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TUES. 5th MARCH - not sayin' the Standells are better than the Chocolate Watch Band, well it's a comparison of 2 things that're both good for difft reasons i.e. Standells were good as Paul Revere & the Raiders kind of producer-determined "session punk" but the Watchband were good as serious Stones-Yardbirds-fanboy nerds & as kind of proto-psychodelphica. Except it was the Watchband that didn't get to play on (all of) their own records, & the half of "Inner Mystique" that is session-dude stuff is half-assed filler & the stuff that isn't is on the "Forty-Four" comp.
WEDNES. 6th MARCH - I wanna hear that Screamin Mee Mees/Hot Scott Fischer CD that Eddie Flowers did, also I want to hear that Memphis Goons CD that came out in the '90s somewhere, can anyone burn copies of those for me? not that I can even play CDs @ the moment, i don't have a CD player...but, i'm gonna get a new computer sometime soon.
THURS. 14th MARCH - I've grown to hate trying to "express myself" so much! but I need to keep talking, keep writing, keep typing, whatever, 'cause if I don't maybe the ability to do so will atrophy altogether. &, you know. Some day I might really need it!
Hey you know what? I might "go out" tonight. What do you think? Any suggestions?
MON. 18th MARCH - basically I am growing apart from everybody, I can't relate to any of them at all. & Dunedin's so small...hardly anyone here to grow apart from in the 1st place! That's why I need to get away from here, I need somewhere bigger with more people to feel alienated from...but you can already tell, this leaving town thing, it's always gonna be just another thing I talk about all the time but still won't've done in a year. Yeah sure, you've got my number, you're quite right, you're always right...fuck you anyway tho'. (actual real life conversation - )
WEDNES. 20th MARCH - just in case I haven't been spreading it thin enough already : new dumm diary.
MONDAY 25th MARCH - I'm getting a new cat.
TUESDAY 26th MARCH - yeah I'm getting a new cat, Donna is going to Canada to enter a Buddhist monastery & I get to look after her cat.
FRI. 29th MARCH - bumper sticker : "DON'T HATE - MASTURBATE". huh? yr saying I can't do both?
Man I have so got to change my life.
WED. 3th APE - hi everybody! my car is down & the weather has been shitty & my mental & physical state ditto & my computer is a crappy piece of crap & so on & so on...so anyway, yeah, haven't been able to get online for a few days & I just got on, have I missed anything exciting?
* NEW CAT UPDATE - I'd kept her imprisoned in my rm for about 3 days (a fuckin major pain BTW - she'd hide in a inaccessible corner all day & not come out 'til about the time I'm finally ready to sleep - 2 or 3 in the a.m., round there somewhere - then I'd hear her scratching & scuffling around the room - "My records! get the fuck off my records!" - I'd jump for the bedside lamp, screeching like a nut...my nerves were fucking shot...I mean they were anyway but this fuckin' Nervous Norvus cat was just pushing me close to the edge like...like Linkin Park!) & I figured by now she was about ready for the outside world. So OK, I showed her where the hole in the floor was under the bathroom sink, the hole that serves as the only after-hours cat egress since I boarded up the official cat door to keep the dog from escaping thru it...she was gone in a flash & that was the last I saw of her for a day, a night, another day & a night & most of today. After I hadn't seen her for 24 hours I was starting to sweat it - on the surface I was complacent enough, all like, Oh she'll turn up again when she gets hungry...but really I was convinced I'd seen the last of her & I was wondering how much longer I could avoid the phone call to Donna, the confession, whatever pitiful excuses I could come out with...Oh man, I mean check it out, she specifically searched me out, me who she had not seen for 9 years, as the only person who could be trusted to look after this highly strung sensitive problem cat! paid me money even! & I had let her down! (OK that is a slightly fictionalised version of what happened but it is true she paid me $$$ to make sure Daisy gets her accustomed standard of food & so forth, money that had already been assimilated into my complex personal banking system, & how long had it taken me to lose the cat? - well I don't know exactly because the number of days I just said she'd been in my rm for + the number of days I claim she had been missing for add up to more days than it's been since...or do they...I could never count too good...ANYWAY it's not important, the salient facts are that a mere few days had passed & the money was already circulating in the community & the cat was gone...My rumoured decline into criminal depravity cruelly demonstrated to one of the last people who'd been prepared to believe in me!...another day, another disappointment!) BUT, yeah anyway, alarm off, it's OK - this afternoon Jane spotted Daisy under the house, she'd probably been sitting there the whole time, so it's merely a matter of enticing her out. Which actually we were unable to do...but yeah at least she hasn't tried to walk to Christchurch, or to the airport, or any of that crazy shit you hear about cats doing.
