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The Missing Angel By Lovely-chan Chapter II: Our Friendship
It all happened so suddenly, I was there, Yuyu was there, and I just wanted to kiss him goodnight. But I didn’t kiss his lips- I wouldn’t do something like that! That was not the kind of feeling I felt. Yes, I wasn’t sure what it was, but love? No, that couldn’t be, Yutaka was a man, and so was I, besides…there was Kai Ling, my love. I just don’t know what is the problem for kissing your best friend, if all the girls kiss their friends? Aren’t we the same? There’s no big deal out of it- I care for him, and that’s it!
“Huh? Brother! What’s wrong with you?”
He grabbed Yutaka’s arm and pulled him away from me- that made me angry, Yutaka was with me. “Stop touching him! You won’t spoil him!”
“But, what are you talking about?” Yutaka didn’t mind at all for Kouin kisses.
“I saw him trying to kiss you!”
“NO! You…-“
“Can’t you see he is trying to get on your pants?”
“I’m sorry Yutaka, see ya later. I’m not listening to his crazy stories again.” I tried to walk away, but he grabbed my arm harshly.
“You are not going, you are going to finally listen to me. My little brother is not gay, understand?”
“I know.”
“Then stop molesting him!”
“That’s not of your business bro! You’ve never cared for me, so what do you care anyways?”
“Yutaka! You know I wasn’t…” I couldn’t believe he though I was in reality molesting him- he knows me better than that!
“I know Kou…but even if you were, that’s not of his concern. I am old enough, ok? Go!”
“You are coming with me! I’m not leaving you with this pervert!” He grabbed his arm and pulled him by force.
“Let me go! You’re hurting me!”
“Let go of him!” I grabbed his arm and forced him to let go of my dear Yuyu- I didn’t care he was his older brother, he was hurting my friend. I was angry for what happened, I know sometimes I got a little close to him, but I wasn’t trying to do anything. “I’ll tell you one thing, if you ever touch him…I’ll make you suffer.”
“You are the one who’s going to suffer Takahashi.”
I let go and walked away feeling angry for being so unlucky with his brother. The first time he kicked me out we were bathing together, but we were only kids! I didn’t even know what sex was! From that day, he always said I was trying to get Yutaka, and sometimes I wondered if he was right ‘cause I didn’t had clear what my feelings were, but I loved Kai…so that couldn’t be. No one loves two persons at the same time, right?
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Yutaka cried for what his brother did and must of all, for what he said to his beloved Kouin. ‘I wish he wanted me that way…’
“Don’t cry! You’ll make me think you actually like him that way.”
“I do! I love him! I love Kouin!” He slapped him strongly and he fell back. “AHH!” He rubbed his cheek trying to cease the pain he felt.
“Shut up! Don’t ever say it again!”
“You…you just don’t understand! I’m the one in love with him…not otherwise. He loves Kai Ling.”
“You…you’re lying! My brother is not gay! You are not gay! Say it! Say it’s a joke!”
“I won’t say it!”
“Say it, or I’ll hit you again!” He lifted his hand again, but fortunately his mother came.
“Stop it! Leave him alone!”
“But mother, he said…-“
“I don’t care what he said, just don’t hit him.”
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The next day in school, I gave Kai her breakfast, as always, and she felt guilty for all the favors I always do. But I loved her, so it was normal for me. “There is no need. I like to help you, I love to see you smile and to be near you Kai.” I got a little closer and put my hands in her shoulders, I wanted to kiss her so bad, but I knew she didn’t feel the same way about me.
“Kouin …that’s nice. I like you too.”
Then I though I was wrong, and that maybe, just maybe she loved me too, so I was going to take the risk and kiss her, but things never go ok when I was with my Kai. Just like always, Yumi appeared to take her away from me and make my life miserable.
“So here you are. I though you ditch school with your boyfriend here, but then I saw him, so I guessed you were sick- But I was wrong again. You are late girl!”
(Blushed) “Kouin is not my boyfriend and you know that!” Kai yelled as she step back.
