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The Missing Angel By Lovely-chan Chapter #1: Confusion
Have you ever loved without knowing it? Have you ever love two persons at the same time? Have you ever… lost your life? … It all started when I was 7 years old, I wake up from a dream an appeared in a strange place to my eyes. I was alone, completely alone in a huge gorgeous house that I had no idea it was my new home. I didn’t remembered what happened. I didn’t know how I get there, all I remembered was my father and my mother, but…where were they, was my question? “Mommy? Daddy?” I walked through the long corridors of the house, from one room to another finding more, and more strange things for me. I didn’t knew what all those things were, and I was scared, so scared. “Mommy? Mommy? Where are you? Dad! Daddy, please come!” My heart pounded so fast and so hard I could hear it clearly, and my hands began to shake stronger with each step I take finding nothing but an empty place. “MOMMY! DADDY!!! PLEASE COME! COME! Where am I? Daddy!!!!!” I yelled in the middle of the living room, but no one came. My eyes couldn’t stop tearing with the fear I felt in my heart. ‘They abandon me?’ I walked up the long endless stairway that in circles took me to the second floor still finding no one, only more and more empty rooms. “NO! This can’t be! Mama! Papa!” I ran downstairs once more with trembling legs that made me fell when I was finally reaching the end of the so hated stairway. “AHH! Mama! Papa! AHH!! AH! Ha!” I cried hopeless, completely desperate with my loneliness and my confusion. Why was I alone, why my parents weren’t there, why…why? I fell asleep on top of a carpet I found in a room trembling with fear in the dark little corner I hid. I though maybe they were out and soon they will be back, but no matter how long I waited, they never came back. “I’m hungry. Mommy! Mommy I’m hungry! Mom?” I walked slowly to the kitchen since I saw some fruits when I was first searching for my parents, but I couldn’t reach them. “I’m so hungry!” I was so small and innocent back then, and all I could do was cry again, but my desperation, and my hunger made me use a power I had inside, but wasn’t aware that I had it. The basket filled with fruits was now floating in the air and slowly coming to me, so I grabbed it and sat on the floor to eat. “At least…but how did I…?” I finished some fruits and walked back to the living room screaming my lungs out. “MAMA!!! PAPA!!! I’m…scared. Mommy…please come back, don’t leave me lonely.” My tears rolled down again, dripping slowly to the floor. “Papa…why you left me? Was I a bad boy? I promise papa, I’ll be good. I’ll be good, but don’t leave me. Daddy!!!” I started running upstairs, but foolishly fell down, rolling down until I hit the floor. “Daddy…” I fell asleep with the hit and loose all my senses. --- “I can’t look at him! Please let me tell him something, I can’t see him so sad…he fell! He might be hurt!” “I’m sorry Takahashi, your son is on his own now.” “But Chidou, he’s only a child. He can’t survive alone.” “He’ll find a way. Go rest, I’ll check on them.” “No! He is calling me, I’m going!” “You can’t let him see you, not yet. Those were the orders, it wasn’t my decision Takahashi…I’m very sorry.” “The Council decision was wrong! Completely wrong!” “Even if they were wrong…those were our orders, and we must obey. We must complete our mission, let’s hope everything turns out ok.” ---
After long hours of sleep, I opened my eyes seeing light coming through small windows. I stood up happy, thinking everything was a dream, and ran through the entire house yelling and calling my parents. But with every door I opened, the fear started taking over me again, making me ran faster and faster to each of the rooms to see if they were in any of them. “Stop hiding Mama! I don’t like this game no more! MOMMY!!!” I stepped in front of the last room I found, and I reached slowly to the lock to open it. My hand was shaking and sweating strongly, and my eyes were dripping once again. I knew it- I knew it deep inside. Behind that door I would find nothing but another empty place, but I did it. I opened the last door of the house and I found it…I found exactly what I feared the most. I found my emptiness, my loneliness, my sadness…my sorrow. “NOOOO! No! No! No!” I shook my head harshly to the sides- I couldn’t believe it. How could I be left all alone just like that, without even telling me? How? How can my parents be so cruel? Then a bigger fear hit me, what if they died? “Are they…?” I fell on my knees and cried for long minutes, but then I decided