catch me :: if :: i fall


:: 28 Jan 2005 ::

Such a fine day.. I duno why I said that.. but yea I suppose it’s a fine day.. for some ppl out there. Today’s gonna be a LONG day. I gonna end my day I mean near to midnight.. I duno how I’m gonna last till then.. Time is flying by so fast.. its less then 2 weeks to Chinese New Year.. Man it just felt like yesterday that I spent my New Years.. in abt 3 weeks Anna’s leaving.. I don’t know if I can see her before she goes.. cos I get back from my trip I think the day before she leaves.. I need to rest.. she needs to pack.. man.. I dunno how I’m gonna feel. I mean I’m late with reactions.. Usually until it hit me.. then I realise what had happened. Its also mayb that I’m like at work everyday.. when I come back, I dun have time to call up my friends.. I dun even spent time on MSN anymore.. the longest on certain days is like 1 hr.. and that is also due to checking mails and doing some research.

Friends, its not that I’ve been ignoring you.. it’s just that I don’t have the time and usually I’m too tired to entertain nonsense. You know IF at my workplace they didn’t cut off my account.. I’ll be chatting now… entertaining some of you ppl.. but NOOOOO some ONE had to disable my account. So here I am trying to entertain myself by playing Pinball and Solitaire.. and writing… just writing anything to entertain the moving of the hands of the clock. I have abt 20 mins left before I have to go for the next meeting.. and I’m out of words / story to tell. I’m sooo bored. Now I’m thinking if it’s a good idea to get this ring I saw in the ads. If I wanna get it, I have to plan my route and my timing.. cos I have to be at Esplanade by 6pm. Then again it depends on what time I leave here. Whether I’ll be taking the MRT to town, or a bus down.. Then again I could get the ring tomorrow.. BUT since the ring is in the ads.. possibility of it running out wld be high.. so what should I do?

See I’m writing out my thoughts.. maybe I shld even write down when I go to the toilet and what I do there.. just to kill time. I just came back from the toilet actually before I write this entry.. I went there to pee.. you know why? Cos its god damn cold in here. That’s why. **Yawns**

Its Glen’s birthday today.. hes the director for my dept in RP… cut to the chase.. guess who offered me his place of cake.. Fun Siong!!! Aahhahah sweet ryte!! I like him already. Ohh and Queen – It’s kindda of magic.. the drummer from Brisbane.. DAMN CUTE! Tomorrow I’m gonna see him again…


Call me Pinkie



:: 27 Jan 2005 ::

Emma called me at like midnight just now.. I was on the way to dreamland so I didn’t pick up her call. I badly need sleep. Now also I’m typing but my eyes are abt to doze off. Anyways she ended up smsin me asking if she cld call me to talk for a while.. And I told her to call me at 11 today… then she said she can’t cos she got a flight out today morning.. And I’m like what?! But she didn’t reply. Nvm.. will get it out of her later.

Quite a bad morning.. I leaked.. then made a cup of cocoa.. you know, I’m supposed to make a cup of coffee and I didn’t realise it until I was in the kitchen, finishing up my cup of cocoa.. when I looked into it again thinking how come there’s no kick in my drink today and realise my mistake. So wat I did next was to grab all the sweets I have at home and dump them into my bag.. No matter what, I have to keep myself awake thru those blasted meetings.

(In class at 8.30 waiting for it to start) WTF… now they had to do a stupid TEST and the class will start at 9 plus.. the plus I assume was like 9.10 or 9.15.. FINE.. then as the time was nearing… blasted teacher gave them a HALF hour break.. so therefore class starts at 9.30.. U know in my original script.. this paragraph is filled with vulgarities.. hahh now that I typed it out its all gone. Wonder if I shld have typed the original version in. But its terrible la. Its before 9am and I’m swearing.. Its bad for my health. Oh yea ANYWAYS… you know there’s this guy, who sits across me.. *giggles* he looks like that certain someone.. so I smsed JENNY. Ahhahhhahha he looks like a younger version of him… but not as good looking.. I think it’s the eyes.. they have the same eyes.. Its ok when I go down for the 3rd meeting.. I’m gonna have a “look” at him again. And see who will get my vote. But then again.. I’m already over him… y get so excited.. right? *raise one eyebrow*

Time check. 1.30pm . they just had a staff meeting and u know what.. I dozed off.. my god! But ah.. now I feel refreshed.. u know what they say abt power naps. Yeah.. truly power… hahha now listening to songs.. next class at 2.30.. bloody hell.. such a long wait.. and I’m sitting under the aircon blast. No way to escape from it. When I turn it off.. it gets a bit warm. When I turn it on.. its so cold my nose gets frozen. How like that?



