I suppose the title implies a long entry...SORRY!. Too much on mind to write coherently about it just now + I wanted to upload some recent poetry so this'll get short shift tonight.

Jen got robbed at gun point last night at Denny's 1 mile from her home in Fresno...luckily is safe and secure with her possessions found intact just outside the resteraunt...that cup from Maui takes on a whole new appearance now.

"Somewhere over the rainbow" (TA) there is a world free from shit like that.

I have a midterm tommorrow

I realized now post suicidal intention is *not* a good time to try to quit smoking.

I asked Christa out much more formally tonight by email (pussy!).

The school server had been tweaky and I've probably lost a few emails cuz they bounced.

Got my pictures back from Maui and even a couple of the live concert shots turned out (whick quite honestly shocked me...I thought the $12 on that disposable, waterproof, non flash camera would be good only for the scenic shots of Iao Valley.

I'm forcing myself to smile and it's helping.

I told Liz why I hadn't cleaned the apt yet (I did so this evening afer she left a note about it) I told her it wasn't that she mentioned it that pissed me off, just that it wasn't face to face. I told her I was post suicidal and apologized that I didn't feel comfortable talking to her about it (either a really good friend or near stranger is good for that--she is neither)

Goodnight.