to be strong and go find out what happened. So I went downstairs and walked outside the house to see what I could find. I walked and walked for long minutes than seemed hours to me, just to find myself lost without even remembering from where I came from. I had no idea where I was, but I keep walking avoiding stepping back into that empty house. While I walked I spotted a few kids about my age playing on the ground with some cars, that to me at that point were completely unfamiliar. I though maybe I could join them, so I walked close to them and smiled. “Can I play?” All looked up, but one of them stood up and pushed me to the floor. He was big, and definitely strong, so I hit the ground painfully. I felt fear again without knowing what was going on in my life, why everything was wrong so suddenly? Without knowing what else to do, I let escape a few tears. “You crying? What a stupid boy you are!” The tall boy made me stand by pulling me roughly by the hair, provoking more and more tears roll down my face. “AHH! Lemme go!” “You’re a girl! A crying, silly girl!” But a miracle occurred; one of the other boys stood up and rescued me. He was slim, with beautiful green eyes and very black hair, and skin as white as the snow. I though he could do nothing, since he was smaller than the other one, but even when he was weaker, he managed to save me. I felt gratitude toward the young boy looking down at me with an offering hand to help me stand, so I could only smile and accept it. I looked to his eyes to admire the two gorgeous emeralds he had trapped inside them and he smiled widely while I stare amazed by his sweet looking eyes. From that day, this boy became my friend, my beloved and only friend. He took care of me for a few days by taking me to his house. He told his mother I was lost, and both received me happily. But soon, the police took me back to my house, and my fears persecuted me once again. After a few days, I guess I accepted the idea that I was alone forever, but my new friend made feel like I wasn’t alone. Many nights he stayed by my side so I wouldn’t be alone, and many others I stayed by his…until his brother kicked me out and asked me not ever to return. I was so sad once again, so I ran back to my house crying in desperation. My only company, my only friend I had to leave, but to my surprise, he didn’t care and stayed beside me. I was happy, so very happy to have him with me. Yutaka was my only company, and the only one that was always able to make me smile. We spend all the time together, and he explained everything to me, even when he though it was weird that I didn’t knew anything at all about this world. He knew my secrets, and all my fears, but never laugh at me. I loved him. It was impossible not to love him when he was the only caring soul I’ve found in this unknown world I was left in. We lay on the ground looking straight up to the starts when I felt his small hand grabbing mine. I giggle and smile to him- it felt nice to have him near me, and his hand gave me comfort. We looked up once again, and from that day we made a ritual. “Kouin…what is your greatest
dream?" He asked me with the sweetest sound his voice could give. “Do you love me too?” “Yes. I love you more than anyone.” “Really?” “I swear- you are my only friend. You are my new family Yuyu, and I love you dearly.” “I love you dearly too.” He pressed my hand tighter and I smiled while gazing at the stars. “I wish I could touch them…they are so bright. Maybe my parents are there.” “You think?” “Where else could they be?” “Heaven?” “Maybe…” But things changed. A few days later, I found this girl. She was crying beside the lake near my house, and I though she may feel lonely too. So I walked closer to her, and gave her a flower I took from the ground. She looked up to me confused, and when I look inside her eyes I saw myself. I saw the same fear and sadness in her eyes, so I did what my Yuyu did, I smile to her. “Smile for me little girl.” I only wanted for her to smile the way Yuyu made me smile when I was the one crying. The girl confused by my gesture took the flower, and smile back to me, and from that day she also became my friend, but I never imagined how these two persons would affect my life. --- Ten years passed so fast I didn’t even noticed. I was 6 foot tall, and my body had become strong with all the exercise I always put it through. My hair was longer too, with my bangs covering my blue eyes from time to time and a few tickling trends circling the back of my neck. I though I was ok, and that all the trauma from my childhood was gone, but in reality it never left. It was the