:: 26 Jan 2005 ::

.: I'm so caught up :.

Back at work after like 2 weeks break. Somehow i dunt feel refreshed. I Still feel dead.. Where's my prince who will kiss me awake.. I know you're out there.. Come and make ur presence felt. I long to wake up and feel alive. To feel the cool morning breeze, the warm sunshine, the cool refreshing rain.. I think its time i should appreciate nature. Mayb look at TREES and enjoy the rain like my friend does. I shld loosen up. But how.. I just cant crack down the barrier i've built to protect myself.. or mayb i shld protect myself.. from.. myself! I think i've been exposing too much of myself. I need to learn to shut up.. and lie.. Ha.. yea lie.. I think its the best. These few days.. a lot of ppl have been playin the 20 questions game with me.. and i'm just puzzled. What the hell is goin on. And most of the questions are the ones that i cannot answer. Why? I dunno.. Mayb i know that i'm digging my own grave if i answer them. And i'm running out of excuses.. and lies too! I dunno how much can a person lie. And everyone has been asking how am i.. I mean what? was i sick or somethin? How come I didnt know. PPl are hogging ard me like flies. Every night askin me questions. Common! Tell me somethin for a change.. Tell me you got pregnant.. or you want to kill yourself. Or ur neighbour is gay. Tell me anything! Except askin me how am i! I feel like i just got out of hospitalisation.

You know why i'm crapping.. its cos my account has been disabled at work. I can't surf the net so here i am sitting and writting out. I nearly fell asleep while video taping a class just now. Crap man this job is killing me. I just had a cup of coffee, and i hope at the 3rd meeting i can keep myself awake till the class ends.

I've got an hour and a half more .. so i shall continue crapping.. Mayb i shall write abt 21st JAN. Haha Anna would love to read the ending part of my entry.. talkin abt a guy who FLASHED at her!

Ok well.. so 21st Jan .. was Hari Raya Haji.. and guess what the sheeps are not in! They have been delayed. How weird is that. And not by one day but in fact by 3 days!! Had to wake up damn early to go to the cemetry. Then went to tamp to check out glasses. My brother broke his glasses and i thought of doing a new pair myself. Saw a red okley piece. I think the model name is mercury. Very nice.. $218. but dunno man.. then there was this Gucci piece. Super nice! $380.. heh.. But i didnt get any.. cos well my D&G one is still useable.. only my hands itchy.. hah.. cos my black one is too.. black and too formal. I need somethin funky.. Did i tell you i cut my fringe? My aunt/cousin; (why the / is because shes old enuf to be my aunt but going by the family tree shes my cousin) says i look cool. But Anna says i shld not have done anythin to my fringe. Hmmm oh somethin else.. my aunt whos old enuf to be my grandmother.. says i lost weight and now she could see my nose! What the hell.. What she means that previously my nose cant be seen at all?! Man wat a day damper.. But its all cool cos im the only one apprently lost weight.. the others all gained weight.. HAHAHHA Yes even my vain brother and my lil sister. This time round my aunt cooked Nasi Briayni. Yumm! I love her cooking.. well apart from my late grandma.. My mum cant cook much. My mum's not into spicy food.. So her cooking has always been boring and its always chicken. Boring ryte! How i envy those whos mums who loves spicy food. :(

OK .. So its evening time.. and its confirmed, Me and Anna are going to Rouge tonight for Guerrilla. Ema as usual. Bubble only.. Anna says Ema was the enthusiastic one. Calling her and askin us to come and wat happened, she says she has to work till 10.30. Wiwid and bf dint come.. Fazwin apprently QUIT..HMMMMM i think i know the reason but i have yet to confront him.. hahha. If u're reading this, better get an explaination ready.

