I just got back to north Georgia on one of the last 2 days of this millinium. I'm at the same park where I often stop to think when I come through here, though it is much different that the last time I was here. The holidays have brought a lot more traffic to the interestate nearby and though the temperature isnt that much lower the wind has a cold chill to that bring me to tears.
The grass isnt green anymore, sort of a tellowish brown now and no blooms can be seen, replaced only by the deep evergreens that surround everything.
I spent the holiday season quietly, amoung family and friends (as much of them as I could stand that is)
The feeling here, and at home for that matter, is so different in the winter. I guess the lack of birds & childrens laughter adds to it.
These past few weeks have been a little less annoying than the rest of the year, though it reminds me of last Christmas, with all its wasted time and energy. Of course the oncoming new year makes me reflect on the past, like everyone I guess. That caused dismay, but, its already spilled before me, so as the new decade come spewing forth I pray for well, I dunno, happiness? I expect heartache, but we all know how that goes. Anyway, Im cold so, good night
I can't say that I could have asked for a better way to bring in the new year than the special time that I spent with a friend last night and this morning. That's a bond that I can only hope will last forever.
Since nothing last forever, all I ask for is a lifetime. HAH what a joke, was is that other than a death wish. Anyway. I hope you all have a great new year and that 2000 treats you well. "God bless us, each and every one
There's nothing like a friend to be there for you when you need it, especially one who pledges themself to you solely. It's a wonderful feeling to be able to go to someone and be held when you are feeling down, or when you need to talk.
I guess its unfortunate when you find that person cradling someone else, and a lot more that that.
I asked myself what to do through my tears this afternoon, it was something that I brought upon myself I suppose, because I tree cannot be blamed for being a tree, just like a child cannot be blamed for being a child. sigh.
Somehow, I think I have been here before. I dont know if I can go here again, or even if I will survive this one, but, we shall see I suppose. I am very tired, good night.