day I came back from my summer vacation- my father bought me a ticket so I go enjoy the summer. Yeah, my father…he wasn’t dead after all. I figured someone was with me since there was always food on the fridge, I was sent to school, and there was always money. As years passed I even get to have credit cards, and it was him- my father. I though he was hiding from me, or something, but one day I managed to see him when he was home leaving my kitchen packed with everything I needed. For my sadness, he gave me no explanations. It was the first day of my senior year, and as every day for the last ten years, I went to my best friends house to walk along with her to school. I threw some small rocks to her window, so she will open and come down. I wanted to see her so bad, and my heart was running so fast just with the anxiety to see her. *Knock* *Knock* “Huh? What’s that noise?” The sound on the window was heard again. “ Is from the window. Could it be…?” The young girl opened the window quickly and anxious to see her beloved friend. “Kouin! Ah! Ha, ha, ha, ha! You are back from your summer trip!!” I stare with my eyes shining with the magnificent view I just had. Kai, my dear Kai Ling was smiling down to me just like I imagined for the last two months. “Kai, looking beautiful as always. Are you wearing my favorite smile this morning?” I was filled with emotion- I’ve missed her so much during the summer, so much that it seemed eternal. She smiled widely also glad to see me. “I sure am!” ^____^ “Good to see that. Come down here, aren’t you going to school or what?” “I’ll be down in a sec, wait for me!” She took her bag and threw it to me. I knew she was going down by the window- it was totally like her. “Catch it!” “Got it!” I catch her bag easily, and looked up to enjoy the view of her sliding down the wall. She always left the room by stepping out the window and sliding down the wall while grabbing a long tube that was stick to the side of her window. “Tara! I am so glad to see you again, this summer was a total bummer without you.” “Really??” I was excited to know she missed me, but only hoped she missed me as much as I did. “Oh yeah! Believe me, I almost left my house.” “You what?” I was hysterical- she was always trying to leave her home. “Don’t worry, if I ever leave my house I will be waiting in yours.” ^_^ “Oh God! Kai, you never change.” But yeah, every time she left her house was just to hide in mine. She lived next door, so in reality, she never really left her house. “By the way…did you...hummm…” I knew what she wanted- she wanted her breakfast. “Yes, here’s your breakfast my friend, your favorite blueberry muffin, and some orange juice I squeezed this morning. Hope you like!” I always made breakfast for her- I was a good cook. I had to learn since I had no one to cook for me, so I turned out to be very good at it, and my friends enjoy it a lot- that made me happy. “All right!” (Eats) “Mmmm, you haven’t lost your touch. I missed this, thanks for remembering.” “I can see you’ve missed food a lot- you’ve lost a lot of weight with me gone, huh? Have you eaten at all?” The main reason for me to cook for her was not only because she liked my cooking, it was because her older sister, Kazumi, was a real pain and always told her parents she was on a diet so she won’t eat and stay very thin. “Well…sometimes, you know.” “Don’t worry, I am back and I’m not letting you starve anymore.” “Kouin …” ‘He always takes care of me…he is so sweet.’ We arrived to school and to my surprise my dearest friend was waiting for me. He went to another school since his family was very poor, and apparently my father had a lot of money. Funny, I had no idea on what he worked. ‘Kouin!!!’ *___* “Hey my man!” ‘Finally! I’ve been waiting all morning!’ “Yutaka! How ya’ doing?” I was very happy to see him, I wanted to hug him, but I always get shy in front of people- especially when it comes to Yutaka. I don’t know why, but every time I look at him I feel like everyone is pointing at us. I felt guilt and had no idea why, or maybe I knew why, but couldn’t notice. But even when I was afraid to show my affection to him, he wasn’t, so he pulled me close to his arms and hugged me, making me feel very embarrassed- so I blushed. He held me for a few moments, and then finally let go, letting my heart start to beat again. “Not bad, how about that summer?” ‘I missed you so much…’ “It was ok, you know. We’ll talk later- I’m late for school. Come over my house this afternoon. I got tons of things to tell ya.” I wanted to spend time with him, but I liked being alone with him. No, I wasn’t ashamed of my