So well.. apprently there was an NUS Arts Bash at Rouge. We came at 10 plus and the place was damn packed with chinonehs. The guys mostly in shirts and jeans, and the girls are either in tubes or spagg tops paired up with jeans or mini skirts.. They had some catwalk thingy.. then had a contest whereby a couple had to drink beer from the each other and they cant hold the beer with their hands. And elbows are part of hands too.. So what these boring ppl did were to put the beer bottle in between their knees and the other has to drink from errm that position. And all three couples did the same thing. After that contest was supposed to be the Best Dancer contest. Everyone get on the dance floor and well.. dance! I duno la they said 15 mins but in the end the music went on and on and on.. (and i realise no one won! hahhahha) I think the 15 mins the music was RNB.. that was when me and Anna joined them on the dance floor.. Haha i mean well we came early and why not join in the fun ryte.. So we just stood there near the front.. when a nice song comes on we danced. When a not so nice song comes on I just stood there.. And Kiat was the one playin the songs. Then after that 15 or so mins.. this DJ Feng came on.. and well well.. Rouge turned out to be a mini ZOUK! ARGGHHHH!! Horrible!!! Ok la he was cute to look at.. Anna thinks hes not.. WATEVERRR! I dunt think UR DJ is nice to look at.

So well so the mini zouk thingy went on for quite a while.. And i just stood there staring at him! NOt cos his cute but the music SUCKS! and then guess what! The DNB regulars came and i'm sure they were thinking.. "WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON AND WHO THE FUCK ARE THESE MOFOS!" I mean they came for DNB and here is a mini zouk. ahhahhhah. They just stood there near the front side.. a whole bunch of them.. There was this one big guy.. lol its so obvious that hes NOT at all happy. And i think he recognise me and Anna cos he was looking as us and im sure hes thinking "I know those girls.. i'm sure they came for Guerrilla.. but WHAT THE HELL ARE THEY STANDING THERE DANCING TO THAT CRAP!" LOL. Oh yea.. Hakim came.. looking like hell.. but he wasnt drunk! I mean i was told the last time Anna saw him.. twice (i think), Kimmie was drunk. Well so yea Anyways.. That FENG was spinning the club into a mini Zouk and well we were not happy.. DNB ppl were starting to fill up the place looking pissed and confused as hell. So me and Anna were staring at FENG.. ok more like I'M staring at him.. waiting for him to change the tone of music or better even pass the consoles over to somone more deserving.. I dunno i was standing close to the front and MAYB he saw wat was happening.. So THENNN the real music came up.. and THENNN the regulars just strolled in whole row of them.. and they just PARKED behind us.. ahhahha and then we SAW the faces of the NUS ppl.. ahhahha They were like.. WHAT THE FUCK.. why the hell the music changed.. and WHY the hell are these guys in TEES with caps just strolling in, shouting in the middle of nowhere.. But well they arnt that bad.. i mean they just continue dancing tryin to get along to the music change... then slowly.. bit by bit.. they left..then bit by bit some of the irritating new DNB ppl came.. U know i noticed these few Irritating ppl who came to madmonks after Subvert i think has this gig at Youth Park. Before that, the regulars were u know nice ppl who came to enjoy the music, and not disturbing other ppl. These new irritating ones.. they are out there wearing fancy stuff (shades in a club? HELLOOOOO??!) and dancing like a drunked monkey.. flashing underwear at ANNA (ahahhhahhahhahhhahhahhhha) Yea the drunked monkey fancies Anna i think. I think once Anna's gone away to Aussie.. i'm gonna quit going clubbing.. really i mean to face those idiots.. my god! And Ema... such a damper. She has a curfew.. She has to be back ASAP.. then wats the point of going clubbing?! Money wasted on cab fare. Well unless she passed her bike license.. but then again.. i dun think i trust my life in her hands.. lol.

