teddy bear

hey there teddy bear,
you are my greatest friend.
please come here and hold me
and help the pain within end.
for I fear that mom lost it again
and I was the bunt of her anger...
even though I did little this time
to anger her...

please help me teddy bear
to understand my mommy's heartache...
so that I can understand her anger,
and understand why she would forsake
all the lessons she's taught me...
she's told me to be nice to one another,
yet she hurts me with her angry words,
and tells me I'm such a bother...

what have I done teddy bear
to deserve what she is giving me?
why is it me that she abuses?
I just cannot see....
oh, please help me to know
what I did wrong so I won't do it any more
and she'll not do this to me...
and I won't have to hide behind my door.

please hold me teddy bear
for as far as I can see within
you are the only one who loves me
despite all of my sin...
for you are the only one who doesn't
call me those unspeakable names...
you are the only one I trust to help,
for everyone else always plays games.

feel for me teddy bear
feel the anger, heartache, and pain
feel the sorrow creeping in
washing me away like acid rain.
feel for me teddy bear
for there are no friends I know
that I trust as much I trust you,
for I know that you'll never go....

-Jonathan Johnston


© Copyright 1997 Jonathan E. Johnston


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