

Instead, technology-abled countries are the productive powerhouses of the world, and the citizens of these countries are the wealthiest of humanity. Using the United States as example, one of the most machine-technology-orientated countries on earth, unemployment is at its lowest point in decades (as of 2001), with some 94-96% of working aged individuals employed.]

Moving to the other side of the ocean. Say we put a stop to foreign companies moving their factories and assembly plants into China and hiring cheaper labor. What does this mean for the Chinese? As one consequence, it means widespread unemployment. For these companies have and are creating thousands of jobs for the Chinese where no such specialized industrial and assembly work existed before. What's the alternative? Mass unemployment, continued ignorance and probable starvation (in the end, civil war). For the government of China can't create work and money out of nothing to distribute freely to its people (the communist governments of the 20th century have shown this well enough).

It is here I should add that most foreign companies doing business in China are joint ventures. That is, foreign companies are encouraged to select a Chinese-partner company (from within China) and they attempt to do business together. Just as China – a 'Third World country' -- needs to be taught how to think and build life-enhancing services and technologies, foreign nationals and companies of the 'First World' are in serious need of learning how to do business in China. Without this partnership and 'bridge-building' many Western companies wouldn't have a chance of surviving here.

That said, are all the present-day workplaces of the Chinese ideal? No, but the Chinese are doing an admirable job of rising to the challenge to better themselves. Wishing and asking for the ideal doesn't make it real, people have to think and work for it. Be it an individual or a country, part of maturing is about going through a period of 'growing pains'. Just as the British had to go through this same kind of industrial phase in the early 1800s, where factory workers had to put up with less than ideal conditions, so too is China. Through this thought and labor wealth comes to be created. And this wealth will slowly filter through Chinese society -- especially to those who are not hesitant to think and work -- to improve living and workplace standards. In the same manner as it did in Western nations.

If an individual is desirous to pay for the product(s) of a company that only hires Canadian employees in Canada to produce it, they are free to do as they choose. However, if there is a company that hires Chinese employees to manufacture the same kind of (quality) product in China they will probably be paying more than I will. I'll be more efficient in the use of my resources. And I'll also be putting $$$ into the pockets of the Chinese, creating new opportunities for them, raising their standard of life, etc.

This is not to say I am anti-Canada. If Canada has certain products which only Canadian employees are trained to manufacture-assemble-install-operate, I will vote for Canada with my dollars -- because I value their product/service and there is no competitive alternative (quality/price), … yet.

I do admire China's 'increasing economy'. But going deeper, whatever the faults and discrepancies of a developing and progressive China, there is a reason I admire the Chinese more than many other countries and cultures in the world. I admire and applaud the human-based values and earth-focus that these 'economic changes' represent. Through continued exercise of reason this culture has enough depth and character that it will adapt and advance whereas others cultures will not (to face assimilation/extinction).

As for 'child labor' and 'sweat shops', no doubt it exists somewhere in China. The current reform policies are radically altering Chinese society at every level. But even without hard evidence of how widespread such activity is (or is not) -- if it exists it is a temporary consequence of a tremendous and necessary cultural and social restructuring. The current climate of intense change within China will not continue indefinitely. Following intense times of growth are periods of consolidation. Such periods will allow the Chinese to adequately refine their laws and justice system to better protect individuals.

In a brief summary, I view doing business in China not only as a means for making money for Western companies and myself. Nor is it only teaching the Chinese to build things they did not know how to previously and to raise their standard of life. But through this intercourse and exchange of ideas and resources comes a greater and loftier ideal: bringing two admirable cultures – and thus humanity -- together. (End 2001 Questions & Answers)


Of socialism: okay, let me get this straight. You want to disable the able so you can help the disabled? (Aug14,99) ... Let me put it this way: if you think it is immoral that able and prosperous men do not support a minority of disabled through a policy of government taxation and program, I think to disable able men through threat of physical force -- i.e., taxation and the use of guns and imprisonment to collect that taxation -- is doubly immoral, if there was such a thing. (Nov8,00)


Hong Kong. The death of a free society is the implement of taxation. With taxation, all of a sudden capital is not free to flow; it must be all be monitored by the government. Freedom to move one's capital becomes a task, a process of bureaucratic irrationality. It becomes a crime if not properly documented, thus stifling trade and movement. Hong Kong, with its minimal taxation and relaxed capital movement policies, has shown me this. The all-pervasive access to capital, the freedom to trade, has resulted in Hong Kong being a storage place, a haven, an excess, of capital worth. It thrives. (Apr13,99)


Take care of the creators first and forement; through their work all lesser creatures (of ability) will be aided as a secondary consideration. Freedom for the expression of ideas and their practical manifestations: product trade. (Apr9,99) ... There are creators today making easy to learn and use tools which will raise humanity's ability to grasp higher abstractions.


The power of trade: to rebaptize mankind. Open up the trade routes and the ideas will follow. Concrete trading leads to abstract trading eventually, and Individualism is born as a result. (Apr 6,99)


Do you doubt your self that one day you will be able to refute socialism as effectively and cleanly as you have refuted and exposed religion? Don't. Because the latter has been done. The next stage is but a matter of time and study. I will do to socialism what I have done to 'God'. (Jan15,98)


"If men feel they are faced with a choice between the moral and the practical," she said, "then proving to them that capitalism is practical will never motivate them. Men have always been willing to fight, and to die if necessary, for moral principles; they will not fight and die for economic principles. They will choose morality over practicality, whatever the cost. In order to turn the country to capitalism, one must first demonstrate the morality of capitalism." (Ayn Rand, quoted by Barbara Branden)


