Somewhere somehow I had stopped taking care of my Spirit. The point that I’m trying to get across is that I was driving headlong into my quest for the legal tender leaving my need for daily recovery behind. My life was again in disarray.
I failed to allow myself to recover as the daily challenges assaulted me. I was so wrapped up in the problems, the only thing that I could do was strike out at those around me when something didn’t go my way.
When I was fired, the shock brought me back to reality. I knew what I needed to do. I had been here before.
I had to change my way of thinking, and my actions.
I went back to square one.
What I learned was that you can’t slack off and become lazy about your sobriety. Growth is never done. There is infinite room for improvement. A tweak here and a tuck there, on a daily basis may not look like much, but as I look back over the last sixteen years it has taken everything that I have gone through to get to this point in time. I’ve come a ways since I was sleeping on that church floor and walking a couple of miles one way to get to a meeting.
I have an abundant life in that I have friends and family that love me for who I am and not what I can do for them. My needs are met and I have peace of mind. Life still throws a curveball every once in a while, but today I am able to get through it with help from others and God.
I truly have been blessed.
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