to the July 13-July 19, 1998 episode of
"As the Rose Wilts"
| Monday July 13, 1998 |
Well, my 35th birthday is almost here. Strange, but I really don't feel like doing anything much to celebrate it. I've just been in kind of this 'blah' state of mind recently, that has nothing to do with my birthday. I just can't seem to work up much enthusiasm for anything lately, including writing:( |
| Tuesday July 14, 1998 |
Well, if I was in a funk the past few days, today took the cake! Only two people called me and/or wished me Happy Birthday - my mother and my younger sister. Ok, so some of my friends sent me cybercards before today, but it's not quite the same thing. Granted, some may not have known, or some may have had their own issues to deal with, but it was pretty depressing. |
| Wednesday July 15, 1998 |
I'm trying to work up some free time to get my spiritual journaling forum up and running, but it's been slow going as of late. I think what I need to do is force myself to sit down at my kitchen table and just write for crying out loud! Writing just seems too much like work right now, for some reason. Even writing a few sentences like this feels like I'm pulling teeth. I'm hoping this passes, otherwise I may have to give up a few of my volunteer efforts in order to free up some rest and relaxation time.
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| Thursday July 16, 1998 |
I'm beginning to thinks that I really should give up some of my volunteer efforts. Either that, or start managing my time more effectively. I think I waste a bit too much time online. It's not that the amount of time I spend is the problem, it's the way I use it that's problematic. I may have to give up a few e-mail lists too, since I'm just WAY too far behind with life to ever catch up on them. |
| Friday July 17, 1998 |
Ok, so this is not becoming one of those 'award-winning online journals' anytime soon, especially not with my current journal inertia. There's lots of stuff going on, and lots of stuff I could probably write about, if it weren't for: - The people I'd be writing about would probably read it here. This is ok, but some might find what I have to say is not too flattering. - There are some things that are okay enough for me to write in my handwritten journal, but that I would never think of posting on the web for everyone to see. So, while my thoughts may be rambling about in my head, they're definitely not the sort of thoughts that are suitable for public viewing, at least not this week. |
| Saturday July 18, 1998 |
I think I did more today on a Saturday than I have in a long time! First, I went over to my mom and dad's, to celebrate my birthday with them, my younger sister, and my new niece. Well, if I lacked attention on my actual birthday, my mom and sister sure did make up for things with all the clothes they bought me! I think I have enough new clothes to take a break from laundry for a month! We ordered in a Sicilian pizza (which wasn't the greatest, by the way, but don't tell my mom that), and then I got to hold my niece for a while. There must be something about me, because I think every time I've held her, she has managed to poop. This time when she let loose, her butt made more noise than I ever thought was possible for such a tiny baby. Of course, my sister and cousin thought it was hilarious, and I'll admit I did my share of laughing too! After all that excitement, I actually went and did food shopping. This was a really good idea, considering that I had absolutely nothing to eat in the house - not even catfood! |
| Sunday July 19, 1998 |
I tested my VFW jukebox theory today. I sat there for almost an hour, and no one coughed up any funds to put into the jukebox. So, from now on, I'm not going to worry if people don't like what I'm playing. I'm going to play what I like, and what I want to hear. So there! |
Tune in next week, for the next episode of... As the Rose Wilts |
