In My time of need these came through and saved my life. My hope is they can help someone else.
Lynn: I don't even begin to understand your problems and I'm sure
they seem unsurmountable, but they are not. No matter how bad things
seem, they will turn out better later. I've been in some realy bad
situations in my time. The worst one was when we were so far behind in
our bills and it seemed that there was no way out. We had lost our
electricity, had an eviction notice to move, and our car was on it's last
legs. We had 5 kids and nowhere to go. I wrote checks to get
groceries to feed the kids and then could not make them good. I was
placed under arrest and hauled away in a police car in front of my neighbors
and family. The situation could not have been worse. So I thought.
But we rallied. My family came to our aid and helped us out.
Gave us a second chance and we survived. That was 16 years ago. Now
things are not great since my company closed last year, but we are making
it. Barely, but making it. I'm sharing this with you because I want
you to know that you are not alone. I am here to talk to, to offer
a shoulder to cry on, to just be here for you. Don't give up on yourself.
You are special and loved by a lot of people. You may not know us
personally, but we care. Please hang in there. We love you.
Your friend,
Dear Lynn,
I just visited your pages - they are lovely, and so are you!
your Great Dane is magnificent! We used to have Danes and I know
how
loving they are. I know that you are not selfish enough to opt
out of
life; you would be leaving your loved ones to suffer. A friend of mine
committed suicide right before his child was born. Both that
child and
the mother of the chilld are all messed up now, fourteen years later
-
they are still suffering. Each has a very poor self-image; why
wasn't I
good enough for my dad/husband. Please do not do that to your
husband,
children, and grandchildren. Death is nothing, life is everything.
You are in my thoughts! Here is a gift for you!
Lynn,
Hi, i am one of your young (deleted) sister. i have been
to your page and read everthin you wrote there. you see, almost all
of
us, your sisters in (deleted) are so worried for you. even if i would
like to
go to your house to take you out and help you unwind, i just can't
cause
i am here in the Philippines. though i am so far away from you , i
am so
worried about you . please, don't do what you have written on your
page.
as for me, i can say that i will be needing people like you. just always
think that there are also people who are also having the same problem
as
you have. Here in my country, there are so many of them who are just
leaving along the streets. they have no house, no cars, no money, no
job, but they have always wanted to live for their children, for their
grandchildren and for others. have you read the poem "footprints in
the
sand"
the man said, my lord, why was there a time when i was lost and down,
i saw one set of footprints in the sand?
why did you leave me when i needed u most?
the lord said "My child, my precious one, during those
hard and trying times in your life,
when you saw only one set of footprints,
that was the time when i carried you.
Me and my family cares a lot for you. hope you'll feel better soon.
i
love you though i haven't seen you.
Dear Adopted (deleted) Grandmother,
Hello a thousand times hello, I am so glad that I finally found you.
I have updated the page I have done for you and you will find some
more
surprises there waiting for you. I have also gone to see your page
and I
am so glad that you are alright. Know that I am here and that
I love
you dearly. I know that, that sounds weird but, when you get
to know me
better, you will know that I feel things so deeply, I have just lately
lost my own real grandmother and I have missed doing things for her.
I
don't think I could bear loosing my new one. *big grin* Know
that you
are not alone. That I am out there praying for your safe keeping and
that I would love to hear back to know that you are ok. Take
care and
my the Good Lord keep you safely in his loving caring arms. Huggles!
Love,Your (deleted) Granddaughter
Lynn, you are in my prayers and I want so much to talk with you but for now I am sending this big ALASKAN bear hug from me to you with lots of love and sincere concern. I have been thinking for hours about what to write and I think you need hugs and support more than words right now. Please now that Ive been there--not many people understand that you cant choose to "be happy" or "buck up and get on with life as I have been told numerous times. I hope this does not sound stupid to you but there were some very neat things that happened before I got your news. And Lynn I truelly believe that Jesus is mindful of your aching heart and desperation these events that led up to this email on my end were not just coincidences --I beleve that in my heart and I would love to tell you some of them, simple things but powerful. Im gonna go now, I realize you dont know me except as another member of (deleted) but I really care please let me know if you need to talk. Love and friendship--
I am so very glad to hear from you and that you did not succeed in
taking your precious life. You still have so much to give and share
with
the world and your family.