Ok ok back to the drunked monkey.. My god! Hes SO FUCKIN VAIN! He looks like a turtle.. (no neck), he looks like a.. well i think i'll let Anna fill in that one since he fancies her.. hahhahhah. Really la.. in the dark, smoke filled place still wear shades.. then he sweats like hell STINKS too! then keep taking off his shades and wiping his face then lift up his shirt Flash his undies. Keeps lookin back at Anna.. then FLASH at her HAHHAHHAHHAHHAHHHAHHHA. And he has that look or stare shall u say.. u know the one which says "Hey you're cute, i like u and i think I'M sexy" U know.. ahhahhhaha yea man i'm laughing while im typing this.. i duno why.. mayb its funny cos he fancies Anna.. lol. And the think is.. he looks like a friend of mine.. the first time i saw him i tot he was my friend.. but i know my friend doenst have a beard and he doesnt walk like he owns the club and he doesnt look like a turtle. Lol.. My fren saw a picture of him from Exitmusik and yea he said that guy looked like him too.. thank god character not the same.. then again.. i never know.. i mean my fren is like playboy.. so.. well who knows. Man this is a LONGGG entry but i'm having fun typing it.. lol. ok wat else.. oh theres a toyol also.. who fancies the music of DNB he too wears shades.. with white frame.. and i noticed, the 2 times he comes for DNB, he wears white as in his TEE. Hes short, botak, body muscular (mayb that explains the white tee) but at least he doesnt dance like a drunked. But still he and his grp are also the kind who are out for attention. Always shouting and shouting. Thank god the other bunch of ppl were not there. One of them is my fren.. but the rest are all physcos.. Well according to Anna all of them are physcos. I didnt talk to most of them.. they talked to her. Anyways the night went well. There was this girl with the priceless look on her face when she tried to walked pass the DNB ppl. She look shocked and scared that u know the guys might just hit her or somethin.. ahhahhha And you know.. the NUS ppl were still requesting for RNB music.. ahhawkahwa wtf right!? They think what? dedication time?

Again i have to say its a nice night.. Went to eat ice longan after that.. then we walked down to City Hall.. stopped by the KopiTiam near S'pore Arts Museum.. hahah well this story errm i duno if i wanna type it all out. I dunno to feel insulted.. or well.. damn to think abt it I do feel insulted.. Wat happened you may ask.. well ok la i mean i've never encounted this before.. and thank god i sorta caught the idea of what was goin on.. and well u know saved my arse from being questioned further and mayb digging a bigger hole in my arse.

Shit.. I'm gona have to continue this story later.. cos its time for me to go..

Pinkie Me





:: 20 Jan 2005 ::

:: Uhhh Weee ::

Ok so i cheated its still the 19th but who cares ryte.. haha alright its abt 2 mins to the Eve of Hari Raya Haji. Slamat Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims. Ok this is gonna be a summary of abt a weeks of events.


.: 14 Jan :.

Ok at long last after that 2 months or more, i got my yellow cancer wrist band. So i wasted in no time locating that guy and met him on the same day to get it. Haha kiasu ma! Anyways all i remembered after that was that i went to work at night and met up with Anna. hahaha.


.: 16 Jan :.

Today is the finals for the Tiger Cup. S'pore vs Indo. U know.. no one actually expected S'pore to even qualify and look; we EVEN won the bloody cup! Surprise surprise. But i mean common la you all also know i watch it for wat reasons.. okla mayb 40% cos of the sport and 60% of it cos of someone.. ahhahhha. Damn he's so hot! And bloody attatched. But its ok my fren knows him.. PERSONALLY! *evil laughter*


.: 17 Jan :.

Err my monitor blew up.. I was doing stuff on my pc when my monitor went funny.. it changed color and it just twitched.. and that i smelt it.. somethin burnin.. lol Damn! Panic like shit. quickly switched off all the plugs ard me and i just sat there lookin at my monitor. Then my dad, went to his room, which is across from my room.. and he was like .. wat smell is that.. hahha. And i was like raising up my hand and said.. "Err i think its my computer..". SO ... "cutting a lot of chaotic moments..." we went to Sim Lim to get a new monitor. In the end i got myself a LG Flatron 17 inch LCD monitor and a new keyboard. Heh it looks so cool! All silvery and stuff... and its so SLIM! whwahkwhkahkhwa


.: 18 Jan :.

You know, first think i think at work.. Edwin said hi to me.. hahha cos i usually expect him to glance up or not glance at all.. with his ear plugs and all.. so normally i just pass by him briskly.. and so i didnt have the time to halt or to reverse.. I kindda feel bad.. I mean i shld have said somethin.. but well i was smiling.. and im sure he thinks i'm a arrogant "girl". Heh.