“Oh yeah…I forgot you like Jotaru.” ^_~ Yumi said just to see Kouin’s face twitch.
“Yumi!!! That was supposed to be a secret!”
“Oh, but I though Kouin knew, since HE is your BEST FRIEND.” Ironic again.
I just received the worst surprise of all- my beloved was in love with someone else. ‘Jotaru? Who is he?’ I wanted to cry and ran away, but I was too old for such stupid reaction, besides I’ve never told her the way I felt, so it was my fault for being so shy.
“He didn’t know it Yumi.”
“Well, now he does…what’s the matter Kou, did a mouse eat your tongue?” Still using her ironic tone.
“I...I have to go, I’m late for class.” I left immediately without even looking at her face, I couldn’t- my heart was broken.
“Someone was obviously jealous.” ^_~ Yumi goofed at Kouin.
“Don’t be silly, Kouin is only my friend.” Kai replied a little upset, but she did notice his reaction.
“Try to explain that to him.”
The girls sat on their seats and stare at the longhaired god across the room. His sky blue eyes glittered with the touch of the light and his black hair flew in the air as he walked to his place.
“Wow…isn’t he perfect.” Kai’s face was glowing just for looking at him.
“I got to admit he is very good looking, but he is not my type.” Yumi said to her friend.
“Not your type? He’s everyone’s type, he is all that…he is like an angel sent from heaven.”
“I think you are hallucinating Kai, he is beautiful, but he is definitely not an angel…maybe a devil.”
“A devil? Hello, did you look at him at all? I think you’ll be the one needing my glasses.”
“Come on Kai, I mean because he is a temptation.” ^_~
“Well…if you put it that way, you got a point. Then…take me to hell!” Starts drooling. “Oh, he is looking straight to us!” She blushed.
Jotaru winked to all the girls- they were all staring and he just loves flirting with them.
“He is so divine! Did you saw? He winked to us. Ahhhhhh.” Drooling some more.
“Put yourself together Kai, you don’t want him to notice or do you?”
“Ehem, nope.”
“Well, I think is too late.” ‘He is too vain, I don’t like that…I prefer…don’t even think about it.’
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‘Jotaru…who is Jotaru?’ I couldn’t stop thinking about it, that name was torturing my heart. It was the first time Kai was ‘in love’ with someone, at least that I knew. And for me, it was horrible. I knew sooner or later that would happen, but I only hoped she would love me.
“Hey Kouin, are you listening? The teacher is calling your name.” Naoki tries to catch his attention.
“Oh, I’m right here Mrs. Yamada.”
“What’s with you Kou?” Naoki asked looking at his lost eyes.
“Naoki, do you know a guy name Jotaru from this school?”
“Jotaru? Oh yes, he is a new guy. He started here at summer school, he seems very popular with the girls.”
“He is?” I asked concerned- that would be a problem.
“Yes, why you asked?”
“I see…can you show him to me later?”
“Sure, but what is your interest with him?”
“Nothing, it’s just that a friend of mine mentioned his name.”
“Kai?”
“No, her friend Yumi.”
“So she likes him????” Naoki yelled hysterical.
“Shh! No, Kai does.”
“Now I understand why you care in the first place.”
“What do you mean by that?”
“Are going to deny me you have feelings for her?”
“Naoki!!” (Yelling.)
“Mr. Takahashi can you please pay more attention and stop yelling in my classroom?” Ms. Yamada was mad at him.
“I am sorry Mrs. Yamada.” I sank on my seat with embarrassment. Why was I always the most hated by the teacher?
“Way to go Kouin. He, he.” Naoki laughed at his friend.
“That goes for you too, Mr. Yoshida.” The teacher advised Naoki.
“Bummer.” Naoki said with a sad look.
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The entire day rolled by, and I knew nothing about my friend Yuyu. He usually comes by or called me on my cell phone, but not today. I wonder if it was because of the incident. But he came, late, but he came. “Kou…”
“Hey Yuyu! Come here!” (HUG) “I missed you. Why it took you so long to come see me?”
