Naked
Me
I
guess you’ve seen my picture already… what do you think?
I
didn’t plan to… okay, I did… I had wanted to do another portrait for
this webpage and that I did want it sexy… what I didn’t plan on was that
to finally do it yesterday (January 16, 2005).
I
was aiming to do a “Sex and the City” pose. In one edition of the book
that I saw, Sarah Jessica Parker (Carrie) was naked with only her laptop
covering her privates. That was what I was aiming to do. Have I succeeded?
I
thought it looked like an ad. For what, you ask (your eyebrows into orbit).
Picture this: a very busy man living his very busy life in a city dark and
cruel. Confused. Dazed. He holds on to one thing, just one thing… He
doesn’t care if he runs around the city naked.
He doesn’t care if he looses everything for as long as he has that
thing. It is the one thing that makes sense in his life. It is the one thing
that keeps semblance and order in his life. It’s the one thing that keeps
him sane. He is rest assured that everything would be okay. The tug line:
“everything I need is right here.”
And
it does, at least, to me. Of course, I hold my family and friends dearly…
I love them all and that I need them. But what comes next were all in that
computer. Everything that I worked hard on, my dreams, my frustrations, my
love, and most of who I am are in that computer. And that if that computer
crashes, as I would expect one day it would… I don’t even want to think
about it…
It’s
an old computer running on Windows 98 and Pentium II. It’s an IBM Thinkpad
600E. It’s my architect uncle’s laptop. He handed it to me after he
bought a new one—a lot smaller, stylish, and powerful than this one. But
durability wise, we learned nothing compare still to this one. Our computer
technician said so—he is pretty credible for he is an in house technician
for a computer shop in Greenhills, which sells all brands of computers. He
said IBM is still the number one name specially on mobile computers. My
uncle’s smaller, stylish and powerful computer from VIO had suffered a
crash already in just a year. This laptop is holding on although it does
have quirks already…
Well,
for one thing, I could no longer use its mouse—track point. I have to
use an external mouse to navigate and choose commands. Battery also is
useless as it already run dry, so it needed to be plug whenever in use—so
there goes mobility. Otherwise, it’s working wonderfully. All my writings
and web designing are done in this very computer.
So
take it from me: if you are to buy a laptop, or any computer for that
matter, get an IBM. It may not be stylish but you sure could count on it.
Okay…
I am not connected to IBM what so ever. I am not getting a new computer for
what I just said. I hope, they would but no… I have no connection, not
even to a security guard the building IBM is holding office on.
Now,
if you are wondering if I am really naked in the picture, if really I am not
wearing anything except my laptop… I’ll take the fifth on that. What I
am to say though is that that picture is taken on a studio, the photographer
is a seemingly straight man (I’m not too sure but I guess it doesn’t
matter), and that there was no one in the room but the two of us.
The
studio was Great Image, Sta. Luica East Mall Branch (www.greatimage.com.ph).
I wasn’t supposed to go for them as they cost a lot. I was to go, as I did
before with my two other pictures also seen here: the one where I was in
black stripe shirt and the other was facing back with a book (check
StoryTellers Archives), to Kodak, which is just a floor down. The thing was
that the portrait package I was hoping for, the same package I took the last
time, was taken out.
The
package was one half-body picture and one whole body picture and cost two
hundred forty, if I remember it right. I had already decided that I would
take two poses using that package. Now, there were other packages that offer
two poses at almost the same price but neither was it of a half body and a
full body combination. I had the lady help asked the photographer if we
could work things out. The lady went as I watched from the door. I saw the
photographer’s face hating what the lady was saying. Surely, I thought, he
was in a bad mood and that I don’t want to work with him. So, I left and
head on to Great Image.
Again,
let me clear that, like with IBM, I am no way connected to Great Image. I
have not struck a deal with them and that I did paid for the session I had
with them. And, I am expected to pay the next time I come and have my
pictures taken again.
I
went to the gentleman at the desk and told him about the pose I wanted to
take. He suggested I take package F, which is six poses/shots. And in those
six poses/shots I only get to choose four. I’m amiable as long as I get
the freedom to do the pose I wanted—I have decided upon on. And, I have
been meaning to do a pictorial. Well, it’s vanity. While some go shopping
for clothes, some goes to the gym, and some goes cruising in bars, I like
getting my picture taken. That is how I show my love to myself. So, I took
it even if the gentleman informed me that the package cost four hundred and
forty pesos. Two hundred over my budget!!!
The
photographer, although less attractive than the photographer at Kodak, was
nice. He had this thing going on that makes you feel at home—relax. I did
a nude photo, so I guess you see how important was it to me to feel
comfortable with the guy taking the picture. I’m telling you there is no
harder thing to do other than shedding your clothes in front of the camera
and in full lights—this is usually an awkward moment on casual sex.
I
wanted to do a nude photo for the longest time. And now that I am really
working out, I thought I should do it already. It’s again vanity. It was
in one episode of “Six Feet Under”. There was a scene in one episode
where Ruth happened to show her eldest son, Nate, her nude picture taken by
Nate’s late father the night of their wedding. Nate said, “Mom you’re
hot.” Imagine, saying that to your mom! But it was a tender moment. And
that was where I got the idea. Well, I wanted to have a picture to look at
when I get old to remind me that I did look hot once upon a time.
Plus,
of course, I write about blowjobs and anal sex…
The
pictures were ready after an hour. I wasn’t too please… It’s not the
photographer or of the studio… I just looked shit. There were more than
six shots—the photographer was nice. I chose four, which I thought I
looked best. The four were enhanced digitally and was printed. Only one
picture came out good—the one you are seeing. Four hundred and forty
pesos!
I
really like that picture though… very please…
I did mention I’m really working out on getting my body in top
shape… I plan to do another nude picture of myself a month from now…
January
17, 2005/Monday