friend, even when he looked different than my other friends. Yuyu was a musician, and musicians always act different- all artists do. Some of my friends though I was crazy for being his friend, but I was the luckiest of all just for being his friend. Yutaka may be a weird looking kid, with his hair dye in blue and purple highlights, and so many earrings on his ears you could barely see them, and even a ring on his tongue and eyebrow. But he was the best of friends- he gave me comfort and security. With him, I felt strong, important, and must of all- I didn’t felt lonely. It was a pity he was always busy lately, and we haven’t spend much time for the last five years. Yes we still see each other, but not as often as I would like. I kept walking inside school with my dear Kai, until her best friend Yumi appeared and made me left as usual. I had no idea why, but she didn’t like me much, and always treated me a little harsh…but I guess she treated everyone harsh anyway. “Oh, hi Kouin. I didn’t saw you.” (In an ironic tone.) “I get it Yumi, I’ll left you two alone. Later.” I was sad because I wanted to spend a little more time with Kai, but I prefer to leave than being with Yumi. “Yeah, girl-talk.” Yumi was pretty, she had short blond hair that looked very soft and always looked perfect, and had very beautiful amber eyes, but still, she was a pain in the butt. “C-Ya Kai.” I left to my classroom so they can chat and wait for my other best friend, Naoki. He was probably still running to get to school on time- he was always late. --- Kai turned to look at Yumi. “He is so cute!” She said smiling. “I missed him LOTS!” “Yuck!” #_# “I still don’t know how you stand him?? He is such a jerk!” She was a little possessive, but was a good friend. “He is not a jerk, he is wonderful to me. I don’t know why you don’t like him, he is my best friend!” Using her ironic tone. “Yeah, and that leaves me where? You miss him, but what about me?” “You too, Yumi.” “That’s better.” But she still was unsure- Yumi was always jealous of Kouin because she wanted to be important to Kai, and she felt he was more important to her than she was. “Yumi, thank God I found you!” A tall gray haired cute guy ran to her. “Another school year and you still don’t know how to make that knot! What are you going to do after school is over? Come here, let me fix your tie.” “Thank you Yumi, you are the best.” The young man stared at her as she made the knot with glittering eyes. “Ehem…hello Naoki, remember me, Kai Ling?” ^_^ “Hello Kai…I…just was a little distracted, you know. How is it going? Have you seen Kou?” “Yes he went to his class room already. Are you two together again this year?” “Probably…we dummies are always together. ^_^” Naoki and Kouin didn’t have very good grades, especially Kouin, so they were always in the same class room. “You are ready to go Naoki, I will have to charge you for being your wardrobe mistress.” Yumi winked to him sweetly while she walked away leaving him drooling with her view. “Whatever you say Yumi. See ya later, I am late as usual.” Naoki ran to his classroom smiling- he was happy to see his dear Yumi. ---
I was so naïve, I could never notice when people had feeling for me, and I don’t know why, I end up having many admirers. I’ve never consider myself handsome, but the girls were always chasing me with not much luck- I already had eyes to only one girl…my Kai. I was a little overprotective with her since her sister was always making her life impossible, and treated her like a servant. I hated that, and I always was trying to cheer her up, and making her feel better. Almost every night I called on her with a transmitter I made myself a few years ago. It was pretty good, and since she liked it I gave her one and keep the other so we can talk whenever she needed me. But as many nights, I was cooking for her and for myself some nice dinner. Kai was crying in her room for all the humiliations her sister put her through, making her clean the kitchen every day like she was some kind of servant. But what was worse was the fact that her father also supported Kazumi’s abuse. “Always the same...” She sits and started reading a book with her eyes full of tears when she heard the sound that always stopped her tears. (Static noise) “1-2, 1-2 testing…Ms. K are you listening? Ms K? Ms. K? Do you have this thing on?” That was I, calling her on our transmitter. She washed her tears away and grabbed the device. “Right here Mr. K. Do we have a mission?” Now a smiling Kai asked anxious. “Yes, operation dinner starts in two minutes, counting starting now.” “Roger that.” She turned her lights off