“I’m just very busy Kou…but you know I always think of you.”
“You better. You ate already?”
“Nope. Did you cook something nice?”
“I made some ice cream…”
“Really???” *_*
“Yup…your favorite coconut ice-cream. Come, lets eat on the carpet, as usual.” ^_~ Yutaka smiled with so much joy it made me feel happy too. “Is your mom better?”
“Aha…”
“So, you can watch movies with me tonight?”
“Sure! I can stay…if you want.” ‘I hope you do…I want to be near you.’
“That would be nice.” We sat on the carpet and put some movie while eating the ice cream and talking. “We already saw that movie, right?”
“Yeah…it was scary.”
“I remembered! I had to walk you home ‘cause you were afraid!”
“You had to remind me, huh?” They both laughed. “Thank you Kou…for being so nice to me.”
“What are you talking about? You are my only family, you know that!” I grabbed him by the neck and started rubbing his head. “Fool!”
“Ha, ha! You’ll see!” We started a pillow fight and Yutaka end up buried in all the pillows and wrapped in the carpet like a caterpillar. “Let go of me! Help! Help!”
“Oh my…you look so funny!” So just to bug him a bit more I sat on top of him to squash him a little.
“Get off! Get off! You’re killing me!!! Murderer!!!”
“A murderer? Me? Buwahahahahahahahahaha! I wouldn’t even kill a bug!”
“I know that. Now, please unwrap me.”
“Ok.” I turned off the TV and just lay on top of the carpet chatting and snuggling under the covers with my friend. “It’s cold…I better turn off the air.”
“No, I like the coldness. My room is always so hot.”
“You always get cold! How can you tell me to leave it on?”
“Because I know you’ll warm me up if I get cold, and I like that.” He slid his hand down his chest.
I blushed when I saw the look on his eyes and felt his soft small hands on me. “You do?” Was he making a move on me? I was nervous, but…I didn’t mind, in fact I loved it. Was that a sign?
“Aha. Would you hold me?”
I couldn’t say no to those gorgeous eyes pleading for attention. “Always.” So I held him in my arms for the rest of the night. Why were we so different with each other than with other friends? I never held Naoki, not even hugged him…maybe once, but with Yuyu…everything was different.
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Later that week I was warming up for the football tryouts. I’ve always wanted to be on the team, but never got in because…well I always fainted in the middle of the tryouts. It was embarrassing, but I always tried. I knew why, but couldn’t tell…it was my power. I always had that power within me, and was never able to control some things, that were why I always fainted.
“Do you think I can get in?” I asked my friend worried.
“Come on, you’ve been practicing all summer Kouin, of course you will.”
“Thanks Naoki, I hope you are right, but you know what happened other years.”
“Forget about that, you wont faint this year.” He saw Jotaru walking to the field. “Hey Kou! That’s the guy, that’s Jotaru.” Naoki pointed to where he was standing.
“Hey don’t do that! He will see you pointing!” I looked at him, and it was when I knew I lost my Kai. He was very handsome, a lot more than I am. “So that’s him?” He had a gorgeous black mane falling down endlessly to his hips and was tall with pretty blue eyes, but not the same blue of mine- his were clearer. “I am dead.”
“Come on, don’t think like that, you are way more ahead of him. You are Kai’s friend, we don’t even know if Kai have spoken to him. You know Kai, she is very shy.”
“Maybe you are right.” ‘But why am I so worried? He is very good looking- that’s why.‘
“Now go kick some ass! I know you’ll make it this year. You won’t leave me alone again, will ya? I still can’t believe I always get in and you don’t…you are a lot better than I am!” Naoki tried to cheer him up.
“I just feel so dizzy and…forget it, that won’t happen again.” ‘Why I always loose my strength when I need it the most? Is this thing…I hate it.’ It was true. I hated my powers, even when they were convenient some times, but I wanted to be normal…I wanted to fit in, and never did. I always felt like an alien surrounded by humans, but why? Wasn’t I a human? I always wondered if I was because no other human had my powers.
