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Paisley's Journal
February 8, 2000

The Adventures of Paisley Blue
One of my philosophies of life is that every day is a new adventure. So far I have not been disappointed in that. Yesterday CB signed up with a temporary agency that told him to show up at 6:30 am and he would go to work, plus get paid the same day. Well, sounds good so far. He did go to work for eight hours in a chicken plant. Here in Fort Smith, Arkansas, chicken factories abound. One fact of life about working in such an environment is that by the time you come home you smell like chicken. I'm not talking about the mmm-mmm-good smell of fried chicken, either. He was so tired... I just hugged him and suggested he might enjoy a nice hot bath. [grin]

I spent several hours of my time today signing up with another temporary agency. This one has a lot of ads in the paper, so I figured they might be able to put me to work. I tested better than I ever had before. My typing was 100 words per minute, and my alpha-numeric data entry was over 15,000 keystrokes per hour. They said it should not be difficult to find me a position somewhere. I am very hopeful about this. Sometimes it surprises me how survival and paying the rent occupies so much brainpower.

Yesterday my parents picked me up and took me to the grocery store while CB was out looking for work. After shopping, we made a trip to my sister's home in the next town, where we ate lunch and I did a load of laundry. While there my parents announced they had decided to sell their home and move back into Fort Smith. This was devastating to my sister for so many reasons I cannot even go into them.

This morning when I spoke with Mom on the phone, she said Dad had changed his mind again and does not want to leave his li'l country home. The fact of the matter is that they are both getting on, both are disabled, and they really need one of us kids around to help take care of them. My sister and her husband want to help care for them but right now her hubby is in college... and they are not able to do a great deal beyond survive. One of my brothers lives across the street from Mom and Dad, and he helps them out a lot. He has put up a For Sale sign in his yard, though, and this influenced my parents decision to move. After all, if he's not around, who would help them...?

There is no telling what will eventually happen here.

I told my mother that I understood the emotions on all sides but in the end they need to do what is best for them. In my heart, I hope she understands this is how I live my life, too. I am just doing the best for myself with the decisions I make about how I choose to live my life. For a long time I followed everybody's rules, doubting my own ability to make good decisions. I've spent a lot of time learning how to listen to my intuition... with CB's encouragement I'm even more confident and happy. [silly i'm-in-love grin]

Just a mere three years ago I was a hermit, truly agoraphobic and did not leave my house except to go to the doctor and occasionally run to the store. I had a wonderful shrink who helped me emerge from that prison. Some day I'll tell about that, too... but for right now, Paisley's Journal is about what I'm going through right now, my feelings while going through it, and all the other stuff that runs around inside my brain.

~Paisley Blue

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