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Now
I know I have a heart because it's breaking
Saturday, May 18, 2002
had lunch at raffles town club yesterday and it was great, YuMMy and went for coffee at taka for a short while before heading out to meet the rest of the guys. it was nice meeting siris again and had a few nice chat with him yesterday. though yesterday was kind of boring but few of us did enjoy ourselves during the nite time cos of the pool and drinking session. we smuggled a few cans of beer into the pool place. tipsy tipsy and blah nonsense..haha..almost fall aslept in the cab. saw dear sign in msn when i jus on my pc and had a great chat with him on msn and we shift our chat to phone, i was surprise that he's been a good boy man, was a friday NIte le... haaha..bOys..u never know them..
Friday, May 17, 2002
morning everyone..finally i manage to catch a few hours Zzzz. woke up with a smiling face, guess everything finally cool down liao but think it would last long as i'm too emotional liao..i'm crazy.wacko i would say. going out for lunch soon.. bye
Thursday, May 16, 2002
raise n shine my Foot..crawling back to bed soon. Had not chat with a friend for sometimes and was delighted to recieve his email n call. we will get to meet up soon. anyway i jus downloaded the song that i heard from backdoor_radio last nite. hey ice, check this song out. click here to listen Blurry. tell me wat u think of this song. as for me, i find the lyrics very real. ehy...today blog gt mistake le...those who spot my sala words...dun LUAGH..... cant edit now..once touch.. the time will change too.
5.10 am and why am i still not in bed? ...... i know he is very miserable and i cant do anything. It's all coming back to him.. and he feel that he is going to break down soon. as for me, it breaks my heart to see him in this state n is a sad thing that i cant lighten his burden. i dun think i wanna say too much also..a piece of advise is given to him, the final desicision lies on him. Siris n Faye is here with me in backdoor radio and it reminds me of the good old days that #3ofus(me,Morrisey,Jeff) once had. sometimes i wish time could stop, or if possible, bring me back to the past where by i can prevent my misery from happening..or maybe bring the time a few hrs back whereby he dun step out of his house..i dun know.. i mean whatever happen already happen. shall stop now and siris is playing this Puddle of Mudd - Blurry rite now, Nice song.
somehow, i gt this feeling that i screw up the html codes over here again.Jus dun feel right. mood was rather down lately maybe it was due to PMS, u never know how miserable it is...unless u are a girl.haha...oh boy, i miss him so much. wish he could spend more time with him.haha, as usual, taking one day as it comes.. and damnz.. i kick my last toe again, isnt it weird, everytime ganna also the same last toe, can feel the nail coming out again soon(already gt blue-black there for a long time) if i kick it one more time.. why huh? *scratch head. gonna have a late nite again, enjoy tuning in to backdoor radio. keep me accompany all day n nite. Backdoor radio ROcks!
Wednesday, May 15, 2002
Rescue me from the mire Whisper words of desire Rescue me - darling rescue me With your arms open wide Want you here by my side Come to me - darling rescue me When this world's closing in There's no need to pretend Set me free - darling rescue me I don't wanna let you go So I'm standing in your way I never needed anyone like I'm needin' you today Do I have to say the words? Do I have to tell the truth? Do I have to shout it out? Do I have to say a prayer? Must I prove to you how good we are together? Do I have to say the words Rescue me from despair Tell me you will be there Rescue me - darlin' rescue me Every dream that we share Every cross that we bear Come to me - darlin' rescue me... - Do i Have To Say de Words - listen to the lyrics..speak my inner soul.
Tuesday, May 14, 2002
done n try out a few things today for my site. signed up 2 kewl things for my blog thanks to buddy, btw, have u guys check out his site yet? well, try putting up mp3 for my main homepage and damn, the loading screw up everything. funny though is i wasnt very piss off with it. Suddenly i feel so sick of everything. i actually changed at least 5 mood icons today.. fill up with mixed feelings.. unloved,unwanted,vexed,confused,unmotivated...is this what we known as MONday blue? awww.... feel so bitter. i wont say why i feel so vexed.. dun wan to dampen others mood. here comes another story of de day, was in a hurry cos i didnt know my friends were actually on their way to my area. rush like siao but that 2 jokers make me 4gotten my fustrations. hehee.. i cover my ear when they tok...ghost stories used to be my fav, but dun know why i gt timid recently.
Sunday, May 12, 2002
very gian to see ppl riding on the road. everytime gt the urge to go book timing but always hold back by the fear. i have doubts in myself after going for 2 times praticals lesson and still struck in partical 1. anyway, i wont give up. bike is my passion, i doubt that this passion in me will ever die off. yes, sad to say but is true that i have stopped going for lesson.. but remember, i'll be back cos is a pain to see people around me succeeding. i am hanging in de air now cos i trying to overcome the phobia. really appreciate to all the biker friends who helps and give me tips on handling a bike, i sure put them into good use, dun worry. been buggin me for sometimes...can i really do it? now is still too early to tell... Yesterday i was late for the pool session due to time constrain. had a enjoyble day there. i was impressed by George skills, he's good.. everyone was on form yesterday i would say. *winkwink. went makan at alexandra village, pretty yummy though waited for 1 hr. their business seems to be doing very big, check out their site. wonder i gt $$ 4 doing a free ad? lol. doesnt matter, can eat is fortune.. i having a very jia lat mood swing lately, i feel unwanted in someway. haaa.. no wan to comment much on this. may god bless all with love. 
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