You are a precious gift to the world and we all still need you. I feel
as though I have found a long lost friend. I told you things last night
I have not been able to put into words before. So you see, if only
to
listen to me, God has a need for you hear on earth.
If you would like, we could continue to write. If not, please just let
me know.
Please take care of you first for now. The rest will hang in there.
GET
BACK ON YOUR MEDICATION as soon as you can! As you yourself said in
my
email, it was a bad move to get off it. God send us doctors to help
us.
Please let him help you!
Write anytime.
Lynn, we all care and please please go read this before you do anything drastic
http://www.grohol.com/helpme.htm
Again I am not making judgements on what you are trying to do to yourself
and family, I just would like to help you or steer you in the right direction.
Dear Lynn,
Thanks for answering--we have all been so worried. I didn't want
to say
too much in your guestbook.
You know that you can turn to any of us (deleted) at any time.
You are such
a delight to know and we treasure your friendship.
I hope you were able to find a ride to your appointment. Have
you
thought of perhaps contacting a local church to see if they have a
program or someone willing to help? Our church does that.
I know how
important your meds are.
Please keep in touch!
Warm hugs,
Dear Lynn
How are you?. By the time you get this mail you will probably have
been to
the doctor. I hope it went ok. I have been thinking about you all day
at
work. Couldn't concentrate at all. I have been going over all the things
that I wanted to say to you in my head all day - but it's so hard to
explain feelings - especailly in another language - so just bare with
me...and if something sounds strange or upsets you - please remember
that I
mean it in the best possible way, ok?
You scared me so much that night when you posted on the MB. I
guess I
felt that way I did because I have been there - still am. I don't think
ANYONE can understand unless they have been there. People might say
"I
understand" but in fact they don't. They can't feel the pain inside..a
pain
so great that one would do just about anything to make it go away....even
kill oneself. And the scary part is that many think that just because
you
didn't do it that day that you are ok the next....just because you
are
still here...
You probably get many mails from friends who worry about you - please
let
me know if I'm interferring, ok?
I know it must have hurt you when your friend called the police. It
did
one thing to me...it made me scared - scared to let anyone know just
how
awful I feel. Next time I won't tell. They don't understand that is
someone
really wants to go - they'll do it no matter what. Police at the door
won't
help - only hurt.
I don't know if you'll try again - I hope you won't ((((hugs)))). But
I
hope you can trust me enough to let me know....It would break my heart
if I
one day turned my computer on and you weren't there....and I never
knew
what happend. I hope I'm making some sense here.....
I read your page again today....I hope you know I care?
What heppend at the hospital? I wish I could have been there to hold
your
hand through it.
Take care
Lots of love from
Hi,
Lynn
I am sorry to hear you are having some problems in your life at the
moment
that makes you feel that your life is no longer worth anything.
I will not presume i know anything about your or the life you have
led.
But i do understand depression and wanting to die prematurely.
Since i have been faced with the same kind of feelings before.
Unfortunately our life has not been a bed of roses.Well most people's
aren't
anyways.but we have been hit with more bad times bad luck than most
ever see
in a life time.
We have endured money problems like yourself,well still living them
really.
I suffer from many health problems both physical and mental so i do
know
what you mean about healthy people.unfortunately my body too is not
health,and will never be.I suffer from chronic pain ever day of my
life,where every waking step is excrusciating.
On top of my own health problems i have to watch all 3 of my children
suffer
from health problems as well as lose one of my children at birth.
unfortunately those are just the tip of the problems I have endured.
Everyone has a breaking point some it takes longer to reach some it
doesn't
take very long.I know things look bleak it is so hard to look for that
silver lining when everything you believe in or feel,has turned sour
on you.
Just wanted to drop you a quick line and let you know that even though
i may
not know you,your friends and family love you very much since they
sent out
an email for others to try and let you know that you are loved and
needed
very much so..
