~Alone~

My mind begins to wonder of things,
when the one I'm with is gone.
Without a word or so much as a call,
when is it too long.
Will my guiding light that once shimmered bright,
become a fading glow.
Can my heart withstand another break,
or trust this strangers soul.

I wait almost impatiently,
for His return you see.
For He has promised "Soon, My love"
He will be comming for me.
My heart grasped this mans kindness
and devotion He has shown
for all I deem to need from Him..
He fills each one in full.

"Be patient my dear and know that I am well."
I hear this in the wind.
yet my heart longs and body aches,
a tremendous pain within.
I must end this misery
I have created on my own.
For if it is meant to be,
then soon it will be shown.

So I press my thoughts into brighter things
and prepare my self either way.
I must brush away the negativity,
for if He is to be my Master some day.
I think about all He has said to me,
His guiding words of past.
I think about the good things we have shared
and the good is what will last.

Our time together passes thru my mind
wondering what Iv'e done or said,
for One to have left me here, alone inside my head.
I have to remember that He is here with me,
His voice and direction still heard.
I have to hang on to that till He comes back to me,
or tears will fall instead.

Desperation hidden,
for only a glimps you see..
my darkness and my pain
yet deep inside of me.
my need for trust and truth,
has never gone unsaid.
perhaps one day someone will see
the deeper side of me. 

Insatiable 2003