and left through the window. “5, 4, 3, 2, 1, 0” I counted the remaining seconds as I look to my watch waiting for her to appear like many other nights. “I’m here!” Kai yelled at her friend as she jumped in front of his door. “Right on time, as usual. I made a special just for you.” I couldn’t help but to smile- I loved being with her. “Yum! Pasta dinner, my fave!” Kai sat down and started eating wearing a beautiful smile- that made me happy. “What did you have at home?” I asked curious since I knew how cruel Kazumi could be. “Nothing…just cleaned the dishes.” “And the food?” “I didn’t get any, my sister told my parents I’m on a diet.” “Again! Don’t your parent get suspicious about your eternal diet? You’re going to disappear!” “Nah, you know my dad does all Kazumi says and my mom have no word in front of Dad. So I just eat…nothing.” “Is your sister trying to kill you?” “I don’t know…humm, this is good. What will I ever do without you, I sure be dead by now.” “Don’t exaggerate. I’m just glad to see you smile. Besides, I have to cook for me as well.” J “Kouin...don’t you get tired of being alone?” ‘All the time…’ “Nah, I’m used to it. Besides I prefer when my father is not home, but he is never home.” ‘I’m always alone…so alone.’ “You are strong Kou, if I were you, I’ll die of depression.” “Don’t know why, if I had your family…I’d prefer being alone.” “Maybe you got a point, but…even if it sounds strange, I do love my family.” “I can’t say the same.” Suddenly a small figured entered the room. “Oh! I’m sorry…I couldn’t come earlier, but I’ll left the two of you alone. I don’t want to bother.” “Don’t be ridiculous! Come on in, I waited all afternoon for you. Where were you?” I looked at him playing I was angry, but I wasn’t- I could never be angry with him. “Just working Kou…then I went home to help my mom. She’s asleep now.” “Is she ok?” “Not really…but I’m taking care of her the best way I can.” “Well Kou, I left you two. Probably have lots of things to talk about…and I’m not invited.” “No! I’ll go Kai…I really should go anyway. C-Ya Kou!” He ran outside. “I guess I’m not lucky.” I ran after him. I wanted to be with him so much, I couldn’t let him go. “Wait! Yutaka, come back!” “No, Kou…it’s late. I must go.” “Please, just a few minutes.” “You are with Kai…maybe you got lucky tonight!” ^_~ “Come on!” I blushed. “She is leaving.” She stepped out. “I’m leaving Yutaka…you can have him now.” She gave him a little angry look. “Bye.” ‘Why she looked at me like that?’ “Night Kai.” I smiled and watched her climb to get inside her room. “You can stop looking now, Kou. She’s gone.” ‘I wish he watch me go…bah, that would never happen.’ I put my arm around his shoulders and walk inside with him while I messed his crazy hair with my other hand. I loved his hair, even when it was colorful- it felt soft and tickling. “Don’t be jealous.” I laughed. “What do you mean with that?” (BLUSHED) “I’m just kidding! Babe.” ^_~ “FOOL!” ‘In my dreams… If you only knew…’ After all, he stayed and we talk for many hours, when I was falling asleep, the sound of music woke me from my slumber. “Yuyu?” I smiled when I heard the soft sounds coming from the living room- he was playing the piano. I walked to where he was and sat right next to him to enjoy his company and talent. I loved to hear him play his guitar, and the few times I get to hear him play the piano were wonderful. He started singing after I joined him, and my heart pounded strongly just with the sound of his voice. It enchanted me. His voice always enchanted me. His mother and I were the only lucky persons who had ever listen to him sing that way…and it made me feel so special. I lay my head on his shoulder almost falling asleep with the mellow song he was playing, but he suddenly stopped playing and just touched my hair softly. “Why you stopped?” “You’re falling asleep. Go to bed Kou. I’ll go home now.” “No…it’s so late. You are not going now- it’s dangerous. I’ll go with you.” “No…I can go.” “You’re afraid of the dark Yuyu. I’ll take you.” “Ok.” I wrapped my arms around him and teleported to the back of his house, just to make sure no one will see us appeared so suddenly. “Here ya go, sweetie.” “Thank you Kou.” His eyes twinkled as he looked up to Kouin’s eyes and grab strongly his shirt. ‘I love you.’ “Good night Yuyu.” I don’t know what it was, but every time I was alone with him, I felt the urge to touch his face and his pretty hair. I just couldn’t get my hands off him, so I lean down and kissed his forehead, and at that instance his older brother appeared just to fuck things up- like always. “Get your hands off my brother!” |