Here if you want to drop a line back and just talk..
Take care
Hugs
Lynn,
I want to tell you a little something and why I was so moved to call
you the way I did.
About ten years ago, I started getting real sick. I started having
panic attacks and didn't know what they were. The next thing I knew I was
scared to leave my house. I was only 27 years old. And nothing like this
had ever happened to me before. I thought I was losing my mind.
The longer it went on, the more hopeless I felt. (deleted) was having
to do all the errands for me because I just couldn't bring myself to leave
the house. On more than one occasion I thought about killing myself. I
felt like I was worthless and just couldn't even do the basic functions
of life. Thank God we didn't have (deleted) then, it would have been even
worse to deal with.
So when I heard about this yesterday, I was moved that I had to get
in touch with you somehow. And when you told me this morning that you feel
worthless, my heart just tore in two. I know that feeling hon! And let
me tell you something now! You are worth EVERYTHING! Don't let the devil
tell you this. He is trying so hard to get you to believe it and he is
real good at that! I know from experience.
And now praise God.....I am agoraphobia free and I am able to live
life the way God intended for me to. I still have anxiety at times, but
it doesn't paralyze me the way it used to. God is good!
I am here for you if you need to talk, scream, cry, rant, whatever!
Just holler at me.
And I can send you any email addresses that you need. Just send me
a list. And any pages that you may need, I can do my best to help out with
that too.
But I just want you to know that you are cared for. And not just by
some Moms out there who think you are pretty special, but God loves you
so much. And He would never want you to take your life. He loves you hon!
Just keep telling yourself that! Over and over and over again. And claim
it for your own
So I've written this novel here and I am hoping that even just one
word of it will help you know how much you are cared for and how much we
all want to help you. I will be in touch. I do care about how you are doing
and I want to help.
Much love and many Blessings,
(deleted)asked me to send this to you! I'm praying night and day! I
hope
that you will turn to her!
*hugs and love*
PS. Please let me know how you are doing!
(deleted), Please let me know how Lynn is.
> The reason I was hospitalized was due to depression. I hope I can
trust
>you with this, But the only reason I am still here is because my
daughter
>called 911. Maybe I can help Lynn, in knowing how she feels. I learned
a
>great deal through counciling, and inner therapy activity.
>Please let her have my Email address, and tell her I just went through
this
>a very short time ago. I would be so happy to have her email me. If
you
>want, you may send her this email. I want her to know, she is NOT
alone...
>she is LOVED... and I DO care. More than you or any other person that
has
>never suffered from this sickness.
> Thank you (deleted), and God Bless you for being there for her. I
wish I
had
>known you were so caring when I went through this.
>
> HUGS, HUGS, and more HUGS,
~~
>
Being there:
> Can mean more than physical presence
> To touch can be done many ways
HI..I read your story and do understand the feelings you have and have
had...I too have contemplated suicide..I have never said this to anyone
and find it hard to explain to you....except I understand!!...that
is
not to say I agree ....if you would like to chat...email me
Hi Lynn,
I see from some of the things that I have learned about you that we
have a lot in common. I understand that you live in washington state? I
also live in washington state.. :)
Lynn, I also have been just where you are in feeling so very depressed
and like life is not worth living. Please Lynn don't hurt yourself. I want
you to know that I am praying for you and care.
I would like to share a little with you and hope it will help you in
some way.
For many years I was in and out of hospitals because I was suicidal
and was diagnosed as having a manic depressive illness. I want to share
with you what has helped me deal with this illness.
Nine years ago, the last time I was hospitalized for attempting suicide,
I took a good long look at myself, I too felt like a failure in everything
I had tried to do, and felt so depressed at what it seemed life had to
offer. I had reached what seemed to be rock bottom in my life. All I could
do was call out to a God that I had been told existed all my life, but
really didn't believe in that much. I like you couldn't even succeed at
committing suicide.
I then started looking at things a much different way. I started asking
myself what it really was that made me happy and made life worth living.
