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                                                                            January 11, 2005/Tuesday

To Erchel

          “Don’t you think it’s rather stupid for you to assume that all I’m after you is sex when we never, since after we met, had sex? And, why you? There are a lot others around? Ah… because you’re the “world’s greatest kisser”? For your information, I think Carlo is a lot better kisser than you. And with this Topher-guy, your willing to give him up over me? Okay, I’m flattered and all but no, thank you. I don’t want it. Why? Because, you giving him up over me only meant I won over him. It doesn’t mean I won your heart. What if you meet someone else?”

           

            “You knew from the start that I’m one insensitive jerk! I told you so. I made you feel so. And you are not the first person who hates me for it. My mom hates me for being so cold. Bj and Carlo hate me for being so dense, why do you think I couldn’t work out with any of the two of them? I wouldn’t be ashamed of it. That was how I was brought up. I survived life because I refused to feel! I wouldn’t be ashamed. I would apologize for it but I would never be ashamed, change, or hide it. This is who I am. If you can’t stand it, leave.”

 

            “You deserve someone much better…”

 

Okay… perhaps I just grabbed the opportunity to break it up… but I did try… Maybe if the circumstance would have been different, say he lives a ride away from me… if we had seen much of each other… I don’t know…

            The thing was that I was never really attracted to him. I’m sorry but I never really was… I wasn’t attracted to him when we make-out at Red Banana then and exchanged numbers. I just happened to be horny that night and he was there. I know this is really mean of me to say but… and I’m sorry…

            I must admit I just used him… I was lonely… he was there… I thought it would be enough… and I did try to be contented with him… but I just found myself wanting more…  refusing to settle… I needed something more…

            Indeed, he deserves someone much better…

            It’s better this way as it would rather be unfair to him if I prolong it more…

 

So now what…?

 

january 11/tuesday

to erchel

january 12/wednesday

good in paper, bad in bed

january 15/saturday

finally, a good one

january 16/sunday

cubao story

written and created by Lexan B. Orantes for Ystoria.tk a production of Story Tellers Manila

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