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"Aura, I know."
Simone's words broke through the silence that had come over us. What was she talking about? There was no way that she could've known. Unless someone told her. Conciousness spread over me. Zac. How could he? I decided to play the part of the oblivious liar.
"You know what?"
"Don't play stupid with me Aura, did you think I wouldn't find out?"
"Find out what?"
"Aura!" Her tone was harsh. "I know you were over at Rhea's house. How could you? We always swore that we would never become friends with that snot nosed little brat. And know you go over to her house. What is wrong with you? Every little thing I say to you is wrong. If you're mad at me, I'd at least like to know why."
I breathed a sigh of relief. She didn't know, at least not what I thought she knew. "I was at Rhea's because it seems as though we treaded upon some common ground. I can't really explain it, it's kind of weird. And about me being so moody. I'm really sorry Simone. It's just me and Zac have been really weird, and everything in my life is... I don't know. Just my dad and mom, and my dad coming back..."
"Yeah I know Aura, but why won't you talk to me about it? I'm supposed to be your best friend."
"I'm sorry. Look Simone, can we talk later? I'm supposed to be at Zac's. I'll call you as soon as I get home. We can talk and just catch up on everything we've missed." My voice was overly sincere.
"Alright then. Aura, one more thing. Please don't do anything to harm yourself. I would never forgive myself if something happened to you..." Her voice trailed off.
"What's that supposed to mean?" I asked stubbornly.
There was silence on the other end. Moments before I hung up the phone I heard a quiet voice.
"Please don't starve yourself Aura."
"How could you tell her? I trusted you!"
"Nice to see you too Aura," Zac replied jokingly.
"You told Simone! I can't believe you!"
"Aura settle down, I had to tell her. She had a right to know. She's your best girl friend."
"I hate you!" I could barely control my anger. It seethed out of every pore in my body and filled the air around me. I began hitting him as hard as I could. Tears poured down my cheeks and my breath came out in short gasps. I felt my knees go weak and began descending towards the floor.
"Aura!" Zac grabbed me around the waist and held on, moments before I hit the ground. He set me down on the floor gently. "Are you ok?"
"I hate you," I sobbed quietly. I couldn't bring myself to pull away from him, and stayed safe in his arms.
"I'm so sorry," he whispered. "What do you want me to do?" He pushed the hair out of my eyes.
"Please, don't tell anyone else," I begged tearfully.
"Aura, you're going to hurt yourself" he protested.
"No, I'm not. Don't worry about me."
"I don't want you to die!" He looked so scared as he gazed intently at me.
"I'm not going to die." I tried to sound as convincing as possible, but the truth was that I didn't even know what was happening to me. I had grown a thin down-like layer of hair all over my body and my ribs and every other bone in my body protuded out dangerously.
"Aura, look at yourself," he said softly. "You're wearing away into nothing."
"Zac, I don't have time to listen to this right now. I have to go."
"But you just got here," he protested.
"I know, I came here to tell you that I don't have time to listen to you worrying about me," I explained.
"You came here to tell me that?" He looked at me skeptically.
"Yeah, I did, and now I have to go. I'll see ya Zac." I leaned in and kissed him softly, not directly on his mouth; a little to the side. He tilted his face so his lips were on mine. I kissed him once more and pulled away. "Bye."
"Have you had enough supper Aura?" My mother looked at me. The truth was that I hadn't eaten anything, I'd simply been pushing the food around on my plate and cutting it into tiny pieces to give the illusion that I actually did eat something.
"Yes, I'm full..." I patted my stomach for added effect. I pushed my chair away from the table and stood up. Slowly, I made my way down to the basement to ride our stationary bike. I climbed on and began peddling; slowly at first, then picking up speed until I was biking around 60 km/h according to our computer on the bike. I continued at a steady pace, pushing myself forward even though my legs were throbbing. I ignored the pain and kept on pushing myself.
I hopped off the bike and jumped on the scale. Seventy pounds. I could barely control my happiness. I hadn't been that low in the longest time.
Wanting to keep my weight on a steady decline I got back on the bike and rode faster than I ever had before.
Dizziness and a wave of nausea swept over me. I tried to slow down but some force in me kept going and wouldn't allow me to stop. The room began spinning and tilting, like the whole world was out of control. I closed my eyes willing it to stop. I could see a bright white light directly ahead of me. It was small at first, but grew larger and larger. Suddenly it was directly in front of me. I squeezed my eyes shut tighter and welcomed the light.
Everything went black.
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