I started to see that doing things for my family and friends to make them
happy was one of the things that lifted my depression. I loved to make
them smile. Then I started seeing the pain on my husbands face because
he was so frightened of losing me, and the tears in my daughters eyes when
she asked me why I didn't love her enough to want to live and be with her.
I started seeing what my death would cause them.. the hurt and the devistation
of them finding me dead by my own hand. My own death by suicide would make
them feel they weren't cared about or loved. I started seeing that committing
suicide was really very selfish. I had worked hard at being a good wife
and mother and started seeing that all that would end in failure if I quit.
Sometimes Lynn it takes more gutts to go through life than to quit. As
a child I was abandoned by my mother, that hurt me deeply. My committing
suicide would be doing the same to my family and friends. I would be abandoning
them and denying them the love and care they needed from me.
When I started seeing and feeling the pain I was putting my friends
and family through it made me feel sick inside that I would hurt them the
way I was doing and it changed me completely. Yes I do still have times
that I think suicide would be an answer to all my problems, and boy do
I have some big problems sometimes and hurts to deal with, but as soon
as I start thinking about what suicide would mean to my family and friends
I know it isn't really what I want to leave them with. I would rather suffer
through whatever God allows than to hurt those I love.
Lynn I hope what I have said doesn't sound heartless.. believe me dear
lady that was not intended. I wrote this to you because I care very much,
and also felt in my heart if I could help you it was worth sharing a little
of myself with you.
Hugs and Prayers from a friend who cares, (deleted)
Lynn if you would answer me, I would love to hear from you and get
to know you.
Lynn,
I know where you are coming from. I have devoted my page to Panic
Disorder/Agoraphobia etc. It is nothing to be ashamed of being
depressed as
that is where I am at now. I cannot take their anti depressant drugs
so an
fighting this with only Xanax for nerves. It has been a hard
struggle and
each and every day I am struggling. I am glad you are using your
site for
your thoughts. I hadn't thought of that. But as deep as
my thoughts run I
would be afraid to put them up. I did try suicide 20 years ago
and almost
succeeded. The Lord wasn't ready for me and they did save my
life. Then
for 14 years I had total bliss - no panic - no depression, it was great
- so
I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I find I am
back in that
tunnel and the side are so slippery that each step up I fall 2 back.
I am
better than I was a year ago but not well yet. I am working on
it each day
of my life.
So you keep up the job you are doing on your website. I would
like to read
the continuing story you are writing.
May you get the help you need and that it works. Please keep me posted.
Love (deleted)
Lynn,
Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you!! You are
a special
person....I visited your page so I know that it's true! :)
You really do
have a lot to look forward to and no one knows what tomorrow will bring...but
please give tomorrow a chance to bring you something wonderful!!
I really do
know the depths of depression...I spend a lot of my time down there...deep
down there, I've considered suicide, I've tried a couple of times but
I thank
God that I didn't succeed, at least for today! :) Give
life a chance and it
will give you one!
Please feel free to write me anytime and just let it all out...that
can work
wonders sometimes and I have a pretty good shoulder to cry on, or so
I've been
told! :) God Bless you!!!
Love and Prayers,
Picture Attachments: THIS IS WHERE THE BEAR AT THE TOP CAME FROM..Thanks
hon
Dear Lynn,
I know you don't know me, but someone forwarded your site to me, and
I just couldn't help but reach out to you! I won't be one of those
to tell you to "Look on the bright side", because from where you're sitting,
the bright side may be to far away for you to see! I can't
feel the pain and despair you are feeling right now! From miles away,
I can't come and hold your hand or give you a hug...About all I can do
is to tell you that you are NOT alone!!! Take one step at a time,
one day at a time, hopefully you will find that "bright side" someday1!
I really care about you! This may sound selfish, but I want you as
a friend!!!! I have browsed through your web-site and you are a beautiful,
talented individual!!! I am new to this web-site stuff...Maybe you
can give me some pointers! My thoughts and prayers are with you!
I lit a candle for you at church!!! Hopefully my prayers will be
answered, and you can find the peace in your heart and mind that you really
deserve!