.: 19 Jan :.

Went to cut my hair today.. ok more like a trim here and there and well for the.. mayb 3rd time in my life i have a fringe.. Ok la i love the fringe.. but i still think my hair looks like a mushroom.

Anyways i went out early.. Got myself a big breakfast (missed it so much).. First, the girl behind the counter cant keep her eyes off this guy behind me. I think i know him somewhere.. He might be my jr from Lasalle.. so back to her.. yea she was talkin to me and her eyes were on him.. I'm like.. HELLO.. i know la i'm not pretty but its fucking rude lor! But its ok.. in the morning cannot be a bitch la. Later spoil my day. So yea.. then all sit down already, she came by to send send my meal.. walkin towards me (on her left) and her head was positioned to her right LOOKING at him! At that time he was sitting by himself waiting for his fren (which was a girl).. she wasnt there yet.. then she walk by again after like 2 mins.. this time round to clean up the tables.. then she saw the girl with him (i didnt get to see her reaction this time..) but all i know the next few rounds.. she didnt come by... she asked some other girl to do it.. ahhahhha. I mean i was bored la.. so since im eating ALONE.. people watch is a good way to pass time. heh. That was one..

Then as i happily eat.. lookin at ppl, i noticed this guy sitting at my North East direction.. He WINKED at me! I mean.. what the fuck.. winked! TWICED! and sommore he sat near the entrance.. so naturally tts where my eyes wld be looking at everytime i look up from my food. And there he was sitting. But thank god tts all he did la.. Cos i avoided him after that.

Apart from those incidents. everything went fairly well.. Shit it took me a damn hour and a half to write all those. what the hell... OK i'm done for now. I need to rest..

OH OH OHHH BY THE WAY I GOT A NEW PHONE!!! 7270!!! ARGHHHHHHH My fav! for this year.. LOL

Ok tts all...


PS: If's theres spelling error or whatever crap pardon me.. this new freakin keyboard is such a pain in the arse.

Ms I'm-into-PINK!



:: 13 Jan 2005 ::

:: Help Me ::

This is a mini update. I've got myself another DG Cam. Its the Canon IXUS i5. *smiles* I thought of sellin my old one.. Well mayb when i'm back from my trip.

Ive been doing super major shopping this past 2 mths. I gave myself till Feb. Thats when the shopping has got to stop. I think I spent close to 2k in all for now.. really im serious. I do not know what ive got to say to myself. I'm so dissapointed. I thought i could control myself.. but.. apprently I can't. Crap ryte.

I've been happy. Ppl have been asking me out.. but i just can't seem to say Yes to them. I dunt know why my guard has been up for so long.. I just can't trust ppl. I really need help. I'm gonna give myself a break for a few more days.. then i'm back to work. So.. well shopping it is.. for now.. hahhahha. Ok ok mayb i shld make it WINDOW shopping. and i have to remember to keep my cards at home.

Oh ya ANNA! pls leave ur web addy on my msgboard.. or email it to me for pete's sake.. I still do not know your blog add.

Thats all i can afford to key in today. Im still feeling off balance.. and i'll continue to bitch another time.

I'm out!

Muni Lisa


:: 05 Jan 2005 ::

:: You make me wanna LALA! ::

You know, Anna told me that ive been gossiping in here.. that im not bitching enuf.. so well mayb its abt time i bitch abt her. Ok what do you wanna know. SHE pisses me off BIG TIME and to think that i actually tolerate it? Her lateness is a MAJOR issue I dunno its like you dun't know that time ard you. You keep doing what you do.. and the next time you check your watch (OH! tts a watch!) u are past the meeting time. And you know she doesnt even bother to CALL! For pete's sake.. Everytime i was SO god damn tempted to just leave the place, dun pick up her calles, fuck watever she does. And u know my feet just woulden buldge. U know why? Cos i appreciate every single moment i can spend with her.. (And im not a lesbian.) She is one of my freakin ancient frends and you dunt treat ur frends like crap!

Damn im too distracted to do this.. So im gonna continue doing this another day.

Oh to finish this up.. my car nearly got hit by another car just now while i was driving. Im not gonna swear.. Im just gonna continue this another day.


Screw Everyone.





catch me :: if :: i fall