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Later…
“Did you got in Kou? Kai asked her best friend very enthusiastic in the middle of the school corridor.
“Of course he didn’t, he stinks, right Kouin?”
Yumi tried to make fun of my usual failure. “Yumi you… Well, let me disappoint you my dear Yumi-chan, ‘cause I did get in the football team.” Yeah! Finally, I was able to say something to Yumi, so she’ll stop bugging me every year after tryouts.
“That’s great Kou! You really wanted it.” Kai was so happy for him that she even hugged him and he blushed at the same instant- she hardly ever hugged him.
“And to tell you more, my beloved Yumi, my friend here is not only on the team, but he will be captain too.”
Naoki said to his dear Yumi. Naoki had a crushed on Yumi, but she never corresponded to his feelings and in a way I was glad, ‘cause she was a real pain, and Naoki was very sweet.
“You what?!!! Impossible, you are lying Naoki.” She was shocked.
“When have I lied to you?” ^_~
“Bah!” Yumi didn’t like the comment. “I still can’t believe it, you always faint like a baby.”
“He didn’t, in fact I was surprised. He was a lot stronger than before, but he break some other guy’s nose.” Naoki finished.
“You what?!!” Both Yumi and Kai yelled. “Whose nose?”
“Oops!” ‘I said it! You moron!’ -_-
But Naoki had to opened his mouth! It was true, I broke Jotaru’s nose, but I swear it wasn’t on purpose. “Don’t say it man, it was just an accident.” I tried to explain, but I knew they wouldn’t believe me, especially Yumi.
“Who Kouin, who?” Yumi kept asking.
“It was the new guy, Hayashi Jotaru.” Naoki finally admit and Kouin blushed- he knew what would come next.
“Jotaru???” Both yelled.
“You did it on purpose, right Kouin? Admit it, it was no accident.” Yumi took Kouin by the shirt and tried to make him say what she wanted to hear.
“I did not!” I backed off- she could be pretty scary sometimes.
“Oh yes you did, you were jealous of him!” Yumi insisted and grabbed his shirt again.
“Hey back off, I was there and it was an accident.” Naoki came to the rescue.
“Stop that Yumi, I trust Kouin. And if he says it was an accident, then it was. Don’t make such a scene over it.” Kai finally spoke a little sad about what happened.
“Whatever, but I insist you got blindfolds. Maybe you need new glasses Kai?” Yumi though he did it on purpose.
“I don’t care what you think Yumi, all I care is what Kai believes and she believes me, so stop poisoning her over me!” I was so mad at Yumi, she always tried to put a bad word for me in front of Kai, and that was something I couldn’t resist. “Let’s go Naoki, I want to find Yutaka.” Then again…I always wanted to see Yutaka- he was the only one that knew all my secrets, all of them. He even knew about my powers, not even Kai knew that one. So I had to tell him I made it on the team- I guess it was another excuse to see him…I always had one.
“C-Ya Yumi.” We walked away. “Sometimes I ask myself what I see in her anyway.” Naoki, at least, knew Yumi was a pain in the butt.
“You know what, I was going to ask you the same question. I still don’t know why she hates me so much either. We humans are weird.” ‘Am I human?’ We saw Jotaru outside school and I ran to where he was so I could apologize. “Hey Jotaru, wait up!” I yelled.
“What do you want, Captain?” (Really pissed).
“I just want to apologize for…you know.”
“For my nose? You ass hole! Do you think that makes me feel better? Why you were so aggressive in the first place- I don’t even know you.”
“I know…it’s just, that I wanted so bad to be on the team, I got careless.”
“Oh, all right. That for sure is a good reason to broke my nose. Think again! You’ll pay for it, I swear.” Jotaru was so angry. He was very vain and hated to have an injury- especially on his pretty face.
“Man, I say I was sorry.” ‘I couldn’t control my strength! I still can’t control it.’
“Did that fixed my nose? Watch your back Takahashi.”
