It can only taunt me.
It cannot take me,
Just tell me where to go.
I can either follow,
or stay in my bed...
I can hold on to
the things that I know.
The dead stay dead,
They cannon walk
The shadows are darkness
and darkness cannot talk.
Each time I write here, I spend a long time tring to figure out just what I want to say. Or rather, what I want people to hear. I suppose, that I shouldn't be too subjective, this really is a place to voice my feelings - shrugs.
Over the past few days, I read one of the best works of fiction that I have ever been exposed to. It was a book called A Density of Souls.
After reading through the book, that was patterned after my old high school in New Orleans, it was amazing to find the similarities between the plot line and my own life. I encourage everyone to read it if you get a chance, it is awesome and Christopher is a very talented writer, a wonderful offspring of a legend.
Everyone missed a great scene with Jeremy and I searching all over a movie theatre for a missing tonge-ring. I think that story says enough for itself. I haven't had a lot of contact with Nick lately, but I spoke to him breifly last night and he was telling me about the album that should be out soon. He is sending a prelim' copy to me on monday, so I will get a chance to preview it. I am really looking forward to that.
It seems that I am moving again, not too far away, and hopefully to an atmosphere that I will enjoy much more. Jeremy and Joe will be keeping me company there, It is good to know that someone will be looking after things when I am away and stuff. Plus, it gets really lonley with no one around.
Just to say that word almost brings tears to my eyes. Looking back on the things I've done, I was trying, the entire time, to be someone. Someone who everyone would like. Someone that everyone would enjoy being around, but it seems I have become just the opposite. I've gotten caught up in everything around me to the point that I don't think anything can pull me out now. So, according to what everone says to me, and what everone thinks of me, I guess I am destined to be, what I am. But I'm trying to be what I want to be instead.
But looking ahead...I'm still trying to be someone, we'll see what happens. Thanks for talking to me last night Patrick. Just hearing your voice was comforting. I have lots of decisions to make right now, and hopefully I'm going to be making the right ones. Think of me everyone, send me good energy. HUGS.
