Entry 9: August 19, 2002: Hello, welcome to another edition of the Weekly(?) Brainscan. I should really think about changing the first part of that title, unless you considered an update once every four months weekly.
Well there has been a reason why I haven't updated the past few months. I finally got a girlfriend and most of my time has been spent with her. Between working at the Tobacco Shop and hanging with my new girlfriend, I haven't had time for many other things. I had a few moments today though, so I thought I add an update in the Brainscan.
You see, I never had much luck with girls while growing up. I had a few relationships here and there but none of them lasted past a few weeks with one of them lasting a few months but I didn't really like the girl and I went away to Penn State during that relationship and didn't break it off with her until a couple months later. I am very shy when it comes to girls. I can flirt with them but when it comes to actually stepping up and asking them out, I always freeze. When I was little, I wasn't the coolest person around. I wore big ass glasses and had messy hair and talked with a speech impediment. I was easily labeled a geek and even though I got rid of the glasses and fixed the hair and don't talk as bad as I used to, I still saw myself as this little kid I once was, so I thought that pretty girls still saw the same. I always ended up in the friend zone with most girls I tried to persue, so you can imagine my surprise when I found that a pretty girl liked me as much as I liked her. Both of us have never been happier then we have been the last 3 months. I finally understand how it was for my friends when they got a girlfriend and then I wouldn't see them again until they broke up. All you want to do once you get a girlfriend is spend all your time with her because that time spent is so great. I always kid with my brother that when I got a girlfriend that I wouldn't change my habits that much as much as my brother changed his when he met Sue. Well, you know what? I find that I want to change myself for the better just for Kasey. I'm ready to grow up now and move on with my life. If I could only find a good paying job, my immediate future will be all set.
I just got back from Wildwood last night where I spent the weekend with Kasey. It was a great time and was sorely needed having been working long ass hours at the Tobacco Shop at MacDade Mall. Now I don't mind the long hours as much. It's just the fact that I have to do these hours at MacDade Mall, the looney nuthouse of Delaware County. Anyway, this was my first time going away with a girlfriend. We slept in this trailer house that her friend's mom owns. It was nice for a trailer but didn't leave you much room to maneuver. Luckily they built an inside porch as an addition to the trailer and there was plenty of room there to be able to stretch out and watch TV and eat, etc. We went to the Boardwalk and I swear, SpongeBob Squarepants bought up the place because everywhere you walk, that is all you see is SpongeBob Squarepants merchandise. Well being that this show is my new favorite cartoon, I had to win one of the plush dolls for myself. Well spending way more money than I ever should have for a SpongeBob, I finally won one. It probably would have been easier to just go to the store next store and buy it but what would have been the fun in that. Anyway, it was an enjoyable weekend and I got to spend it with the girl I love. I guess I owe Smokin' my life now for this and he's already said as much to me.
Well that's all for this time around. Who knows when I'll update again but I will soon. See you next time.
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