EGADs it was COLD this morning....I couldn't getta outt bed and even snuggled up underneath the covers I wasn't all toasty warm...
I suppose I could pyschoanalyze that and say I'm starting to feel more and it's like awakeing from a long slumber of dead emotion...but the more likely story is that it was just fucking COLD.

I wanna go back to Maui *pout*.

Christa took me up on the idea of dinner :)

She puts *a lot* of smileys in her email...i shoulda figgered she's the type to do so...very cheery girl usually.

Took a break from studies and finished _Ender's Game_ by Orson Scott Card last night...good book...hovering just beyond meaningless pulp and a very easy read.

*Yawn* If there's one thing that sux to high heaven about being broke more than anything, it's not being able to afford good coffee. Maxwell House is slag. The bottom of a pot of slag, where the grounds soaked through a bit, is dirt. But it's hot, and it's caffeine, and it's another ritual to observe to get me into the day.

Right now I'm feeling something pretty damn close to *happiness*. Amazing how a simple afirmation of a simple question can do that. If things work out here, it'll be the first "real" relationship I've ever had. Scary thought at 22.

Fred Couples didn't date until he was 23 (or something like that)...but then, he married his first girlfriend and she turned out to be a bitch, taking all his money in the divorce. Somehow I don't think I have to worry about Christa either being a bitch *or* stealing all my money (i've got none to steal *anyway*!)

No Meatloaf, life is *not* a lemon but I could still use some money back...

Now, If I had a donut...then life would be lookin' *really* good. :)

I have steel toe boots, something I made a huge fuss over when looking for new boots several months back. What do I use that great little strip of steel for? Kicking open/holding open/wedging open doors. That's essentially it. I haven't been able to rock climb in months and months, and who knows if I ever will again despite all the gear I have...at least I can manipulate my environment with my feet just as much as my hands...it's scant comfort to be told I have a large "wing span" Heh GTF in a rental car with the back windows rolled down...sorry, thaz a loaded term i haven't explained and don't feel inclined to bother doing so either. sorry, that's life. We can't always understand everything...somethings you just gotta let be...

So tommorrow it's Chinese Food with Christa...I can only play this one by ear and see where it goes. It was important she knew I do online journaling I figured, so I showed her my page. Let her think of this as she will (hi Christa!)...if she's uncomfortable with her name here, it's a bad sign for any possible relationship. I'm planning on goig to bed early tonight and sleeping late...I think I deserve it...i'm tired.

So all in all, things are starting to look up for me...amazing how quick this turn around seems to be taking place...makes me wonder just why I was so hopeless as to plan the end if things could get this much better this quickly...Perhaps it's divine intervention.