FRI. 5th APRIL - 4 a.m. of the 2nd night of awakeness...I am listening to "Blues For Allah" & staring out into the void. What has happened to me? I always landed on my feet before, I don't understand it!
SUN. 7th APRIL - if you wanna make me happy send me presents! Yeah come on don't you want me to be happy? & don't worry, it will not affect the quality of this journal 1 way or the other! (if that's what yr thinking). OK so what sort of stuff can you get me? oh anything, make it a surprise. But one thing I really want is a German Mercator lock-blade knife like I used to have all thru my teenage years but it got stole by this creep at school who I had threatened with it, he snuck in & stole it in revenge the dirty fucker! Yeah these're are REAL GOOD KNIVES so if you've got one I don't blame you for wanting to keep it for yr self but oh come on, don't you wanna make me happy? C'mon I'm worth it for all the pleasure I bring you! "Dunedin's a lonely town/when you're the only surfer boy..."...yeah I've actually got one of these knives, it's true, but it has had the last couple millimetres of the blade broke off (I was chiselling a piece of ice off the ice box at Heazlewood's girlfriend's place & I broke off the point of my knife & also punctured the ice box thing & destroyed her fridge) & then crudely filed back to a point, so I really need one that has the blade intact & pointy as the manufacturers intended. Is there any other stuff I want apart from a new knife, oh there must be, I dunno tho, use yr own IMAGINATION.
MON. 22nd APRIL - "new era of light entertainment writing experiments" !
WEDNES. 24th APRIL - the only real reason to move to Chch really would be that the record shops are better - no that's right I could be in Lisa & Alan & Mick & Liz's band, that is another thing. But mainly, the record shops ARE better. Rec's I got incl: "Career Interruption Code" EP bt Thomas Jefferson Slave Apts., "Monsters of Hollywood" EP by V3, "Miss Ann" EP by Eugene Chadbourne & Han Bennink.
SAT. 27th APRIL - what records should i sell? there's records that you suddenly think HOLY CREEPIN ASS why do i still got THAT but maybe you're remembering the wrong stuff about it & maybe when you play it you realise the reality of fuckin stupid rock'n'roll rekids is maybe complexer than yr mental impression of em & OH ALL RIGHT SONIC YOUTH ALBUMS YOU CAN STAY. But right now I'm listening to "Dirty" for the 1st time in forever & yeah true its charms are subtle & its oh-for-fuck's-sake moments are many, OK anyone wanna buy this one? you know what I heard today & liked, Maryann got the Andrew WK album - that is so fuckin odd! 1 of my friends buying a new (!) record. Anyway she taped it for me & I liked it...oh man this Sonic Youth album is terrible. "I luv you, I luv you, I luv you, what's yr name..." - GET OFF THE AIR YOU FUCKIN SQUARES. Come on then - double vinyl (w/ a extra not-on-CD song!), real good condition, make an offer.
SUN. 28th APRIL - not wanting to rag on Chris Knox unduly...I got no beef w/ him...like some of his music...but this is funny (I thought) - Jane Quail said when she was @ the Knox show last night & she was going, "Oh I dunno I get him confused w/ DAVE DOBBYN...I always think that dumm D. Dobbyn song is him, that 1 that goes 'it's you that I love, & it's you that I love...'"...Richy pointed out (as no doubt YOU just did too, wise-ass) that hey that IS by Chris Knox. Ha ha funny. Oh maybe you had to be there.
SAT. 4th MAY - I locked myself out of my van this evening & then spent 10 to 15 minutes unsuccessfully trying to break in by trying to hook under the passenger door lock with a piece of wire I had broken off someone's fence before I noticed that one of the back windows was not locked & I could just crawl in thru the window. Of course I had been smoking pot.
MON. 6th MAY - someone arrived here as a result of a google search for the no pirates sign.
SAT. 18th(?) MAY - early hrs of the a.m. Best thing I got @ the 24 hour book sale - copy of "Dinner Music For People Who Aren't Really Hungry" by Spike Jones.
Yeah & maybe I don't wanna sell "Spaced Out" any more, some of that actually rocks. Who did that song "A Little Fugue For You & Me" originally? It's one of those '60s pop songs based on a Bach piece.
Me & Maryann both have Yahoo IM now, wanna IM us? OK it's duane_zarakov & Maryann is maryannsavage.
- Do you think boys respect girls more who won't sleep with them?
- No...I despise girls who don't sleep with me.
(*rim shot*)
if Sean O'Reilly's reading this - Sean I forgot to put that Enoch Light rec. in the post for you today but I will do it tomorrow.
