I took me a while to organize the Guestbook this morning and hang the new awards on my page. I recieved two awards yesterday and was quite pleased. All of the other feedback on my site was very positive. I did have several people mention that they had trouble reading the blue links on the background and that they might like to see background images. As for the links, I feel really bad. I want everyone to be able to read my page. So if you can, HELP ME! I'm looking for suggestions on what color I should use instead. Please e-mail me. As for the background images...hmmmmmmm...I'm just afraid that things will get too busy, but I'll think about it. As for all the praise I got for my poetry: I thank you. I have several other poems that I still want to put up but I'm still not satisfied with how most of current poems look on the page graphically, so I'm timid about putting any more up. I hope I get a chance to fix up the old ones soon.

So, the morning after the great homepage party, I'm feeling pretty good. In terms of the morning after seeing Jason, things are not quite as euphoric.

There's one thing that you need to understand about me.I'm a virgin and I make no bones about it. I can give youa veritable plethora of reasons why, but I guess the best are that I love God and my future husband (whoever he is) so much that I want to wait. It's not easy. I've gotten on the phone with one of friends and blurted out without explaination, "This is no sex before marriage thing is really getting on my nerves!" Despite my frustation, it's always been very important to me.

Enter handsome male that I happen to be in love with. Not good...Things are really getting tough. Jason has the same standards that I do, but after over a year and half our resistance to desire is being severly tested. I remember when I realized sometime last year that I loved Jason so deeply that I not only wanted him, I wanted him to be the first. From that point on, I was so excited about the idea of giving him my virginity on our wedding night. Now, I'm afraid all my plans will be derailed half way because we can't seem to get control of ourselves. I guess it is possible to love too much for your own good. (sigh) I hope we both develop some self-control before we have to break-up to keep out of trouble.

Well, I'd better go. I know you are all anxious to hear from me. Two last notes. One: I'm going to try to drop in on the Chat Room at 4:30pm EST every weekday, so if you want to talk to me, I'll be there. Second, my awards page has been taking some time to load because I haven't altered the images that I've been given for a smaller bit depth yet. I'll try to get around to it soon, so it won't be annoying. Talk to you later,