Goodbye for now my friend!!! If you have a chance, I am on-line
everymorning Mon-Friday at the site listed below! I have
a cirle of friends I know would love to meet you! Or, if you would
like to be friends, write back to me, and I will fill you in on more
of who I am!!!!
Take care
Dear Lynn
A lot of people are worried about you, please let us help if we can.
God Bless and keep you safe.
Saturday September 12, 1998
more..........
Lynn, Please take care...there is always a tomorrow...take heart and
live! You have a wonderful talent...actually, many talents...you have much
to give this world and I will be praying that you continue to grace the
world and the internet with your love nd beauty! Love and Prayers! ~
Dear Lynn, We at (deleted) are worried that we haven't heard from you.
Hang in there for Raz (beautiful dog) and your grandkids. I also suffer
from depression; I understand how you feel, but the ones who will suffer
will be those who love you. Please, if you can't liv for yourself, live
for them. Suicide is the greatest form of selfishness. Hugs!!!
I just read a letter from(deleted) telling about your pages and your
decision to take your life and how a friend called the police. You do not
know me - I can only say I am glad you are still alive. I can not say I
understand, because I don't know you -- but I can say I DO UNDERSTAND,
because I fight the same enemy all the time too. I am not a victim of depression,
my husband is. He is 65 and has had open heart surgery and seizures and
strokes since he has been 50. The doctor's say he is in deep depression
and needs help, which he refuses. His four grown children (my step sons)
refuse to commit him and won't let me commit him to a hospital where a
doctor could possibly find the right medication to help him. I have tried
giving him the depression medications that have been prescribed for the
past years, but he has so many allergies most of them cause him to get
worse. We married 13 years ago on September 21. I am 55 and the mother
of 6 children. Five of the children are grown and I still have a 17 year
old at home. My husband is wasting away before my eyes. Our "Great Life"
he promised is gone. Please, no matter how rough it seems DON'T GIVE UP!
God can and will help you through. NOTHING you have ever done can't be
forgiven! Please write if you feel the need. I can and will listen and
try not to voice an opinion. Sometimes it helps to tell a stranger your
problems. I see all the great things you can contribute in your marvelous
pages. Your life is so precious. I cannot pretend to understand, but I
will listen. I am praying for you to have the strength to continue with
your life. Quitting is easy and you don't seem like a quitter to me as
I wander through your pages. May God light your way and give you the strength
to continue! Love
Hi Lynn - you have an impressive site! And some scary parts too - are
you okay? The "Today I wanted to Die" page is very sobering - I hope that
it is just for illustration and not how you're feeling right now? Anyway,
this may sound stupid, but *I* don t want you to die, or to even be sad
- wish I could make things right? I *can* pray for you though, and I will!
Take care...
Hi Lynn, I don't know whether I could relate to what you've been feeling
at this moment. But I do have something to say: I think you're not a failure,
you wouldn't be if you can produce and be proud of 5 beautiful children
and being a grandmother to 5 mor . A lot of women would love to be in your
shoes, and to have loved and be loved by family that really matters. Some
of us don't even have one to love, and be loved. Don't think of yourself
as a failure because you're not. Find your solace in god, but neve give
up -- there's always a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Love you
very much,
I simply love your webpages! You've done a wonderful job! I especially
felt a tug of my heart at your journal..... if you need to talk please
feel free to email me. I also would love to give you my (deleted) Award.
Keep up the great work!
Lynn, you are one incredible lady...Your glamour photo is a knockout...
I was reading your "life" page and all I can say is that if you ever need
to talk to a total stranger, or need a shoulder, just holler... My ICQ
is (deleted)and my e-mail is (deleted) can understand how you feel, I have
felt that way many, many times.....Please just remember that although we
have never met, or even spoken, you have a friend here who cares.... You
have incredible strength.... Thankyou for a lovely place to visit...
You are a person who is loved and cared about a great deal. I do hope
that the prayers and love for you have been felt by you and your family.
Please know that we care
I am sorry that you are so down on yourself at this point in your life.
But please remember that you are NOT a failure, you have still a lot to
give, and recieve. I really hope that you get out of this dip soon. We
are all praying for you.
