Hmm. Somtimes I sit and wonder, "what am I doing here?" I am not sleepy, far from it, so obviously, I am not sleeping. I have this strange urge to go somewhere that I haven't been before, but Im not sure where it is. oh well. I guess I will get over it.
It feels like Christmas morning did when I was a kid. I cant explain that one either. Right now, I am sitting out in a park in Alpharetta, GA across from a big white banner with huge red letters advertising the Christmas tree lighting.
It is utterly freezing out here, but peaceful, and that is one of those things I will make sacrafices for, peace, or at least some facsimilie there of.
I just cant beleive that Christmas and the end of the year are not much more than a month away, the way time has passed by the last few years has just blown me away. I bought milinnium cards today, instead of Christmas cards, now, if I get them mailed out before the milinnium, we will all be doing fine.
Kevin told me today, kevin being my consultant and a personal friend, that I knew what I had to do, then ended the conversation on the note that "there are surfer boys out here, I have to go."
I guess I should take his advice, though I wish I was as confident in myself as I used to be. Oh well.
Anyway, there are surfer boys here, I have to go.... grin
Talk about playing games with people's hearts.
It is so amazing how things change in such a short period of time. heh, and how he got me blind is still a mystery.
Not even a year ago I was a sad & depressed boy in the corner of a dorm room in nashville, tennessee. Now the same sad & depressed boy is spending his time in the back of a white limousinc.
We went to the Backstreet boys concert Monday night in Nashville, it was totally awesome, better then the other three I've seen and totally different. Either way, it was amazing. The look on the store clerks faces when an adorable 5 year old little blonde girl emerged from the back of a limo at Kroger just to get some roses for nick carter was one of the coolest things I've ever seen.
Katie had a blast, even if she fell asleep at the end, and so did everyone else that was with me. We got some autographs after the concert and everyone was just beaming.
Then, as with all things in my life, the lights we out and again there was the darkness. I crave the light way too much I guess. But at least I had someone to share the darkness with this time, that is the truly amazing part. Oh well, what a life charlie Brown.
The life....the life is quite extraordinary.