So I went out to the airport this a.m. - picked up Donna & her cat - the cat (her name is Daisy & she is this sort of mixed pattern of tabby/tortoiseshell with some white bits) is here in this rm - took me about 10 min's to find her when I came back here & I thought she'd escaped from the rm already somehow & I was freakin' - but she is just hiding behind a stack of records in the corner of the rm, won't come out. I guess that's just what they do tho.
Christine & Otto just turned up, I haven't seen them for a few days (since the the horrible night I had to babysit O. & he was totally monstrous), I told her, hey Chris you should start doing a web diary!, she goes, yeah I was just gonna go & check out yours this morning but it occurred to me you live about 10 min's walk away & etc etc...I'm like, Yeah you gots to move w/ the times...all the really "happening" punters in this town have online diaries, it's choice, we never even have to talk to ea. other! Chris laughs & goes, SAD!, but I go It's not "sad", it's just modern. Some people just don't appreciate the gifts that technology has brung us!
Yeah so, I dunno, I haven't been doing much of fuck all recently...it's getting cold again here & I haven't been feeling all that good. But yeah 1 thing I've been gettin back into is making tapes for people...that used to be my "thing", man, I was the king! but yeah that was a long time ago in another city far far away & since that time, well this thing happened & then some stuff happened & then, oh you know. It's not important, my record collection survived & is back in my possession, I have a tape deck that works & my own room & all my stuff sorta back together again in 1 place...all systems go!...& so OK, I'm putting
up this new page here (idea ripped off from Liz) that's gonna be like my songs-for-comp-tapes wants list. I've got a pretty good record collection (by normal-people standards if not by real record-collector std's) but it's all old stuff, I don't buy any new stuff any more (you know, for "political" reasons) so I really wanna trade tapes with people that've got a bunch of modern stuff but they still have tastes I can "relate" to...I don't know, are there any people like that?
Actually one thing that's been brung home to me over the few days of trying to settle a cat into a new home is how fucking DUMM they are! You know how hardcore cat lovers are always trying to tell you cats are really smart & stuff - man it's such crap! Dumm as an owl!
(Owls are real dumm!)
(that afternoon) did I tell you about, no I didn't John Allen's Kevin Smith/Say Yes To Apes tribute show on WFMU...Monday April 22nd, 1:30 pm Eastern Std. time...I'll try & put a link in here but I gotta confess, I know nothing about web radio, have never listened to a web radio broadcast ever, wouldn't know how, & probably will not be able to listen to this myself. So can someone tape it for me?
Yeah & we still want people to IM us, nobody has yet. Maryann's is now maryann88888 & mine's still duane_zarakov & you can usually find me sitting up all night @ my computator computating 'cause I am a fucken loser nerd geek dork but SO ARE YOU so SHUT THE HELL UP.
yeah i'm back in my traditional homeland of christchurch again & i'm having a good time 'cause you know, i always do when i come back here, it's a place where i got lots of friends, i got connections for the stuff i need (i mean the futuristic hi-science sound, i mean ROCK ROCK ROCK & ROLL, oh christ you thought i meant heroin didn't you) & i feel like the things that are happening & the conversations i have had with people are revealing the spiritual truths to me that i have lost sight of under the dark carcinogenous clouds.
mucho rock & rool activity, it's exciting! friday i - w/passengers : di, liz & anton - drove up to oamaru to see the clean @ the penguin club - listen i had not seen this band since like oh my god '82 or '83, i can't even remember but back along around then, I am SO OLD. but yeah so i wasnt expecting much of fuckall to tell you the truth (basis : few tracks off their various post-full-time-career rekids that i have heard never sounded all that great & the memories had faded &, you know) but i had been sold on the idea of a road trip & dan brady as you all know lives there in oamaru so OK me & these kidz rode up there & hey anyway to cut a l. story s. these guys from who or should i say whom i had expextorated nix nix actually just casually delivered the goods big style! wow they were good. then we partied down @ brady's flat & that was choice - d. has good records, we played em. & the day following, that was time for drivin north some more to chch because sat nite = time for a show by the mighty TONY VALENS & THE INCISIONS who i've probably already told you are ABOUT IT as far as NZ rock-roll in the 21st cent. goes, who else is there?
yeah so that was the 1st weekend in a long long long time where some rock happened, in fact the 1st weekend in approx 4-EVA where it actually made any diff to me that it was in fact indeed the WEEKEND! & not, you know, just some other randomly chosen couple of days. allah is great!
Google search keywords that somehow brung someone to this page - "man's rule over angels".
Not that I was, even.