Anyway, it's finals, I really shouldn't be doing entries when I need to get a paper and a takehome final done, plus studying...I may not be back for a few days, or around much until April. Just to give fair warning.
"If I weren't such a people person I'd be tempted to kill everyone here tonight." -Life in Hell
"I missed you. It's been all weekend."
Finals week sucks. I don't want to do any goddamn work.
Monday night: I had science final the next morning (waah!), but Remington wanted to rent a movie. He came over with me though, but went on IRC. Melissa asked him to come over and watch Star Trek 6, he was somewhat saying no 'cause I couldn't come (not like I'd been invited, though) and he wanted to be around me, but I said that he should go 'cause he'd be bored, and wanted to see a movie anyway, and he thought he should leave me alone to study, so he went Of course I then missed him, and we enthusiastically reunited when it was over.
Last night: Went to another Lugod meeting, then Remington and Jessica wanted to have a kiddie movie night, and Melissa insisted basically it should be at her place, seeing as mine and Jessica's are cramped and his place is scummy. So we did that. Got home around oneish, and of course he went on IRC and was talking to Melissa. And she was all grouchy. Well, she usually is grouchy (she sure has reasons for it ,but it is annoying) , but she was going on about how she never got to talk to him alone anymore or not in public, he's always (her words) "a la crew."
My suspicion about Melissa is that she doesn't like me. Or at any rate tolerates me but isn't too thrilled to have me around all the time. (She likes Zoe, but not me.) I don't have any proof of this, it's just the impression that I get. Not like I"m going to tell him this, though...but she was really bothered that he wasn't going to haul her ass out to walmart anytime soon (she has been whining for a new shower curtain and has no car), seeing as he's with me or Zoe or has a meeting every day.
While I was feeing annoyed with her after reading that, I did understand...I mean, it is annoying when you want to talk to someone and their SO is everpresent...I can't believe I'm like that now...Briana apparently came over on Monday and wondered where his "attachment" was. Yikes!
So in the interests of being nice, I suggested to him that he go over to their house alone more often and then get together with me after.
He did not like that idea. At all.
Well, he sounded rather hurtish...that he didn't want anyone being separated. And that if she wanted to talk to him, there wasn't anything she couldn't say in front of me. (Which is when I said that maybe she didn't want me to know some things about her, and he did have to agree with that. Not like I care though). And that if it came down to a choice between her or me, it was me. Which is really sweet, but mean to her. Then he s tarted going on about he was her favorite toy because she couldn't figure out how he thinks, and she wants attention all the time. This stuff might be true, probably is, but still, I think he is being somewhat snotty about this.
Even weirder event than this: while we were watching the movies, Jessica and I were sitting on the couch, then he wanted to sit in between us and made me move over. And while he was as usual holding on to me, he had his arm behind Jessica the entire time. Today she was asking me what was up with that. I said that I figured he was just being all affectionate like he is with his Berkeley crowd...I asked him, that was basically the explanation.
Why this was weird to me, though, was because right before going to her house, I'd checked my mail, and Zoe finally wrote me back. And she mentioned that they had gone to some poly people populated party, and they'd both been making out with other people...and she didn't like it when he did that. Neither do I...I wish she hadn't mentioned that. She said she'd be rather, well, flipped if he started dating someone else too...I agree. I do feel the urge to say "no more! just us!", y'know, but I can't do that in the situation.
She wondered how it was with him...does he not miss one of us when he has the other around, or does he miss each of us when he's with the other. I didn't want to say my experiences with this to her in case he doesn't do the same thing (say he missed me that weekend), but I said I think it's the other. That must really suck, to have your heart split in two all the time. I'd hate it.
Also said she'd enjoyed the three of us hanging out, and that she missed me when I'd left. Awww. Me too.
Anyway, it's finals, I really shouldn't be doing entries when I need to get a paper and a takehome final done, plus studying...I may not be back for a few days, or around much until April. Just to give fair warning.
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