Pitchshifter 07.15.98
08.21.98
9:42PM
It's been a week since my last confession...
Um yeah, I don't know why the religious overtone, although journalling, when done honestly, really is an extended confession I suppose...everyone has *something* they've hidden or *know* is wrong...
The last few days have been hectec...four shows in six days. Brian Setzer, Tricky, Jeremy Toback & Superdrag, Tool...next week is two more Tool shows, back to back. For the first three, I had to work a half day before the show, and the last one, I had a 2.5 hour drive...
All in all though, Reno was a blast. Checked into the
hotel, sewed up my pack and April and Ed showed up scant moments later.
Browsed the casinos, blew some change on vid poker, gabbed and caught up
with all. Lunch/dinner at Carrows. Lucked out in that the hotel was just
blocks from the Livestock Events Center where the show was held, and just
a few blocks from the casinos also. I had no idea, it was the only hotel
in Reno I could use that free night at...The show was great, although the
crowd sucked, talking a lot and this huge pit opened just yards away...the
venue had the crappiest sound too...despite it the tape came out OK...better
than I had any right to get under such conditions I suppose...Ed got knocked
by a fucking mosher ten minutes into the set and, unbeknowst to him then,
it kicked his deck out of record, and after all the anxiey he had about
getting through what amounted to be a ***thorough*** body search...the
man has had just the hellest of times recording lately, digi silence, getting
caught, tapes getting shredded in his deck...good thing my tape turned
out, who knows if any other tapers were present.
April saw her real father for the first time in nearly
4 years yesterday I suppose...Hope things all went well. I got to know
her a lot better than that day we met up for the Pumpkins show...and she
came out and asked me if Christa and I "hooked up" which surprised me.
I hadn't expected it but it was a legitimate question, so I told her we
didn't but that I was OK about it. At this point in fact, I'm almost releaved
we didn't...it would have made leaving for the army harder if we had.
I was listening to _Harvest Moon_ by Neil Young on delivery
today...it was getting kind of depressing while reflecting on my bachelordom...In
some ways, I hope I meet someone while I'm in the army, in some ways not...
Ed told me he's planning to start up a small underground press and I'm excited for him, and to become a small part of it with him. I like the man too much to just relegate our friendship to an occasional meeting for a show, and I said as much...
My cousin Tracy called while I was gone. She's living
in Concord now, just 20 miles away, and wants to get together. I need to
give her a call...definitely gotta spend some time together before I leave...
Becca's news? Josh has herpes and now she does too...It
didn't really shock me too much, because I was kind of expecting the news
to be something of that sort...call it a sixth sense. So now, on top of
all the moral reasons, I have another reason to be glad we didn't have
sex...
Dad really appreciated what I did for the yard and I think it did smooth things over a bit. I just don't want him to be dissapointed in me. I don't want him to ever wonder 'where he went wrong'...
Lost $35 or so in Reno. $30 playing blackjack, some $5 or so in change at the vid poker/slots. I was actually doing alright at the blackjack table, until the dealers hanged then I started losing much more often than winning...Ed won about $15 playing roulette
Misha the cat's laying just behind me as I type, eager for any kind of loving. Mom and Dad went out tonight I guess...gone when I got home, they're still not back.....
Currently finishing off my second Gordon Biersch Pilsner. It's been so long since I've had a beer, about two weeks...I hit the store up after my last delivery longing for good brew--San Jose microbrewery...
Mom and Dad just got home...spent a few minutes chatting about nothing special...what most of my conversation with them seems to be sadly...we're all tired from a long day when we see each other usually...
10:30PM
Tool 08.19.98