13th Dec 2003

Wow i didn’t realise that I’ve not been updating my entries like since late last mth.. hahhaha. PS- Pls get a tub of popcorn and go to the loo if u feel its coming out cos this is gonna be a very long entry.

Been hanging out with my frens more these few days and by the time i reach home and bathe and yadda yadda yadda, it’s already close to 2am. By then, I’m so tired to update my entry. I just go online to do my daily stuff, emails, sayin my hi(s) and bye(s) to some ppl, and.. yea play Neopets. LOL. Either that or my bro's been hogging on the PC and by the time its my turn, its like 12am. By then I’m either fast asleep or cursing him under my breath.


Hmmm..

Ok my grandpa was warded like few days prior to Hari Raya, he was diagnosed with cancer like few mths back, had his operation, but hes lazy to take his medicine and to listen to wat the doc says. Normal la hes old and u know how stubborn old ppl are.. And he's a Taurus by the way. So figure it out.

So well visited him on the 1st day of Raya, he cant talk.. cos his voicebox was taken out. So the only communication we had was some sign language and wats written by him. Quite sad la looking at him in this state but seriously, somewhere in my brain tells me he deserves it. I mean how he mistreats his children, beating them up like dogs and all. And me his eldest grandchild.. Didnt get any love from him.. let alone money during our Raya celebrations. Never once! Since i was born he didnt show me any love in any aspect. (My dad tells me that) I mean when my dad gets pissed by my grandpa.. all those all story comes out.. so tts were I learned abt my grandpa. And even now! I mean few years back I was still in sch, NOT earning money and he was happily asking me to buy him stuff. I mean at most push me some cash la say this is all I have, cld u help me get this or that. But noo he was like "Ah.. Muni, cld u get ahtok this and that." No "thanks" even. I mean I’m not calculative and all and to tell u the truth, I got thinking abt these matters juz reciently! Its nothing major I know but when now I see him pampering my other cousins from Malaysia and NOT my young sister, how wld u feel? Wat? does it mean my family live in a big hse we dunt need to be pampered once a while by the only granddad alive?

With all my Love...

We have feelings too u know and money cant bring us anywhere. We need love and affection. I pity my sister cos she didn’t get any love from any grandparents. At least me and my brother did get loved by our grandma (mum's side) cos she was stayin with us. She loved us with all her heart. She never let me get beaten up by my dad whenever i was naughty. And now thinking of her I shed my tears thinking on how I treated her. I was a rebellious kid/teenager then. As I grew up I used to ignore her and shouted back at her. Now thinking of it, I really regretted on how I mistreat her.
-- For my drarest Grandma Asimah Bte Mo; From the bottom of my heart I really love u grandma and I’m seeking forgiveness from u for all that I did wrong to u. I'm really really sorry and I prayed and hope u have peace and is happy with grandpa where ever u are.


Wats FUN these days?

Tears and sad things aside, this is one of my earlier entries but I’m didnt have time to post them up so I’m juz gonna compile everything into dis long entry.

Well, first up, my raya celebrations were.. well a bit dull this year.. I mean not like it was a blast the past years. I think the best "gatherings" were like when me and my cousins were tiny toots. As we grew up, it gets more... u know - boring.. so well this year was no different.. just a bit sad when I got to know that one of my cousin's family was splitting up. It really came as a shock when my cousin told me abt it. Well i just hope they are happy with their decision.

Been doing a lot of visiting.. All those relatives and friends home, and in fact there were more that we have not visited. There's simpily isnt much time.. cos ppl are workin and all.

My outing with my classmates was.. not as what I had expected. I tot more ppl were to turn up but in the end there was like only the 4 of us going round. Pathetic but then again.. we 4, its like 10 of us.. haha its been a long time since we all hang ard together. So this is like a mini reunion. It was nice to remember wat we all went thru in college, all the fun times we had, the memories, the larfter, the bitching.. yea I miss those days.

So went to quite a few houses and the last stop was at my place. We were rushing cos it was the finale of "ARE YOU HOT" and we die die had to watch it. So we reached my place like at 10.15 so we missed just a fraction of it. Tell u.. chaos sia.. my hse.. lucky my parents are cool and they were in their room so we had the living room to ourselves.

We were eating, larfing (loudly! thank god my parents are cool), bitching, counselling my fren abt his relationship.. poor him. his gf is giving him a hard time so we 3 gerls were giving him advices and tips on what to do. I just hope its just some minor glitch.


err uhh No Thanks

Sigh.. apart from visiting, been doing some shopping, both with parents and friends. Did i mention my family got a new sofa.. hmm let me check.. oh yea i did.. haha. Well we went for another armchair hunt just now.. and decided on this palm-looking armchair.. looks kindda cool, will post it up when i feel like takin a pic of it.

Anyways, I was at Century Sq (a shopping mall) and guess wat.. I was goin to the info counter to exchange the receipt for some game coupons, and when i turned to walk to the game area to meet my family, this Chinese guy just stopped me and spoke somethin in mandarin to me.. i understood a bit cos i always get stopped by chinese ppl asking for directions so i tot he was lost looking for some shop.