Jotaru threatened me- can you believed that? He really had no idea what he was saying. “But…” I didn’t understand his attitude- I said I was sorry, but I guess he was right in a way- I didn’t fix his nose with my apologies. But hey! When you play football, you got to know you could get injured!
“He apologized you jerk!” Naoki speak up for his friend.
“Do you also want me to hurt you? I’ll keep it in mind.” Jotaru left without accepting their apologies and thinking of revenge.
“What a jerk! Now I am glad for breaking his nose.” I was a bit angry.
“Wait till Kai hears about it, she won’t like him again. You won man!” Naoki was happy for Kouin.
“I won’t tell her, maybe he was just angry. She’s got to be the one to chose- if he’s that bad, she’ll figure it out.”
“You fool!” Naoki though it was Kouin’s opportunity to get rid of Jotaru.
“Maybe…” Yes, I was a fool, but I don’t like being like that. I like things to take their curse naturally, and not interfere. I wanted her to be happy, even if it wasn’t with me, so I wouldn’t go gossiping about the one she liked. “Let’s go home Naoki.”
“Can I go to your house and play some video games?”
“Sure, you can play with Yutaka…I’ll paint something.”
“You and your paintings! Ok!” ^__^
They played those games for hours and also devoured the cookies I made, but at least I made a nice painting for my art class, it was an angel flying in Heaven. It just came up to my mind and I did it. I felt happy with the result- the angel was beautiful, like Kai Ling.
“What you made Kou?” Yutaka looked at the picture. “Beautiful…is that Kai?”
I blushed. “No! Well…maybe.”
“She’ll like it.”
“No, she won’t see it. I’ll give it to my teacher for a grade.”
“She’ll expose it!”
“No she won’t!”
“Lemme see!” Naoki ran to their side. “OH! SUPER! You are good Kou! Ahh…I envy you Kouin, you are good at everything.”
“No, I’m not!”
“You can draw, you can cook, you are great at sports, all girls like you…”
“Not all…” My face turned sad, not every girl liked me…not the one I loved.
“Hum, don’t be sad Kou! She’ll love you, you’ll see. It’s impossible not to love you Kouin.” Yutaka’s eyes shinned.
“What is that supposed to mean Yutaka?” Naoki looked suspicious.
“Nothing! You said it, Kouin is great!”
I was blushing. I think what came to my head was exactly what Naoki though. But nah, Yuyu wasn’t gay. I knew he wasn’t. Or maybe I didn’t want to see it.
“I’m going…see you guys!” Naoki left.
“Well…I better go too.”
“NO! Yuyu…do you…” ‘Do you love me?’
“What?”
“Nothing…see you tomorrow?”
“Don’t know- I gotta work.”
“Ok. See you then.” I couldn’t ask- it was probably just Naoki’s imagination. We were special, that was all, but sometimes I see a light in his eyes that made me feel so loved, but it scared me because sometimes I felt so attracted to him. So attracted it hurts. And to know for sure if he loved me was something I prefer not to know, so I wouldn’t be so tempted. “Good night Yuyu…”
“Bye!”
He left, and I felt lonely at the same instant he step outside, I wanted to run after him and begged him to stay beside me, but I knew he had to go home with his family. He had a family, it wasn’t his fault I didn’t.
I had a dream about him, yes about him. I was…well, I was making love with him, and it felt so damn good. But I woke up sweating and hurting for the excitement my body felt. “Another cold shower…” I sighed and took a bath, even when it was about 4 in the morning, but I had no choice, or I’ll die of pain. Why I had wet dreams with Yutaka? Why couldn’t I have dreams about Kai Ling? Does that meant something? Or, was I just going insane. The last couple of days I’ve started seeing him often again, and since I came back from my summer vacation, I started having those dreams. He was beautiful, at least in my dream he was. I’ve never seen him naked, even when I would really like to. I’ve see Naoki in the shower at school, but I never stare at him- I wasn’t attracted to him that way, not to any other guy…just to Yutaka. So I made my way back to bed and start having my dreams again.
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