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On 1 January 2003 I gave myself to my Husband. What? If you're his wife aren't you already his? Well, legally we were already joined but this goes deeper than a civil ceremony. It also redefines what our relationship is. I truly belong to my Husband. He is completely responsible for me.

Over the next several months I posted my thoughts, insights, fears, and joys as we journied further into the Lifestyle. I haven't necessarily written this for any grand purpose. I simply enjoy putting my thought to paper (metaphorically speaking). If you find what I write is disturbing to you or you find anything offensive here, please leave. Otherwise, welcome to Anneliese's submission.

February 15, 2003
I've uploaded my "BDSM Checklist" which compares my views on various activities before I became Joseph's "whatever" and how I viewed them a month later. It's interesting reading. Some limits remain the same while others have changed greatly or disappeared entirely.

March 22, 2003
I've updated my "BDSM Checklist". It continues to amaze me that my likes and dislikes have changed so much. My husband and I have been settling in to our new lifestyle and acquiring some toys. I originally thought that I would only like "light thuddy" things. Go figure! Come to find out I like an entire range of sensations from the multiple bite/sting of a cat o' nine tails to the deep thud of a small club. Sheesh!

It still scares me that I like pain so much. I keep worrying that either this amazing new depth to our relationship will disappear overnight or I'll wake up one day, totally bonkers. I'd like to extend a heartfelt "thank you" to all the folks at the various munches I've attended over the last two months. Your patience, kindness, and willingness to share, have made this transition much more comfortable for me. Special thanks to Uncle Abdul for providing such helpful information on his web site I'm getting a real charge out of his articles.

March 2003
Happy Birthday to me!
On a more somber note: My sympathy and prayers go out to all those who have lost loved ones in the current war in Iraq. I doubt I'll be writing much for the duration.

April 2007
Yep, that was quite a gap in time. I'm definately not the chatty type. I guess I won't be publishing my diary any time soon <wry grin>. There's nothing much that's changed over the years except how I feel about various types of play. Since this changes depending on both my husband's and my moods, health, the time of year, the weather, and maybe even the phase of the moon, I've given up on maintaining a detailed checklist. I've condensed it [here] to Hard Limits, Soft Limits, Might Be Fun, and Oh, YES!. I've also add some movie stills that caused my husband and me to do double takes when we saw the film on Turner Classic Movies.

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