Sweet lady, Please know that you are loved and that life is worth living.
You owe it to yourself to try again and realize the blessings that have
been bestowed upon you. I'm sending you much love and light and blessings.
Your guardian angel is there for you. Please w ite back if you would like
to talk. I am there for you. Angel Hugs, Pat "Be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe; you deserve to be here." Desiderata Cherokee
Prayer Blessing "May the warm winds of heaven blow softly upon your house.
May the Great Spirit Bless all who enter here. May your moccasins make
happy tracks, in many snows. And may the rainbow always touch your shoulder."
Dearest Sister, I have read your pages about your depression..I too
suffer from this..I am on zoloft aND xanax..and a host of other meds..plus
I am in thereapy once a week..and I suffer from an eating disorder..all
which I am battling..witth congestive heart failure,dib tes,high Blood
pressure,dibetic retinapathy,severe dibetic neuropathy..plus amother to
an 11 year old girl..with hormones screaming ...and a husband which requires
a lot of attention(but that part is easy..he is so good)..honey what I
am saying is I unde stand...when dennis and I first got married..we were
so poor..one time we had the electricity cut off..the water cut off..and
no food...we had to take cans and turn them in to get hot dogs and cooked
them over pine cones..I am talking poor...money problem plagued us all
our marriage until recently.. But..hon...hang in there..it is worth it..I
know there are times when things just seem so black..I lived for years
under a dark cloud..no color...no flavor...turns out my mother suffered
from the same chemical imbalance..zoloft seems to help a bit...but y mom
went through electric shock treatment...the only reason I am in therapy
right now..with a fabulous doctor is that he is taking me for free..he
is one of the best...he is helping me to take my power back and learn to
ride thse waves that come over me at times just out of nowhere...I know
it makes me angry when people say snap out of it..they don't understand...sister
you have strength..suicide is a selfish act..you weren;t put here to to
quit..people that suffer these things are here for a reason..ser ice to
others..I get so tired sometimes..I lay in bed and beg my creator to let
me go..set me free from this prison..but I am still here..so I guess he
isn't ready for that...it is like I have made a contract and have to stick
with it ..come hell or high ater.Please sister hang in there..I am not
saying it isd easy and you can't help it..but just know there are sisters
who understand..and when you feel weak..let the sisters hold you up til
you are strong enough to stand on your own..that is what sisterhoo is about.I
truly understand..and am prayiing for you and sending you big ole mama
hugs..You are loved and cared about..you are my sister!!!!!!!!
Please know that you are loved. You are a very special lady. Hang on
in there Sister, we want to see you make your site even bigger than it
is already. Your sisters are here for you whenever you want them. Please
know that. Love and big hugs.
Oh how I feel for you, I am also on medication for depression (Zoloft
and tracedone) plus I suffer from panic attacks, although they are better
then they were. My mother had problems when she was alive, however, she
got shock therapy, etc. and was consta tly told to just "get over it",
"thats life". Well, I have to admit, my motto still is "Life Sucks and
Then You Die". But let me shed a little light on one thing please, I don't
want to make this long a preachy, but this past May my oldest daughter
15 t ied to commit suicide by drinking drain cleaner, now I am in your
shoes, no one but dear hubby (who isn't always so dear), anyway, just put
me in that pretty white coat that ties in the back, you know the designer
series? I took care of both of parents u til their dying day, dad died
of ms, mom of cancer, so when Marcie drank that drain cleaner I was at
the bottom, thank god for being on my medication, don't know how horrible
it would have been had I not been on the zoloft. Alright, this is getting
too l ngwinded, you do not have to hear my problems, lol, but just consider
how the people you leave behind will feel, that void in their lives, I
know money problems, we are the ONLY people we know that don't have cable,
people just don't believe it when I tel them, oh, how many times have I
gone through an ashtray for a butt, cuz I don't even have the change for
cigarettes (bad habit, tried to quit, but oh well), anyway, what I am getting
at is, been there, done that, bought the tee shirt. I know how you fee
, I know you can't just snap out of it, I know you can't pay the doctor
that you HAVE to go to, I feel for you, however, please stick in there,
you wanna talk about all you lowest feelings, email me or phone me, so
it might be long distance, can't get blo d from a turnip, lol. I won't
tell you to just get over it, I have nothing but love and compassion for
you, and if I could physically do it I wouldn't say a word, Just hug you,
and hold you, and let you cry if you need to, now tomorrow you might have
to do it for me, lol. But look I am a total stranger, and I care for you,
I really do, imagine the people who actually know you - feel the love,
screw the bill collectors, who cares, the bills will still be there when
we are gone, so who cares, we ourselves went with out our gas for about
a week, see they cut if off - it was a pain, but we made it, and you can
too. Okay, sorry I said I wasn't going to ramble and I have, I am so sorry.
