"You wrote the rules to try and contain me, you broke them now you have untamed me...and I'm wild."
-Poe (Wild)

"Do onto others as you would have them do onto you....no matter how bizzarre."
-My life with the Thrill Kill Kult (Electric Soul Wish Remix)

"This is where I want to be...but I know that this will never be mine......the thrill and the hurting."
-Kate Bush (Never Be Mine)

"Only the one that hurts you, can make you feel better."
-Madonna (Erotica)

"Men who crave power, look back over the mistakes of their lives, pile them together, and call it....Destiny."
-The Sorceress (Goddess) Teela'na

4/27/02:

The Result of a Tarot Reading...

The cold bricks have sheltered my collection of dreams for centuries
Endlessly tending the flowers that blossom delicatly
As the dew sits so softly on their petals
Reflecting my vision only in the reverse of what I see
Allowing me to recognize those things I would miss
Even when I am looking right at them
With the eyes behind my head
But I am yelled at loudly from something
And weep with the words it tells me
For I do not like the laws I am given
By myself
The cold bricks have sheltered my collection of dreams for centuries
Endlessly tending the fruits that glisten from the seed
But no matter how much I tend them
And no matter the colors that shine from the growth
Of green leaves bursting forth the sweet nectar
The law that I deny still stands
For my mind will not let me let go of an idea
That though I have a garden of all things I desire
It isn't a garden becasue
A real garden has the one thing I don't want
A weed
Here, cold bricks have sheltered my collection of dreams for centuries
Endlessly trying to keep these flowers from falling
But they wilt and shrivel with death
Until the season changes again
Choked because one flower won't grow among their numbers
An ugly poisonous flower that stings with nettles
And drips with the painful whip of death
Its aroma chokes the life from those who seek shelter in its pollen
And no bee takes to its pestal
And who would dare eat the honey made from the flower who has no Pity
But instead ensares the fate-hearted dreamers
And the lost.
Cold bricks have sheltered me from my dreams for centuries
And endlessly I damn you fair belladonna blossom
For of all the numbers of flowers I desire
You are the least
But not one blossom will grow, it seems, till I tend to you
And place you in my garden among the roses and aconite
Perhaps you are right Belladonna
And we are meant to be joined in a communion ceremony of wills
But what will can I have if I desire a garden without it being a garden
Like a square without corners it boggles the mind
But I desire it more than anything
Have I no choice other than to kill myself
And submit?

...and the worst thing of all is that you never tell me why.

Dark Cold Wind

Two swords, one over the other
Blades in the ground
And one reads life and one reads death
A man faced down.

A flicker of red blush
A dance of heat
A yellow death sensation
On the horizon I can see
A flamboyant creation

And blows a dry cold wind
Over black desert overhead
With bright rainbow orbs
Leading to what was said.

Dry cold wind, push the hair
And black crow flies
For one is life
And one is death
But two are never satisfied.

Effects of a Diet Program

I'm a tiny little man
and I've fallen down the drain
The water pushe me
but puts things in my way

The hairballs hold me back
The gunk toothpaste grips my hair
and if I don't escape
I may get stuck down here.

I'm drowning in my mouthwash
I've fallen down the drain
and if I keep on falling
I'll miss my Jenny Craig
My fat-free meatloaf shall go bad
and my nutrasweet won't stay
I wish I hadn't shrunk
when I took my diet pill today

Obsession Seraglio (1)

Lost in a kiss
I am stolen in passion
My obsession touches me again
Sening lightning to the earth through my spine
I feel for it
And my mind spins
The ecstatic wave
Brushes my body like tidal
And I am moved to a shore
Of pitch ebony sand
I awoke under the cold night
Black above and black below
My nakedness is felt
But I am unashamed
It is only my dream
That I can't fear
Or else it is to there
I could not escape

Black Ebony of the Soul

Said Zues to Ganymede
So to have I sung
A wicked word
Upon forked tongue
The darkness that curls in the back of the mind
Is a potent wish
By Saturn divine
Wrought as a blessing
Given as a curse
Fear not the power
Lend it to Nurse
Heed not its bidding
Learn what you can
Optimistically speaking
...it can be good to damn...
By Yin there is Yang
Though often ignored
Don't fall for the trap
That has come before
In Ganymede's Heart
Their is a gift
A priest of Saturn
Caught on death's drift
Of Charon's Sail
So land by the shore
Come to Earth
Water's vision
Make real only the fantasy of before

Obsession Seraglio (Version 2 a.k.a. True Version)

I am a prisoner in pretty lace
sunken eyes and a pretty face
that corset tight around your ribs
is sending me into electric fits
you move like satin on a silken bed
your legs caress around my head
with boots higher than your stilleto heels
yet you are going to fall in a dizzy wiz
The next one now in this harem room
is bound up tight and fairly consumed
her passion is brighter than the sun and moon
and my pity is comparable to a soping broom
She'll try and eat like babylon
and hunt me down until I'm gone
a victim of her pharmacy
until I'm drunk on her harmony
but until than she'll sit and weep
while I plot to keep her far from me
her venom's sweet but I deny
Belladona cries and dies
Followed in line by a maiden fair
with hair a shade of ruby rare
a fiery lassy with wicked wit
we'll play our games and skinny dip
and romp around a romper's room
until she is blinded and consumed
her playfulness is all but lies
and I played along to a pretend comprimise
not one among this seraglio
can match the dreams that I can't let go

homophobic techno puppy
(This is non-sensicle)

bump bump bump
baseline
bump bump bump
move it
bump bump bump
to the music
bumb
ah-ah-ahahahah
bump
ah-ah-ahahahah
bu-
bu-
bump
groovin' in the system
bumpbumpbump
pushing with the power
bump bump bump
miss the realization
bump bump bump
surrounded by the flowers
bump bump bump

...hold it...

Reek Havoc
--to the system--
bump...
...bump
--to the system--
and you move it all the way
bump (bump)..
...bump bump...
twisting and grooving
((--to the system--))bump bump bump
in that homophobic techno puppy way!
bump bump bump
See the shiney willows
trsht trsht trump
and miss the....
--ah ah ah ah ah---
trsht trsht trump
homophobic techno puppy
bump bump (bu-)bump
You have just got to stay
kesh-kaaa kesh-kaaaa
lightning
bump bump bump
in the
bump
thunder
bump kristch
techno puppy wonder
..."They said it couldn't happen"...
who said
who said
who "said it couldn't happen"
to you
homophobic techno puppy