If there is one thing I miss about not being able to have sugar, it's ice cream. so I'm endulging.
We ended up heading north instead of south, to Charleston. Since that was more toward Nashville than away, I decided it best to take my truck & just follow them, but Ryan offered to drive my truck and let me ride with Seth and I accapted because, as I said, I really didn't want to be alone. So, we headed thought Savannah one last time and onto interstate 95 toward Florence, SC. I really enjoyed riding here with Seth, he is great to talk to and it kept my mind off things. And their car is nothing more than spectacular. A black 1956 Jaguar Roadster convertable is always a good thing to have. It freshened my thoughts having the wind blow on my face and though my hair.
Right now, we are at a little cafe in Charleston having Muffins, espresso, and ice cream :) At least some good will come from this trip. I made 3 new friends, even if I lost one of those and an old one in the process.
"Kurt Cobain was found dead this morning at 8:40am in..." just blasted from the speakers in honor of the anniversery of his death. It's also going to be another anniversery. One of the day I realized how life really is, and stopped beleiveing all the crazy shadows that I have been looking at it though, and how directly the choices I make affect it.
We're going out to a beach somewhere that Seth knows for a picnic lunch, he just bought the basket for the food and everything, which is just adorable. I guess I will head back to Tennessee afterward. Home will feel good after this ordeal.
Seth said something a little while ago that really makes a lot of sense. People will always think different things of you, some good, some bad. You just have to stop caring.
I'm crying again, it seems that's all I do anymore, for the past few weeks. Sometimes, I don't even know why. I'll say goodbye again soon for the second time this weekend. I don't know what I would have done without Seth and Ryan this weekend, they really took care of me. I guess there are little miracles on occasion. I know this keyboard feels like a 16 year old at an old man's bar as much as it's been hit on this weekend - It will live I suppose, as will I, regardless.
I'm moving in July to Atlanta to a small private school there. That decision didn't go over very well when I told some of my friends here, but I'm still going. Classes start for me there on July 15th, only two months away. It's like absolutly everything I do is turning against me. I thought my parents were happy with this decision, they even encouraged it. Now, it's the same as before, they don't seem to be happy with anything. Just like everyone else I guess.
Oh well, sometimes you're ahead and sometimes you're behind I guess, the race is long. But I'm coming to realize that in the end, it's only with yourself.
I wish there was just some way that I could dump my thoughts into people sometimes, so they could really see and really understand what I was thinking. I guess the technology isnt around for that yet huh? And you would think it would be around for me to have spell check when I am writing html too, but oh well.
I will keep trying to make him understand. I will keep trying to make everyone understand. Even when I don't even know myself sometimes.
I met some friends in the SGA office at 12:30 and went down to eat. Aramark (the food services on campus) was hosting a staff and student appreciation day today and they gave everyone free food, though we had to wait in line for what seemed like hours to get it and they were out of hot dogs ! Oh well, they had lots of drinks though. :)
I sat on the Court of Traffic appeals at 3:00 and listened to people for 1.5 hours tell us how unfair the ticketers were. Then spent another hour getting ready for and going to a Senate meeting. HORRAY ! *grin* It was pretty cool though. So, now I am headed home to sign some papers for my new school and get some money, what else would I go home for? Oh yeah, to wash clothes, but I did that last week :) Ill try to write more later.
Justin called me at 7:15 before he went to school this morning, we talked for a while and then I went back out for a swim, where I had been going when he called. I'm telling you this was an eventful day people - I washed my car at 9, took a shower and got my hair cut in McMinnville at 11, picked up a floral arrangement for my favorite secretary and brough it to her in the office at around 1:30. Since then, I have been siting at this computer entering cases and playing online. Not the most fun I have ever had, but not boring at least. Lates.