So I asked him to speak in Eng as he spoke quite a bit.. so he was like.. "oh.. Hi.. May I get to know you.." and my face just changed. buahhahhahhaha i was really shocked.. I mean I didn’t think it cld happen.. to ME!! hahhahha so i was like.. "err uhh.. no thanks".. and just walked away quickly. I know I know I was mean. I shld have like told him "wow tts sweet but I guess u got me at the wrong time" or somethin that was soothing to hear.

Well he really caught me off guard so tts y la my answer was god damn shocking. hahaa in my heart i was larfing my arse off.. unbelieveble.. I mean the last time I got stopped by an unknown stranger who asks for my number was like in Sec Sch.. The rest of the men I met were like while in clubs or with frens kindda thing so some what, I’ve noticed them or have been talking to them a bit la.. I dun get stopped cos i really look unapproachable.. really.. I usually give this stuck up look when I’m walkin ard.. I mean i dun have a reason to look at ppl and smile do I? Unless he’s cute or somethin.. hahhaha.. I’m still larfing rite now.. really amuses me..


In need of a new Hp!

Ok men story aside.. I tot of gettin a new hp.. been lookin at the new MOTOROLLA E380.. its sooo nice.. with all the lights. I duno y but I’m into flip phones now, without the antennas and the cover is also cool looking.. so it really caught my eyes.

Yest i was surfing for reviews abt that phone and noticed that it got like poor ratings.. Firstly, I’m a Nokia user, so to use a Motorola, its gonna be different, secondly its too plasticky, thridly to flip the phone close one had to use two hands, fourthly the screen is too small and also the angle of the phone when u put it at ur ears to answer the call. I really liked the phone but reading those facts.. it made me think twice, thrice..

So i did more searching and noticed that Nokia is releasing a new flip phone sometime next year.. Nokia 7200. The cover is unique, I love the buttons but the screen is a bit small.. looks like I have to wait for next year to see the phone and decide if I’m gonna get it.

Another phone that caught my eye was Nokia 7600.. some ppl called it the teardrop phone. Its so small and cute.. but it makes me wonder.. if its so small.. how do u talk then? i mean the speaker distance with ones mouth.. This phone also out next year.. so sigh.. have to wait..

LATEST UPDATE -- I just found out that the Nokia phones wld like cost like 1000 over! CRAP man. At first those guys told me its gonna be 800 plus.. now another feller tells me 1k+ Bull Crap man!


Jobs Jobs Jobs

So far I had another 2 job offers, both by my frends.. Have yet to meet up with the directors/managers to get to know more abt the job scope. I’m so bored.. but yet I find myself busy doing stuff.. I dunt wanna work.. (who does), but i have to work and earn to support myself.. SUCKS man.. Y cant i get a job that i love to do.. so at least i do not have to go thru shit to look for a job that suits my lifestyle..

LATEST UPDATE -- Ok i met the owners of the comp. Young chaps.. there are like a year older then I am! Bloody Goats. Got all the money sia to invest in a company. Well anyways they were looking for event coordinators (thats ME), but since they are new in this business, they want me to do sales, which is to find customers who want to do an event, then well negotiate with them until they engage us to make their dream a reality.

Sounds pretty simple but their target customers, i dunt agree and also for me to jump into this newly built boat, id rather them give me a project and I work from there. I mean after sometime, then I think I’ll be more confidant doing the sales part and the coordination. So well i have a few days to think abt it and.. see la I need to consult my frens and see what advices and tips they can give me.


Poor Uncle

Oh i didnt update on my driving instructor rite.. Ok I was happy to be taught by him.. then last week I was told that he was hospitalised AGAIN and that they wanna retire him and im like.. FUCK! My TP test is like next mth and u give me this shit now?! Dammit sia!

Anyways they (the company) gave me another instructor; my old instructor did tell me that this guy is terrible.. haha. Well i just gave him a try as that day I was trying out my parking so i tot ok lets how bad he is. True to my older instructors words.. he sucks.. he doesn’t let me drive with gear 4. How pathetic is that. I really feel like a "LEMBU" driving that car.

So i went to have a change in instructor and told that receptionist that the instructor sucks. So i told her wat happened - While I was doing my parking turns, he was with another instructor (not from the company) ogling at the other learner who’s a chinese gerl.. The other instructor did come up to my car while i was turning and he was like talking to me and i just gave that "FUCK off u pervert" face. So i guess he got the idea..

So practically.. During that i think 45 to 60 mins of parking, my instructor was with me like.. 5 mins! Apart from that he was going to toilet, getting coffee and ogling! Sicko. So last week i got another instructor; which i choose, he was good la.. at least i feel happy when he taught me. I mean i get the attention. haha

Holly crap, this is a long entry. Well i guess its good enuf to cover my few weeks absence!



Muira