| Sunday, November 3rd, 2002
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 5:42a - Thank all yalls Went on a bit of a bender last night. I didn't really have too much to do (at least,nothing that interested me). Combine the two and it means i crawled into bed and passed out @ 2100. So now I'm awake again. Blue balls.. I'm home again. She's 5000 miles away again. I'm incredibly cynical and hopeless about love again. I'm smoking again. I'm wrapped in the comfort of my blue bath robe again. I got my first cell phone yesterday. Me. of all people. a cell phone. I've never gotten one because i've never felt the need...i don't have enough friends to really warrant it. D got a new phone and had his prepaid model still so he handed it off to me -- I've been remarkably hard to get a hold of ever since I let my feelings for the girl known to her... D asked me how my trip was and i struggled to paint the right picture. I found myself having to defend her actions. Blue balls.. that comprised a good amount of joking. I got off the plane and we headed out to see some Okinawan style bull fighting (pix to follow) and some other things...which was really a good idea because it shocked me back into life here. Otherwsie I was afraid of becoming a sodden, grumpy recluse. I have some paper "airport" entries from my traveling journal to post in a few days. I have some pictures of her that I am not postiong. I'm reserving them for myself. sorry. I have about 30 new (well, new to me) CDs but I haven't felt the urge to put any of them in the CD player. Funny that... I want to thank all of you dear readers for your words of support, encouragement, and advice in the last several days. I haven't felt up to the task of replying to any of them -- don't take it personally...i honestly do appreciate it. current mood: awake
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