Please e-me if you wanna - I am here almost all the time, lol.
Lynn, I was sent here to read your page and in reading your suffering
my heart just cried out to you ..I would do anything to be able to touch
you in some small way to help...before I go any farther..I adore those
cats..Im a cat lover and own a spolied himalayian so I know the love for
our animals:) Lynn..I know you have heard this a million times my friend
in cyberspace and womanhood...Ive been there..right where you are many
many times..my life has been a very rough road....since 17 years of age,
bad health, no family, son addicted to cocaine and going to jail....hubby
loosing his right to drive from a dui...no money, welfare..no food, churches,
worries..half of my right lung removed...death of my mother from cancer
of the brain, on and on I could write a book my friend...depression...Oh
well I know that well, hospitaized twice for it ....but you know what?
Thank the Lord my faith never crumbled....I hung on tight I held on so
tight I almost went mad waiting for miracles..but it happened...Im here....my
lungs are so bad and we are poor people..my sister in law pays for my internet
and phone and bought me this computer to give me a place to escape to to
help me..and with the friends I have here and my strong faith in Jesus
Christ..Im doing fine...My prayer is that you to will stay strong....remember
this no matter how depressed you may feel.....WE ARE WOMEN..WE CAN ROAR
AND SOAR HIGH..God gave us that wonderful gift to endure all...Im holding
the faith that you are SPECIAL and are going to make through this....Your
friend out here in cyberland
I tried to send this via e-mail on your home page, but it came back
to me. Maybe this will get to you-- Wow-I really enjoyed your pages! You
have a real gift for touching people. Your page on wanting to die and suicide
really hit a nerve with me. I don't suffer from depression, usually, but
I did attempt suicide once many years ago. I really hated myself. . . anyway,
the thing that made the most impression on me when I was recovering in
the hospital was seeing the pain that I had caused to my mother and especially
my strong father. Anyway, keep making your wonderful pages and thinking
uplifting thoughts!
Your pages are wonderful...Great job and alot of work I see.. I wanted
to ask if it would be okay to link your page to mine...as a main link for
mental illness. I was going to work one up ..But you have such a great
place here and the time it takes to do that detail .I havent gotten right
now and need a page up like yesterday..So wondered if you would honor me
with letting me use it as the Mental Illness link and all that I have resource
wise I will send you links and if think they can be added then you can
add the links to your page ... Please??? **begging..* BIG SMILE... I would
feel honored to have your link of this for the help that it will bring
to others.. My website is new..I have over 50 pages but all types of catagories..I
am now going to focas and get all the areas branched..and some new friends
have allowed their main topic that I was detailing to be used..I am a hard
hit page and it is overwhelming th followers I have ..I am new to all this
by just a few months..so I sorta had to get my act together fast...I design
each page a bit different than most...and love sharing my aritist imagination.but
now time for real work.. OH..nuff of my rattling...LOL Will look forward
to hearing from you ..Thanks again for the tour of your homepage ..It is
great..((HUG)) Love and Light...