If democracy is "an arena in which one shrewd thought devours another," then the capitalist marketplace is the ultimate form of democracy. A man has an idea, markets it, and people vote on it (with their dollars). If the idea is of benefit to individuals, it survives. If there is something better, it fades or is innovated. At any point, if your desire is not met in the marketplace, then you have the option of creating a product/service/idea to satiate it. ... the only way a monopoly can be maintained in a laissez-faire capitalist system is if you vote it there. (Aug24,97)


The Affirmative Action Policy -- "hire native before white" -- these so-called treaty advantages are a disgrace. For what they translate to is degrading: "You aren't good enough to deal with the white man -- and all other races for that matter -- by yourself. Therefore, we, the citizens of Canada, will have pity on your inferiority, and help you to stand on an equal level to us. We know you cannot think and perform like we do, so here -- have some bonuses at our expense -- advantages to bring you up to our level." (Mar19,97)


Relief to the poor encourages their idleness. (Benjamin Franklin, Autobiography, P244)


Against socialism: the more decision making you give up, the closer you are to serfdom.


Laissez-faire capitalism is decentralization: more power to individuals, less power to the government.


The Federal Reserve causes boom and bust cycles. Inflation caused by an over-printing/distribution of money supply.


Legalize the drug trade. Quality of drug production will skyrocket due to competition.


If you could take my life, cut it up into little pieces, you would get dollars. $$$$ = liquid soul. (Oct 12,96) Each purchase I make, every gadget or accessory I buy, I give a piece of my soul to purchase it. An exchange of soul, an exchange of life. The ultimate tribute from one man to another. Thank you. Thank you for living, for working, for cultivating this service-product-idea. You make my life easier with this, and thus here is the equivalent for your time, your life, your soul. I agree to pay this equivalent. I think this is a just exchange. I am willing to exchange some of my life´s work for some of yours (Oct 13,96) Money, to me, is liquid soul. A medium of exchange of one man´s soul for another (one man´s work for another´s) (Feb9,97)


If technology is time-saving -- and therefore, life-saving -- then a man is able to do more with his life-span. A product / service is of value in the market to the degree of its life-saving / time-saving ability. ... The ability to compress more into a single lifespan; to manipulate not only years, months and weeks -- but to move into days, hours, minutes, seconds ... (Mar17,97)


You want the ultimate voting system? You want men who can provide insight, vision, to lead you? Then capitalism is the only system that can accomodate you and this desire. It is responsive to your every desire, your every need. The men who can lead you: they are the creators. The products and services they create are put on display so that you may purchase and thus, in turn, vote for their vision. The whole idea of voting a new government into power to 'provide the country with direction' is absurd. To vote a handful of men into Ottawa (or Washington) and have them run the whole country efficiently, creatively, cleanly is more than absurd, it is stupidity. the only person who can provide humanity with direction is called the individual. The individual, not the government, is king. (Mar8,97) ... this old conception of government as leader must be abolished. (Mar10,97)


This afternoon Steve (of PWGSC) said "He doesn't play by our rules." After eight months, he gets it. (Mar11,97)


This resignation from Public Works & Goverment Services Canada (PWGSC) is a significant milestone in my life: it is the first time I have acted on my political convictions. (Mar7,97)



It is said to me, "Communism, Marxism, noble ideas, but impractical to implement. Their end, their striving, is noble, but their means are impractical."
Comment: I disagree. You can't separate a philosophy's means from its ends. The core of any philosophy is defined by its means; if you sutract the means, you have nothing but a superficial, unrealistic pipe dream. (Dec7,96)


The Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms, a commentary, edited by Walter S. Tarnopolsky & Gerald A. Beaudoin, 1982, Carswell, Page 264.
The United States says: the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness.
Canada says: the right to life, liberty and the security of the person.
The Law Reform Commission defines "security" thus: "Security of the person means not only protection of one's physical integrity but the provision of necessaries for its support." This notion of security corresponds to the W.H.O.'s definition of health as "a state of complete physical, mental and social well-being." The right to security understood in this sense is defined by article 25 of the Universal Declaration of Human Rights, 1948: "Every one has the right to a standard of living adequate for the health and well-being of himself and of his family, including food, clothing, housing and medical care and necessary social services, and the right to security in the event of unemployment, sickness, disability, widowhood, old age, or other lack of livelihood in circumstances beyond his control."
If one accepts this concept of security of the person one concludes, as the Law Reform Commission did, that "Those general terms of wide public use have ethical, social and political implications and their reach extends to every element of human happiness."
My comments on the above: in all this one must ask -- the right to security of the person -- at whose expense??
Canada's contradiction: the first two rights of man are undone by the third. The right to life and liberty are undone by "security of the person."
I am not free if I must work and be taxed for the well-being of other men, their "security," happiness, etc. (Aug3,96)


Every totalitarian system is its own nemesis, to the very degree that the system is closed and self-sealed -- incapable of self-criticism and self-correction. (Mumford, The Pentagon of Power)


"The genius of republics (they say) is pacific; the spirit of commerce has a tendency to soften the manners of men, and to extinguish those inflammable humors which have so often kindled into wars. Commercial republics, like ours, will never be disposed to waste themselves in ruinous contentions with each other. They will be governed by mutual interest, and will cultivate a spirit of mutual amity and concord." (excerpt from The Federalist Papers)


The regular distribution of power into distinct departments; the introduction of legislative balances and checks; the institution of courts composed of judges holding their offices during good behaviour; the representation of the people in the legislature by deputies of their own election: these are wholly new discoveries, which were either not known at all or imperfectly known to the ancients. They are means, and powerful means, by which the excellences of republican government may be retained and its imperfections lessened or avoided. (excerpt from The Federalist Papers)


... a political understanding develops ... (June5,96)














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