It seems that I start so many entries with "it's been a long time..." So I won't say that this time. But it has. The past month has been hell for me, in so many more ways than just one.
The meeting that I was expecting in the last entry, never happened. He left a voicemail for me, telling me no matter how much he loved me that he just couldn't go there in his life right now.
And he didn't, because he knew that if he was alone with me, that the same familiar feelings would find him. I cried for a long time, and have been trying to move on ever since.
So, I'm back to the drawing board, or whatever it is, though I think I threw all my utensils for drawing away, so I just sit hear alone, and still wake up crying at night. But someday, it has to end, one way or the other. ...
Good morning... I just thought I would say hello to the world before I started back on my way home. It has, as usual been a long time since I have made an entry, hopefully I will start making some regular ones pretty soon when I get my computer back together and get a new processor.
I should say hello to Patrick before he goes insaine begging to be mentioned here. It was awesome to spend some time with him last night. He is really an awesome person, and it was a cool thing that he moved a little closer from Tampa to Nashville. Maybe I will get to spend some more time with him in the near future.
Phish....
It's what's for dinner.
That is a sticker on the wall at the coffee shop I'm in right now in Murfreesboro, the Redrose. It's an awesome place near my old school. If you are ever in Tennessee you should stop by.
And my dearest Justin . (I swear he is older than he looks) I spent a few hours with him on Saturday night. It has been so long, it was really good to just see his face. That is another story......
Have a good day guys. I need to head out. I will talk to you soon. Chiao.