Lynn I am sending an angel your way to watch over you in your time of
need. I also am suffering from depression. Days are so hard. My children
& I are losing our home due to my husband who is not making the payments
even though he is court ordered. I am going through a divorce and I wonder
how I am going to survive the next day. But you know friends on here friends
help me keep it going in my life. It's not easy but there is help. Just
reach out to someone. Hugs,
~Praying the Lord will tenderly guide and strengthen you, and bless
you with all the things He knows you need.~ ~Anonymous~ If we were all
a little more like Angels, the world would be a Heavenly place~
Hi! I saw your message in tidbits. I'm always touched by someone struggling
with depression. I just "completed"(if we ever do) therapy. I too was depressed(I
think I could check all on your list). I didn't know that I had so much
"hidden" garbage ins de of me. It was a tough road, but I'm so glad I went
through it. I am a new and improved person because of it. smile. Anyway,
please come check out my web page called "The Keeping Room". It is for
people who struggle like we do. I would love for you to come and visit.
Thank you for such a wonderful page! (I like your humor). ("humor" is referring
to the link off the main page "The Asylum")
Lynn: Your pages are absolutely lovely. Your page on depression/suicide
affected me most deeply; however. I have never been to the point that you
have been, and so it would be useless for me to tell you "I know how you
feel". I do know this, however, God can work miracles in our lives. He
is still in the miracle working business. Although I have gone through
the death of my twin sister due to uterine cancer, and have battled the
cancer myself, I finally learned to "let go and let God" handle everything.
It was only then that I found the true peace in life I was searching for.
Life is sometimes much too hard for us to handle alone -- and it was NEVER
meant to be handled alone. God is always there for us, if we'll just turn
our burdens and problems over to him. I will keep you in my prayers, and
pray that your life will be filled with peace and serenity. Where ever
you are in life, just look UP...for God is truly the answer. Many prayers,
Lynn, Your pages are great. It takes great courage to put into words
and post your feelings especially about suicide. I'm not suffering from
depression, but the financial mess I can relate to. Our lives have been
a mess for years. About 5 years ago we w re both out of work for about
2 years due to our companies closing. Luckily we both found jobs and things
were getting better when my company closed again. Now I'm trying to work
out of my home doing sewing for other people and alterations for a bridal
s op. I have no other skills. School is not an option due to complicated
reasons. Write to me sometime and we can chat about our mutual problems.
I'm somewhat familiar with depression because my mom suffered from it.
Love
Could you send this out and leave my name out of it..I've already told
Lynn to call me when she really needs help:
I agree with who ever said about feeling sorry for Lynn..my heart goes
out to her, but we should support her in getting well, not sympathize
with her situation as I'm sure all have been where she is at some time
or another.
Suicide has crossed several people's minds when they are in a state
of
deep depression and that is when they should realize they need
professional help, not e-mail supporters. I lost a child and
that is
probably the most devastating event that can happen to a woman...so
financial dispair and depression take a back seat to this. I
found help
through Jesus Christ (not that I'm a religious sort of person, but
more
spiritual than anything), and got the support from family, friends,
co-workers, etc to help me through it, and also I got the help I needed
by taking a good look at myself and what it is that will keep me alive
and get better...I talked to GOD a lot and I knew
it was not a punishment from him that this happened to me, but I looked
at it as human error as my child was taken from me due to neglect on
a
doctor and hospital's fault. As I've said...we should support
her
getting well and the first step is to get her medical help since she
cannot afford it obviously...but she can afford a computer? hmmm.
This
makes me angry to see someone write about their problems and wanting
help but yet cannot return e-mails (because hers is invalid) or get
ICQ
to at least speak to someone rather than having someone call her
long-distance. Staying at a computer for hours on end is also
not good
when you're depressed. She needs to get
out. I wish her all the best to getting well, but I refuse to
have a
pity party for her. There's more to life than that!!! I
can deeply
understand her pain...but she needs to find other ways to get out of
it
rather than sinking back into it..take a walk in the park...talk to
friends that know her well, call family members and talk..anything,
but
surrounding herself with negative thoughts.
Sorry if I sound so heartless..that is not my intent..I'm just not
wanting to be a part of her party is all, but know that I will fully
support her getting well!!!
~*~*~*~*~*~*~
This is helping me and I want to help others. God Bless you all. I will answer EVERY one of these as I can. All my Love, Lynn
