5:14p 
So...if last new years set the tone for 2002, I hope this new year's eve follows suit. I had a wonderful time last night -- I hooked up with D and Steve and we went out about 10PM, playing pool till about 2AM. At the first pool hall we were given champaigne (technically...sparkling white wine...it was from California, not Champaigne, France) to celebrate...it was the first drink I'd had in four weeks. I figured, due to the occasion, I could have a small bit. Yeah...i was actually buzzing for about ten seconds or so. Lol. That's not to say I'm going to start drinking again for a while though...

I had camel cigarettes to remind me of corniecorn.

We played doubles with one of the girls working at the hall...it was great fun...even if steve and I got our asses handed to us...i played like shit at that place.

I, did, however, play some DAMN fine pool at the second place we stopped in at...winning all but one one on one game out of like i think it was seven?

D had a bit too much to drink and I stayed at his room for a bit when we got back...just to make sure he was going to be OK. He had some things he wanted to talk about...his own issues...and talking with him made me realize that I may be further along the road to my own recovery than I had hoped...I talked to him about how sometimes our perception of reality is twisted, and how everyone's actions are not neccessary a reflection on our own self worth. I don't know if he even remembers that discussion given his state though...

I left him around 3AM and came home to putz around the net. Last month I managed to only go over my allotted hours by four so i splurged a bit and have stayed online since then downloading and chatting and surfing...

Today I went on an *amazing* dive...saw some really beautiful soft coral on a few new (to me) reefs at Sunabe. We ran into a school of baracuda...and normally they skiddaddle the second they see you near them, but these guys hung around for quite some time...even as we swam right up next to them. Also saw a HUGE lion fish...he was probably about four feet long -- even taking into consideration things look bigger u/w. I found a cool shell too...normally I'm of the mindset that what is in the sea should stay in the sea...but like the conch shell I found back in october...i couldn't resist the momento to mark today.

On the way home I saw this hilarious "clean up after your dog" sign. It had this cute little japanese anime-esque picture of a dog. I'll try to remember to go back and get a picture. I also stopped at a Hot Spar (one of the several mini-mart chains in Japan) and picked up some Pocky Sticks and a bento box for dinner...good stuff my friends...very good stuff.

And now I'm here, in my room, listening to Neil Young. Given the nature of many of this album's songs...I am surprised I can really even listen to it...i think I am finally getting over katrina. Time has helped. not reading her journal or contacting her has helped. not drinking has helped. Dr. Young has helped. letters written but later burnt has helped. IM with all of you that have been gracious enough to chat has helped *tremendously*. I'm not strong enough to say goodbye unless she does first...not quite yet...but I'm not afraid of her decision anymore. I'll have relapses still, I'm sure...but just as I weathered the recent one...I will weather the ones to come.

It's been a really wonderful year so far. Hell...I might even tempt the fates by saying that I feel sort of happy right now. Here's to 2003...what I see being potentially the best year of my life. 

current mood:  content
current music: Neil Young _Are you Passionate_ 

happy new year, love.

rainingvodka 
2003-01-02 20:21
:)

*hugs* and a happy new year to you my wonderful friend.
 

taliana 
2003-01-02 10:29 
*hugs* 
 

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